Not a bad thing

Izzie’s POV
“Thank you for waiting with the screaming until he was at least half out of the door” I said fake angry. The others laughed hard. “Oh my god, Izzie, what do you expect from us? I mean.. I know we discussed Matt, ...and Brian, ...and Zacky when you guys were visiting us in New York, but this is something else. Seeing him here, dryhumping you on the couch!” Leyla teased. I blushed. “Oh come on. I didn’t know Lynn would walk in. I thought I was in the safety of my own house! But enough about the subject! Let me get you groupies something to drink”. The girls went to the livingroom and I was in my kitchen, making us something to drink. Through my kitchen window I saw Zacky’s car pull up to the house “Guys! Wanna see Zacky in a compromising position now?!” I heard the girls screeching as they ran for the kitchen, pushing me away to look outside. We all watched Liz and Zacky get out of the car. Zacky pulled her towards him, pushing her back to the car, kissing her deeply. “Damn, you girls are living the fanfiction, aren’t you?” Rye sighed. “Let’s have some fun” Lynn chuckled as she motioned her head to the door.

“OH MY GOD!! IS THAT REALLY YOU?! ZACKY VENGEANCE?! COULD YOU PLEASE SIGN MY BOOBS?!” I heard Leyla yell as she stood in the door. Rye did the extra mile by screaming “NO! STAY AWAY FROM MY ZACKY V! HE WILL BE THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN” Z´s head shot up, looking at the girls with a scared look. Liz just shot an annoyed glare over Zack´s shoulder. Lynn and I laughed so hard I was gasping for air. “Oh you two!” Liz grinned as she walked over to hug Rye and Leyla. “You… should… have… seen… your… faces…” I said, hiccups between every word. After introductions were made between the girls and Zack, he left us, leaving Liz. She would stay over too.

“You look really happy” Rye said to Liz “I am, it was just one big misunderstanding. We are moving in together. I ended my lease this morning” “You are?!” I screamed, running over to hug her. “Yes, we are. We have so much history already. It just feels right you know?” she blushed. “That happy announcement calls for cocktails!” Lynn said enthusiastically “You are right” Liz replied “But you are not making them. The last time you made cocktails, I was fucking hung over” Liz and Lynn were making cocktails together and I took the girls outside to enjoy the afternoon sun. “I’m really glad you guys are here. It makes everything so much better” I sighed, looking at my two good friends. “Do you want to talk about it?” Rye said quietly. I told them about Chris getting back. It was hard for me to tell them, not only because of all the weird feelings I’ve been having, but mostly because my two dear friends were beating themselves up over the fact that I got hurt by Chris in the first, or better said, second place. They had pushed me to date Chris, encouraged me to marry him and when they couldn’t make it to my wedding, they both claimed they would be there for our 50th anniversary. After everything went sour, the three of them took turns looking after me. It was months later when I understood they felt guilty. As if they could have done anything about it. “I feel comfortable enough to talk about it, but only if you two promise you won’t think you could have done anything about out.” They both sighed and nodded “Sure” Leyla said.

“He stood in my house, suddenly. He acted as if nothing happened, as if it was most normal thing in the world that I would get back to him. When I asked him to leave he reacted as if I was the crazy one. He told me he had only been happy with me and that he wanted to settle down and he wanted to do that with me. I just couldn’t understand where he was coming from. I still don’t actually.” I looked at my hands. “Do you want to get back together with him?” Leyla asked me. “No, I really don’t. I’m with Matt now, he makes me happy, but I just... I wonder... you know?” They both looked at me questionably “I’m wondering if it was my fault maybe.... Maybe I just couldn’t keep him satisfied, maybe I just send him over to Veronique, or even Naomi the first time. What if I can’t keep Matt happy? What if I’m not enough for him? We are so different. You should see the pictures of his ex, Tess. She is so pretty, she looks so sexy. How could I ever be everything he had with her, or with all those girls on tour? I don’t know. I’m just scared he will wake up one day and will think ‘what the hell am I doing with her?’ He can get so much better” I felt tears roll down my cheeks. I had been feeling this way since Chris had come back, but I hadn’t told anyone. Not even Lynn or Matt. I tried to just be happy with Matt, he didn’t give me any reason to have any doubts. But I just couldn’t. Every time I wasn’t with him, this voice in my head kept repeating all the insecurities I had about our relationship. I didn’t know what to do to make it better.

