“Does this package belong to you?”

As soon as Zack opened the door, Jess jumped on his body and circled her legs around his waist, making him almost fall back in startle. She kissed him hard and he groaned loud on her mouth as trying to handle her weight on his arms and trying to look at an angry Emily standing in front of the door.

“Hmmm, your mouth baby, it gets me crazy and… so horny.” Jess whispered those last words and giggled back at Emily, her excitement annoyingly bigger in comparison to those two. Emily was frowning at him with hands on her hips, getting angrier and angrier at each second she waited. Zack gulped, he knew something was about to come.

“Really? Uhm, can you… can you wait for me inside now?” he placed her on the ground with a shy smile and she went inside not before pecking his lips and biting it in a clearly hurtful way. He grimaced at the pain and closed the door behind him, trying to smile at Emily.

“Can you explain me why is she acting like she was back on age twelve, and telling me all the way here that it was just a pill YOU HAD!???” Emily got really closer to him and pushed him almost against the wall. Who saw her height wouldn’t risk she could be that intimidating sometimes.

“Shit… How did she… Okay. I gave her an ecstasy pill only once, to help her handle her tattoo pain. I don’t know how she find it in my stuff, I always hide it really well and…”

“How can you be that stupid, Zachary, obviously she’d find it! I knew this was trouble, I knew this fucking trip would overcharge her. Now go on inside, count the freaking pills and see how many she stole from you. We gotta know how many times she did it without us noticing.” she sounded really worried.

“Wait, what the hell, Emily! Do you think she’s like high all the time now? She must’ve enjoyed the first trip and decided to try again tonight, what’s the big deal?”

“What’s the big deal?? She was watching a Red Hot Chili Peppers concert from the backstage stoned like never and you didn’t even know where she was and how she was neither did I! She’s here cause you invited her, she’s your responsibility and mine, so you better start taking better care of…” he laughed.

“Wake up, she’s an adult! I don’t get to say what she does or doesn’t do neither do you. Let her be free, enjoy the whole thing a little. Isn't that what you've been doing with Jimmy lately?” Zack crossed his arms, questioningly and sarcastically.

Emily clenched her jaw hard and travelled her tongue on her teeth angrily. She had no idea Zack knew about their dirty little secret.

“That’s not the point. The point is I don’t want her to go down that road we’re all apparently stuck in. She doesn’t belong to this dark world. If you can’t see or understand that, Zack, I'm sorry, you’re not the right man for her.”

With that said, Emily turned her back and left to find Jason. Zack only sighed, thinking about a new place he could hide his stash now.

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After I got the stuff with Jason, I finished dinner with the guys quickly, whispered at Jimmy I would be waiting for him upstairs and went to prepare the room.

Lighted up a few candles to make allusion to our first time together, had a quick shower and put on my new black lingerie I’ve been saving for this, designed with sheer lace flowers everywhere, and a white satin robe that I left opened. Got all the liquor bottles I found on the minibar and left our ‘candies’ next to it. When it was apparently all ready and I knew Jimmy was about to get back, I took a sip of JD to loosen up and stayed at the bathroom so I could surprise him. It didn’t take long until I heard the door.

My heart started to pound as I breathed one last time and opened the door to his encounter. He was standing still close to the door and I could only see his beautiful sad eyes being illuminated by the dim candle light.



“Hey… What’s all of this?” he asked quietly, never moving his feet, only shrugging.

“Well, we’ve been together for eight months, seven days, three hours and… a few minutes now so... I just thought we should spend the night celebrating it.” my lips drew a sweet smile.

I started to walk slowly towards him, my eyes never allowing his to leave my gaze. When I stopped right in front of him, I let him glance down my body and he went back up quickly. I felt caressed.

“Emily, don’t get me wrong but… I’m exhausted. I’m not really in the mood of…”

“I can help you with that. Why don’t we try something new tonight?” my hand reached for the rope in the table, along with the little transparent envelopes. “I know exactly what you want, what you need now. You know I can heal your broken heart, babe. Trust me.”

He looked at the stuff in my hands and went back to my eyes, shaking his head all the time. I put everything back on the table and made my fingers fly straight to the back of his neck, brushing a few locks of his hair softly.

“I’m fine. I don’t need to be healed, alright?” he backed out from me and I had to pull my hands off. Damn, this is not going the way I planned.

“So what do you need, Jimmy? Tell me, please. I can read your soul, I know there’s something wrong.”

