I Wait And Bleed
Nightmare
"I DO MORE SHIT AROUND THIS HOUSE THAN YOU EVER HAVE!! DON'T TELL ME I DON'T SHIT WHEN NO ONE ELSE FUCKING HELPS ME!" I screamed at my father. He was bitching at me yet again and I wasn't giving him a year just to do this shit because I knew he wasn't going to change.
"DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE THAT! I AM YOU FUCKING FATHER!" he screamed back and he came closer to me and stabbed me in the shoulder repeatedly while I screamed for my mother who was just standing there watching him do it. I felt every pain go through my body as he stabbed me repeatedly killing me from the outside wanting me dead so he would only have a son left.
I felt someone shaking me and I quickly opened my eyes and seen Zacky there. I buried my head into him chest shaking with fear.
"It's okay...it's okay. It was just a nightmare." He said rubbing my back. I heard the door fly open and seen Gena sit down on the bed trying to calm me as well. I took in a few deep breaths and began to calm. I looked up and them and rubbed my eyes.
"Are you okay Raven?" Gena asked rubbing my shoulders.
"I'm fine. Like you said it was just a nightmare." I said. I grabbed my phone and seen it was 8 am the time I usually woke up anyways.
"Are you hungry?" Zacky asked and I nodded yes and Gena left the room to go make some breakfast.
"Get dressed and meet us in the kitchen. Gena should have breakfast done by then." He said and I nodded as he left the room. I got up and put on some black skinny jeans, a black tank top, and a plaid black and green button up shirt over that. I looked damn good. I brushed out my hair and walked out of the room. I walked downstairs and into the kitchen sitting down at the bar.
"Thirsty?" Zacky asked and I nodded again. I watched as he poured some orange juice into a glass and set it down in front of me. I sat there in silence before the door flew open and Jimmy walked in.
"Jimmy! Don't you know how to knock?" Zacky asked getting aggravated.
"I do but I just choose not too." he said and he sat down beside me hugging me tightly.
"Jimmy are you always his excited and hyper in the morning?" I asked rubbing my eyes again and yawning.
"Hell yeah! That's why they call me crazy Jim." he said and I rolled my eyes.
"You haven't seen crazy yet." I said and he looked at me confused. I reached into my pocket and pulled out a prescription bottle of anti-psychotics. Jimmy read the label and was shocked.
"You really take those?" he asked as the other guys walked into the kitchen.
"Yeah. I have too or I'll go crazy." I said crossing my eyes.
"Oh fun. We are so much alike it ain't even funny." Jimmy said smiling. Gena finished up the breakfast and I began to eat. After one plate I was done. I never ate more than one plate at breakfast. When all the guys were finished they went into the living room to watch TV. I stayed in the kitchen and helped Gena wash up the dishes and put them away.
"So what made you decide to come to Huntington Beach?" Gena asked as I put the last plate away.
"To get away from the people where I am from." I said sitting down at the bar. She sat down next to me.
"Where are you from?"
"Tennessee. A little town called White Pine." I said and she nodded her head in understanding.
"Why did you leave?
" "What are you a shrink?" I asked raising a brow.
"No I'm just interested in you. Since I am thinking highly about adopting you. Have you finished school?"
"Yeah. My mom home schooled me and I was finished with everything by the age of 13." I explained and she just nodded again and smiled. I smiled back and we talked a little more but I wouldn't let her get into my head and figure out the real reason why I left Tennessee.
"So you want to go shopping? I mean for your room and for you?" she asked and I nodded and she went to go get ready while I put on my chains and Harley boots. Gena told Zacky that we would be back later and he kissed her goodbye and we went out the door.
I got into the passenger side and put on my seat belt as she drove to the nearest mall. We bought all kinds of things for my room and for my wardrobe and we headed back to the house to get my room set up. We got back home and the guys helped us carry everything in. When we finished I sat down on the couch exhausted and Brian cam over and sat down beside me.
"Tired?" he asked.
"How did you guess?" I laughed and rolled my eyes at his stupid question.
"I think you should go up to your room and try and get some sleep." he said and I nodded and went up to my room. I sat down on the bed propped up against the headboard and grabbed my guitar. I started to play a song I have always played and sometimes it made me cry. It might be a country song but it was a good one. I loved this song called When You Say Nothing At All by Alison Krauss.
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
I ended the song and seen all the guys standing in the doorway looking at me. I blushed and they began to clap.
"Guys guys! You've heard me play and sing before." I said and they continued to clap. I just rolled my eyes and put my guitar down.
"Why did you stop? We want to hear more." Jimmy pouted. I grabbed my phone and seen the time. I knew Damien would be calling soon and I don't want the guys to think something.
"I need some sleep. I always play before I go to bed. It helps me sleep." I said and they nodded. I laid back and all the guys came over and kissed my forehead. I just rolled my eyes when Jimmy licked me. He smiled big like a madman and left the room. I was finally alone. I closed my eyes and went to sleep. A bright flash of light filled my room and I realized it was lightening. The thunder came crashing and I jumped up and ran into Zacky and Gena's room. I push on Zacky's arm and shoulder and he woke up and looked at me.
