Desire of the Soul

Brian’s POV

I went to the backstage area to find Zacky, we should be on our places in a few minutes and he… of course isn’t where he should be. Maybe he forgot about it while he is having fun with Romy. I ran through the crowd and opened the door to the backstage room, “Damn man, here you are. We are all waiting for you, break is over and we should be..”
I stopped when I realized that he was knelling, “Dude, are you praying or what?” I asked him with a laugh.
He didn’t answer so I walked towards him. His hand covered his face but even so I could see that he was crying.
“Fuck, why are you crying?!”
“Leave me alone Brian” Zack said quietly.
“Are you fucking kidding me? I won’t leave you alone when you’re like this? I might let you alone when you tell me what the fuck happened.”
“Romy and I, we.. We broke up” he said finally.
“You did WHAT?!”, I yelled at him. Oh shit, gotta turn my voice down a bit.
“You did what?” I tried again.
He didn’t say anything. I pulled my phone out and called Jimmy to let him know that we won’t be coming back to the signing.
“Get up” I wanted to help Zack to his feet.
“Fuck of! I am not going anywhere. Is it so hard to understand that I want to be fucking alone?!” Zack yelled at me.
“When I was crashing down like you when Ana had left me, can you remember that you guys were fucking camping in my house for weeks and what the fuck did I tell you?! I wanted to be alone and who listened to me?! No-fucking one?! Why should you have more luck then me, so get up we will get you and me a drink!”
“Yeah.. A Drink. That’s what I need” he said and finally stood up.
I took him to my car and called Ana that I’m with him and that she should talk to Romy.
So, I brought him to his home and we went inside. I found us a nice bottle of whisky and poured two glasses one for him and one for myself. I needed a drink, too. He drank it with one gulp and gave me the empty glass back. I handed him the whole bottle.
“So, maybe now, you can tell me what the fuck happened?!”
“We broke up.” Zacky’s only reply after another drink straight from the bottle.
“Yeah, that I know already, but why?” This will be a long afternoon.
“Damn, actually I don’t know.”
“Fuck, can you be a little bit more clearly?” He took another gulp and looked down.
“It’s over. Fuck. It’s over” He shook his head, at this moment he must actually realized what really happened.
“The first girl I really loved, for who I would give my fucking life.. and.. and.. it’s over?! Fuck, it’s over.” He said and started to cry again. For the first time I saw him like this.
Damn that was Zacky V, man who never care of any girls, just have fun with them.
“But there must have been a reason, I mean why? Maybe it’s only temporary crisis, maybe in a few days you two will talk and everything will be normal again?”
“No, nothing will be normal again, damn it. Since we came back from the tour it was starting to get complicated. Ok, first few days everything was fine but then it was different and strange between us. But normally after some argument we got together or we just covered it, covered our problems. It’s me you know… I destroyed it all! That was my fucking fault!”
“Hey, stop, I’m sure that it’s not only your fault.” I tried to reason with him.
“No, you don’t understand. I was jealous asshole. And I don’t even know why… This one time I saw that she was having lunch with her co-worker. I thought that she cheated on me. I made a scene on this cafe. It turned out that he was just a friend but when I saw her with him hugging with this other guy, fuck.. I just kinda snapped. And as if that wasn’t enough I said to her on someday that she shouldn’t spent so much time with Jimmy. I was jealous of her best friend, of Jimmy.
And today.. She saw me with those fan-girls. I wanted.. Fuck I don’t know what I wanted. I thought that if she will be a little jealous of me, she might know what I am feeling all the time. But I didn’t wanna hurt her I would never betray her… And I then I saw her standing there with tears in her eyes.. she must think that I wanted to get rid of her or something… I never wanted that.. I Love her, damn it… “ He started to yell some more and he had lost me during his whole speech, damn I didn’t know that they had trouble...
Next drank he drank the rest of the whisky and I opened myself another beer. I knew that these next day’s well be really tough now.

Ana’s POV

I don’t know what happened that Brian went with Zacky and told me that I should call Romy.
I thought that they will be on their places in 10 minutes. But I did as he asked me to, “Oh hi Romy” She answered on second ring.
“Hi”
“Where are you? Brian told me to..” Damn just now it occurred to me that something was wrong with her voice. “Romy?” I asked “Yeah?” She said with a brittle voice.
“What happened? Why are you crying?” She didn’t answer; I heard her deeply breathe and she began to cry.
“Just tell me where you are, okay?”
“At the parking lot” she said
“Wait for me there, I’ll be there in a minute”
I saw her sitting in her car with head on steering wheel, when I opened the door she reached looked up to me. Her makeup was smudgy, her eyes were red and full of tears which were also running down her cheeks.
“Oh Romy, what happened!” I said and hugged her tight. She embraced me and started sob into my shoulder. “Shhh, stop crying” I looked into her eyes. “What’s wrong?”
“We broke up, Zacky and I”
“What?! Why?”
“I just said that because I was angry to see him with those girls and he said that it will be better, and.. “ She started to cry even louder.
“C’mon I will bring you home”

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