He parted his lips to say something but held his breath for a moment. His eyes closed and he shook his head again.

Say it, please, say it!

“I… I need to take a walk. I’ll be back later.” He turned his back on me and opened the door to get out.

Something tells me that’s not what he was gonna say. I needed to think something, to act quickly to convince him of my intentions.

“I wanna make you move on from your grief, you need to let go of her, James. Stop blaming yourself!” I raised my voice as he waited a few seconds without looking at me and closed the door behind him.

FUCK!

I was in the verge of hitting the table with my clenched fist when the door suddenly turned open again. Jimmy’s breath was accelerated, his chest was going up and down like he had ran a marathon as he glared at me. The next thing I felt was his hands taking my body roughly against his, getting rid of my robe quickly and his cologne inebriating my senses as his nose travelled all around my neck, biting and sucking hungrily.

I moaned inside his ear as he dragged me to the bed after he got a hold of the envelopes on the table and made me fall roughly onto the mattress with his weight. Gentle wasn’t the world here anymore. He was so different, so cold. He wasn’t the man I met. But this is about him tonight, not about me.

I elbowed myself on the bed and waited for his next action. He spread a row of powder on my right thigh and snorted it all until the path reached my groin, causing my skin to shudder entirely. His eyes rolled over his head and I felt a really big wave of pleasure hitting my core to that sight. He was the sexiest man I’ve ever seen getting high.

“Babe, you’re so hot…” I gasped while his hands unhooked my bra in the front.
Then he moved up to my belly and spread the other kind of powder in there, the brownish one, creating a trail from my belly button up to the valley of my breasts. My whole body trembled while he sniffed the entire row looking straight into my eyes. And when he ended in between my boobs, he started licking my skin and burying his fingers on them while squeezing against his face. I had to groan lingeringly and loudly at that amazing feel of his touch.

He closed his eyes for a moment and went up to meet my already opened mouth. I felt his breath, his nose rubbing on mine and it got me so eager for his lips but he pulled away when I went further to kiss him. I could see on his eyes, on his grip, he wanted me as much as I wanted him and I was almost convincing his lips to accept mine when he got up from me suddenly.

“Wait… where are you going?” I mumbled, trying to hold his hand back but he pulled it away.
Jimmy didn’t answer, he just walked towards the table and grabbed the rope with a serious face. I had to smile in a vicious way when I saw he had finally agreed with my plan, getting on a seating position and slowly showing my wrists to him as he was the authority in the room.

“You can do whatever you want with me.” he narrowed his eyes down at my evil grin and I could see he suppressed a smirk. He had to keep playing mean. “I can play her if you want.”

“No, I want you.” he replied almost soundlessly and the jealousy I held in my chest was finally gone. He really wanted me. He still loved me.

His deliciously soft hands slid on my arms and held them together as he started to encircle my wrists tightly with an incredible ability to make perfect knots at each round, drawing some kind of a braid in the middle. That was really worthy work of art, it was like he’d done this a thousand times before. I didn’t doubt that.

After he was done tying me, he kneeled on the bed and reached for the painting frame hanging on the wall. He threw it far away into the ground and I watched the molding separate from the drawing by the strength he used. When he looked back at me, I took that as an order to lie back on the bed and he hanged the rope length on the nail that once had the art, making my arms held up above my head. Not really the most comfortable position but I could handle that. I guess…

“What’s next? Are you torturing me with a knife?” I asked mockingly. Apparently I couldn’t take one answer out of his mouth anymore, he was deeply quiet. I followed him with my eyes and he went back to the table, cooking the stuff into one of the candles. I guess my torture would be on a whole other level. And I appreciated it.

He filled the syringe with the mixed liquid and I got really nervous when he was near me again. Although I knew the effects cocaine and heroin separately had on me, I had no idea what kind of rush I would have with both of them mixed. I was terrified, to tell the truth. But I trust him entirely, I do.

Jimmy straddled my waist and began to kiss my neck again, so softly and gently this time, totally opposite from before. His fingers traveled my skin in there and then he moved my head to the side. Oh, okay, wait, what is he planning to do next? To stick that needle in my freaking neck or what? My body stiffened under him and he noticed my curved brows in worry.

“If I shoot it up on your neck vein, you’ll have the greatest high of your life. Relax, I know what I’m doing.” he finally stated, calmly closed to my ear, as he looked in my eyes to give me assurance. My muscles finally relaxed at the blue of his eyes and he pecked my lips quickly before he sank the needle on my skin.

