Desire of the Soul

Brian’s POV

I still couldn’t believe that my Ana was back, that she had finally regained her memories. I didn’t know if I have ever been more happy in my entire live!
Okay maybe I was, but that was different. I couldn’t describe my feelings when I understood that she really remembered me, remembered our love and relationship, all the time we had together, everything.
It’s awesome to hold her hand in mine, to kiss her lips again, to just feel her lying next to me that is her place to be- by my side.
The door opened and one of Ana’s doctors came inside.
“Hello, Mrs. Evans. How are you today?” Ana smiled at him and before she could answer, I did it for her, “She regained her memories!”
“Oh, very good! We haven’t thought that it will happen so soon, but these are very good news.
Then we can finally make the USG, are you ready?” he asked her, and I saw written on her face that she was horrified. She must be so scared, I grabbed her hand a little tighter.
“Oh, so it wasn’t a dream, too. I still can’t decide what was true and what was just a dream, it’s strange for me..”
“I am sorry but after the USG we know for sure how your Baby is doing...” She closed eyes. I did it too, I didn’t want to hear it.
“The nurse will bring you to the gynecological room” he said and went out and we waited for the nurse to arrive.

“Everything will be okay” I said to her or mostly to myself.
“We’ll have a baby.. I still can’t believe it.. I didn’t know about it before, really!” she said in defense as if I would be angry with her or something.
“Hey Ana, easy. I’m happy or actually I’ll be happy if it will be true.” I soothed her.
“It must be true...! Oh… I’m so scared! When I didn’t know about it, everything was okay, we were talking that we still have time and yet here we are… maybe I still have our baby inside of me!
And oh.. what if it died?! I couldn’t stand that Brian..!” she said and started to cry.
I had the same problem, but I need to be strong, for her.
“Ssshh, we must wait and let it be checked it. But if it turns out that.. That our baby didn’t survive.. I promise you, that we will have a child someday we will be a real family. Whenever we are ready again, we will try it. But now we need to think positive and that everything will be okay” I kissed her lips softly.

“Are you ready?” the nurse asked and stood now behind my back.
Ana nodded and I helped her to sit in the wheelchair.
“Daddy is coming with us?” she asked with smile.
“Me? Yes, yes of course!” I said and followed them outside.
When we arrived at the Gynecologic area we went to the USG room.
Shit, I was really scared didn’t know what to expect or how to feel, my legs started to shake and I needed to sit down. I held Ana’s hand and we were waiting for the doctor which will perform the examination.
It was a female doctor and was a really nice woman, explaining everything to us. I was happy that a woman was doing it, I didn’t want to see Ana like that and naked well there…
She was putting something strange inside of Ana, she explained that the pregnancy was in such an early state that they could only do this by vaginal probe and not a normal ultrasonic on her belly.
She moved her hand with the probe from side to side… then still a little deeper.. Damn!
She looked at the big monitor ahead of us.. Why is it taking so long, damn it?
“Oh there you are” she said finally.
Ana looked at her with wide eyes open, I looked at the monitor to see what she was talking about. She clicked on for a button on then typed on the keyboard and the scene on the monitor changed. “Look here.” she said and pointed with her finger on the monitor.
“Here is your baby”, she said with smile, “And here is the heart” she said and press another button and loud and fast beating sound came from the speakers.
I looked shocked from her to Ana and back, “What is that?”
“That is the strong heartbeat of your baby” she answered.
I needed a few more seconds to realize what she actually said, “That means.. That means that our baby is alive?!” I asked finally.
“Yes, Mr. Haner it is a strong heartbeat, he or she is a little fighter.”
I started to cry, couldn’t hold back my tears.
“Alive!” I yelled and looked at Ana, she was crying, too.
“Do you want to I record this as a souvenir?” the doctor asked and I just nodded.
“From the measurement I would say that this is the 4-5 week now, we still have to wait for the results of the prenatal testing they will be here within the next approx. 5 days, but I think that everything is okay. Your babe is really strong” she said again and smiled at us, “I should be honest with you… When I came here and read your file Mrs. Evans about that terrible accident I was sure that it’s impossible that this babe could still live. But this really is a miracle.”
“You must take good care of you two, now” she said to Ana and touched her shoulder friendly.
“I will be careful.”

When we were back in Ana’s hospital room, all the guys were waiting there.
“And?!” Romy asked at first.
But I think that that everyone who was watching us could tell that everything was okay, thank god! We were smiling, laughing, crying.. Everything at once.
I took the laptop from the desk next to Ana’s bed and put the cd inside. I turned the laptop to the guys, “Please, meet our baby” I said with proud. Romy, Val and Amanda started to cry.
“Fuck! That is little Gates!” Zacky yelled happily.
“Don’t swear around my child!” I said and everybody started to laugh.
“Congrats man!” Matt said and hugged me.
Next all the other guys joined in and hugged me and Ana.
Jimmy sat next to Ana on the bed and put his hand on her belly.
“You will be the happiest kid in the whole world, uncle Jimmy will take care of that, I promise!”
I couldn’t help myself I was just smiling. Damn, I will be a Dad. Daddy Gates!

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