I don't belong here.

Nora's P.O.V

We got cleaned up, the blood and goo was easy to wipe away, thank god Zacky's got laminate flooring in his house. We all put new clothes on and got freshened up. Since i got close with zacky, i always kept some clothes here just in case, and the fact that Alex and i were the same size, she just put some of my spares on. Apart from the bra department, she was taller in height but i was bigger in bust, she was a C cup and i was a DD. I put some little black shorts on with a white and black striped vest top then put my black converse on. Chucked my hair in a scruffy bun and slapped some makeup on and i was ready to go. Alex wore her grey jeans she wore over here and my Metallica t shirt i left here from the other night, it was one of my faves as my dad got it for my 18th. Since my 18th i hadn't changed, just my hair. I'm naturally blonde, but fell for red, hence why my hair is the way it is now. So anything i got 6 years ago, i can still fit into. I guess it was one bonus to my small stature. We headed back downstairs, the living room and hall was sparkling clean unlike this morning. Music was blaring and Jimmy and Zacky were waiting for us in the kitchen.

"God you guys take ages" joked Jimmy,i jokingly punched him in the shoulder making him exaggerate and act like i had ripped his arm away or something. We got in Zacky's SUV, leaving mine in his driveway. I was sat in the front with Zacky as i called shot gun and was faster reaching the car, so jimmy was in the back. but he was accompanied by Alex so all was good. Tunes were blazing, windows were down and i could feel the sun on my skin. We finally reached town, and it seemed jimmy was more excited to go shopping than us girls. We looked in a few music shops, including the one i manage and work in now since moving to Orange County. "Nora, still thinking about a corset?" Zacky asked, it was only then i noticed he had the same twinkle in eye as Brian did. what was with these men! But he was my brother, and that would be weird, so quickly got that thought out of my head. "Yeah Z, nothing to sexy just one plain or even scratch that idea, haven't bought a dress in a while, maybe a dress" Jimmy smiled and winked at me." Sullivan you can rid of that dirty thought out of your mind right now!" he giggled like a teenage girl and waltzed off into the direction of a store where the boys tend to shop, Zacky said it was perfect and for me and Alex to trust his judgement. What were we letting ourselves in for, for all we knew we could be walking out of here with laced underwear for this evening instead.


We let the boys go and choose the dresses, jimmy for me and of course zacky chose for Alex. Jimmy brought back a black and white body con, the white part was like in a shape of an X on the bust. It was short and very simple, i loved it, and im sure a certain somebody else would too. Zacky brought back a tight plain red body con dress, Alex beamed a smile, what he didn't realize is red was Alex's fave color. I remember how ecstatic she got when i turned up at her doorstop the day i got my hair done. It was the same look, he had done well, very well. They both had. We took the dresses and stepped into the changing rooms. We both walked out and the boys faces were brilliant. Their mouth's hit the floor and were staring at us. "Guess thats a no then hey boys" i winked at Alex, we knew there real reaction, but decide to mess with them.

"NO!!, stunning..eh...smoking..." the boys were lost for words.

"speechless"

I turned and froze. The voice belonged to someone i hadn't wish to lay my eyes on in a very long time. My heart stopped and felt like i was going to be sick. There was silence, the boys were oblivious of course as they did not know who it was, but Alex did. i felt her pinch my hand. There stood the person i thought i was free from. There stood Adam.

"why the sad face , thought you would be happy, ive been searching for you and now i have it is time to come home" Adam smirked, holding his hand out to me. His hand was slapped away from me, Alex pushed me behind her.

"She is going nowhere with you, fuck off back to wherever you've crawled out of!" shouted Alex. "Calm down Alex" Zacky came towards us and held on to Alex., pulling her back. I was now in front, it was my turn to fight my battles.

"You heard her Adam, we are done, now fuck off!!" rage was now taking over, my body was shaking and i was trying to hold back my tears. I wasn't as strong as i was around the guys, Adam was my weakness. He scared me. Any moment i was waiting for a smack around the face, it wouldn't be the first time he had done so in public. I heard whispers and commotion behind me, guess the lads have just clocked on to everything now. I could see Zacky clench his fists in the corner of my eye, and Jimmy holding him back with all his might.

"It seems it didn't take you very long to find a new victim hey Nora, but do they know you like i do, the real you." Memories came flooding back, all those nightmares i tried so hard to block out. Nights of bouncing around the room by his fist. Him forcing himself into me, making me scream in horror but him just muffling my crying with his hand. Sat knelt down between his legs, him gripping on to my chin whilst pouring tequila in my mouth, making me drink till i was sick, then he would scream and shout if i threw up. Waking up in bed soaked with petrol, and him hovering over me with a lighter, just to scare me for his own amusment. With Adam i wasn't living, i was surviving, barely.

