Syn's Deep in My Blood

You see? I was all out of control with my feelings for Emily. Every move she made could turn me on and I didn’t have this feeling towards a woman for a long time now. What in heaven’s name should I do?
But... first I gotta tell you about the nice evening we had just after my solo moment on her room.

“Are you not afraid of being recognized here?” Emily asked me while walking by my side.

The streets were filled with people with weird and colorful costumes for our complete surprise. We happened to know it was parade time for them. Nice.

“No, no one is caring about us here, all they want is to party their asses off before monday, when their boring lives start again.” we kept walking and trying to divert from every single person that was coming in our way.

“But I bet a shot of Cuervo you are not walking out of here without having to give out at least one autograph.” she showed her right hand to me and I was forced to agree.

“If we keep doing those bets you’re gonna be wasted in a couple of hours…” as my smirk was forming in my lips, I felt a pull on the hand Emily just shook.

“Hey, I love this song…” what the… was she dragging me to a…private party?

“Emily…where…” she looked at me with that glare in her eyes and we stopped in front of a house from where it was coming a loud and classic rock tune. Deep Purple-ish, maybe? I didn’t know for sure.

'Have you ever thought of the feeling
I get when I'm alone with you
It's causing me worry and trouble
I'm going 'round in circles
Don't know what I'm gonna do'

“Let’s crash it!” the devil possessed her irises as I couldn’t contain my urge to smile at it. She was back in the game!

“Oh shit, really? What are you, fifteen again?”

“Oh come on, you are saying you never crashed a party after your twenties?”

“Of course not, I didn’t wanna get arrested, I had an underground band that needed me and…”

“Oh that’s BS, liar! Let’s go inside! I can’t believe we found a place with good taste in music…” she dragged me in and my sight was only showing one thing: we were by far the oldest around there, teenagers making out everywhere like it was their last day on earth. Been there…

'You can't do it right
With the one you love
Nothing you can do
Without the one you love'

“Let’s find us a drink!” we explored the place a little deeper without a drop of shame holding us and soon we hit the kitchen to find stacks of beer on ice and distillates. Wow, this was way too easy!

I looked at both sides and grabbed two beers before someone could think we were stealing. But we were, actually, stealing, right?
I handed her one can before we could get back to the living room.

'You were always playing my records
When I was after making some love
But I need more than the music
To keep myself together
Although it makes me feel so good'

She sang the last verses while her hips were swinging suggestively in front of me and I tried hard not to keep staring at the way her breasts were moving together in her really low-cut black blouse. Now I could clearly see why she needed a large bra size and why she was making me seethe inside.
If just a few sips of beer could weaken her restraints, I wonder what could happen until the end of the night. But one question still bouncing in my head: was she trying to move on from Jimmy or just having fun with me in friendship manners only? Cause maybe it was about time for me to make the first move… And I gotta let her know what I’m feeling, I can’t wait any longer.

'You can't do it right
With the one you love
Nothing you can do
Without the one you love'

“Hey, Brian, I need a shot. A beer is not gonna be enough for me tonight!” still shaking her body in front of me with a big smile, I got the message. Maybe she wanted me here today as her slave? Oh I’m wondering too much already…

“Yes, mam, I’m here to serve…apparently.” I turned my back and brought us both a tequila shot. She looked at me quizzically.

“So…tonight we drink to youth. Let’s be young again, like them…”

“Well, as far as I’m concerned, I’m still young and hot, you know…” I decided to stop containing my so-called cockiness and just said it to tease her. She laughed.

“Okay, so…here’s to Brian’s hotness…” I smirked seductively at her, it felt good to hear it from her lips. “…and jerkiness.” she drank it in a single gulp while trying to hold back her giggles.

“Hey! Not funny! Now I just won’t drink it!” she grabbed the shot from my hand right away and before I could notice, she drank it too as fast as the first one. What a…

“You’re welcome, sweetie!” with a very good drawn smirk on her red mouth she grimaced by the burning sensation she felt and grabbed my hand strongly to pull me to somewhere still unknown for the hundredth time today. “C’mon, let’s take a look upstairs!”

I tried hard to hold back my silly grin at the way she said it and I wished we were in my place now, cause upstairs, in that case, would actually mean other things. Here I don’t even know what it means… So I just followed her, like I did in all those hundred times before.

“Are we…even allowed to go in there?” I asked while we climbed the noisy wood stairs.
“We are allowed to go anywhere when we are young, I thought you knew that!” she winked.

