Perfectly Reckless
Chapter 21
ROTR, Day Two, Monster Energy Stage– 2013
“Wow they are goood.” Wesley blabbed next to me in her awkward voice while listening to the band performing on stage. It was Avenged Sevenfold, and they were performing a song called This Means War right now. They had 9 songs in their setlist altogether while we’re only gonna perform 6.
I was talking to Philip from All That Remains but I had to steer my focus away and listened to them performing. Yeah they were amazing. The new album gave off a classic vibe, making them sound a little more mature and really know their shit.
“You like them, Wesley?” I asked, crossing my arms on my chest after I waved goodbye to Philip.
“I think I will only like this song.”
I smiled at her. “Wait till you hear Shepherd of Fire.”
“Why, what’s wrong with that song?” she asked, innocently.
”Wrong? The question is, what’s not wrong with that song. It’s perfect, to my ears at least.”
“Really? You must be a big fan of them.”
I snorted. Am I? Well I have their CDs from Waking The Fallen until Hail To The King, but I’m not a fan. I just liked their music. Whatever.
I love Shepherd of Fire because to me Matt’s vocal is flawless in it. He hit every note hard, and I hate to admit that I became a bit turned on everytime he yelled ‘Shepherd of fire’ and when he sang ‘Through the ages of time, I’ve been known for my hate.’
And not to mention that sustained key on the last scream of ‘Shepherd of firee!!’ God I think I just wet my panties.
“Why are you blushing?”
“Huh? What?”
“You’re blushing right now.”
Oh God, am I? I touched my cheeks, it did feel a little warm. “Must be my makeup. I’ll be back.”
I ran into the dressing room to check my makeup, when it really wasn’t the makeup fault. I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. Ever since my encounter with Matt the other day, and hearing him explained the truth, I can’t help all these flutter and my face would turn red if I ever crossed a thought about him.
Oh God, am I…in love?
“Woah, Lzzy. Calm down. You’re not in love with him. This is way too much emotion for you to handle. Besides, he’s fucking married! Don’t fall in love with him!”
I paced around and jeez, talking to myself too! Shit, I’ve gone insane.
“You’re in love with who?”
I stopped walking and stood still. My heart banged so hard on my chest when I knew I recognized that voice.
“Joe! How long have you been standing there?”
He narrowed his eyes on me. Just last night we made up, but now I can feel it in my guts that we’re gonna fight again. Damn it! Me and my stupid mouth!
“Long enough.”
I opened and closed my mouth, thinking of something to say to him. I shouldn’t push this too far. It will only hurt him more.
“Joe…”
“So, should we go over Love Bites solo again?”
I shut my eyes tight as he walked past me and grabbed his Fender. He started to riff the Love Bites intro unplugged and my feet just won’t move.
I’m sorry Joe, but I’m not an angel.
~*.*~
“What’s up Ohio!!”
The crowd screamed and chanting our name as we were just done performing our third song on the setlist. I glanced around to my band mates. They were nodding at me, indicating that they were ready for the next song.
“I’m sorry guys.” I spoke into the microphone, addressing to RJ and Josh.
“But the next song I want to do it in acoustic. You guys like acoustic?!”
“YEAHHH!!” the crowd answered.
Joe looked at me quizzically because I totally strayed from our setlist. RJ and Josh didn’t have any choice but to leave the stage for a bit. I walked towards Joe and spoke softly to his ears;
“I’m Not An Angel.”
His face dropped, but quickly he gave me a nod. We had been performing this song in acoustic so many times before so it wouldn’t be a problem to us. While waiting for Joe to exchange his electric to acoustic, I spoke into the mic;
“This song, I wrote way back when we were still struggling to be heard. Something happened in my life and someone came to fix me. I just couldn’t thank him enough for being there for me all the fucking time.”
I glanced slightly at my guitarist. He looked up to me but his smile wasn’t there.
“All I wanted to say to him is that I’m not perfect. I made mistakes too because I’m not an angel.”
The crowd screamed so loud when they heard the title of the song in my sentence. They thought that the introduction I just gave was only for the sake of letting them know that we’re gonna play the song. I felt my eyes pooled when Joe started with the intro and the riff.
I’m really sorry Joe. But I can’t go on like this anymore.
“Wow they are goood.” Wesley blabbed next to me in her awkward voice while listening to the band performing on stage. It was Avenged Sevenfold, and they were performing a song called This Means War right now. They had 9 songs in their setlist altogether while we’re only gonna perform 6.
