I don't belong here.

Nora's P.O.V

Later that day , Matt had to go studio , so i was alone, after my outburst earlier this morning, i couldn't stand to be alone, so i called Alex. Even though she came down to see me, she has spent most of her time with Zacky. She was supposed to be here for only for a short time, she' been here for about 2 months now, she keeps putting off going home to her bakery, think that might have something to do with a certain Mr. zacky V. I called her up and she was over so quick. Since all the lads had gone to the studio, she had been in zacky's house alone, still sleeping when he left i expect.

We were now sat outside smoking and drinking coffee, she looked tired, well to be honest we both did, last night was a hell of a night, and it was clear that both of us were delicate today.

"So didn't think to tell me that you and Matt are a couple?" Shit i knew i forgot something, but thought they had all guessed so didn't feel like i needed to explain things. "Ahh yeah, well it happened so quickly, then dad was down, and you and Zack were busy, then last night you all kinda guessed so thought there were no need to explain" She smiled and poured the rest of her coffee in the plant pot of pansies beside her "Thanks just kill my flowers while your at it" she looked at me and shrugged her shoulders "Thats what you get for not telling me first" she laughed as i jokingly punched her arm, didn't realize how hard i had punched, it didn't hurt her as such just made her lose her balance on the lounger and she fell off, taking the lounger with her, and the plant pot full of coffee. It was very entertaining to watch, but now soil was everywhere, but i couldn't stop to clean it up, we were both now on the floor keeled over , pissing our selves. this was a nice change of mood, considering how i was earlier.

"Hey what about we get up off of the floor, and go out for some food?" Alex stood there whilst i was still a wreck on the patio, she was covered in soil, it was a sight, a very entertaining one. "Yeah sure". We gathered our stuff, tidied up, I chucked on some black jeans, my leather jacket and a skid row t-shirt and tied my hair up in a bun and wore black aviators to hide my bloodshot eyes. Alex wore grey ripped jeans and white vest top, with a red leather jacket and black converse, matching ones to mine, brushed her hair through and put some make-up on, once we were down we headed out the door and headed to town. We found a nice little bistro and sat outside in the sun with
drinks, mine just a j20 and Alex's a large white wine, "Cheers my dears" and our glasses clinked. It was nice to be free from the drama, from the thought of either Nikki or Adam, even the thought of the lads were out of my head, having a drink with Alex like this was like the old days, i missed her so much, and the fact that she is only here for a trip, means she will be going home soon , but to be honest none of us knew when, and i was curious to know.

"So Alex, when you going home darling?" she peered from above her glasses and just looked at me weirdly.

"Why not enjoying presence, darling?" she said mocking me because ive called her darling since forever, something my mum used to say, i guess i picked it up.

"Nah, its not that, i love you being here, i don't want you going back, but the bakery must be needing you, shouldn't it?"

She took a big gulp of her wine and sighed, why did i have feeling like she was about to tell me something that we may need something stronger to drink to accompany this. She started tapping her fingers on the table, something she always did when she was nervous about something "Lex, just spit it out" she sighed again, guess this was hard for her.

"There is no bakery, well not anymore there isn't.."

"what? why? what happened".

"There was rarely any business, so no money was coming in, i was getting into debt, then an offer came up to by me out , i took the offer, its now a pawn shop i think, i got money, paid my debts off, but i miss it, i also don't wanna go back home because the apartment manager is a fucking creep, he pervs on children and the amount times i have caught him staring at me, urggh just hate it" She sighed again, it was like was ashamed of what happened, she necked the rest of her wine then ordered another one.

"Why didn't you tell me?, i could of helped, dad could of helped"

"I was ashamed of my failure, didn't want you to think any less of me" I took her hand that was resting on the table and held in mine. "Why would i ever think that, we have all had failures happen, its okay to fail or make a mistake, but now you say that i wanna ask you a question, might help lighten the mood" She looked up and smiled "Yeah sure, go ahead".

"If your landlord is a perv, and the bakery is now selling cheap junk, what have you got back home, its obvious you are happy here, why don't you move in with me , stay in the spare room permanently, then next week we'll go pick up your stuff but then again a doubt there is much left considering the amount you brought here in the first place, so what do u think? wanna be house buddies?"

