Wolf Pack
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
I opened my eyes and was surrounded once again by darkness and the pain in my side was nothing but a little pin prick. I swung my legs over the bed and walked into the bathroom to do my business. I came out and opened my bedroom door and looked out. I could every ones loud snores and I don't see how anyone could sleep through this shit. I walked down the stairs and out onto the front porch and sat down in the swing looking out over the night. Rogue and Zacky getting together really bothered me for some odd reason but I knew he made his decision and that's something I had no control over. I need to move on. I mean there's 4 other guys here who would love to have me and Zacky was a crush I knew that would never happen. I got up from the swing and made my way over to where Corey is buried and I seen some flowers growing and I decided to pick some for his grave.
I grabbed a handful and carried them over to the grave where I sat them down before sitting on the ground. I rested my hand on the cold stone. I needed Corey here. He would understand. He would listen to me. I watched the sun come up over the horizon and I slowly made it to my feet and walked back over to the house, looking back periodically at the stone. I walked onto the porch and back into the house making sure to close the door quietly before sitting down on the couch. I looked over at the clock on the wall and seen it was 7 and I knew everyone would be waking up so I got up off the couch and walked into the kitchen and started making coffee for everyone.
As the coffee started, I grabbed some stuff out of the fridge and started making breakfast. The pain in my side started hurting worse but I wasn't going to show pain anymore. I've already been down the Boulevard of broken dreams. I finished up with breakfast just as I heard someones door open and close behind them and footsteps walking down the stairs. I set out plates at the table along with cups for the coffee at the coffee pot. I looked over at the door and seen Zacky.
"Oh you're awake...What are you doing out of bed. If Matt sees you up he's going to get mad."
"Don't worry Zacky. I was feeling better this morning and I thought I would cook breakfast this morning. I've made some coffee if you'd like some." I said smiling.
"Yes please." he smiled right back at me as I grabbed a cup and filled it. I took it over to him and sat it down in front of him. He took a sip of the hot rejuvenating liquid and a smile came to his face.
"This is the best coffee I've ever had. Mine comes out too strong all the time."
"You put too many scoops into the pot." I said pouring me some juice and sitting it in front of my place at the table before walking out of the kitchen and going upstairs. I knocked on Zacky's door and Rogue opened the door.
"Would you do me a favor?" I asked.
"Sure anything."
"Can you please wake everyone else up and tell them I made breakfast and if they want anything they better hurry up and get downstairs to the kitchen." I said and she nodded.
"Thanks girl. I really appreciate it." I said walking away from her and going back downstairs. I sat down at the table just as I heard running feet coming down the stairs. I shook my head as everyone but Matt entered the room. I looked at Zacky.
"Why does Matt take his time?" I asked quietly.
"I have no clue." I heard another set of footsteps and Matt came down the stairs. He entered the room and seen me.
"What are you doing out of bed?" he said coming to my side.
"I'm feeling a little better today and I thought I would make breakfast for everyone." he licked my cheek and blushed. I seen him smirk and I shook my head at him. I grabbed him a cup and poured some coffee into it and handed it to him.
"You'll find that her coffee is so much better than mine." Zacky said smiling. Matt took a drink and then looked at me.
"You can make coffee from now on." he smiled at me and I sat down. Matt began filling his plate before everyone and we all started to dig in after he finished. As everyone began to be full all the food was demolished. Everyone but Matt got up from the table and left the kitchen. I started gathering up the plates and putting them into the sink. I grabbed Matt's and he looked at my strangely.
"What is it Matt?" I asked confused.
"I need to talk to you later. In the meantime, you have free run of the house to do whatever you please."
"Alright. What do you want to talk to me about?" I asked putting his plate into the sink and began to wash the others.
"I will discuss that later. I'll be in my office if you need anything." With that he got up and left me by myself. I want to know what he wants with me now? God only knows. Probably another lecture about Corey and if he does I swear to God I will fucking blow up on him. He can beat me to a fucking pulp but I can't stand it when someone tells me to get over someone who've I've known all my life.
I just can't bring myself to ever do that. I finished with the dishes and put them away. I headed upstairs and opened the door to my room and grabbed me some clothes for a much needed shower. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door behind me and started doing my business. When I finished, I dried myself off and put on my clothes before grabbing my dirty ones and putting them into my clothes basket and pulling it up. It was harder than I thought. I grabbed my side and made sure I wasn't bleeding before putting into my foldable clothes hamper and dragging it downstairs and into the laundry room. I set the washing machine to the correct dials before putting my clothes into the washer and the detergent. I closed the lid and left the hamper there and went into the kitchen and grabbed me a soda. I popped the top and Zacky came into the kitchen again.
"Zacky do you have a cigarette?" I asked.
"Yeah. Why?"
"I need one. I mean Matt said he wants to talk to me later and it's stressing me out." I said rubbing my temples. He pulled out his pack and gave me a cigarette and lit it for me. I inhaled the most revealable stress reliever in the world and it somewhat helped me calm down.
