Right Where I Belong

~Next Morning~

Jimmy’s POV

Elise was still asleep we hadn’t really talked long yesterday, we had just cuddled a little on my couch before we really went to bed.
Every time I tried to talk to her about the evening she just said that she had understood it and apologized and when I tried to tell her that she didn’t do anything wrong, I think she wasn’t listening to me.

My phone rang and I picked up, “Hey man, I am in the neighborhood, you got a second?”
“Yes, sure Brian. When will you be here?”
“Now, I am standing in front of your door actually.” Brian answered and I hung up and walked to the door.
“Come on in.” Brian walked inside and we sat down on the kitchen table and I poured him a coffee.
“I wanted to apologize if I hurt your or Elise’s feeling in the beginning. And I just wanted you to know that I understand that she makes you happy and I really like her.” Brian said and clapped my shoulder.



“Thanks man. I really appreciate it. I love her, man. She makes me happy.”I smiled and I would make her happy!

Elise POV

I woke up and saw that Jimmy was already gone, normally I was the one who would wake up early, but today seemed to be different.
I was so exhausted after the last evening and I felt ashamed, I had thrown myself at Jimmy and he didn’t want me… he had talked to me after that but I didn’t know what I should make out of his words…
I walked quietly down and heard talking in the kitchen, I really didn’t want to eardrop but I couldn’t help it when I heard my name.
“So you and Elise didn’t?” Brian asked.
“No, we didn’t. Well, like I said, we could have.. but it just wasn’t right.”
“Jimmy, be honest.. if she wouldn’t be a virgin, you would have fucked her already, right?” Brian asked again.
Jimmy sighed and took a moment to answer and I held my breath, “Yes, sure I think so, if she wouldn’t be a virgin it would be easier, but…”
That was enough, I didn’t need to hear more.

Jimmy’s POV

It was Sunday noon and I had to drive Elise back to her college now. I didn’t want to but the problem was that we had a meeting back at the studio this afternoon and I wouldn’t have the time afterwards to bring her back.
Damn, she looked so sad…

And every time I tried to cheer her up, she smiled at me but I knew that something was still wrong.
After we arrived at the college I walked her up to her room, thank god she was alone and her annoying roommate wasn’t there.

I sat down on her bed, “Babe… tell me what’s wrong. Since you came down this morning you seem so distant towards me… and I can’t stand that. If I did something wrong, tell me.”
She looked up to me and laid her head on my shoulder, “It’s nothing you did, Jimmy. I’m just sad that you have to leave so soon and our weekend is already over…”
I sighed, “I know, I wished I could have brought you back later, but I can’t I am so sorry, but we can talk later, I can call you when I am back from the-“
“No, Jimmy. It’s okay. Really and you are already late, you should leave now.“
“And Elise… because of yesterday night, I promise we gonna make up for that, alright?” I kissed her lips and she pulled away. Something was definitely wrong here… and I didn’t have the time to fix it right now.
FUCK!
“Alright.” She stood up and we walked down to the parking lot. I pulled her into my body and hugged her tight.
“Elise, I love you. I will call you later tonight, so keep your phone with you. And I will visit you in the next days, alright? One more week… and you are done here… Graduation! Think about it, this one week will be nothing…”
“You are right. Thank you, Jimmy.” She hugged me tight and my tensioned eased a little.
I captured her lips and then I walked to my car waved a final time and drove home.
But I still had a bad feeling, I couldn’t shake off.

Elise POV

I was so confused, after I heard Jimmy say that he would have slept with me if I wouldn’t be a virgin and that everything would be easier this way I thought that he was right.
I made this all so complicated and my attempt to sleep with Jimmy had failed miserable and I still felt ashamed about it.
I just hoped that Jimmy didn’t recognize my strange feelings.

I walked back into my room and now Samantha was there looking up from her magazine, “You are back? How was your time with Rev?”
“Yes, just arrived. Good.” What else could I say?!
“Did you do it? I mean did you think about my advice?” She asked with a smile.
“I.. yes I wanted to, or I tried but… we didn’t do it.”
“WHAT? WHY?!” She gasped and put her magazine to the side.
“Well.. I don’t know. I tried to.. but he must have recognized that I wasn’t ready or something, I don’t know.. but he said something like.. he didn’t want to take my virginity… why would he say that? And I heard him tell his friend that he would have had sex with me if I wasn’t a virgin and that me being one would make everything more complicated…”
“OH Elise… that doesn’t sound good. Why do you think he said that?” Samantha looked really surprised and felt sympathy coming from her.
“Honestly I don’t know. I just know if I wasn’t a virgin, Jimmy would have been with me and now I am afraid that I lose him. Maybe I am too inexperienced for him?“
Samantha tapped her finger on her chin, “Yes, that sounds like it could be the problem. And what will you do about it?”
“I don’t know, what could I do?” I asked her getting more and more confused my head felt like it would explode.
“I know a few guys from the boy’s college, if you want me to call them… I could set you up with..” Samantha began.
“What? What? Noooo. I couldn’t just do it with some guy I have never seen before… and wouldn’t I betray Jimmy that way?”
“But Elise, if he doesn’t want you, how you are now… maybe that is your only chance to keep him by your side?! I mean.. he would be relieved when the burden of your.. you know.. Innocence was lifted off him…” Samantha said and looked at me seriously.

Was she right? Should I take this step and sleep with a guy, so I was finally free to be with Jimmy?!
Would Jimmy be relieved? But I still couldn’t do it with any guy… I just couldn’t.
“Elise, I would really think about it… If you need me to cover up for you, when you want to leave again, I will… you know, we are friends.. I will tell them you are sick and had to stay overnight at your brothers or something and will come back tomorrow.”
Should I do it? Should I really do it?!
“Alright, yes. Thank you Samantha.” I grabbed my handbag, put my phone inside and the necessities I would need and then left.

I just knew one guy I could go to with this request, but if he would do it I didn’t know.
It took me more than an hour drive to arrive at Collins house, I paid the cab and walked towards the gate. I didn’t know how I would do it and ask him for this favor. And I hadn’t thought if he was at home at all but the further I walked towards the house, I saw that a light was on in the living room.
I breathed deeply in and out, I needed to lose my virginity and Collin needed to help me with it.

I knocked on his door and after a couple of moments the door opened and revealed Collin wearing a white shirt and half opened jeans, he had a towel in hand and was drying his hair.
He looked at me with his eyes wide open and a smile on his face.
“Elise, what a surprise. Hey.. Is Tyler with you?” He looked behind me but wouldn’t see anybody.
“No. I am alone… Can I come in?” I asked him nervously.
“Yes, sure. Come on in. Is there a problem? Happened something?!“ Collin finished drying his hair and threw the towel at the bathroom door.
I have just been here one time with Tyler a few weeks ago. But I had a good memory, which helped me in school as well as now remembering Collins house.

“No, no problem. I just… I need a favor from you.” I began, I should spit it out and say it, but would he help me?!
“Come on inside, we can talk.” Collin said and took my arm to lead me to the couch.
He sat down next to me and looked at me curiously.
“Elise, whatever it is, you can talk to me. Do you have a problem with Ty? I will kick his ass for you.. He is my best friend, but you know I would, honey.” Collin said with a smile and I smiled back but still looked down.
He took my hand in his and I finally looked to his eyes, “Collin, when I ask you for a favor, no matter what, would you help me with it?” I held my breath waiting for his answer.
“Sure, I will.” Collin said with a smile.
Alright, then I will do it. I turned towards him, leaned over and kissed him. I would do it, now!

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