I didn’t even feel the sting. All my dying cells were brought back to life as soon as he started to push the plunger slowly. I felt the best of the two opposite worlds colliding in my brain; the dark opiate euphoria fighting hard to win the battle against the synthetic brightness of cocaine, and together they formed a perfect and massive wave of energy inside of me. Serotonin and dopamine being released in my bloodstream in crazily doses, bringing the most overwhelming and contrasting sensation I could’ve ever felt in my existence. Jimmy was right, I had never reached that level of pleasure before, and my body contracted violently underneath him, my jaw opened at the maximum and all I could do for a few seconds was pant and moan, loud and fast, as my vision was totally out of focus and my heartbeat was out of control.

“OH GODDD… JAMES, WHY DIDN’T YOU EVER SHOWED ME THIS BEFORE?? AHHH, SO FUCKING GOOD, BABE…” I had a desperate urge to hold him in my arms but I couldn’t, I tried to get out but it was too tight. I felt like panicking as he watched me with lust, his hands kneading my breasts all the time. Oh fuck, this was way too good and bad at the same time.

When I started pushing my body against his, he left the bed again and stopped in front of it for my frustration. That was when I noticed his hard wood tenting on his pants, and I craved for having that thing inside of me like I never thought I would. I knew it would be more than amazing this time.

“Jimmy, come back here, please. I need your skin on mine.” I pleaded for something I knew he wouldn’t do.

He took his shirt off and then his belt and jeans buttons were opened so was my legs. Then he got rid of his pants and boxers and finally set free that long rocklike dick I needed so bad. He looked at my tongue licking my lips and smiled like a devil for the first time when he noticed I was watching his fingers slid swiftly on his member.

“If you want me like you say you do, you need to do better than that.” he kept stroking himself while his other hand travelled around his chest and nipples. His eyes watched as my body made a big effort to disentangle from the cord, but it was worthless. I was stuck in there until he wanted me to. And I knew he was enjoying that power he had over me just by the way he was grunting and pumping even faster than before.

“Please, come here and fuck me hard, Jimmy. I know you want it too.” I tried to play seductive but he wasn’t moving except for his hand going wild on his hard-on, driving me insanely to the ecstasy edge.

“C’mon, I can’t hear you.”

My aching was almost unbearable, I didn’t even had my hand to satisfy myself. I only had one way; squeeze my both thighs and make a few hip movements against them together with the tightening of my inner walls, to test if I was capable of climaxing without any hands touching me. It wasn’t the same feeling but it was working at least a little.

“Ahh, fuck James, stop with those games, I’m so horny I…”

“Beg for me.”

“I need you now, please baby.” I moaned it.

“You need me? Huh? So beg, as loud as you can.” he was almost coming and still wasn’t giving up. What’s the matter with him!!? He rather come on his hand than inside me?

“I FUCKING NEED YOU INSIDE OF ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW, JIMMEEY!!!” I did as he asked.

“Hmm, yesss, scream some more for me. Louder.” his face was grimacing in pure bliss.

“NO!! FUCK, JIMMY, YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME! You can’t be almost there!! What about me??” now I was angry as hell, but still horny as fuck.

His fingers were only concentrating on the head and I knew he was coming in a few seconds. He started gasping heavily and groaned several times, decreasing his hand pace like he had reached his orgasm but not a single drop of fluid had gotten out of him. What the fuck was that!?

“Oh baby, yeah, I got there, and now I’m going for you.” he jumped back on the bed and settled on top of me again, getting rid of my panties, as I faced him with a perplexed expression.

“One of the advantages of speedball for a man is that it allows us to have a few orgasms without cuming once.” he whispered in my ear again, smirked beautifully and I had to laugh. That thing is really magical, probably more effective than Viagra.

“You’re still as hard as before. I can’t believe.” he rubbed his tip on my clit a few times and I was so sensitive to his skin contact that if he kept doing that just a little more, I would explode. But he didn’t keep teasing me, he slid down easily on my wet core and slammed hard on me without further notice.

“Oh, you feel so good inside of me, James. God…” His thrusts were hard and senseless, making the friction of our skins produce a huge flame around us. If just heroin could make me feel ten times more turned on, this was hundred times better.

