Am I too Lost to be Saved?
Please Answer the Phone
"Good morning beautiful...:)"
It's been about two and a half months since Johnny and I first saw each other, and seeing that every single day still hasn't gotten old. We haven't necessarily made anything "official", but I don't think that we could get any more official than we already are.
We've spent just about every single day with each other with the exception of a few. If he isn't here with me at my apartment, I'm at his house, or he's with my on my lunch break at the diner or where ever he took me. I'm still so surprised that he's stuck around this long, but I'm not complaining. I love it. Johnny's so different from most of the people that I met and it's so wonderful.
He puts up with me when I'm moody, comforts me when I'm emotional, is the source of my laughter, gives me food when I randomly get hungry, and he accepts my sister like she's his own. I really wish that there was some way that I could repay him...
Today, we planned to have the entire day to ourselves. To be ‘out and about’ he said, but that was ruined when the rain decided to randomly come down and not let up in the least bit. Go figure…
I hoped that somehow we’d be able to escape and maybe even go to Jimmy’s, where more than likely Meghan was since today was also her day off. Don and Suzy decided to work my schedule around Meghan’s once I hit six months with my little ducky, Meghan had also moved from her old job at the warehouse to a local music store to be closer to me if something were to happen with the baby. That plan blew over once she and Jimmy started seeing each other as frequently as Johnny and I started.
She and Jimmy were perfect for each other. Meghan found a guy that was able to handle her sass, and Jimmy found a girl who didn’t think he was a complete weirdo. It was the cutest thing!
Just as I had gotten out of the restroom, I heard a loud crashing sound at the front of my apartment. Luckily I had brought my phone down with me from my room, so I got it ready to call 9-1-1. I tiptoed to the door quickly and looked through the peephole to see Johnny getting up from being face flat on the floor. “Goddamn it that hurt…” I heard him say. He’s too cute.
I opened the door right before he knocked and smiled at him, which he returned with a shy grin. “I guess that was a little loud,” He said, shivering.
“My God Johnny, you’re fucking soaked,” I said, pulling him inside. He laughed, “I’m fucking cold too!”
“I noticed babe!” I started rubbing his hands, and he looked down at me and laughed again. “Ooo! You left your white shirt and shorts here last time, I washed them on my laundry day.” I turned to go get them from my room as he stripped down to his boxers as to not track water through my apartment.
I put his clothes and a towel on the toilet before going back to him and take his drenched clothes from him. I went to our little laundry room and threw his clothes to wash with the ones Meghan had left in the washer. When I came back, Johnny was still standing in front of my door in his boxers. He looked so silly. His skin was covered in little water droplets, occasionally he’d rub his arms from the cold, his Mohawk was no longer standing up and hanging over his eyes.
As he was turned around, I took my shirt off, leaving me in my purple tank top, and walked behind him to wrap my arms around his waist.
“Anna,” Johnny’s whine had to be the cutest! “I’m still all wet baby!” He turned in my arms to face me, squeeze me and kiss my forehead.
I pecked his chest multiple times until he laughed. “I know you are, but I’m trying to help you get warm.” I cupped his cheek and pulled him down to kiss his lips sweetly. He kissed me back in no time, and smiled into it.
“You’re so fucking adorable Anna,” He chuckled.
I poked his naked stomach and giggled. “Hush you!” Johnny kissed me again, this time he trailed his kisses from my lips to my cheek then up to my temple, from there he moved to my jawline kissed down to my neck. He sucked on a real sensitive spot on my neck and my breath hitched.
“Babe,” I whispered. “I put your stuff on the toilet so you can take a hot shower.”
“Mhm..” Johnny’s kisses went back up to my lips, his hands went from the nape of my neck to my shoulders, then down to rub my now “six months big” belly. (The way Meghan says it). Johnny pushed me away from him and looked at me with a playful glare. “Ugh, get away from me! Trying to seduce me and whatnot.”
I laughed at him. “Get the fuck in there, you weirdo!” Johnny laughed all the way to the bathroom.
I decided to make some oven pizzas and boil some tea for lunch. Both were done just as Johnny shut the water off in the bathroom since he takes sooooo long in the shower. And from there, the rest of the day flew by. By around six o’clock, we had just realized that we spent the entire day on the couch watching movies and Johnny got a text from somebody. He had been laying his head on my belly, pressing his ear on it to listen. He’d been tapping random beats and feeling the baby kick the rhythms back, occasionally planting kisses on my stomach and whispering sweet nothings to my baby. I was so in love with him already, but something just kept echoing in the back of my mind: ‘be careful…’
Johnny kissed my belly one more time, then came up to kiss my lips and looked into my eyes. “We’ve been laying here all day! Jimmy just asked me if you wanna get ice cream.”
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his lips, “Sure baby. Just let me lay here for a little bit longer.”
Johnny’s smile was something I wanted to see forever. “No problem love. I’m just gonna watch the news for a bit, then we can go.”
