Am I too Lost to be Saved?

~Later that day. Anna’s Point of View~

Not even lying, I was in bliss almost the entire rest of the day. It’s true, I’ve dated a few guys back in the day, but I’ve never had a first. Johnny… The way he kissed me, his hands on my skin, the way he moved his hips and said my name. Everything, all of it, just drove me insane! My heart was set on overdrive. Now every time he looked at me, I couldn’t help but blush like crazy and he didn’t help by laughing at me when I did.

I think after a while it started getting a little obvious that either something happened or was about to happen because everybody was beginning to notice the way Johnny and I were acting and playing around with each other. Today we all decided to meet up at Jimmy’s house and just have some time to all hang out the way we usually did, so here we were, eating great food, drinking soda. (Well, I was since I can’t drink anything alcoholic), and just hanging out. Johnny and I had been completely oblivious to everyone staring at us during one of our moments when Meghan kicked me under the table. I turned to glare at her when:

“Hey Zee,” Jimmy said, a huge grin plastered to his face. ‘This little asshole!'
“What’s up Jim?” The grin on Zacky’s face mirrored that of Jimmy’s and I couldn’t do anything but grin back at them and cross my arms over my chest.
“I think somebody fucked last night! Hahahaaaaoooooww! Goddamn it! And what the fuck Gates, you sick bitch!” While Jimmy had started trying to tease Johnny and I, Brian spit his beer out laughing when Meghan reached over and smacked Jimmy upside his head.

“Actually,” I said smugly. “It was this morning.” Everyone’s eyes snapped to me, while Johnny covered his face laughing with me at everyone’s expression=s. Val took her phone out and snapped a few pictures of everyone before bursting out in laughter as well.

‘OMG! REALLY VAL,” Michelle laughed. “MY FUCKING MOUTH WAS HANGING WIDE OPEN, YOU BITCH!”
At this we all started laughing, while Jimbo kept rubbing his ear. This had to be one of the best days of my life!

After a while, we all started getting bored and it was barely going to be 5 o’clock.

“Guys, the Sun is going down,” Matt slurred. Val put her hand on his and rolled her eyes.
“Yeah Matt,” Johnny said slowly. “That’s usually what happens you know.”
“Shut the fuck up, bitch,” Mattie laughed. “I meant like, its getting dark and we’re fucking bored. We should go to the beach.”
I felt my face light up, and I turned quickly to look at Johnny. He smiled back at me and kissed my lips. “Sure,” Johnny said to Matt. “Why not?”
“Nah, dude,” Jimmy said loudly.
“Aw,” Meghan pouted. “Why noooot?!”
Jimmy poked her cheek, “Cause I don’t wannaaaaaa!”
“Jimmyyyyyy,” I whined. He turned to me and smirked. “Plllllleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaassssssssseeeeeee?!” I stuck my bottom lip out and gave him my best puppy dog eyes. Apparently I wanted to go to the beach more than I thought I did.

Jimmy’s smirk fell and he turned to Meghan for help, who just laughed at him and scooted over closer to Zacky and Jenna. “Nope,” she said to him. “You’re on your own with this one buddy.”

The boys laughed while the girls ‘awed’ at my face. “Oh fuck. I’m so glad I’m not on the receiving end of that face,” Johnny said, laughing.

“Aw, fine,” Jimmy said.
“WHAT,” Bri shouted playfully. “You NEVER fall for my puppy eyes and I’m way fucking cuter than Anna!”
“BULLSHIT,” I yelled, laughing at him.
“Bitch!” Jimmy was in the kitchen already cleaning up so that we could leave. “YOU try saying no to that face next time! I almost apologized for no fucking reason!”

Johnny stood up and helped me out of my chair. “Come on baby,” he said to me, a smile gracing his lips. “Let’s beat ‘em over there.” I nodded at him and held on to his hand as he let everyone know we were going to save a spot for them near the shore.

We got there in no time, I took off my shoes in the car and made my way through the warm sand, shielding my eyes from the light that was still shining from the Sun. Johnny had been saying something about lantern thingies he still had in the trunk that we could use, so I was a bit surprised when I felt his arms snake around me once my feet were in the water.

“I love you Anna,” he whispered into my ear. Johnny’s hands rubbed my belly, chuckling when the baby’s kicked started up.
“This is so perfect,” I said without thinking. Johnny kissed my neck and nodded.
“It is,” he mumbled against my skin, making me shiver. “Imagine what it’s going to be like when Baby gets here…”

I froze. ‘What?’

I turned to him and looked into his eyes. “What’s the matter, Anna,” Johnny asked, grabbing my shoulders.
“You’d actually stay?” I needed to hear him tell me.

Johnny let out a breath he was holding and smiled. His hands made it down to mine, and he pulled them around so that my arms were around his neck, then he placed his hands on my waist and put his forehead against mine.

“Did you expect me to leave?” He placed a kiss on my lips and pulled away just enough so that I would be able to answer him.
“I- well, I- Kind of,” I said. “I didn’t think you’d want to stick around to raise someone else’s kid.”

Johnny scoffed, and then pulled me into a tight hug. “Anna,” he said softly. “I want to be here for everything, baby. For both of you. I don’t give a shit if that kid isn’t mine. It’s still a kid, and I want to be able to love it just as much as you do.”

Johnny pulled back to look into my eyes, which were now full of tears. “You’ve been broken for far too long, Anna,” he said, his eyes shining in the fading sunlight. “It’s time to let me heal you.” I pulled him down to me and kissed him with everything I had.

Despite our wonderful episode this morning, I had been bracing myself for the moment he would turn to me and say that he didn’t want to be around me. So to hear this was so unexpected. So different from what I thought he was going to tell me for the longest time.

“I love you, Johnny,” I said once I let him go, wiping my face with the backs of my hands.
He laughed and grabbed my face with both hands and kissed me again. “I love you too, baby,” he said. “Now let’s get in the water. I barely noticed everyone get here. Haha!”

Notes

Yay! New chapter! Now I think I should probably get to sleep. It's 1:17, I've got class tomorrow but I CAN'T STOP WRITING! Haha!

Hope everything is going great!
Much love!<3