Am I too Lost to be Saved?

I woke up the next morning to Anna’s warm breath on my neck, and smiled. ‘My love,’ I thought to myself as I rubbed her shoulder softly. I looked down to see how she was sleeping.

Anna was wearing nothing but one of my old t-shirts and her underwear, lying on her right side, her left leg over mine, her right hand under my left shoulder, resting her left one on my chest while she laid her head in the crook of my neck. I don’t think I would ever get tired of this. Feeling her so close to me. I wanted her so badly. I needed her. With that, I slowly moved out from under her and laid her on her back so that I could lean over her and support my weight with my arms. I looked down to admire the beauty below me. Everything about her was beautiful. The way her hair fell over her shoulders, glow of her smooth skin, her soft lips, I could go on and on about her…

I leaned down to kiss her behind her ear and she shifted to wrap her arms around my neck to bring me closer to her. My hand went to her shoulder and down to her waist, moving slowly to the exposed skin just above her hips. I kissed her softly. Once she kissed me back, I put in all the emotion I could manage. I licked and sucked on her bottom lip ever so slightly, and to my surprise, she granted me entrance and sighed as I allowed my tongue to explore her mouth just for a moment. Our passionate kiss turned to small pecks that I trailed to her cheek, down to her neck.

Anna’s hands moved to the back of my head, running through my hair as I kissed her neck. She pulled slightly when I bit her softly, and the quiet moan she let out when I sucked on the violated spot sparked a small flame inside of me. ‘Slow down, Johnny,’ I said to myself.

I moved down from her neck, letting my fingers trace her panty line, feeling her twitch a little under my touch while I kissed her chest. I trailed my kisses downward, spending a little more time kissing between her breasts earning a small gasp from Anna before her breath hitched when I sucked a bit. I looked up to see her eyes closed, her cheeks a bright red, and she was taking shallow breaths. Anna’s eyes opened to meet my gaze.

“I’m not going too fast, am I,” I asked her, worried that I might offend her in some way.

Anna shook her head and smiled, so I continued. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander as I took more time kissing her chest, savoring the taste of her soft skin, enjoying every moan and gasp that came from her sweet lips. I felt as though it was getting hotter as my excitement grew, but I knew that it had to be too soon for her. So with that, I moved on, once again trailing my kisses down.


I sat up slightly, allowing myself to kneel between her legs, I pulled her to me so that our hips met. A small gasp came from Anna once I was sure she could feel my boxer-clad erection pressed hard against her core through her thin underwear and groaned a little louder than I intended. I had no shame in this. I wanted to show her something. Something that I had accepted once I had accepted her. I had spoken to Jimmy the night after our big incident, and at this very moment his words were echoing in my mind. “It’s time for you to man up, Johnny,” he had told me. “If you really love Anna as much as you say you do, you’ve got to love that baby just as much. She’s a package deal. And if you can’t accept the fact that that kid is going to be in her life, you don’t deserve her.” Each of the guys agreed, and each of them were all excited and open minded to the decision I made, ready to support me when I finally did.

I’ve accepted it. I opened up to this life, it was what I’ve wanted for the longest time, and I was ready for it. I wanted her to know this. I wanted to give her all of me. Everything I had to offer.

“Johnny,” Anna said uneasily. “Johnny, I-“

“Shh,” I cooed to her, leaning down to kiss her stomach. My hands didn’t leave her waist as I laid my forehead to her belly and closed my eyes.

I felt Anna’s finger tips twisting in my hair and sighed, crawling up to capture her lips with mine.

“Anna,” I sighed against her lips. She smiled into our kiss as she, once again, wrapped her arms around my neck. I let her pull me closer to her. I felt almost as though we had been molded exactly for each other. Like every crevice of her body fit with mine despite her pregnant belly. And when she did this I felt just how her body reacted to mine. Her skin began to warm mine, the blush that graced her cheeks slowly grew stronger as my fingers traced up her sides, her heart was beating so hard that I could feel it slightly against my skin… all this gave me a crazy ass case of butterflies and made me want her that much more.

I deepened our kiss, and she started to put more emotion into it, our lips moving together, our tongues dancing, it just made everything so much more intense. Anna’s breathing started getting heavier when I dropped my left hand back down to her waist and pulled her hips to me again, rolling my hips against her gently. Anna moaned into our kiss, and arched her back, pushing her breasts to my chest. I ground against her again, my right hand finding its way to the nape of her neck, the warmness of her entrance growing. I rolled my hips against her again, and again, making my longing for her known, and moved my kiss to her neck so that she could make an objection if she wanted.