He cuddled next to me again and I closed my eyes for a bit. Until…
“Breaking news today as police are investigating the murder of 42 year old Jacob Ruiz who was shot and pronounced dead on the scene during a public alteration. The 16 year old suspect, whose name was not disclosed by authorities, stated that his sister had been a victim of sexual assault by Ruiz. This information has not yet been confirmed. In other news…”
“Anna,” Johnny’s voiced forced me out of my trance. “Anna, baby are you okay?”
I hadn’t noticed that I’d been crying. But I just couldn’t stop. That was him. His face on my t.v. screen. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t stop shaking. ‘Dead? He can’t be dead. He’s too evil…’ Everything was coming back all at once. It’s not that easy. Nothing ever is. ‘Please God…’
“Anna, baby,” Johnny pulled me onto his lap and started to rub my back. “What’s wrong? Did you know that guy? Talk to me.”
Johnny’s breath on my neck, his fingers on my skin- ‘No… This isn’t happening. Anna calm down…’ I can’t, I can’t , I can’t!
I pushed Johnny away from me and concentrated on breathing. “Anna, baby,” Johnny reached out to me, but I cringed.
“P- please, d-don’t t-t-touch me,” I begged him like I begged the night it all happened. “S-stop. Get aw-w-way from m-me.”
The hurt on Johnny’s face killed me, but I was just so scared. “Anna-“
“NO,” I screamed. I cowered away from him, and he got up from the couch and raised his hands.
“Anna, I don’t know what the fuck you’re playing at,” he said, his voice breaking. “But you’re scaring the shit out of me. Please babe, tell me what’s going on!”
I looked around, I was still having trouble breathing, and now I was at a loss of words. How the fuck do I tell him?! I got up from where I was sitting and ran up the stairs with Johnny hot on my heels. I got to Meghan’s room and shut the door in his face, locked it and got onto the bed.
“Anna, please,” Johnny begged, knocking on the door. “Anna, tell me what happened. I won’t be angry or… anything. I swear, I’m not going to hurt you. Nor will I let anyone else hurt you. I’ll keep you safe. I promise. I swear on everything I love. On my fucking life! I swear to God, no one will hurt you. Just please, tell me what’s wrong and I will fucking fix it. Please!”
I started shaking uncontrollably, and looked over to the nightstand. Meghan’s phone! I left mine downstairs. I waited until I heard Johnny get up from in front of the door and walk down the stairs, only then did I dial Jimmy’s number… I really hope he answers.
It's been about two and a half months since Johnny and I first saw each other, and seeing that every single day still hasn't gotten old. We haven't necessarily made anything "official", but I don't think that we could get any more official than we already are.
We've spent just about every single day with each other with the exception of a few. If he isn't here with me at my apartment, I'm at his house, or he's with my on my lunch break at the diner or where ever he took me. I'm still so surprised that he's stuck around this long, but I'm not complaining. I love it. Johnny's so different from most of the people that I met and it's so wonderful.
He puts up with me when I'm moody, comforts me when I'm emotional, is the source of my laughter, gives me food when I randomly get hungry, and he accepts my sister like she's his own. I really wish that there was some way that I could repay him...
Today, we planned to have the entire day to ourselves. To be ‘out and about’ he said, but that was ruined when the rain decided to randomly come down and not let up in the least bit. Go figure…
I hoped that somehow we’d be able to escape and maybe even go to Jimmy’s, where more than likely Meghan was since today was also her day off. Don and Suzy decided to work my schedule around Meghan’s once I hit six months with my little ducky, Meghan had also moved from her old job at the warehouse to a local music store to be closer to me if something were to happen with the baby. That plan blew over once she and Jimmy started seeing each other as frequently as Johnny and I started.
She and Jimmy were perfect for each other. Meghan found a guy that was able to handle her sass, and Jimmy found a girl who didn’t think he was a complete weirdo. It was the cutest thing!
Just as I had gotten out of the restroom, I heard a loud crashing sound at the front of my apartment. Luckily I had brought my phone down with me from my room, so I got it ready to call 9-1-1. I tiptoed to the door quickly and looked through the peephole to see Johnny getting up from being face flat on the floor. “Goddamn it that hurt…” I heard him say. He’s too cute.
I opened the door right before he knocked and smiled at him, which he returned with a shy grin. “I guess that was a little loud,” He said, shivering.
“My God Johnny, you’re fucking soaked,” I said, pulling him inside. He laughed, “I’m fucking cold too!”
“I noticed babe!” I started rubbing his hands, and he looked down at me and laughed again. “Ooo! You left your white shirt and shorts here last time, I washed them on my laundry day.” I turned to go get them from my room as he stripped down to his boxers as to not track water through my apartment.
I put his clothes and a towel on the toilet before going back to him and take his drenched clothes from him. I went to our little laundry room and threw his clothes to wash with the ones Meghan had left in the washer. When I came back, Johnny was still standing in front of my door in his boxers. He looked so silly. His skin was covered in little water droplets, occasionally he’d rub his arms from the cold, his Mohawk was no longer standing up and hanging over his eyes.