"What's wrong?" As soon as he said that another bolt of lightening and the sound of loud thunder crashed into the room. I bent down into the corner huddled up and shaking with fear. Zacky slowly got up and led me to his bed and I laid down.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gena woke up slowly and seen Raven between me and her. I mouthed to her that she is afraid of the storm and she turned over putting an around around Raven and I did the same and soon feel asleep.
"DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE THAT! I AM YOU FUCKING FATHER!" he screamed back and he came closer to me and stabbed me in the shoulder repeatedly while I screamed for my mother who was just standing there watching him do it. I felt every pain go through my body as he stabbed me repeatedly killing me from the outside wanting me dead so he would only have a son left.
I felt someone shaking me and I quickly opened my eyes and seen Zacky there. I buried my head into him chest shaking with fear.
"It's okay...it's okay. It was just a nightmare." He said rubbing my back. I heard the door fly open and seen Gena sit down on the bed trying to calm me as well. I took in a few deep breaths and began to calm. I looked up and them and rubbed my eyes.
"Are you okay Raven?" Gena asked rubbing my shoulders.
"I'm fine. Like you said it was just a nightmare." I said. I grabbed my phone and seen it was 8 am the time I usually woke up anyways.
"Are you hungry?" Zacky asked and I nodded yes and Gena left the room to go make some breakfast.
"Get dressed and meet us in the kitchen. Gena should have breakfast done by then." He said and I nodded as he left the room. I got up and put on some black skinny jeans, a black tank top, and a plaid black and green button up shirt over that. I looked damn good. I brushed out my hair and walked out of the room. I walked downstairs and into the kitchen sitting down at the bar.
"Thirsty?" Zacky asked and I nodded again. I watched as he poured some orange juice into a glass and set it down in front of me. I sat there in silence before the door flew open and Jimmy walked in.
"Jimmy! Don't you know how to knock?" Zacky asked getting aggravated.
"I do but I just choose not too." he said and he sat down beside me hugging me tightly.
"Jimmy are you always his excited and hyper in the morning?" I asked rubbing my eyes again and yawning.
"Hell yeah! That's why they call me crazy Jim." he said and I rolled my eyes.
"You haven't seen crazy yet." I said and he looked at me confused. I reached into my pocket and pulled out a prescription bottle of anti-psychotics. Jimmy read the label and was shocked.
"You really take those?" he asked as the other guys walked into the kitchen.
"Yeah. I have too or I'll go crazy." I said crossing my eyes.
"Oh fun. We are so much alike it ain't even funny." Jimmy said smiling. Gena finished up the breakfast and I began to eat. After one plate I was done. I never ate more than one plate at breakfast. When all the guys were finished they went into the living room to watch TV. I stayed in the kitchen and helped Gena wash up the dishes and put them away.
"So what made you decide to come to Huntington Beach?" Gena asked as I put the last plate away.
"To get away from the people where I am from." I said sitting down at the bar. She sat down next to me.
"Where are you from?"
"Tennessee. A little town called White Pine." I said and she nodded her head in understanding.
"Why did you leave?
" "What are you a shrink?" I asked raising a brow.
"No I'm just interested in you. Since I am thinking highly about adopting you. Have you finished school?"
"Yeah. My mom home schooled me and I was finished with everything by the age of 13." I explained and she just nodded again and smiled. I smiled back and we talked a little more but I wouldn't let her get into my head and figure out the real reason why I left Tennessee.
"So you want to go shopping? I mean for your room and for you?" she asked and I nodded and she went to go get ready while I put on my chains and Harley boots. Gena told Zacky that we would be back later and he kissed her goodbye and we went out the door.
I got into the passenger side and put on my seat belt as she drove to the nearest mall. We bought all kinds of things for my room and for my wardrobe and we headed back to the house to get my room set up. We got back home and the guys helped us carry everything in. When we finished I sat down on the couch exhausted and Brian cam over and sat down beside me.
"Tired?" he asked.
"How did you guess?" I laughed and rolled my eyes at his stupid question.
"I think you should go up to your room and try and get some sleep." he said and I nodded and went up to my room. I sat down on the bed propped up against the headboard and grabbed my guitar. I started to play a song I have always played and sometimes it made me cry. It might be a country song but it was a good one. I loved this song called When You Say Nothing At All by Alison Krauss.
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
I ended the song and seen all the guys standing in the doorway looking at me. I blushed and they began to clap.
"Guys guys! You've heard me play and sing before." I said and they continued to clap. I just rolled my eyes and put my guitar down.
"Why did you stop? We want to hear more." Jimmy pouted. I grabbed my phone and seen the time. I knew Damien would be calling soon and I don't want the guys to think something.
"I need some sleep. I always play before I go to bed. It helps me sleep." I said and they nodded. I laid back and all the guys came over and kissed my forehead. I just rolled my eyes when Jimmy licked me. He smiled big like a madman and left the room. I was finally alone. I closed my eyes and went to sleep. A bright flash of light filled my room and I realized it was lightening. The thunder came crashing and I jumped up and ran into Zacky and Gena's room. I push on Zacky's arm and shoulder and he woke up and looked at me.
"What's wrong?" As soon as he said that another bolt of lightening and the sound of loud thunder crashed into the room. I bent down into the corner huddled up and shaking with fear. Zacky slowly got up and led me to his bed and I laid down.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gena woke up slowly and seen Raven between me and her. I mouthed to her that she is afraid of the storm and she turned over putting an around around Raven and I did the same and soon feel asleep.
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