Desire of the Soul

Ana’s POV

Why can’t we all be happy? Only a few moments, when everything’s looks good and then BAM something is wrong again. First this incident with me and Brian, no one was happy, because we weren’t together. Next misery, Zacky and Romy finally they were together and while it seemed that everything is fine- Jimmy was so sad and again everyone was dragged down. Then he found his love with Amanda... Awesome, end of our worrying, but of course, it’s too good to be true, so something had to go wrong again.
Damn.. I still cannot believe that Romy and Zacky- this perfect couple, the ones that made love on the bus before my eyes, broke up.
What else can go wrong now?
Can’t we all be just happy together?
During these last days Romy was a shadow of herself. She was working too much, too long. When I arrived at work early she was already there, when I went home she stayed even longer. I know what she tried to do, but I also knew that this won’t help her. I really hope that they will get back together; maybe they just need some times to realize that it doesn’t make sense to be alone.
I must help Romy to relax and maybe for few hours divert her thoughts from Zacky and the break-up.
I know that it won’t be easy to entice her from her home, so I need good arguments.
“Hey Romy” I opened her office’s door.
“Oh, Ana, Hey” She said, I looked at her eyes, there were traces of tears still on her lashes and cheeks. She had been crying, again. She tries not to show it to anyone but she is suffering. Why is she not talking to Zack, maybe they could figure it out…
“Are you busy?”
“Not really, something wrong? You know I will always make time for you anyway.”
“What do you about a girl’s party today?”
“I don’t think that this is a good idea…”
“C’mon Romy… Don’t let me beg”
“Try to understand me.. I am just not a good company at the moment…“
“I understand you, don’t forget that I was on the same situation just a few months ago, okay not the same but similar”
“Yes, you are right and so you know that I need time, to be just alone, with ice cream and tissues.” Romy replied with a sad smile, a tear escaping her lashes again.
“But look.. I know that I shouldn’t ask you that, but.. You know that I don’t have many friends and you now I am getting married in a few days. I really need your help. I have so much to do, flowers, bachelorette party or not, I need the last details for nearly everything, but I understand that you mayhave not enough strength to help me… so no problem I just ask Kate for some help…” I looked sadly at the floor. If this do the trip I didn’t know what…
“Oh Ana, why didn’t you say anything?! You know that I will always help you.”
Yeah! I won!
“But really, if you don’t want…”
“No, No!” Romy replied quickly.
“So, today?! At my place?”
“Oh, well sure... why not?!” she said finally.
“Maybe I will ask Amanda to come over as well? Then I will kick Brian out and sent him over to Jimmy and we will have the whole house for ourselves?”
“Yes, that’s a good idea.”
“So, 6? Is that alright?”
“Yeah, sounds great.” I smiled to myself that we’ll finally have some time to just talk.
“Okay, so I back to work now. See you this evening!” I said to her.
“ Yep, see you” I turned towards her and hugged her
“Hey, remember my ice cream and tissues are always for you too.” I kissed her cheek and went out.

“And what did she say?!” Amanda asked when I came back to our office.
“It’s done” I smiled
“ You are amazing, I tried it for a long time, and I know that Jimmy is trying as well. What did you say to her?”
“ I had some pretty strong arguments” I smiled.
“So 6, yes?” I nodded.
Now, I need to inform Brian about my plans, so I called him right away.
“Hi Baby” he answered.
“Hi, you know that I love you, right?” I asked him sheepishly.
“What do you want, babe?” He said with laugh. Yeah, you know me Brian…
“Oh, nothing, nothing. Just… Can you spend this night with Jimmy? “
“Spend the night with Jimmy? I didn’t change my orientation as far as I know, honey. You are enough for me.” He laughed loud.
“Oh, you know what I mean. I want to spend this evening with Romy. Make her feel a little better if it’s ok for you of course.”
“Okay, no problem. But I don’t know if Jimmy doesn’t want to spend this evening with Amanda, like always.”
“No, no. He will not. Actually Amanda will be with me and Romy, so…”
“Ah, good. So I’ll call Jimmy and asked him to invite Zacky as well, doing a man’s night”
“Good idea. He needs some fun, too.”
“So see you at home, baby.”
“Yeah, see you. Love ya.”

