Am I too Lost to be Saved?

~Meghan's Point of View~

"OH my GOSH, Meghan!" Little Anna was having one of her crazy days with her hormones and what not. Goodness gracious, this woman was bad enough when she WASN'T pregnant...
"WHY on Earth are you wrapping it like that? I already showed you how! You're taking super freaking long!" Her nagging is getting soooo annoying!

I'm pretty sure she was able to HEAR me roll my eyes at this point. I turned to her with my hands on my hips, careful not to touch anything that would get irritated from the Jalapeno juice all over my hands. "You know," I started slowly, staring Anna right in the eyes. "I'm not too sure Johnny would think all your nagging is very attractive."

I couldn't hold in the laugh that came suddenly when her face turned bright red. The angrier she got, the harder I laughed. 'Aw man, this is too damn good!' I tried to stop laughing, but she started to pout, and I just could no longer contain myself.

"Meghaaaaan," she whined. "Would you just shut up woman! For fuck sake, just wait 'til Jimmy sees you again. Johnny says he's been dying to get to know you!"

Almost immediately I stopped. Now, what the guys probably didn't know is that Anna and I are really big fans of their music. More than likely, Anna didn't say anything, which was expected of her since just about every time she talks to Johnny she seems to forget about EVERYTHING in creation! Me on the other hand? Well, I have a thing for guitarists, but when she told me about Jimmy taking interest in me I was kind of taken aback. I'm not exactly what I anyone would ever have considered a part of the rock community. Which was what made me so surprised. Who would have thought that someone like THE Jimmy "THE REV" Sullivan would ever take someone like me seriously in any way at all? I mean sure, this is THE REV we're talking about, but still...

I was snapped out of my thoughts by something smacking my face pretty hard. "What the fuck?!" I looked down at the banana peel Anna had thrown at me. "Goddamn it, you buttmuch!"

Anna kept laughing. "Well fuck! Earth to Meghan! Are you okay in there?" She came to knock on my forehead as I started to laugh with her.

"I'm fine, sis," I said to her with a sigh. She gave me a weird look before turning back to making her banana bread. She loved making things. Be it food, or some little arts and crafts thing, whatever it was she made always came out fantastic!

"Is there something the matter," Anna asked. Her voice seemed a bit flat. She already knew what was up.

I sighed. Might as well tell her. She's gonna lecture me either way. "What if..." It was then that I started feeling pathetic, and almost as if she sensed it, Anna spun around to meet me. She one hand on her hip and used the other to motion for me to go on. "Ugh," I faced palmed. "Wh-what if they don't like me, Anna? I mean, I love their music and everything. But I'm not like them, and I'm not like you. I mean shit! I don't even fucking dress like you guys do! My God, I don't even know why I'm-" I was about to go on a rant when I was cut short.

"Uh, I know you aren't fucking going to start that shit," Anna said curtly. I looked at her surprised. 'Oh shit,' I thought.

"Meghan, since when do you ever give two shits about what someone else thinks about you?" Anna's arms wrapped around my waist, and in that moment, the feeling of my little sister's baby bump pressing against my stomach calmed me down. "If they don't like you, you shouldn't care. But you know better than to think of yourself as unlikeable. It doesn't matter what they think. Only what you do. I love you, kay bitch?"

I laughed at my sister and patted her head. "I love you too, you little shit," and I meant it...
"The Jalapeno wraps are ready for the grill. I'mma throw them in and jump in the shower."

Anna let go of me and skipped over to put the banana bread batter into the oven. "Okie dokies. I'm gonna be looking for something to wear."

'Alright Meghan. Let's get ready for a night of serious fun...'


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Everything was ready just on time, including us, which put Anna in much less naggy mood. Perfect!:D But still, no matter how I tried, I could not get over how I would stick out like a sore thumb. I wasn't sure what I would say, or what I could do to pass the time. I would really love to drink my ass off, but seeing as Anna already had to put up with me being drunk the other night and hung over as fuck yesterday morning I kind of decided that it was in my best interest not to drink so much. Anna would probably kick my ass despite the little ducky in her tummy right now.

"Meghan," Anna's tiny voice once again pulled me out of my thoughts. "Meghan, we're here."

I turned to look at my sister, and took a deep breath. "Okay," I said, mainly to myself. "Do you need help carrying anything else? I can hold some more stuff Anna."