I was talking to Philip from All That Remains but I had to steer my focus away and listened to them performing. Yeah they were amazing. The new album gave off a classic vibe, making them sound a little more mature and really know their shit.
“You like them, Wesley?” I asked, crossing my arms on my chest after I waved goodbye to Philip.
“I think I will only like this song.”
I smiled at her. “Wait till you hear Shepherd of Fire.”
“Why, what’s wrong with that song?” she asked, innocently.
”Wrong? The question is, what’s not wrong with that song. It’s perfect, to my ears at least.”
“Really? You must be a big fan of them.”
I snorted. Am I? Well I have their CDs from Waking The Fallen until Hail To The King, but I’m not a fan. I just liked their music. Whatever.
I love Shepherd of Fire because to me Matt’s vocal is flawless in it. He hit every note hard, and I hate to admit that I became a bit turned on everytime he yelled ‘Shepherd of fire’ and when he sang ‘Through the ages of time, I’ve been known for my hate.’
And not to mention that sustained key on the last scream of ‘Shepherd of firee!!’ God I think I just wet my panties.
“Why are you blushing?”
“Huh? What?”
“You’re blushing right now.”
Oh God, am I? I touched my cheeks, it did feel a little warm. “Must be my makeup. I’ll be back.”
I ran into the dressing room to check my makeup, when it really wasn’t the makeup fault. I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. Ever since my encounter with Matt the other day, and hearing him explained the truth, I can’t help all these flutter and my face would turn red if I ever crossed a thought about him.
Oh God, am I…in love?
“Woah, Lzzy. Calm down. You’re not in love with him. This is way too much emotion for you to handle. Besides, he’s fucking married! Don’t fall in love with him!”
I paced around and jeez, talking to myself too! Shit, I’ve gone insane.
“You’re in love with who?”
I stopped walking and stood still. My heart banged so hard on my chest when I knew I recognized that voice.
“Joe! How long have you been standing there?”
He narrowed his eyes on me. Just last night we made up, but now I can feel it in my guts that we’re gonna fight again. Damn it! Me and my stupid mouth!
“Long enough.”
I opened and closed my mouth, thinking of something to say to him. I shouldn’t push this too far. It will only hurt him more.
“Joe…”
“So, should we go over Love Bites solo again?”
I shut my eyes tight as he walked past me and grabbed his Fender. He started to riff the Love Bites intro unplugged and my feet just won’t move.
I’m sorry Joe, but I’m not an angel.
~*.*~
“What’s up Ohio!!”
The crowd screamed and chanting our name as we were just done performing our third song on the setlist. I glanced around to my band mates. They were nodding at me, indicating that they were ready for the next song.
“I’m sorry guys.” I spoke into the microphone, addressing to RJ and Josh.
“But the next song I want to do it in acoustic. You guys like acoustic?!”
“YEAHHH!!” the crowd answered.
Joe looked at me quizzically because I totally strayed from our setlist. RJ and Josh didn’t have any choice but to leave the stage for a bit. I walked towards Joe and spoke softly to his ears;
“I’m Not An Angel.”
His face dropped, but quickly he gave me a nod. We had been performing this song in acoustic so many times before so it wouldn’t be a problem to us. While waiting for Joe to exchange his electric to acoustic, I spoke into the mic;
“This song, I wrote way back when we were still struggling to be heard. Something happened in my life and someone came to fix me. I just couldn’t thank him enough for being there for me all the fucking time.”
I glanced slightly at my guitarist. He looked up to me but his smile wasn’t there.
“All I wanted to say to him is that I’m not perfect. I made mistakes too because I’m not an angel.”
The crowd screamed so loud when they heard the title of the song in my sentence. They thought that the introduction I just gave was only for the sake of letting them know that we’re gonna play the song. I felt my eyes pooled when Joe started with the intro and the riff.
You made a mistake
On the day that you met me and lost your way
You saw all the signs
But you let it go
You closed your eyes
I should’ve told you to leave
Cause I knew all the time you couldn’t handle me
But you’re hard to resist
When you’re on your knees, begging me
I tear you down, I make you bleed eternally
Can’t help myself, from hurting you and it’s hurting me
I don’t have wings so flying with me won’t be easy
Cause I’m not an angel, I’m not an angel
I hate being that wall
That you hit when you feel like you gave it all
I keep taking the blame
When we both know that I’ll never change
I’m really sorry Joe. But I can’t go on like this anymore.
Notes
A/N: seriously guys..listen to the link of the song i gave..beautiful song. my favorite from them :)
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