As he was turned around, I took my shirt off, leaving me in my purple tank top, and walked behind him to wrap my arms around his waist.
“Anna,” Johnny’s whine had to be the cutest! “I’m still all wet baby!” He turned in my arms to face me, squeeze me and kiss my forehead.
I pecked his chest multiple times until he laughed. “I know you are, but I’m trying to help you get warm.” I cupped his cheek and pulled him down to kiss his lips sweetly. He kissed me back in no time, and smiled into it.
“You’re so fucking adorable Anna,” He chuckled.
I poked his naked stomach and giggled. “Hush you!” Johnny kissed me again, this time he trailed his kisses from my lips to my cheek then up to my temple, from there he moved to my jawline kissed down to my neck. He sucked on a real sensitive spot on my neck and my breath hitched.
“Babe,” I whispered. “I put your stuff on the toilet so you can take a hot shower.”
“Mhm..” Johnny’s kisses went back up to my lips, his hands went from the nape of my neck to my shoulders, then down to rub my now “six months big” belly. (The way Meghan says it). Johnny pushed me away from him and looked at me with a playful glare. “Ugh, get away from me! Trying to seduce me and whatnot.”
I laughed at him. “Get the fuck in there, you weirdo!” Johnny laughed all the way to the bathroom.
I decided to make some oven pizzas and boil some tea for lunch. Both were done just as Johnny shut the water off in the bathroom since he takes sooooo long in the shower. And from there, the rest of the day flew by. By around six o’clock, we had just realized that we spent the entire day on the couch watching movies and Johnny got a text from somebody. He had been laying his head on my belly, pressing his ear on it to listen. He’d been tapping random beats and feeling the baby kick the rhythms back, occasionally planting kisses on my stomach and whispering sweet nothings to my baby. I was so in love with him already, but something just kept echoing in the back of my mind: ‘be careful…’
Johnny kissed my belly one more time, then came up to kiss my lips and looked into my eyes. “We’ve been laying here all day! Jimmy just asked me if you wanna get ice cream.”
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his lips, “Sure baby. Just let me lay here for a little bit longer.”
Johnny’s smile was something I wanted to see forever. “No problem love. I’m just gonna watch the news for a bit, then we can go.”
He cuddled next to me again and I closed my eyes for a bit. Until…
“Breaking news today as police are investigating the murder of 42 year old Jacob Ruiz who was shot and pronounced dead on the scene during a public alteration. The 16 year old suspect, whose name was not disclosed by authorities, stated that his sister had been a victim of sexual assault by Ruiz. This information has not yet been confirmed. In other news…”
“Anna,” Johnny’s voiced forced me out of my trance. “Anna, baby are you okay?”
I hadn’t noticed that I’d been crying. But I just couldn’t stop. That was him. His face on my t.v. screen. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t stop shaking. ‘Dead? He can’t be dead. He’s too evil…’ Everything was coming back all at once. It’s not that easy. Nothing ever is. ‘Please God…’
“Anna, baby,” Johnny pulled me onto his lap and started to rub my back. “What’s wrong? Did you know that guy? Talk to me.”
Johnny’s breath on my neck, his fingers on my skin- ‘No… This isn’t happening. Anna calm down…’ I can’t, I can’t , I can’t!
I pushed Johnny away from me and concentrated on breathing. “Anna, baby,” Johnny reached out to me, but I cringed.
“P- please, d-don’t t-t-touch me,” I begged him like I begged the night it all happened. “S-stop. Get aw-w-way from m-me.”
The hurt on Johnny’s face killed me, but I was just so scared. “Anna-“
“NO,” I screamed. I cowered away from him, and he got up from the couch and raised his hands.
“Anna, I don’t know what the fuck you’re playing at,” he said, his voice breaking. “But you’re scaring the shit out of me. Please babe, tell me what’s going on!”
I looked around, I was still having trouble breathing, and now I was at a loss of words. How the fuck do I tell him?! I got up from where I was sitting and ran up the stairs with Johnny hot on my heels. I got to Meghan’s room and shut the door in his face, locked it and got onto the bed.
“Anna, please,” Johnny begged, knocking on the door. “Anna, tell me what happened. I won’t be angry or… anything. I swear, I’m not going to hurt you. Nor will I let anyone else hurt you. I’ll keep you safe. I promise. I swear on everything I love. On my fucking life! I swear to God, no one will hurt you. Just please, tell me what’s wrong and I will fucking fix it. Please!”
I started shaking uncontrollably, and looked over to the nightstand. Meghan’s phone! I left mine downstairs. I waited until I heard Johnny get up from in front of the door and walk down the stairs, only then did I dial Jimmy’s number… I really hope he answers.
Notes
Hmmm...
Oh my Stallion Duck!!! So much drama and everything... I don't even know what to say
6/7/14