We hit the second floor and…well, it seemed like a barn but without all the horses and hay. It was almost empty, no one around, with just two speakers playing the music from downstairs and a tiny open balcony. This couldn’t possibly be a house, where’s the bed, the bedrooms? Yeah, I was pretty much interested on the bedrooms now.

That Deep Purple song ended to give room to a slow Whitesnake tune. Guess we all know that one, right?
Emily glanced at me in the first beats of the song with a smile beginning to form on her mouth.

“People still listen to those good old ballads, huh?” after taking a good look at the whole place, she was slowly coming closer to me again.

Why that song now, why are we here, why her, why is she playing with my eyes like this?? It was all I could think when she got really close without ever taking her eyes out of mine. That was when I felt one of her warm hands getting a grip on mine.

'…Can't stop the feeling
I've been this way before
But with you I've found the key to open any door
I can feel my love for you growing stronger day by day
And I can't wait to see you again
So I can hold you in my arms…'

“Can you dance? Or do I have to bet for this too?” she raised my right hand to our sights and kept playing with my fingers before intertwining them on hers. She waited for my answer by looking at our hands and I was wordless and dazed at how she made me feel after giving those hints. Should I just dance with her, kiss her and then steal her away from my best friend? It didn’t sound right, but it felt so good to think about having her just for me.
When I finally got aware of that situation, Emily clenched her other arm around me and set a slow rhythm for our bodies to follow. My feet started to move by her lead and when her head was softly leaned on my chest, I had to hold my breath. Her smell so near could make me lose control now.

'Is this love that I'm feeling?
Is this the love that I've been searching for?
Is this love or am I dreaming?
This must be love
Cause it's really got a hold on me
Hold onto me…'

I finally let my hand slip from her back down to her waist as I was reaching my limit of breathless and self-control time. When I noticed her head getting up, I felt her warm breath drinking in all the way in my shirt until her nose reached my lower neck, close to my collarbone. It gave me infinite shivers all over.

“I lied before…”
“About what?”
“About dating guitar players…” I couldn’t help but grin. Of course I knew that.

Her closed eyes and expression were my clue to assure my worried heart she wanted me as urgently as I needed her. So why the hell was I restraining myself here if her hand was unstoppably moving on my back, pressing it eagerly, and her mouth was so close to mine on her own need? I finally allowed my rational mind to go with the flow and just touched my mouth on her red hair, to sink in my thoughts on her scent once again.

God, now it’s the time to say it. Brian, just open your mouth and say it.

“Emily, I…” I mumbled those words seconds before a great amount of people appeared from nowhere, screaming and laughing at us.

“COLD SHOWER TIME!!!” they all screamed in unison and shot their water guns at us as me and Emily traded startled glances with each other and them.

“Oh shit, this is a fucking prank?” I asked in a whisper, trying to divert from the water splashing when some guy shout out.

“Hey, wait a minute. Is this…Synyster Gates?” the guy had his jaw dropped to the floor before smiling. They all stopped the shooting. “Holy shit, Boooob, Synyster Gates is crashing your party man!!!” he screamed ‘Matt-like’ from there and they all got flabbergasted with him. Oh damn, I guess I lost the bet…

I sent my worried glance to Emily. “What should we do now?”

“Oh my god, Syn, I’ve seen your concert tonight, you were incredible as always and…” that girl with the deathbat logo on her shirt was coming towards us with a huge smile spread on her face. Oh fuck, not now!

“Run to the balcony, NOW!” Emily whispered back and when they noticed we were planning something, they resumed the shots.

“What? The balcony? How do you…” she was already dragging me by the hand again when we took a look at our view from up there: a swimming pool with a few people inside it.

Oh no, no, no! She’s not thinking what I’m thinking, is she?

“If we stay, we get wet, if we jump, well…we get a little more wet but free from those crazy teenagers holding their threatening water guns. What you say? It’s not that high.”

“Syn! Come here, take a picture with me, please!!” the girl was getting nearer and nearer with her whole gang by her side. I never thought I would get scared or have to run away from a fan like this, like if they were zombies or something. But all I wanted now was to resume my ruined moment with Emily.

“Let’s do this!” I placed my foot on the balcony rail and Emily did the same. We grinned to each other before propelling our bodies to immerse into a freefall a few meters down and crash into that really cold water. We both screamed our asses off before hitting the water, by the way.

Holy shit, how many years I didn’t feel that adrenaline rush I just felt?

