Right Where I Belong

Elise POV

Finally it was Saturday, I had thought a lot about Jimmy and what Samantha had told me.
I think I still wasn’t really ready to give Jimmy what he wanted, but I would do it anyway. This was not only about me and being afraid, it was about Jimmy and me being together. I would sleep with him this evening. We would have sex. I know he wanted to and he said I would make him crazy, and what if Samantha really was right, that he would go to someone else if I didn’t fulfill his desire?!
When I only thought about giving my body and mind completely to Jimmy I felt my insides getting hot and cold, I wanted to but I also was afraid that it would hurt and I wouldn’t do it right and I don’t know maybe Jimmy didn’t want to be with me, because I was just not sexual compatible with him?!
STOP IT! I shouldn’t think about this anymore… I will just do it!
I will do it.. I will do it.. Hopefully I won’t get sick because I was so nervous, and Jimmy wouldn’t realize something was wrong with me…
“Elise?”
Someone touched my shoulder and I was startled by the contact and looked around.
Jimmy stood before me with a smile on his lips.
“You wanna jump in or wait for a better company?” Jimmy asked me with a chuckle.
I laughed and threw myself in his arms.
“Where is your car? I was watching the whole time for your car…” I kissed his lips and he pressed my body against his.
“Brian is waiting in the car… he drove me.” Jimmy replied and grabbed my hand.
“We need to be in the studio for a short meeting with our producer, but I wanted to pick you up first.”
“Thank you. I really needed to be out of here.” I replied with a smile and we walked over to Brian’s black BMW at the far side of the parking lot.
“Why did you park so far away? Now you need to carry my bag so long…” I asked him and looked at the nearly empty parking lot.
“Yeah, I know. But damn Brian is a fucking pus- I mean women magnet, I had to get him as far away from the entrance as possible.” Jimmy replied opened the trunk threw my bag inside and opened the back door to let me climb in but instead of then climbing in on the passenger seat he sat down next to me and pulled me into his side.
“Elise, beauty… nice to see you again” Brian turned around from the driver seat and grabbed my hand to kiss it one time.
“Wow.. Jimmy, what are you doing?! I am not a fucking taxi driver for a love couple, get your ass here in the front seat.” Brian complained while Jimmy buckled up his seat belt next to me.
“You wanted to come along, so you drive and shut up…” Jimmy said then turned towards me and kissed my cheek.

Jimmy’s POV

After we settled everything at the studio and grabbed something to eat on the way back home we arrived there a little after 7. I haven’t thought that it would be this late but I took some time until everybody arrived at the studio and we were finally in an agreement, like always… then we were a little joking around and I showed Elise the studio.

She seemed overwhelmed with everything, which made me really proud. She asked a lot and every time when Johnny or Zack wanted to make a stupid joke towards her Brian was there to interrupt them or just punch Johnny’s arm or shove him into the room where he normally recorded his bass then Brian put a chair under the door handle so Johnny couldn’t come back out, serves him right doing stupid jokes towards my girl…
I think Brian was also beginning to feel protective towards Elise, because he knew how much she meant to me, and that’s what best friends are for…

But since we were at my home now Elise seemed to get nervous or not really nervous but overanxious and I didn’t know why… what was wrong with her?!

We sat down on my couch and I pulled her onto my lap.
“Babe, what’s wrong?” I asked her and when she wanted to look away I pulled her head back to me.
“No-nothing..” she smiled shyly and then put her lips to mine.
I knew she wanted to distract me with the kiss, and damn it worked fine.
She immediately put her tongue in my mouth and I moaned at the feel, oh god she had learned so fast, her kisses were so good and pure addiction.
She grabbed on to my shoulders, her hands sneaked to my neck and her nails softly scratched over my skin. I groaned at the feel, but wait a second, I wanted to ask her something and not…

Elise pulled her shirt over her head and unclasped her bra and my brain refused to work anymore, all blood now helping little Jimmy to stand on alert.
“God, Elise… what are…” I looked at her breast and couldn’t stop me but leaned forward and sucked the first nipple into my mouth and kneaded with my hand her other breast.
She moaned and threw her head back but something was wrong here, I just couldn’t think straight right now.
I felt her hands in my hair again and she pushed my mouth firmer to her breast.