I pushed my clothed erection against her core again, and instead of refusing me like I had planned, Anna’s hips met mine. I looked up to meet her gaze, and she moved her right hand to cup my cheek. I stared into her eyes, searching for some hint of doubt, but was met by her smile.

I kissed her lips, then sat up to lift her shirt over her head. Anna’s blush deepened, and I couldn’t help but chuckle at her. She smacked my chest and laughed, “Don’t laugh at me damn it!”

I shook my head at her. How she be so fucking embarrassed? “So beautiful,” was all I could say as I admired her. I could feel her eyes on my face as I traced every scar on her naked torso. All the hatred and anger I felt towards the world for putting her through the shit that she went through melted away. I knew that I wanted to be here for her. For as long as she wanted me around, I would protect her.

I leaned down and started to kiss her. Every scar that I could feel, as though I could kiss every painful memory of that night away. I reached around under her to unhook her bra and pulled it away. I kissed her collar bone and her shoulder. My fingers grazed her skin, from her waist, up her sides, to her breasts. I started to knead them as I kissed my way back to her lips. I moved my hands to grab hers and pull them to hold them over her head.

“Anna,” I said in her ear softly. “I love you so much.”

She let out a shaky breath. “I love you too, Johnny,” just as she said that, my heart skipped a beat. My lips met hers again and I moved back so that I could remove her underwear from her. I kissed right above her sex, to her thighs, and looked up to her right before going to take off my boxers.

“Are you sure this is okay, Anna,” I asked her. “I don’t want to do anything that you aren’t ready for, baby.”

Anna looked straight into my eyes and nodded. So I continued. I threw my boxers down to the floor along with her clothes and let my lips graze back up her thighs stopping right at her core. I kissed her “sweet spot” and she gasped, but made no attempt to stop me. Anna spread her legs a little more and raised her knees tentatively, allowing me to continue. I licked her slowly, allowing her to get used to the feeling of me being there. I licked and sucked to my heart’s desire, and Anna’s moans filled my ears. I looked up to see her with her eyes closed, clawing at the bed sheets.

I closed my eyes and nibbled on her clit, digging my fingers in her thighs as her hands found their way to my hair.

“Mmm,” Anna’s fingers went through my hair as she arched her back, shuddering. “Johnnyyyy…”

Her breathing was getting ragged, but I didn’t want her to be finished yet. I pulled away from her hot core, and moved over her. My lips at hers, my dick right at her entrance. “Anna,” I moaned, kissing her lips, pushing myself slowly into her.

Anna gasped and gripped my shoulders tightly as I slowly filled her. Every part of her felt so right, she was perfect, just like I thought. Anna wrapped her legs around my waist, pulling me deeper into her. Once I was buried as far as I could go, I kissed her deeply and pulled out half way, then pushed myself in again, starting off dreadfully slow, letting her adjust to me.

I quickened my pace as a feeling of euphoria washed over me. Thrusting in and out, I let my lips wander to her neck, my teeth grazing her skin. Anna threw her arms around my neck, trying so desperately to pull me to her, but her arms were shaky.

“J-John-ny,” she moaned. She was getting closer to her climax, so I sped up. Letting the sound of grunting and skin hitting skin fill the room. “Uhh…” Anna’s nails made their way down my back, and I felt that spark light a fire in me.

I started sweating as I felt my desire take over. I went faster and harder, thrusting in and out of her perfection.

“Johnny… Fuck!,” Anna’s sweet voice moaned out louder as I pushed deeper into her.

I started to whisper sweet nothings into her ear, telling her how much I love her, and how perfect she felt. I nibbled on her earlobe and felt her walls clench around me.

I was almost done, and she was right there with me. “Let it go baby,” I grunted. “Cum with me…”

Anna’s eyes shot open, she bit down on her lip trying to keep from being too loud. Her orgasm shook through her body just as I felt mine go throughout me. My lips met hers as we rode out our highs.

I pulled out of her, and collapsed next to her. Anna turned to me and buried her face into my neck, kissing me sweetly. I pulled her close to me. Everything was just so right…

“I love you,” Anna said quietly.

Notes

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