We emerged almost together from the water, laughing and giggling our guts out as the other people on the pool stared weirdly at us while asking themselves where did we come from.

“Oh my god, that was hilarious!” Emily showed a glare on her face I never had access before. My urge to kiss her emerged from my heart like we just did from the water.

On the spur of the moment, I just grabbed her face without thinking more and glued her lips on mine almost aggressively. I saw her eyes popping at me first and then she just closed it, to feel my tongue fight for entrance. She didn’t simply let me in, she just threw out her tongue against mine and attacked my mouth before I was even able to make a move. Her body came with all her strength to our desperate kiss and her hands pressed the back of my neck and tugged my hair a little afterwards. Oh…yes, finally!!

“Hey, there they are!! Syyn!!! Don’t run from me!! I love you!!” the scandalous girl and her troupe were coming to meet us again for our disappointment. We had to end that delicious kiss to get out of there and try to escape from them. As fast as we could.

We grabbed each other’s hand and begin to run away from that house, with the extra weight of the soaked clothes almost making us trip on our own feet. Our breathing was accelerated as we tried to contain our hard and loud laughter. We finally stopped when we noticed they were nowhere to be seen after us anymore.

“Oh fuck, that…was…” I said as we both bend over on our knees, completely out of breath.

“Yeah…it was…” we kept giggling several minutes before we could resume our normal breathing. “And why the hell did we run away from them anyway? I feel bad for that girl now, you should just had given her your autograph.”

“And lose a bet for you? No way!”

“What are you talking about? You lost it anyway, they recognized you!”

“Nah nah, you were crystal clear before, if I had to give an autograph then I owed you a shot! I didn’t, so, technically you…” apparently we were all involved on this stupid arguing instead of talking about our little moment we shared on the pool.

“You owe me a shot anyway…”

“You drank your shot, mine and now I still owe you? You can’t do math when you’re drunk, woman!” I raised my playful tone as trying to wring my wet white shirt.

“Hey, who says I’m drunk?! I’m perfectly fine here! But I’m really in the mood of getting wasted so…Look, there’s a liquor store in there!” she pointed at the other side of the street and started to walk towards it.

“Where are you going? If we want to buy something we have to wait for our money to dry out first, you know?!”

“Who says I’m buying it?” her smirk made me think. What was she implying with that? “Young people don’t have money to buy drinks! So…” she said it as I watched her setting her soaked cleavage a little more opened to the world’s view. When I said the demon had possessed her before, I was damn right.

“What! What the fuck, Emily! Are you planning to steal from this poor old man?” I tried to hold her back from entering the store.

“Oh, cool off Bri, we pay him tomorrow when our money will be dry, okay?” she winked with her right eye. “When I say run, you just run like your life depended on it!”

“Shit…” I nodded negatively and I had to follow her. What I don’t do for a bit of lovin…

“Hello sir!! I’m looking for…that old guy called Jose Cuervo, do you happen to see him around here?” her seductively tone towards that old man almost made me spit my laughter everywhere. His eyes couldn’t stop the contact with her breasts. Oh my god, if she gives him a heart attack, I wouldn’t want to be responsible for someone’s death here.

“I…I have it around here just…wait a second and I’ll bring it to you, sweetheart.” the old man turned his back and picked up a bottle to hand her soon after with a bright smile on his face. I just made my way to the door to wait for her clue when I heard a throat noise. “It’s 30,99, sir!” then I noticed he directed his sentence to me. She asked the bottle and I have to pay? This is prejudice!

Emily turned her back to him to pretend she was going to checkout when she mimicked with her mouth: RUN! NOW!

My hands automatically grabbed a six pack by the door and I just ran like a crazy roach to the street, not before letting some wet dollars fall down from my wallet on the store floor. Emily was just after me and it all went like slow motion in my head when I looked back and the old man was holding a rifle on his elderly pace.

“Heeey, little fucking brats, come back here or I’ll shoot you in the ass!!!”

“Fuck, Emily, he has a gun!” I looked back again as we sprinted more and more from the man’s vision. "A real gun!"

“Ohh fuck, we are so deaaad!!!” she shouted with laughters by my side now and I saw that special glare on her eyes again for a slight moment. Yeah, that’s what she likes, that rush…

But I don’t think she would like that much if he had shot us. Thank god he didn’t. Probably cause he found the money there, 200 wet dollars was the price to make him keep his bullets for himself, I guess. But she didn’t have to know that, did she?