I prepared some foods for us and drinks, of course. I heard the doorbell ring.
“Come in!” I yelled. Romy and Amanda was there together.
“Soooo, what is the first we need to do and plan tonight?!” Romy asked when we finally ate and sat on the couch.
“Hmm, I am not sure, but I think that I need bachelorette party?!”
“Yes! Of course you need a party!” said Amanda
“ Maybe I can invite you all here to have some dinner or something...”
“Noooooo way!” Romy nearly screamed.
I looked at her questioningly, “I’m your maid of honor, so I’ll organize this party for you, and we certainly won’t be sitting at your home on this night, I promise you!”
“So where? What do you plan to do?” I wanted to know, what ideas Romy had in her mind.
“No, no. It will be a surprise!” , she smirked.
“Oh Romy, please. It’s my wedding!”
“Wedding- of course. Night before- belongs to us, maids of honors as well, soooo surpriseee!”
“Okay, okay. You won... But please don’t plan something crazy, ok?”
“Don’t worry, it will be amazing!” she laughed.
Oh she really laughed! Truly laughed maybe we won’t need ice cream and tissues today.

Jimmy’s POV

Something is really going wrong here. Days come and Days go and I was torn between my friends…
First I jumped between places- First I was at Romy’s home talked to her about everything what happened between her and Zacky. She cried a lot and I just sat there and held her in my arms. Whenever I wanted to start and say what Zacky had told us, that he still loved her and that they should talk, she blocked me out and one time I think it was a week later or something she literally kicked me out.
Then I went over to Zack I tried to reason with him as well, that he should tell her his feeling but well both didn’t want to hear what I had to say. They were both lost in their minds of being apart from the person they loved and even if they could so easily be happy together again!?
And I still felt bad because I also played a part in this whole break up and I knew it… I never meant that anything like this to happen, I was just used to having my best friend with me like always but maybe I haven’t realized that it would break Romy and Zack apart. That Romy felt obliged to be on my side because she always was and Zack felt left out, that is where it all started…
Now I am happy with my girl Amanda and their Relationship fell apart.
I cannot stand to see Romy that way and Zack as well. I would try again today…
I knocked on Zacky’s door and after a while he opened.
“Oh hey man, whats up?” Zacky looked bad. He had dark circles under his eyes but at least he was awake by now, that was a good sign.
“Hey Zack, can I come in?” I asked him.
“Yeah sure, sit were you want.” He motioned to the living room.
On the couch lay a blanket and all around the table bottles and cartons from takeout food and shit.
“Are you sleeping on the couch, man?”
“Yeah…” Zack sat down on his camp at the couch.
“Why? Isn’t your bed more comfortable?”
“Yeah, maybe…” Zacky replied but looked down on his hands.
“Then why are you sleeping here?”
“Damn it, because there are still her clothes, ok… and the bed smells like her, I can’t fucking stand it… Ok that enough?”
“Shit… sorry man… But what if you just call her…”
“Oh fuck, Jimmy… Can you leave it alone, man?! Please… it’s over. She doesn’t want and need me. She will find another one…” He swallowed hard, it wasn’t easy for him to say something like that. I could see it.
“What will happen at the next party? Huh, she will be there, she is Matt’s sister, you will see her again?”
“Then I won’t be going to that party, ok? I couldn’t stand to see her, being all happy and… oh damn that sounded wrong, sure I wanna see her happy… I mean… I wish I could be the one to make her happy but I cannot and that’s just the way it is…”
How can a person be so fucking stubborn, I cannot fucking believe it. One talk and they could be back together…
“You won’t be going? That easy, huh? Like in just 3 Days is the Wedding of Brian and Ana and you will just not be going? Being one of his best man and tell him… Sorry Brian, but I am not coming to your wedding, to your most precious day of your life but.. ahhh I cancel? Like that?”
Zack looked shocked, “In 3 Days? The wedding is already in three days? I totally lost track of time… I mean… I… should plan something for his bachelor party, Jimmy, we have to plan… and I… damn I not only suck as boyfriend I also suck as best man.. shit…”
“No, you don’t. We planned already his bachelor party don’t worry. And your only task is until then, sleep a little, cause damn man, you look horrible and please try to have a little fun then, remind yourself, live goes on… and maybe at the wedding you could talk to Romy again…”
I had to try one last time, hadn’t I?!
“Jimmy… damn it… Stop it, ok?!”
“Ok, then let’s drink a beer and I tell you what will happen at the Bachelor party, alright?”
“Alright… then tell me what will be going on?!” Zacky sounded at least a little interested so I told him my plan for Brian’s last day as a free-man!

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