Life in Technicolour.
Thirty One: I don't ever wanna lose my best friend.
“Riley please just talk to me” I begged.
“Zacky I can’t even look at you right now” She said through her tears.
“Riley I know you’re mad I—“
“Mad? You think I’m mad ? Try absolutely fucking livid! Try heartbroken! Try in despair, I may be a lot of things Zack but I am not mad ” She seethed, I stared at her, I don’t think I’ve ever been scared of a woman before, but I was genuinely scared right then, I swallowed hard. The doorbell went then, I didn’t have time to think about who it was before Riley stomped over and wrenched the door open, revealing Matt and Brian standing there.
“What? Did he call you for fucking back up now?”
“Riley what are you talking about?” Matt asked walking into the flat.
“Ask him, ask you best friend. He tells you guys everything anyway. Oh wait no he fucking doesn’t”
“Riley seriously what are you talking about?”
“He slept with Gena, the night I left he fucked Gena behind my back, oh and the best thing is, he said that he didn’t mean to do it, because he accidently slept with her, isn’t it just so fucking funny” She laughed and wiped away more of the tears that clung to her cheeks. “And to think that I actually thought I loved you, Mason was right” She laughed again, it was a cruel sound, but the thing that pissed me off was what she said, she started to walk away but I grabbed her arm and span her around.
“Don’t ever fucking compare me to that fucker” I growled, pinning her against the door frame.
“Get the fuck off me!” She yelled, kneeing me in the balls, I groaned and fell to my knees, my hands flying to my balls. Matt grabbed me and dragged me over to the couch, I heard Riley slam her bedroom door and Brian go after her.
I sat with Matt for a while, he said nothing, but I could feel his gaze, I knew he was pissed at me. And then I couldn’t hold it in anymore, I let out a strangled sob and buried my face in my hands, the only other time Matt had ever seen me cry was when Jimmy died and at his funeral, he’d never seen me cry over a girl, but then again, Riley wasn’t just a girl. I heard footsteps and doors opening and slamming.
“Don’t glare at me Matthew” Riley spat.
“No Matt don’t make her pissed I just calmed her down” Brian whined.
“Shut up Brian!” She yelled “Don’t you fucking get involved either this is between me and Zacky”
“Then fucking talk to him!”
“Um not while you two are here”
“I’m not leaving you two alone chances are you’ll kill each other” Brian said.
“He fucking cheated on me, with his ex, I have nothing else to say to him other than he can fucking find someone else to share an apartment with”
“You can’t kick me out!” I said suddenly, I stood up and turned to face her.
“I never said I was kicking you out”
“But Riley you can’t leave me” I moved to stand in front of her, cupping her face with my hands.
“You should have thought of that before you fucked your ex-girlfriend Zacky” She said, placing her hands over mine “But you didn’t!”
“Riley please I’m begging you. Please don’t fucking leave me” I pressed her against the wall. Brian and Matt sat/stood there awkwardly as I said this “I love you so much, more than I’ve ever loved anyone or anything else in my life and I… Riley I’m scared that if you leave me right now I really will do something stupid”
“I’m not your keeper”
“No, you’re the woman I love, you’re the only woman I’ve ever loved, underneath everything else you’re always the one that I’ll come back to because… what I feel for you… it just surpasses anything else I’ve ever felt for anyone and I can’t… I can’t even think about living without you… it hurts too much” I said
“Why’re you doing this to me Zacky, why do you make it hurt so much?”
“I don’t mean to… Riley please, baby don’t leave me, please I’ll do anything”
“I’m not leaving I just… well they have to go for a start” She said, I turned around, giving them a pleading look, they nodded and left without a word. Brian only stopped when he got to the door.
“Call us if you need anything” He said, Riley nodded and then they left.
“I love you Zacky, I’m just… I don’t know if I can do this”
“We don’t have to, just please, stay here tonight, just stay”
“Okay”
X-X-X
Something didn’t feel right, something was off, Riley said she was going to take a bath a good hour ago, she hadn’t come out yet and she never spent that long in there, it wasn’t like her. I knocked on the bathroom door and I got no response.
“Riley?” I called out, she didn’t respond “Riley” I called a little louder, knocking this time. “Riley if you don’t answer me I’m coming in” I said trying the handle. It was locked; I was starting to panic now. This wasn’t like her and I was getting genuinely scared.
“Riley I’m coming in” I said, I pulled my wallet out of my back pocket and grabbed my credit card, I got the door open in a matter of seconds and pushed it open, standing up
I was greeted with something that I thought I would never have to witness. Riley was lying unconscious in the bath there was an empty bottle of JD on the floor along with a pill bottle, both lying in a pool of her own blood that was dripping from her wrist and staining the floor.
“Riley!” I yelled, surging forward I pulled her seemingly lifeless body out of the bath and placed her on the floor, immediately I pulled out my cell phone and dialled 911. I told the woman on the phone what happened and she said she was sending an ambulance right away. She then told me about checking for a pulse and such, she had one, but it was really weak. I heard a knock at the front door and I ran to answer it, the paramedics pushed past me and ran to the bathroom, picking up her body and putting her on a stretcher, they carried her out and I followed them, but not before grabbing the house keys and slamming the door shut.
I jumped in the back of the ambulance and we sped off to the hospital. They hooked Riley up to oxygen and stuff on the way there and I grabbed her cold hand in my own.
“Riley please, please pull through this, I don’t know what I’m gonna do if I lose you, I already lost Jimmy, I can’t lose you too, baby please, just please pull through” And then I cried, big gut wrenching sobs, I cried for Riley.