Anna rolled her eyes and chuckled. "You really need to calm down Meggers. Trust me. If anybody even looks at you crooked, I'll kick ass."

I sighed. I guess it was time. I got out of the car and took the pan of banana bread out of her hands and placed it on top of the pan holding the Jalapeno wraps with a smirk on my face, making sure I got under her skin. Anna huffed at me and rang the door bell.

Not even a few seconds after, a very breathless Johnny answered the door and blushed before he even made eye contact with Anna, who was also blushing furiously.

"H-hi," he managed to choke out. I couldn't stop myself from giggling, but once I did, I played it off by introducing myself to him as Anna's older sister.

"Ahem," Johnny straightened himself out before giving me a proper introduction and took both pans from me. I looked over to Anna and smiled sweetly seeing that nothing was able to take her attention away from him. 'I like this dude,' I kept thinking.

Just as we were walking into what I assumed was the main room, Jimmy jumped up quickly. "What the hell short shit," he screamed. "Who was at the d-d-"

I couldn't even breathe for a second. What the hell was wrong with him? And why the fuck is he staring at me like that? Why am I staring at him like this?

Almost as quickly as it happened, though it didn't go unnoticed, Johnny went up to Jimmy and clapped him on his shoulder. "Guys," he said, looking around at the rest of his band mates. "You all remember Anna. This is her older sister Meghan. She's been taking care of Anna."

Just about everyone looked at me with a smile, but not one person said anything.

"Uhm, hi," I stood where I was and waved awkwardly. "It's nice to meet you all. D-don't worry about introductions. I kind of know your names already..."

I looked over to Anna nervously, praying that something would happen. Then Jimmy came to me and grabbed my hand, "Well, why not. That would be rude." He said quickly. "I'm James Sullivan. But you can call me Jimmy, of course. Everybody does." Jimmy's smile was infectious, I couldn't keep my eyes from his. They were just so... beautiful!

"Well quit hogging her up, Jimbo," Matt said, squeezing in next to him holding his wife's hand. "Hey there, I'm Matt." I held my breath as he came in for a hug, and was even more afraid to exhale when Valary came in for a hug as well. "And I'm Val. It's awesome to meet you finally. Anna has talked to us about you a lot."

I smiled at Anna, and she nodded to me reassuringly.

The rest of the introductions went smoothly, and as the party started, I felt more and more welcomed.


~Jimmy's Point of View~

'Oh my good God, where the hell do such beautiful women come from?!' My head was just swimming, and every time I caught her looking over at me from where the girls were sitting, I got this funky feeling in my tummy. What the fuck? It's been so long since I've felt like this last. Ugh. Goddamn it. I knew she was pretty from the last time I'd seen her, but I didn't think I'd feel like this once I had actually met her!!

'Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit, holy shit! Wait a minute... What does her cap say? SWAG?! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?' I looked away just as soon as she saw me staring at her, but why the hell does she look so fucking worried? Does she not like me? Or my friends? I wonder what's the matter...

"Jimmy, if you're so interested in her, you should probably just go talk to her bro."

Fucking Zacky. 'Play it cool...'

"What," I asked, trying to be oblivious. But he knew better. That bastard.

"Meghan, dude," He laughed at me, without even the fucking decency to pretend. Ha. What a wiener. "We all think she's pretty too. But you're sitting over there, staring at her like she's gonna fucking disappear if you look away. Just go talk to her, Rev. I'm pretty sure she's waiting for you to anyway."

The guys all chuckled and I sighed. "What if she doesn't wanna talk to me," I worried out loud, earning a few weird looks from them. "You guys know how I am. And most people don't understand me. What if... what if she is one of those people and thinks I'm a fucking creep?"

Brian shook his head and leaned forward. "Come on, Jimmy," he started. "I know people can be fucking bitches at times, but you gotta give it a shot somehow, right?"

I looked into his eyes and nodded. What to do, what to do... Ah! I know!

I stood up and walked calmly over to the table where the girls were.

"Uh hey ladies," I said, trying my hardest to be a little suave. "I was just about to go on a little beer run. I was wondering if maaayybee, one of you wanted to come with?" I looked at Meghan, hoping she'd say yes and that everyone else would fuck off...