Jimmy grabbed the JD bottle from the ground and let it pour on both our mouths together, as we share the hottest and numbest tongue-to-tongue experience in an ardent kiss. I moved my arms a little and wasn’t feeling my blood circulating on them. Jimmy noticed the pale color of my skin and pulled the rope down from the wall, making my tied arms to fall exactly around his neck. Yes, so much better…

“Thank you, love.” I mumbled in his wet lips and he took my mouth and brought the most intense feel, sucking hard until we both couldn’t breathe. I made my hips clash against his and wiggled, he moaned in my ear but stopped moving.

“Nothing is for free. Not even my love.” He spoke softly and gazed deeply inside my soul, without a single move. I couldn’t really decode his sentence now, my mind was only set on one gold, get hard-fucked by him as many times as possible.

“You’re killing me, James. Please, I gotta feel your skin moving on me now.” I gulped dryly, feeling my breath accelerating and slowing down in short intervals, like my system was going mad. If the point was to really torture me, yeah, he was achieving it.

He sat on me, disconnected us, and with a cold glare on his eyes, he brought me together and I entangled my legs around his waist, our noses never pulling apart. His hands travelled on my back and held me firmly as he moved his body out of the bed, taking me and my arms still stuck around his neck with him.

I laughed and kissed him a few more times, enjoying the ride until the next wall, where he supported my back and moved one of his hands down to his dick, placing it back where it should’ve never got out. My legs pressed his butt until he was fully buried on me again and we both moaned just to be attached again. But still no moving from his part. Fucking hell!

“Please, love.” I begged really quietly and I saw his jaw clenching. Shit, I was making him angry now?

“Say it louder! I want him to hear you begging for me.” we both traded intense glances for a few seconds, and then I knew what all of this was about. Brian’s room was just across that wall he was holding me against.

I screamed his name with the top of my lungs and imagined Brian’s face while listening it, feeling a little bad about it. But now wasn’t really a good time to start thinking about his feelings, I was here utterly and exclusively for Jimmy, I gotta keep doing what he wants so I kept screaming. With no ease or slowly, he was going roughly inside me, thrusting as hard as the volume of my moans. The sound of my back smashing the wall was probably being heard on the other room along with my loud screams but I couldn’t care less. Just by seeing that beautiful face of his contracting in bliss I had all my worries and other passions left behind.

“OH JIMMEY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. FUCK ME HARD, BABE, HARDER.” As one of his hands held my thigh up to give him more space, his other hand found my clit and that was the trigger to make me reach the sky, higher than I already was. My whole body shrank on Jimmy’s arms and he slowed down our moves, probably reaching his peak either. When he slammed loudly my back on the wall for the last time, a blustering and furious door noise hit our ears suddenly followed by paths on the corridor.

I was sure it came from Brian’s door.

Jimmy chuckled wickedly as I haven’t seen in weeks, and I wasn’t able to know if his euphoria came from the amazing sex we just had or from the way he had made me provoke Brian, or maybe a mixture of both. All I know is for someone who said that was exhausted before, he was emanating energy from every pore he had now. Oh and… by the way, he still hadn’t come yet.

“Now… why don’t we get outside? This room just got really boring and I’m still hard. C’mon.” he held my back again and dragged me outside of the room, we both as naked as we came to the earth.

“Oh shit, we’re putting up a show now?” my giggles were out of control. Coke effect.

“Yeah, people need a chance to meet all our tattoos someday.” we laughed and placed me on the ground of the corridor. I caught a glimpse of Brian’s door, it was slightly opened, probably because he slammed it really hard.

Jimmy now looked at me with even more lustful eyes than before.

“On your knees.” he demanded and I smirked, following his words right next.

He held my tied hands up on his belly and waited for me to circle my mouth around his member. What we would never expect was that the cleaning lady was showing up on the middle of the corridor and would make a loud mouth inhaling sound in bewilderment to our public action just when I was about to start sucking him.

Oh shit… busted.

Jimmy made sure I wasn’t pulling out and held my hair, forcing my mouth to deepen in his length. I could only try to cover my face with my hair.

“Sorry, we got bored inside the room. You can stay here if you’d like to watch.” Jimmy said it shamelessly and the woman turned her back quickly, moving back to where she came from with an offended look on her face.

He started laughing uncontrollably and when he released my head, I had to join him. I just hoped she wouldn’t call someone to take us out of there.

“Now… back to business.” he looked down at me and I smirked, licking my lips.

Notes

haha to be continued =p