We ran a few more meters away from those crowded streets to finally find a peaceful one, close to the beach. We stopped in front of an empty house to resume our breath.

“God…you’re killing me with all this running…” I bent over my knees again and felt it quiver. She was still laughing. "Do they all have guns around here or what?"

“Oh, c’mon Brian, do you really think he was gonna shoot us? In the ass? And you brought beer too, huh? Guess I'm not the only burglar here.” her giggles were super loud now. I looked above us and…

“Wow…look at this, a lighthouse!”

“This is high!!” we both looked up, astonishment on our faces. The best view of the city, probably.

“Let’s get up there!” now I robbed her hand on mine and forced ourselves to jump the fence, literally speaking.

“Now we are invading a public domain?” she giggled again and I made a silence sign to her with my index finger.

“If it’s public, it’s ours, we pay taxes. Besides, we did that a few minutes before, short-memory girl.” I noticed the security man was laying completely asleep on a chair inside the house close to the lighthouse. It’s our chance.

“Oh man, it’s a lot of stairs…” we got to the door and opened it slowly.

“Lazy…” I muttered still holding her hand and pulling her to follow me.

When we finally got up there, I could feel that all our effort to climb it was worth it. The immensity of the ocean’s view from there was astounding and amazing at the same time. I caught a glimpse of Emily’s face and she was probably having the same impression as I was.

“Wooow, we don’t have this kind of marvelous view on Huntington…” she went close to the balcony rail and leaned her arms on it after placing the tequila bottle on the ground.

“Oh, you don’t know nothing… I know a lighthouse there but it’s really far from the urban perimeter. I’ll show it to you one of these days…” I came close to her and stood by her side at the same position she was.

With only the glow of the moon lightning her features, I observed for the tenth time today how beautiful landscape she was to my sight. And I had the same conflicting feeling towards her as I had of the ocean sight.

I grabbed my soaked Marlboro pack on my pocket and let out a defeated sigh.

“Damn, this is going to trash…” I let it fall to the ground and kept searching in my pocket. It gotta be here somewhere…

“Ohh, just as I thought! Intact!” I put out a plastic bag with brown cigarettes inside it. Completely saved and dry. Emily glanced at my hand and at me and smirked.

“You brought the goods and wasn’t gonna tell me?”

“Hey, be nice, I’m sharing…” I fired my lighter and lit up one of them in my mouth. Then I handed the other to her with the lighter.

I gave it the first blow while peeking at her handling the lighter. She seemed like a 4 year old girl struggling to light the joint up. I had to laugh.

“What the fuck, Brian, your lighter sucks!” she sounded angry with innumerous failed attempts.

“Come here, let me do this, my lighter doesn’t work with delicate fingers like yours.” she smiled as I lit it up on her mouth and she promptly let the smoke get inside her.

“What are you talking about, look at your fingers, they are like taken from a porcelain doll, even though you made sure to tattoo them with a cigarette brand. So tough!” No matter what, she always had teasing answers to me.

“I’m gonna take that as a compliment…” we both grinned to each other and enjoyed the sweet and warm sensation inside us.
She leaned her body on the handrail again and I noticed she was staring at me now.

“What?!”

“Nothing...” instead of looking away, I could still feel her eyes all over my face. “It’s just…you are sexy when smoking.” I wanted to say the same but I gulped my words with another blow, finishing it, as she was giggling in a very stoned way. Then I grabbed a beer I had brought cause I hated tequila, but she didn’t need to know that too.

“Now that is a compliment…” we silly smiled and I waited for her eyes to go back to the beach sight to enjoy my view from her face in profile. My eyes dropped down a little and watched her already dry shirt flying with the heavy wind that hit us, exposing a guitar-shaped draw inked on top of her left breast to my sight. That woke up my desire to kiss it and lick it like a hungry lion looking for his next meal. I wasn’t sure if I was hot from that sight or from the weed but I had to take my wet shirt off, it was annoying me anyway.
I went inside the lighthouse and noticed the ceiling was made of transparent glass. A lot of stars were shining through it.

“Hey, Em, come take a look at this!” she gazed back at me and came with a naughty grin on her face, taking a sip of her tequila bottle.

“What, shirtless you?” she smirked with her eyes stuck on my chest.