Anna made a quick movement under the table and Meghan flinched. I thought I hear a 'fucking bitch', come from her mouth quickly.

"Uhm..." Meghan's beautiful brown eyes met mine, and she continued shyly. "I- I'll go with you... If you don't mind that is."

I smiled as sweetly as I could to her. "No," I said. "I don't mind at all."

'Oh dear God help me breathe, please!' My fucking heart was pounding. I should I hold her hand? I really, really want to hold her hand!

'Ah, fuck it!' I took her hand and waved to everyone before pulling Meghan out to my car. Right before I went to open the door, I looked into her eyes. I didn't really mean to get lost in them or anything, but since that first day, man oh man! I just couldn't help myself!

"Uh," Meghan's voice was shaky. 'Is she scared?' "You gonna open the door there Jimbo?"

I laughed nervously. 'What the fuck, Jimmy? Wait, Jimbo?! That's a first. No one ever calls me that on the first day.' "Haha," I rubbed my neck like the big loser that I am and held the door open for her. "Yeah, sorry."
Once Meghan was in and had herself buckled in, I went around the car and did the same before starting the car and pulling out of the driveway. I made sure to grip the wheel tightly so that she wouldn't see my hands shaking. Oh fuck, I don't know how much longer I can take the silence. It's only been like 10 fucking seconds dude! WHAT THE FUCK! But before I could stop myself, "I didn't know how I would be able to talk to you. So this beer run is kind of fucking pointless." I stared furiously at the road and bit my lip before I said anything else.

'Way to fucking go James. Way to go...' Even my brain knew I was a dumb ass. Oh dear God, is she staring at me?!

I looked to the passenger seat, and Meghan had surprise written all over her face. "I'm sorry," I said. "My mouth kind of has no filter just about all the time, so I'm kind of used to saying exactly what it is I'm thinking."

And to my surprise, she laughed it off. I think I just melted a little inside! 'Keep making her laugh! Oh my God, her laugh is so fucking beautiful!'

"It's okay Jimmy," she said, not even bothering to look at me. "I do that a lot too. But why don't we go get the beer anyway? I'm itching for a drink..."

I looked to her again and smiled. "Uh, no problem. Everyone like Jack Daniels. Do you? I mean, you kind of have to if you're gonna hang out with us. It's a must, dude!"

Meghan gave me an incredulous look. "I, uh," 'She wants to fucking say something. Fucking say it dude. Ugh, I need to know everything she's thinking!'

"I- I love JD," she said simply. There has to be more. Ah well, let's play prying Jimmy. 'Mwuahahahahaaa!'

I reached over with a newly found confidence. I know when someone is feeling a little troubled, and I know even better how to make them feel wanted. "You know," I said slowly. "If you're gonna hang with us, you gotta not feel like you can't talk to us. We'll be here. Johnny seems to really like Anna, and any friend of Anna's is a friend to me."

I reversed into a parking space perfectly without having to let go of her hand. 'Bonus points for meeee!' I looked back over to meet her eyes. I think we might have stayed there for a while too long, but I didn't mind. I think I could have done this forever. Until she giggled. Aw man, this girl is killing me!

Meghan tried to hide her blush by covering her face. I wasn't going to let go of her hand anytime soon though. "Thanks Jimmy," she said, still giggling. I smiled at her and took my key out of the ignition.



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The rest of the night was just too amazing. I couldn't keep to myself anymore! I needed to be near her. I just had to be. Everything was absolutely amazing until Bri threw me into Matt's fucking pool! Then it got even better! Luckily my phone wasn't in my pocket. Not that I really cared, I've already broken so many on my own. But then how would I text Meghan when I got her number? Smart thinkin', eh?

After I was thrown into the pool, I went to the girls to hug them and spread my wetness. (Haha, sounds wrong!) Then I ended up dragging about three of them, including Meghan, back into the pool with me. Everyone was laughing their asses off.

All in all, the entire night was amazing. I went to bed with my heart soaring. I kept replaying everything in my head, I was somehow able to get her to agree to me taking her out on a date or something. A proper one. And she actually fucking said yes! I've already planned everything out, and it's all going to be perfect! See, there really is a method to my madness.

I just can't wait to see her again... Meghan..

Notes

So I know there wasn't the Johnny/Anna action in there, but I kind of liked the idea of Meghan and Jimmy. Let's see how everything goes. :)