Then she grabbed the hem of my shirt and pulled it over my head and her hands were on my chest tracing the lines of my tattoos. She leaned forward and kissed my neck and my earlobe, like I did to her.
God, her lips on my body, it felt too good to be true but when I looked at her hands, they were shaking and her body languages was wrong… but somehow I couldn’t stop it, it felt so good, and if she really wanted it , why would I stop her.
I told her we had time… but if the time was now… I just had thought it would be not on my couch, but rather with candles and… wait a second… yes I have to make her first time the most special event she would ever have, not on my couch, not now.. not like this…

I was about to softly push her away but then I realized that she had opened my pants and was now grabbing for my erection and she began to softly stoke it like the last time we did together, oh my god… her soft hands on my flesh… my eyes rolled back in my head and I groaned!

Elise POV

Keep calm Elise, everything is good. You are doing good… no need to be afraid… Jimmy will make you feel good, like the last time we did this… just this time with him being inside me… how this should fit inside me I have no idea and I began to get even more nervous, my movements began to get slower and I felt a little dizzy. Not now…!

Jimmy looked at me with heavy lidded eyes watching my hands on him, and then he grabbed my hips and pulled my pants down and laid me onto his couch.
Now, we would do it, finally.. and I wouldn’t lose him. I couldn’t lose him!
I felt his erection on my entrance but instead of entering me Jimmy leaned down on me and kissed my lips, so softly and lovingly that I had to stifle a sob.
I wasn’t ready… damn it… but I needed to. I knew my body was stiff and I tried to relax to loosen up but my muscles just wouldn’t work.
“Ssshh… beauty… hey, look at me” Jimmy said softly. He stroked my hair and looked deep into my eyes.
“Why didn’t you?” I looked between us, where his erection was resting near my thigh.
“Because, I don’t want to take your virginity, Elise. I mean I won’t take it ….” Jimmy said quietly and kept on talking but I couldn’t listen to him, why didn’t he want to take it… I wanted him to, then this wouldn’t be between us anymore. Maybe it really was true and I was too inexperienced that he thought I wouldn’t be good in bed.
“Elise… hey.. Elise? Are you listening?!“ Jimmy asked again and got off of me.
“Yes, sure. I just… thought… this is what you wanted.” I told him and looked everywhere but at him.
“Babe, don’t get me wrong. I just won’t take something you are not ready to give. Alright… We are not doing this, not tonight.”
Why?! I wanted to scream, why couldn’t we just get it over with?! Why was this so important anyway?!
Jimmy stood up and pulled his pants back on but left his shirt off.
Then he helped me get dressed, after that I excused myself and went to the bathroom.
I started to cry, but let the water run so he wouldn’t hear me.
Was it already too late?! Why didn’t Jimmy just make love with me? Maybe he didn’t love me enough? Or did he have another girl already?!

Jimmy’s POV

What had happened here?! Shit, I nearly took her virginity on my couch in a moment of pure stupidity.
Have I been out of my fucking mind?
I should make her first time special and not just take it because she took her shirt off…
Gods damn it, James!!!
I cursed myself, I just hoped she understood what I told her.
That I didn’t stop because I didn’t want her, that I stopped to make it special for her and not like this.
I meant I wouldn’t take it like this, not when she wasn’t ready. When I had laid her down on my couch I felt her body was stiff and she wasn’t looking relaxed or comfortable. I had a feeling that she just wasn’t ready and even if she told me otherwise.
Maybe even her body wanted to but her mind wasn’t ready and I wasn’t a guy who would take something she wasn’t willing to give me!
And doesn’t she realize that it was such a special gift that she had offered me today…
The first time to ever make love with somebody, she wanted it to be me and now it was my job to prepare everything properly and make it as special as I could for me and for her!

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