I don't belong here.

Brian's P.O.V

Me and Jimmy had hit a couple of bars, clubs, strip clubs so far this evening, the drinks had been flowing and this was when i realized how much i had missed Jimmy, the lads, everyone. With the amount of shots we had both taken, they were sure to leave us both with bad heads in the morning, but i loved this, but the only thing missing was our family, i have seriously screwed things up, the lads now hate me and Nora wouldn't listen to me if i tried, she was just that sought of woman, and with Alex by her side, i would never get a word in.

I was a jerk, i should of pushed Nikki away the minute i linked two and two together, but Jimmy was right, i only thought of myself, that's all i ever thought about and i was doing that right now sitting in this strip club, necking back a whiskey with a wide mouth Jimmy sat beside me as two barely dressed woman gave us lap dances. Jimmy's girl was a redheaded girl dressed in black leather and silver, whereas as my lady was dark, Latina , dressed in red, with a devilish smile to match. Every bump and grind, made me twitch, increasing the growing hard on between my legs. I was being selfish once again, Nikki was being a bitch lately and she had walked out once again earlier when Jim came round, but then i was being a jerk to her sitting here with this girl. They were right , im a mess and im so selfish, but damn this girl looks good on me, damn it Brian keep it together!!

I grabbed Jimmy and headed out the door, a bar probably would be better for me than a strip club. We heeded to a bar down the street from the strip club, a bar us lads tend to end up when we go out. We entered the bar, and it was packed, just the way we liked it , the music was loud and it was time to get fucked on the cheap shots! We practically ran for the bar " Two Tequila slammer's mate!!" jimmy bellowed at the bartender , now he was at the stage of drunk that he thought shouting to everyone was the appropriate volume when talking to them. The bartender handed us the shots, 2 wedges of lime and some salt. We then licked the back of our hands, shook the salt on the wet patches and licked the salt off, necked the shot, then bit hard into the lime wedges "Yikes!! Sour!!" Jimmy just laughed "Can't handle a bit of sourness eh Gates? Have you seen your new Mrs?!" Jimmy swayed as he said this, poking at my chest as he finished his statement, typical Jimmy "yes Jim i have, but you haven't seen what she is like in bed, now that's the best part!" We cheered and repeated the tequila shot process again "Ahh!!" i watched as this time the sourness affected Jim, ive never seen him screw his face up so much in all the time ive known him, but believe me it was a picture "2 more shots my good man" i ushered the bartender and awaited these fine drinks, he quickly arrived with them and placed them in front of us. Before we could knock them back , my attention was drawn to a loud collection of laughter behind us, at the other end of the bar, it was coming from a small group of people, the noise coming from them sounded familiar.

"So i was like just take the shot, but he wouldn't , seriously i say he's to scared to drink, i believe Mr.Sanders knows im better at drinking than him!!"

"Oh fuck off, well if im shit at drinking then fair enough but you and i both know one thing i am good at and if u stop picking on me, you'll get a bit later!!"

I looked over at the small group at the end of the bar, they looked familiar, three men and two women. My vision was a bit off due to the amount of alcohol we had consumed this evening. One man was tall, another near enough his height, and the third considerably short compared to the other two. The women were stunning, well from what i could see from them , one had fair hair from what i could see whilst the other had dark hair....wait not fair...red hair, actual red hair...could it be...Nora?! wait it was all of them, Alex, Zacky, johnny, Nora and Matt, didn't know they were out, how would i, none of them were exactly happy with me, i didn't blame them, oh how i missed them all.

I stared at them and realized something was different, i continued to stare. Nothing seemed different..Johnny was standing against the bar with his beer in hand, Zacky was next to Alex who was sat on a stool leaning against him as he had his arm round her waist, and Matt and Nora....wait...that's it. They were leaning on the bar, he had his arms round her waist and she was held close to him, she whispering in his ear as her hands were on his ass. That is what is different.Jimmy was right, ive lost her, lost her for good. Well at least she is with someone who cares for her, who will protect, put her first, that someone who was not me, it stung a little but i guess ill learn to live with that, no matter hard it pains me to see.

"Hey its Matt! didn't realize they were out tonight, lets go over and say hi!" and before i could say no, Jimmy had grabbed my hand and pulled me over.

