Love Lost

{Meaghan’s POV}

I was in Dallas, ready to confront Zack… I had no idea what to do with this baby growing inside of me. He had a wife and all, but I’m sure he would drop everything in a split second for the chance to have a baby. I mean, I had read in interviews that he loves kids but him and his wife were not quite ready for one… Maybe I’m giving him a way out of this relationship. An easy way out.
I knew it was risky to show up again, especially considering the fact I was alone. The band would get suspicious, Zack would freak out. But once he sees me, glowing with pregnancy… How could he turn me away? He couldn’t.
It was coming up to 8pm, I had already made my way backstage with the help of my tits. I couldn’t risk being in the crowd while pregnant, so I watched them play from the sidelines. For once, none of the wives or girlfriends were standing there… I thought it to be a little odd but I just assumed they were all in the dressing room or something, probably trying to figure what to spend their money on when the boys got their next pay checks. I saw Brian look over, he noticed me and his face turned hard and cold, what the? Did he know what happened too? I just gave him a small smile, but Zack had also noticed Brian’s stare and followed it until his eyes landed on me. He looked like he was about to throw up, maybe he was excited about the baby too?

As the show ended, the boys headed back to their dressing rooms. None of them remembered me because they were so intoxicated when I showed up, but Zack stayed behind and approached me. I smiled up at him as he walked over.
“What the hell are you doing here, Meaghan?” He shout whispered, trying not to catch anyone’s attention. I was a little thrown back by his tone of voice, maybe he’s just scared.
“I came to see you, we came to see you…” I smiled once again, putting my hand on my tummy as he looked on in horror, I furrowed my eyebrows at the reaction.
“You can’t be here! What if Gena sees you? For gods sake, Meaghan, be sensible.”
“I am being sensible! I’m letting the baby hear it’s daddy play guitar!”
“Are you deluded? I can’t be a father to your baby! It would ruin everything that I have!”
“But… I thought you wanted kids, Zack?”
“I do, and my wife has already taken care of that. I don’t need some groupie to jump in.”

{Zack’s POV}

I felt bad, it was my fault too and I shouldn’t be talking to her like this… But, she’s going to ruin everything for me. She knows groupies are no strings attached, why is she being so obsessive over this? Her face fell when I told her about Gena, she looked ready to punch me. I deserved it, of course, so I readied myself for it.
Instead, she took a deep breath and shook her head.
“You know what? Fine! I wont give you this baby, I’ll just kill it, is that what you want Zack?”
I heard a creak from behind me, I knew someone was standing there. I froze for a second before spinning around to see Arin standing there. He looked ready to blow at Meaghan, he didn’t want her to ruin anything either.
“Known fact, groupies are whores. Get rid of his baby, and don’t come back to our shows again.” Was all he said before walking off again, Meaghan looked like she was ready to cry… But I couldn’t give in, I had to stand my ground.
“I’ll go and have an abortion tomorrow, but only if you come with me.” She mumbled sadly, I quickly nodded my head. Probably a little too enthusiastically actually. She wrote down an address and handed it to me, telling me to meet her there at a certain time, what excuse would I have to leave the bus tomorrow? Someone always wants to come along.

Meaghan walked off, I sighed in relief when she left the building and I headed to our tour bus, every one was already there because we were all so tired from the constant celebration.
“Hey, Zee, where did you go?” Gena asked as she sat in my lap once I had sat down, playing with a strand of my hair.
“I needed a cigarette.” I smiled back at her, Arin was shooting daggers at the wall instead of staring straight at me, luckily.

“Arin? What’s up buddy?” Matt had stood beside him and thrown his arm around him, but Arin shook him off.
“I’m going to bed.” And with that, he wandered back to his room… The only place he could keep himself sane. Kim quickly followed after him and we all heard the familiar lock of their door.
“Alright, who’s upset Arin?” Matt folded his arms over his chest, looking around the room. Nobody said anything for the next few minutes, we all just looked around at each other. Even though I knew it was me that had made him angry. Matt waved off the subject when none of us said anything to him, he decided to have some late night food instead. Gena had scattered off to bed, I was fast enough to follow after her. I didn’t want to stay awake with these thoughts and flashbacks, I needed to sleep just to stop them.

I could tell she wanted sex tonight, she had that dark tint in her eyes that she always seems to get when she’s horny. Her hand was sliding down my chest at an alarmingly fast rate, as soon as she touched my cock, I flinched and sat up.
“Zack?” She murmured, looking up at me.
I didn’t say anything to her, I just stood up and walked back out of the room, although her sad eyes were haunting me as I closed the door. Only Johnny was up by the time I had came out, he was playing a video game and barely noticed me and I laid down on the sofa and wrapped a blanket around myself.

I began to fall asleep, my mind was finally at peace…

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