I really didn't want to have a panic attack right now. I finished the cigarette and put it out in the ashtray and walked back to the laundry room and put my clothes into the dryer. I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch and watched TV as the others were busy training. Rogue was outside taking the trash out and when she came back in she sat down beside me. We watched TV in peace but I had a feeling that the rest of the day wasn't going to end so peacefully.
I grabbed a handful and carried them over to the grave where I sat them down before sitting on the ground. I rested my hand on the cold stone. I needed Corey here. He would understand. He would listen to me. I watched the sun come up over the horizon and I slowly made it to my feet and walked back over to the house, looking back periodically at the stone. I walked onto the porch and back into the house making sure to close the door quietly before sitting down on the couch. I looked over at the clock on the wall and seen it was 7 and I knew everyone would be waking up so I got up off the couch and walked into the kitchen and started making coffee for everyone.
As the coffee started, I grabbed some stuff out of the fridge and started making breakfast. The pain in my side started hurting worse but I wasn't going to show pain anymore. I've already been down the Boulevard of broken dreams. I finished up with breakfast just as I heard someones door open and close behind them and footsteps walking down the stairs. I set out plates at the table along with cups for the coffee at the coffee pot. I looked over at the door and seen Zacky.
"Oh you're awake...What are you doing out of bed. If Matt sees you up he's going to get mad."
"Don't worry Zacky. I was feeling better this morning and I thought I would cook breakfast this morning. I've made some coffee if you'd like some." I said smiling.
"Yes please." he smiled right back at me as I grabbed a cup and filled it. I took it over to him and sat it down in front of him. He took a sip of the hot rejuvenating liquid and a smile came to his face.
"This is the best coffee I've ever had. Mine comes out too strong all the time."
"You put too many scoops into the pot." I said pouring me some juice and sitting it in front of my place at the table before walking out of the kitchen and going upstairs. I knocked on Zacky's door and Rogue opened the door.
"Would you do me a favor?" I asked.
"Sure anything."
"Can you please wake everyone else up and tell them I made breakfast and if they want anything they better hurry up and get downstairs to the kitchen." I said and she nodded.
"Thanks girl. I really appreciate it." I said walking away from her and going back downstairs. I sat down at the table just as I heard running feet coming down the stairs. I shook my head as everyone but Matt entered the room. I looked at Zacky.
"Why does Matt take his time?" I asked quietly.
"I have no clue." I heard another set of footsteps and Matt came down the stairs. He entered the room and seen me.
"What are you doing out of bed?" he said coming to my side.
"I'm feeling a little better today and I thought I would make breakfast for everyone." he licked my cheek and blushed. I seen him smirk and I shook my head at him. I grabbed him a cup and poured some coffee into it and handed it to him.
"You'll find that her coffee is so much better than mine." Zacky said smiling. Matt took a drink and then looked at me.
"You can make coffee from now on." he smiled at me and I sat down. Matt began filling his plate before everyone and we all started to dig in after he finished. As everyone began to be full all the food was demolished. Everyone but Matt got up from the table and left the kitchen. I started gathering up the plates and putting them into the sink. I grabbed Matt's and he looked at my strangely.
"What is it Matt?" I asked confused.
"I need to talk to you later. In the meantime, you have free run of the house to do whatever you please."
"Alright. What do you want to talk to me about?" I asked putting his plate into the sink and began to wash the others.
"I will discuss that later. I'll be in my office if you need anything." With that he got up and left me by myself. I want to know what he wants with me now? God only knows. Probably another lecture about Corey and if he does I swear to God I will fucking blow up on him. He can beat me to a fucking pulp but I can't stand it when someone tells me to get over someone who've I've known all my life.
I just can't bring myself to ever do that. I finished with the dishes and put them away. I headed upstairs and opened the door to my room and grabbed me some clothes for a much needed shower. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door behind me and started doing my business. When I finished, I dried myself off and put on my clothes before grabbing my dirty ones and putting them into my clothes basket and pulling it up. It was harder than I thought. I grabbed my side and made sure I wasn't bleeding before putting into my foldable clothes hamper and dragging it downstairs and into the laundry room. I set the washing machine to the correct dials before putting my clothes into the washer and the detergent. I closed the lid and left the hamper there and went into the kitchen and grabbed me a soda. I popped the top and Zacky came into the kitchen again.
"Zacky do you have a cigarette?" I asked.
"Yeah. Why?"
"I need one. I mean Matt said he wants to talk to me later and it's stressing me out." I said rubbing my temples. He pulled out his pack and gave me a cigarette and lit it for me. I inhaled the most revealable stress reliever in the world and it somewhat helped me calm down.
I really didn't want to have a panic attack right now. I finished the cigarette and put it out in the ashtray and walked back to the laundry room and put my clothes into the dryer. I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch and watched TV as the others were busy training. Rogue was outside taking the trash out and when she came back in she sat down beside me. We watched TV in peace but I had a feeling that the rest of the day wasn't going to end so peacefully.
4/16/13