Alex literally jumped from here seat, pulling me up from mine and pulled me into a hug "Ahh thank-you, god i love you, this is going to be so much fun" She sat me back down and we had ordered more wine. "We need to find you a job, i could have a look at my place if u want? then we can go get your stuff, doubt you have much there anywhere".

"Yeah about that, we don't need to go back, ive got all my stuff already with me..." She looked to the floor, i grabbed hold of her hand and leaned in close to Alex "I know, you think that after knowing for all these years that i wouldn't know when all your stuff is with you, you never have that much, as long as you have your drum kit your set, don't worry i still love you all the same ". We finished our drinks then went shopping, we bought new clothing, i bought new underwear to wear for Matt, red and black lace, i always loved lace, and apparently so does he but he also has a habit of ripping the lace, oops. We bought some nice things to put in Alex's room now she was moving in , so she could make it her own. We were walking down the high-street, just gossiping about the boys, mainly zacky, i was curious to know about what the heck was going on between them two but all Alex would say would be either - We're just really close - or - i guess we will have to just wait and see - could never seem to get a straight answer out of her, bless her, it was clear she liked him, she would blush even by the slight mention of his name.

"Before we go anywhere else i need to pop to the drug store, need to pick something up" Alex turned to me and looked at me strangely "Something else you forgot to tell me?" She knelt down and rubbed her hand on my stomach, i Brushed her hand away "No! if you really wanna know i need to pick up my pill prescription to prevent any of that sought happening" She laughed and gave me puppy dog eyes, just like what Jimmy would do if you didn't pass the bottle of jack when he asked, it was cute but would eventually get on your nerves "But i want a baby, not mine of course don't fancy pushing a watermelon out of me, but one to cuddle and play with then give back at the end of the day" i just laughed, typical Alex. "Nah no baby Sanders any time soon, so don't hold your breath!" "So it will be a baby Sanders then, not a baby Haner then?" she winked at me, i bit my lip then flipped her off as we walked into the drug store.

We entered the drug store, it was quite empty so it be easy to get in and get out. The quickest way to get to the prescription counter is to go through through the prenatal aisle, the one with pregnancy test, prenatal vitamins, condoms etc, now i just feel odd walking down here since Alex just thought i was knocked up, awkward. As we walking down, i stumble into another person, i looked up and saw it was Nikki, eh? Her face was a picture, almost like a rabbit caught in headlights. She stood there, saying nothing, she was holding something in her hand, i looked down and saw three pregnancy tests. Holy shit!! Has Brian just done what i think he's done, if there positive, Nikki will never leave us alone, i mean him alone. She made a hasty exit to the till then out the store, ah shits going to hit the fan, do i tell Brian, or wait for him to find out on his own?

I decided to leave it and grab my prescription, when we exited the store, we were silent, both me and Alex were shocked by what we have just seen. We were heading to my car when my phone went off. I answered it and it was Matt.

"Hey babe, whats up?"

"Hey..umm..i need to see you"

"I'm out with Alex at the moment, but you staying over tonight i guess, bring the lads with you as well they can stay if they want , then we can do whatever you wish, i brought you something which i think you'll like" he chuckled but then went serious again, something was up.

"Okay great can't wait but that's not why i phoned, i got a package sent to the studio earlier, it involves you, its creepy, please get home quickly then stay inside and lock the door, ill text you when im at yours"

"Matt what was it? your scaring me now"

"Please no questions just trust me , please i love you, just do as i say, ill be over soon"

"Okay bye love you too"

"Bye"

I don't know what that was about but my gut feeling was telling me Adam had done something, and lately its getting worse, i was getting scared, not only for my safety, but for Matt's, Brian's, everyone's, i know Adam inside and out, i know he would hurt anyone just to get at me.

Notes

hope you like, im trying to shorten the time between each updates for you guys, please as always i am open to suggestions for chapters or story lines so don't be scared, i dont bite, and please comment about this chapter, always helpful, thanks x