ROTR, Monster Energy Stage – 2013

Backstage, after our setlist was done and now All That Remains was performing, I pulled Joe’s hand away from the busy crowd of event staff and bands that were scattered about. I didn’t give a shit if Avenged Sevenfold was there too and Matt might have seen me holding hands with Joe. I needed to talk to Joe. I don’t want to hurt him anymore.

“What the hell was that Lzzy? You just changed our setlist without discussing? Wesley was panicking, she literally didn’t know what to do! Come on, give her a break.” He burst after we stopped in the vault room which stored instruments like guitars, unassembled drums and so on.

I stunned at his words. He was worrying about Wesley over my sudden action earlier?

“Joe, we need to talk.”

“Oh God. Not this talk again! We had a talk last night, Lzzy. I thought we made ourselves clear? Because it sure seems clear to me.”

“No. I wasn’t being fully honest with you. And you deserve honesty.”

“If this honesty had something to do with you wanting to break up with me-”

“I want to break up.”

His turn to freeze. His eyes didn’t blink at all and his mouth pursed. As if he had already predicted this.

“I know I said something about wanting to try this out but the truth is…I can’t. You’re my best friend, Joe. And you will always be. We’ve had our crazy times together but to me it’s just wasn’t right to treat you as something that I can hurt. And love do hurts.”

“I see. So for three damn years, you only see me as a rebound guy, for you to forget Matt?”

“No!” I scoffed. “Well, kind of.” I had to be honest.

He nodded and started to walk away from me.

“Joe..”

“No, it’s fine Lzzy. I understand. I totally understand that. It was my mistake anyway. I shouldn’t have seen you as more than a friend.”

Oh God. My tears were falling like a broken pipe. His back was facing me and I hated that. He looked cold from the back.

“I want my best friend back.” I begged.

He turned his head to me and paused for a long time. I sobbed and wiped my tears, my hand reached out to touch his back, but then he suddenly spoke;

“You’ll get him back when he feels that you’re not being greedy anymore.”

~*.*~

I glanced at my phone. 50 missed calls. RJ was half of them and the other half were Josh and Wesley. I don’t know how long have I been in this vault room. But it sure as hell nobody knows that I’m here. I also lost count of how many times I cried, regained composure and then sobbed again. Luckily nobody out there was looking for me here so I can keep these tears to myself.

Losing my best friend was like losing my other half. My chemistry, my voice of reason. But it was all my fault. I shouldn’t have given hope to him when the one thing that I can’t do is keeping that promise. I folded my legs and realized that these shoes were killing me. I wiped off my tears and not giving a shit if my mascara got melted and I looked like a ghost.

“Lzzy?”

I was almost getting up, but quickly jumped apart when a voice suddenly entered the room, calling me softly. I spun around in my murdering heels.




It was him. He was standing right in front of me and I have nowhere else to hide.

“You okay there?”

“M..M..Matt..what are you..doing here?” Damn I stuttered and my voice came out husky because I’ve been crying so much.

“I saw you coming here earlier. With Joe. But then I saw he stormed out. Those guys are looking for you. I just wanna make sure that maybe you’re still here. Well, here you are.”

“Well, you shouldn’t - shouldn’t be here. I have to go. Excuse me.”

I straightened up my hair and clothes and walked but oh fuck, I got blisters on my feet from this fucking shoes.

“Ouch!” I immediately crouched down and took off my shoes. Yep, a big fat blisters on my heel.

“Are you alright? What’s wrong?”

He scurried over to me, leaving the door to automatically shut and God he smelled so fucking good.

“Nothing, it’s just this shoes are killing me.”

He stifled a laugh and his hazel eyes glinting at me. I can’t help but chuckle when I saw his dimples were showing.

“Why are you laughing?”

“You and your shoes. You’ve a room full of them, aren’t you?”

I frowned at him. Why does he even care? “Of course. Shoes are like souls. A pair for each that I’ve taken.”

“Wow, what are you, Lucifer?”

“That’s Lucifress to you, thank you.”

He laughed and without hesitation he took my leg and rested it on his lap. I withdrew, a little startled with his action.

“What are you doing?”

“Relax, Lzzy. I just wanna take a look at it.”

“No, no way. You don’t know what you’re doing.”

“Trust me, Lzzy. I know what I’m doing. My ex-wife always had blisters on her feet. She’s just as crazy about shoes as you.”

Damn, why did he have to bring up stories about his ex – wait. EX?

Unknowingly I let him seized my leg and landed it on his lap. Slowly he started to rub his knuckle on my foot palm and dear God, shivers went down my spine like crazy. My eyes were half closed and he kept massaging my foot until my body squirmed like a jelly.

“Yes..there..yes..” I even moaned in pleasure. What the hell.

But suddenly he stopped. I opened my eyes wide and saw that his face was red as a fire truck. He put my foot back down and rubbed his neck. What? What? What happened?

“Uh, I should call your husband. And tell your band mates that you’re here.”

I blinked at him, feeling a little dumbfounded. He got up quickly and opened the door to get out. But he didn’t. He pushed the door forward but still ended up at the same place. I heard a few of knocking and banging sounds from outside but then he turned to me, his face looked perplexed.

“Um, I think we’re stuck.”

Notes

A/N: muahahaha XD soo i locked them up like you wanted to~ more to come soon!