“Zacky I can’t even look at you right now” She said through her tears.
“Riley I know you’re mad I—“
“Mad? You think I’m mad ? Try absolutely fucking livid! Try heartbroken! Try in despair, I may be a lot of things Zack but I am not mad ” She seethed, I stared at her, I don’t think I’ve ever been scared of a woman before, but I was genuinely scared right then, I swallowed hard. The doorbell went then, I didn’t have time to think about who it was before Riley stomped over and wrenched the door open, revealing Matt and Brian standing there.
“What? Did he call you for fucking back up now?”
“Riley what are you talking about?” Matt asked walking into the flat.
“Ask him, ask you best friend. He tells you guys everything anyway. Oh wait no he fucking doesn’t”
“Riley seriously what are you talking about?”
“He slept with Gena, the night I left he fucked Gena behind my back, oh and the best thing is, he said that he didn’t mean to do it, because he accidently slept with her, isn’t it just so fucking funny” She laughed and wiped away more of the tears that clung to her cheeks. “And to think that I actually thought I loved you, Mason was right” She laughed again, it was a cruel sound, but the thing that pissed me off was what she said, she started to walk away but I grabbed her arm and span her around.
“Don’t ever fucking compare me to that fucker” I growled, pinning her against the door frame.
“Get the fuck off me!” She yelled, kneeing me in the balls, I groaned and fell to my knees, my hands flying to my balls. Matt grabbed me and dragged me over to the couch, I heard Riley slam her bedroom door and Brian go after her.
I sat with Matt for a while, he said nothing, but I could feel his gaze, I knew he was pissed at me. And then I couldn’t hold it in anymore, I let out a strangled sob and buried my face in my hands, the only other time Matt had ever seen me cry was when Jimmy died and at his funeral, he’d never seen me cry over a girl, but then again, Riley wasn’t just a girl. I heard footsteps and doors opening and slamming.
“Don’t glare at me Matthew” Riley spat.
“No Matt don’t make her pissed I just calmed her down” Brian whined.
“Shut up Brian!” She yelled “Don’t you fucking get involved either this is between me and Zacky”
“Then fucking talk to him!”
“Um not while you two are here”
“I’m not leaving you two alone chances are you’ll kill each other” Brian said.
“He fucking cheated on me, with his ex, I have nothing else to say to him other than he can fucking find someone else to share an apartment with”
“You can’t kick me out!” I said suddenly, I stood up and turned to face her.
“I never said I was kicking you out”
“But Riley you can’t leave me” I moved to stand in front of her, cupping her face with my hands.
“You should have thought of that before you fucked your ex-girlfriend Zacky” She said, placing her hands over mine “But you didn’t!”
“Riley please I’m begging you. Please don’t fucking leave me” I pressed her against the wall. Brian and Matt sat/stood there awkwardly as I said this “I love you so much, more than I’ve ever loved anyone or anything else in my life and I… Riley I’m scared that if you leave me right now I really will do something stupid”
“I’m not your keeper”
“No, you’re the woman I love, you’re the only woman I’ve ever loved, underneath everything else you’re always the one that I’ll come back to because… what I feel for you… it just surpasses anything else I’ve ever felt for anyone and I can’t… I can’t even think about living without you… it hurts too much” I said
“Why’re you doing this to me Zacky, why do you make it hurt so much?”
“I don’t mean to… Riley please, baby don’t leave me, please I’ll do anything”
“I’m not leaving I just… well they have to go for a start” She said, I turned around, giving them a pleading look, they nodded and left without a word. Brian only stopped when he got to the door.
“Call us if you need anything” He said, Riley nodded and then they left.
“I love you Zacky, I’m just… I don’t know if I can do this”
“We don’t have to, just please, stay here tonight, just stay”
“Okay”
X-X-X
Something didn’t feel right, something was off, Riley said she was going to take a bath a good hour ago, she hadn’t come out yet and she never spent that long in there, it wasn’t like her. I knocked on the bathroom door and I got no response.
“Riley?” I called out, she didn’t respond “Riley” I called a little louder, knocking this time. “Riley if you don’t answer me I’m coming in” I said trying the handle. It was locked; I was starting to panic now. This wasn’t like her and I was getting genuinely scared.
“Riley I’m coming in” I said, I pulled my wallet out of my back pocket and grabbed my credit card, I got the door open in a matter of seconds and pushed it open, standing up
I was greeted with something that I thought I would never have to witness. Riley was lying unconscious in the bath there was an empty bottle of JD on the floor along with a pill bottle, both lying in a pool of her own blood that was dripping from her wrist and staining the floor.
“Riley!” I yelled, surging forward I pulled her seemingly lifeless body out of the bath and placed her on the floor, immediately I pulled out my cell phone and dialled 911. I told the woman on the phone what happened and she said she was sending an ambulance right away. She then told me about checking for a pulse and such, she had one, but it was really weak. I heard a knock at the front door and I ran to answer it, the paramedics pushed past me and ran to the bathroom, picking up her body and putting her on a stretcher, they carried her out and I followed them, but not before grabbing the house keys and slamming the door shut.
I jumped in the back of the ambulance and we sped off to the hospital. They hooked Riley up to oxygen and stuff on the way there and I grabbed her cold hand in my own.
“Riley please, please pull through this, I don’t know what I’m gonna do if I lose you, I already lost Jimmy, I can’t lose you too, baby please, just please pull through” And then I cried, big gut wrenching sobs, I cried for Riley.
Notes
Title credit: A match into water - Pierce the Veil.Now I'm not a huge PTV fan, but [url= http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQ-H_i1K2n4]This song [/url] is just fucking beautiful.