Nora's P.O.V

Tonight we had decide to head out, all of us, jimmy was out with Brian so it was just us five. We had all dressed up and headed to the bar down the street from the strip club the boys liked to go to. We had been in there for hours, dancing , drinking ,singing etc. god it was nice to get out of the house, since the beach a lot had happened and not all had been great. First me and Matt are together, im so happy, never felt so happy in all my life, and neither has my dad to be honest, when i told dad he literally jumped for joy. Talking of dad, he had been and gone, most days when he was down, it was me, dad and Matt on days out. It was nice and god i missed him, he wasn't just my dad, he was my best friend too. So bad things, ahh yes, well sine the phone call form Adam on the beach, i had been receiving texts and random phone calls from him all week. I also got a envelope through my door from him, it contained a photo of me and Matt together, asleep in bed, it was creepy and honestly scared me, the thought that he could get into my house and watch me sleep made me feel physically sick, we weren't together but still he controlled me. Since the photo, Matt changed all my locks and installed cameras for me, bless him, he has also stayed at mine every night since because i was to scared to sleep alone, he was sweet like that, and he made me feel safe. No-one else knew of these phone calls except Matt and i, and i wanted to keep it that way. Since this week had been busy, tonight was the night i could let my hair down, we all were having fun, and from the way Matt kept holding me, someone was having too much fun. We were leaning against the bar, he was whispering dirty things in my ear, the more he drank, the more things he would say, i didn't find it disgusting, to be honest it turned me on and i couldn't wait to take him home and find out what he had in store for me. We were kissing when i heard a familiar voice call out to us.

"hey guys!!"

It was Jimmy,and he had dragged Brian along with him. There was a part of me who wanted to scream at Brian for the beach day, for dragging twisted barbie along, but another part of me wanted to hug him and never let him go. I was happy with Matt, but i had feelings for Brian and i couldn't always hide them, my heart would always speed up when he was around. "Hey Jim...Hey Brian" might as well be the first to say hi, i just wanna forget about it, if i act like im ok with him, maybe they all will too, i cant keep the band apart. "Your ok with him?" Matt whispered to me "Yeah, he knows what he did wrong, i want everything to go back to how they were before the beach" i nodded at Brian, knowing full well he knew what we were talking about, i wanted him to know i was telling the truth. "How about some drinks to loosen the tension eh?" drinks always helped in these situations, and nothing would work better within this group.

Another hour or so had gone by and it was like nothing had ever happened, Matt and brain were playing beer pong, Alex ,zacky and i were dancing on the dance floor and Johnny and jimmy, well being Johnny and jimmy. Tonight was great, and to be honest im glad we bumped into jimmy, im glad we bumped into Brian, it was like old times. After a while Zacky and Alex had abandoned me on the dance floor, but by the alcohol inside of me, i felt no shame, no embarrassment so i didn't care. Eventually i felt some arms around my waist, i turned around expecting to be face to face with my man, but instead i was surprised, it was Brian. "Should of guessed" i smiled and he pulled me closer "Huh? how come?" i smiled, his act of innocence was entertaining, oh how i had missed him "Never mind dickhead, so when am i getting my apology?" He smiled and our sways slowed down "I'm sorry, i was a jerk, feel free to punch me" as he finished what he said he kissed my cheek, it made me tingle and blush, i felt like a teen with her first crush again. "I except" and i kissed his cheek back "Is that all i get?" He smirked and i shook my head "Unless you haven't gathered by now, me and Matt are together" he smiled and held me still , his hands cupped my cheeks, he held my head up to his "I'm happy for you" he kissed my forehead, he made me tingle once again, he pulled me close and we hugged again.

"WHAT THE FUCK?!?!"

We turned around and when i thought nothing could fuck things up, there stood the blonde bimbo, standing in the middle of the dance floor, drawing everyone's attention to us. Just fucking brilliant. "Nikki i can explain, nothing happened, shes in a relationship.." Brian pleaded "Save it Brian, im tired, im going home!!" She stormed out of the bar, everyone's eyes followed her as she exited the building "Fucking hell!! im sorry Nora i have to go speak soon" He kissed my cheek again and ran after Nikki, and from that point, we didn't see him for the rest of the evening, and to be honest i didn't remember much from then on wards anyway, everything just went black, always a sign of a good night.

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