"Adam do as the girls tell you and back off mate, do the decent thing" Jimmy asked him politely but with a serious tone. "Okay but ill be back Nora, we have unfinished business, we cant let the history go to waste" he walked out of the shop, and then was gone.

"What did he mean by unfinished business Nora?" Jimmy held my hand and Zacky was staring at me. I never wanted to tell them like this. They all knew a brief summary, but no details were told. "Lets pay for the dresses and lets go find somewhere to sit down and ill tell you, but don't tell the others this will stay between us four, this includes us running into Adam as well, ok?" Both the lads nodded."Okay, i know a quiet coffee shop around the corner, we can go there and then you tell us everything we need to know to understand that creep and how to keep him away from you" I nodded and his kissed me on the cheek. We then followed Zacky and Jimmy out the shop after we had paid. As we walked through the doorway, Alex tugged at my top and pulled me back, letting the boys walk on a bit.

"Are sure your ready for this, ready to tell them about everything, the rape, abuse, alcohol, engagement, Nikki etc, everything?" You could see the concern and worry in Alex's eyes." As ready as ill ever be". The truth was I was lying, i wasn't ready to go into to it all, but i loved them and they deserved to know the truth, Adam was dangerous and they needed to be safe. I trusted them like family, especially Zacky. The only people i didn't want knowing was Matt and Brian. But they promised, so they will never find out, hopefully.

We sat at the coffee shop, it was pretty, dainty and calm. Unlike my my nerves, they were a wreck. We sat for a couple hours i explained everything.

"We met when i was 19, he was a bad influence but he was my first love, my first everything and i couldn't bare to be torn form him, and i didn't listen to anyone when they said he was bad for me. I moved out and moved in with Adam, he was my everything. I lost my dad for a bout a year, and the same with Alex. At one point he would not let me see anyone and made believe everyone hated me, so i isolated myself from everyone but Adam. I got really badly involved with drink and some pills. It got so bad i ended up in hospital. That was the final straw. When i woke from the coma i was in hospital and Adam had done a runner and i moved back with my dad. i realized what and who he was, realized he was manipulative and bad for me. Then i was back to myself until i met him again at 22. He was different, he cleaned himself up and seemed genuine, he fooled my dad and Alex as well. Everything was perfect, so perfect that when he proposed to me after 8 months, i said yes. The old Adam was nowhere to be found. Everything was great till one day i came home from work early to find Adam with another girl, her name was Nikki. I knew her name before he could tell me as i knew her from high school and she always hated me but i never knew the reason why. When i caught them he made out it was all my fault and after a while i began to believe it. I found that he had been with Nikki since the beginning. After that i couldn't leave, not because i didn't want to, he wouldn't let me. After the fist attempts of leaving him and ending the engagement, if i was caught he would hit me. He never hit me before, but this side of Adam was new and i was petrified. Stuff happened again such as i was locked in the house, all communication with my dad and Alex was cut off and i was alone. It was torture and once i even tried to take my own life but he found me and saved me, but not for my sake, but for his as he didn't want my suffering to end that easy. He also would fore himself into me if Nikki wasn't around. This went on for about a year and a bit , followed by many numerous trips to the hospital. One trip was what got me out, he had pushed out of a window, but luckily i didn't do anything really bad to myself. When he was getting a coffee whilst i was in the hospital bed, my dad rang the police to arrest Adam and got me out of the hospital and back home. They Arrested Adam but was never charged as we had no proof and he had a way with words. So after all that i said goodbye and moved out here, no-one knew where i went but my dad and Alex."

The boys faces were a picture. Sorry was in Jimmy's eyes but rage was in Zacky's.
"Dont you ever get back him , please for your own safety" Jimmy burst into tears. I felt sorry , maybe i shouldn't of told him, or them for the matter. " Zacky??.." i looked at him hoping he would say something. "I'm ok, and we thought Matt's hiccup at yours was the biggest of your problems, we'll keep you safe i promise you ". His words were reassuring but i couldn't get one thing out of my head, how the hell did he find me?

"Come on lets get back , zacky and jimmy come get ready with us around mine for the party its starts in a bit" i said switching subjects. "Forget about this, lets have fun, after all its your night lads, not mine" they smiled and we headed back to mine. On the drive back all i kept thinking was it was not over, it had just started. Hell had returned, and maybe thhis time he'll finish me off for good.

Notes

• Nora's dress for the party: http://www.bodycondress.com/bodyconboutique/images/blackwhitebandage.JPG

• Alex's dress for the party: http://www.designerdesirables.com/images/products/zoom/1345041085-72423100.j
• what do u guys think? adam eh?:P dont know if im gonna focus on adam alot, kinda wann egt back to the relationships within the story, going to be a hook-up at the party? comment below on who u think should hook up and why...overall vote will decide the plot in the next chapter