“Oh, you can see shirtless me everywhere on the internet, nothing new. Look up!” we both watched the great amount of stairs hanging above our heads with our jaws dropped. That was something we didn’t see every day…

I dropped my body on the floor and didn’t mind a few grains of sand tingling in my back. She followed suit but a little bit far from me than I expected. I planted my shirt on my head to work as a pillow and we kept watching the night sky in silence by several minutes. I was so high I felt like one of the stars, a part of that other great immensity. All I needed to be complete now was the warmth of her body closer to mine again.

“This night was great, we acted like two desperate teenagers and we had a lot of fun but… I really shouldn’t be here…with you, you know.” her voice cracked at the end. What is that all about?

“Why is that?”

“Cause I had a fight with Jimmy…because of you.” I uphold my head on my left elbow to frown at her by my left side.

“But I don’t see how I can be the cause to your fight.”

“All you need to know is that I screwed up, it was all my fault. And I’m feeling so lonely lately that…god, I needed a night like this… Now I’m feeling guilty about…the kiss we shared before and…” her slurred voice was kind of desperate as well.

“Do you love him?” I interrupted her and a few moments of silence echoed.

“I’m not sure if what I feel is love but…it’s something definitely strong.” It wasn’t that answer I wanted to hear. The next question would naturally be if she feels something for me too but I tried to hold that one to not pressurize her or anything.

“When I kissed you before, I…”

“Yes, Brian, I felt it too.” I could hear the sound of her teeth chattering from cold. “I felt this connection with you that…I never thought I could find it. It’s all so confusing and messed up in my head now… I just don’t know what to do…”

“Hey, come here, are you cold? You are shaking.” She nodded with her head and I opened my arms at her direction, inviting her to my embrace. She hesitated cause I just ignored everything she said. “I won’t bite…only if you want me to.” I smirked and she smiled at that sentence I’ve said before when we first met. Her eyes were so deep into mine it made me want to drown inside her brain just to see what was up into her mind now.

Then she approached me slowly and I finally felt her body leaned on mine. I couldn’t control a muffled groan at the feel of her. My hands started to rub her arms and I made sure my chest was covering most of her skin as I gently leaned us both on that wood ground again. She adjusted her body on mine and her left hand rested on my chest; she didn’t even realize her fingers were softly kneading my nipple. Or did she?

“I like you, Emily. More than I should.” I planted a kiss on her forehead and pressed her almost dry hair against me, she wasn’t cold or shaking anymore thanks to my body heat. I felt her lips forming a smile on my chest and that was when the strap of her blouse fell off her shoulder, letting me see one more time that aphrodisiac tattoo on her breast. Damn, the whole universe was teasing me now. But just one thought in my mind: I can finally be her blanket now but I want more. When I see a guitar like that, I need to finger it so bad…

I shut my mind off and let my middle finger slide straight to her breast, to her tattoo. She gazed at the path of my hand and then at me and my mouth. God, don’t look at my mouth like this…She licked her lips and closed her eyes to enjoy my really subtle touch and placed her head back on my chest again. She wasn’t rejecting neither stopping me at all, just panting a hot breath on my skin.

It felt right. I felt complete.

I just don’t know why the fuck I took off my hand of there and blocked myself from going further. She was apparently okay with that too so…
We just fell asleep like this, as my lust for her was put aside...once again.

Yeah…just one kiss. That’s all we did wrong. But that simple thing meant a lot to me, I have no idea why. Although, apparently, the intense moments we shared just weren’t enough for her to move on from Jimmy.

On our next stop, Florida, I had the misfortune of staying in a hotel room next to Rev’s. Just to feed my jealousy a bit more, on our first night there, I had to bear with Emily’s loud moans coming from his room almost all night long. Yeah, after all, they made up… - disappointment nod here.

I confessed it turned me on a little but jealousy hit me hard this time. I could only hear her voice saying his name over and over but… by the way she looked at me that night, she kissed me, I was almost sure she fantasized about me as much as I did about her. And maybe, just maybe, she was imagining me there instead of Jimmy…

But fuck! To be honest, I was getting really tired of playing that game where I was always the loser, no matter what…

I simply don’t know how to move on from her now.

Hell, I don’t wanna move on…

Notes

final part for Brian's pov. Yeah I know, this chapter is not soo good but...which is? hahaha xD
and that part about a person cant do math when drunk was a sincere tribute to my dear friend @MeRi hahahaha she once told me that and I had to use it! =p

Emily's pov coming next, a few things will be cleared up hopefully ;D
thaaanks for readiingg!! hit meeee with ur thoughts, please?!