I don't belong here.

Nora's P.O.V

Jimmy had lined shots of tequila and Jack Daniel's on the kitchen island. We had been taking it turns to see who could drink faster, and it was the finals, leaving me and Brian go head to head. The lads were surrounding us, cheering us on.

"You’re going down little red, we've both had enough to last us a lifetime, one more drink and you'll be over the edge". He smirked, cockiness dripped from his body just as the sweat did from his.

"I can help you get over the edge Syn, but we need a bedroom to do that" I winked, and he looked shocked. It was cute. The boys were in hysterics because of my comeback . "Shots fired, pew pew!!" Jimmy shouted, his volume increased the more drink he consumed. We were positioned next to our lines of shots and of we went. I drank the last shot and felt the liquor hit my throat. I loved that feeling, if the sound of my guitar being played didn't lift my spirits, i could always count on the feel of JD dancing down my throat. I looked up at Brian, you could tell the shot had gone straight to his head; he was blinking fast and slowly but surely falling to the floor. "Told you i'd send you over the edge" i chuckled; he smiled and grabbed me by the hips and pulled me close to his body. I felt him breathing down my neck as he nestled his head in the crook of my neck.
"Brian, please don't do this not now" I whispered, not wanting to make a scene, i couldn't see Matt anywhere and the boys were up dancing and hitting on girls who were available, but still i wanted to be safe. I pushed him slightly away, he looked up and smiled. Then suddenly we hit the floor, he lost his balance and reached out to me to steady him but it didn't work. We landed with me lying on top of him, and his arms wrapped around me still. His grip loosened as i felt his hands go on adventure down and in between my thighs. His touch made me shiver and it felt so good. His touch was intoxicating but i had to deny him, for Matt's sake. His eyes went sad, and i felt him slip away from me. Was i really doing this? Again? What about Matt? We got up and brushed each other off, nobody notice us hit the deck, so it was all good. I grabbed another bottle of tequila from the liquor cabinet and poured into a very tall glass. Whatever was going on inside my head, whatever was with my feelings for Brian, for matt, I needed to forget about it for at least one night, so I was on a mission to drown my sorrows.

Hours had gone by and the party had ended, Johnny was sprawled out on the couch. Jimmy was lying on the kitchen island, Zacky and Alex were upstairs, and we all knew what they were up to. Matt was in the bathroom and Brian was outside in the garden, lying on a lounger, staring up at the stars. Since our tumble, we hadn’t spoken much. I also hadn’t seen matt much either, I felt bad, I hope he didn’t think I was avoiding him. I didn’t know what to do, comfort matt or lay outside with Syn. God how and why was this so hard to decide or even think about? I decided to be fair and head up to bed; the alcohol was catching up to me so bed was a great plan. I stumbled through my bedroom door, kicking my heels across the room. I was so drunk, my vision went blurry, my attempt at unzipping my dress was ridiculous, and apparently ten tons of JD can affect your hands. I felt hands hold my waist, and lips on my back. They tugged at my zip, and unzipped my dress, letting it hit the floor; I was left standing in nothing but my underwear. Their arms wrapped around my body, I felt their soft lips tenderly kiss my neck. It sent goose bumps to appear all over my body. As my back was against them and it was pitch black, I couldn’t see who it was, but at this moment in time, I didn’t care.
They turned me around, my chest pushed against theirs, I couldn’t make out who it was, just a shadowed figure. They kissed me roughly and picked me up putting my legs around their waist. They stroked my legs as they laid me down on the bed; they bit at my neck making me groan and scratch at their back. “Let’s make love, I want you, all of” Their voice was seductive and deep, what a beautiful addiction it was.

……………………………………………..next morning................................................

I woke up with the headache from hell. I sat up and held my head in my hands, it felt as if someone was caving my head in with a shovel; the alcohol that was left was starting to turn my stomach, making me green around the gills. I rubbed away my eye make-up from last night, sending black liner in all directions. I looked down next to me to see a muscular body lying half naked next to me, it was Matt. I looked under my covers to see I was in the same state, naked and dripping with the stench of sex. I smiled, I didn’t remember much but I did remember the way he made me feel when he unzipped my dress and the first kiss on my neck that he planted. His head was buried under the pillow, he was adorable. I knew it was Matt; i could tell by his tattoos but i felt different, like it wasn't him i had sex with last night. My body was tender and I hurt, not like before. Guess matt had enjoyed himself more than he did the first time around. I snuggled into him and kissed his neck.

“Morning beautiful” He rolled over and smiled. He looked so cute in the morning and he looked even better naked.

“Morning stranger, fancied a midnight visit last night did we?” I chuckled and he reached his arm out to me and pulled me close to him and nestled his head in my neck. I felt safe and secure. “Guess I did, you can’t lie, you enjoyed, and your screams last night told me so” I blushed. “Yeah, what did you do, im aching all over” He kissed my cheek, “Im sorry Nora, but it wasn't rough i swear”. “It’s ok, guess it’s a sign of a good time” I winked and he laughed. I snuggled back into Matt and we fell back to sleep.

Notes

short filler, hope y'all like it :)