Rye and Leyla sat down next to me on the porch swing and comforted me. Leyla held me tightly and whispered “Izzie, you are being absurd. I’ve seen Matt for 5 minutes today and he looks over the moon. That’s how happy he is with you. I don’t know what you are being all insecure about. You shouldn’t let Chris get to you like that” Lizzy and Lynn had come out again and they handed us our cocktails. They sure made something really festive of it. I tried to smile. Rye looked over to me “Iz, it is never okay for a man to cheat on a girl. If there is something missing in a relationship he should talk to you about it. But you should never ever think this was your fault. It was his fault that he put his dick in someone else when he had a really good thing at home. It is his mistake. Not yours. Not in the least!” She kissed the top of my head. I was really enjoying the fact that my girls were here. But still, I had my friends close, I had a man who loved me, why the hell was I still feeling like crap?

Lynn looked right through me “What is it Iz? Why are you overthinking this again? Matt needs you, Matt doesn’t need some cheap ass groupie. He fell for you. Why can’t you just accept that?” Lizzy nodded “He was never like this, not even with Tess, please believe me Izzie” I looked around my group of friends. How could a girl be so damn lucky with friends like this? “Thank you guys. I just don’t know. If I would believe in God, I would just ask him to give me a sign. Something to let me know everything is as it should be with Matt” I chuckled a little.

Suddenly I heard Matt’s voice blasting from inside of the house “Got a pretty little body to grind” My jaw fell open “Matt” I sighed. The girls looked at me, eyes wide open “It’s Matt’s ringtone” I explained. “I love how he sings that, he sung it in for me, just for my phone”. “Pick up that phone!” Lizzy screamed “How much of a sign do you fucking need?!” I felt a big smile creep over my face. She was right. Was I looking for a billboard with flashing neon lights and a siren?! This must be enough.

I rushed inside the house. Of course the “ringing” had stopped in the meantime. I picked up my phone “1 missed call from Matt” I pressed the “call” button.
“Sweetie” he answered, even before the first ring.
“I love you” I answered.
I heard his smile in his voice “I love you too, but what did I deserve the honour of you declaring that to me out of the blue?”
“Nothing, I don’t appreciate you enough. I’m starting right now to make it up to you”
He chuckled “You don’t have to make up for anything. But you can keep it in mind for the next time you see me”
“I most certainly will, you can count on that, oh the things I wanna do to you now”
“Izzie, don’t start this, please, or I will come over and take you away from your friends, and you need your friends now.” He sighed. I kept my breath for a bit, just listening to his voice.
“Speaking of your friends. I have a surprise for you. I’m taking you all to dinner, be ready at 7, wear something nice. I love you Iz”

Before I could say anything back, he already hung up the phone. I walked back out. “Matt is taking us to dinner, we have to be ready at 7” Lynn smiled at me “Ok, I know I said it would be just us girls these days, but I can live with him taking us to dinner. It’s 5 already, we should start getting ready, make his eyes fall out when he gets here”

We did each other’s makeup and hair and choose the nicest dresses we had. On the stroke of 7 we were all finished and ready to go. That was when a white limousine pulled up to my house, the driver got out, and got to my door carrying a bunch of roses. He knocked on the door “What the hell?” I opened the door “Miss Ismay?” “Yes?” He handed me the roses, there was a card “This is my gift to you. Go out to dinner with your friends, everything is arranged and paid for. Let Frank take you to the restaurant and just enjoy this evening. I love you. Matt” I felt my eyes tear up, Lynn put her arm around me. We heard the girls screech besides us “Fucking hell! He just stepped out of a fairytale didn’t he?!” Rye said. Leyla hugged me “You so deserve this Izzie” I grabbed my purse “Let’s go girls! Our carriage awaits”

Frank took us to the restaurant. A restaurant that looked really familiar. It was the one Matt and I had our first date at. The waitress took us to the back of the restaurant, to the same table we sat on. “Oh my god” I gasped. “He is good”. Lizzy looked at me puzzled “What?” I looked at my friends, gathering around the table. “We had our First date at this restaurant, we sat at exactly this table. I’m just... Just... Overwhelmed. Excuse me, I really need to call him” I walked outside for a minute and called Matt “Sweetie, you like your present?” I started crying happy tears as soon as I heard his voice. I was such an emotional wreck sometimes. “Izzie? Why are you upset?!” Matt sounded worried. I laughed. “NO! I’m not sad, I’m just so happy. You make me so happy. You just earned yourself a lifetime full of sex my friend” I chuckled. Matt’s deep laugh send chills down my spine “That’s not why I did it, but good to know. Now join your friends and enjoy the food, I will see you in a couple of days. I love you Iz, so much” “I love you more. Thank you Matt, this was just what I needed” I hung up and joined my friends.

The whole dinner was one big trip down memory lane. Us girls were pulling out old stories and we had the same dishes as Matt and I had on our first date. No walks on the beach or groupies this time, but we did use Frank to drive us to a nice beach club where we partied for hours. Celebrating our lives, our loves and our friendships.

As I was lying in my bed, I couldn’t help but think.... How did I deserve to be this lucky?

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