Tough
Goodbye And Farewell
Matt and the guys have been back at the house for their 4th day trying to get me to come out of my room. I ignored the pleads and the wanting for me me come out. Matt would always sit outside my bedroom door for hours at a time asking me to come out but I wouldn't answer him. My thoughts were too consumed at leaving. 2 days I discovered money I had stashed away in case I needed something in my little black box. I had enough money to leave California and go back to Arkansas and still have enough money to eat. I took all my clothes out of the closet and packed them neatly into my back pack and set my black box down in on top. I also put my breast cancer/deathbat blanket and stuff duck into the bag before sealing it closed. I took off the necklace and sat down on the bed to write a lengthy letter to the guys. I told them the reason why I left and explained to Zacky how much I loved him.
I finished the latter and laid it on the pillow with the necklace. Darkness consumed the wide open space outside my window. I put on my shoes and opened my window and carefully descended to the ground. I looked through the window and seen Zacky's bitch sitting in his lap. I shook my head and made my way towards the airport. I will miss them all...I just can't go back right now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MATT'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Raelyx please open the door." I begged her but I got no answer. It's been 5 days since she's came out of her room and I get no answer from her. I looked at her door and remember that I have a key. I got up from my spot next to her door and walked downstairs and into the kitchen.
I grabbed the key out of a punch bowl from the top of the fridge and went back to her bedroom door. I unlocked her door and slowly opened it and flicked on the light but she wasn't in there. I seen a piece of paper laying on the pillow with the necklace Zacky gave her. I sat down and picked up the letter.
If you've found this then you know that I've gone. You ask yourself why I would leave and I'll enlighten you. When I first came here, I was excited to be living with a famous rock star of my favorite band...but when things started going into a downward spiral, I don't feel myself. This fucking cancer took something away from me; my self-confidence. I didn't feel whole and no one wants a girl like me for their own. I'm sorry I had to leave.
To Zacky: Ever since Val introduced us at the barbecue, I've had a soft spot for you in my heart. Ive loved you more that just a friend. Val urged me to tell you but I was so afraid that you wouldn't love me back because I'm not whole...not a freak. Christine is that person who is whole and doesn't know what I'm going through. Many months ago my heart wanted me to tell you how I felt about you but my mind wouldn't tell my mouth to speak. Please don't come after me. Don't look for me. I'll be just fine. Here's your necklace back. Keep it as a reminder of me.
~Raelyx
I set the letter down at my side and picked up the necklace. She's gone...I picked up the note and carried both the necklace and letter downstairs. I entered the living room and every ones attention came to me.
"What's going on?"
"She's gone...Raelyx left." I said sitting down in the recliner.
"What are you talking about?" I handed the letter over and she read it. Tears filled her precious eyes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~VAL'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I read the letter and knew I had to tell Zacky.
"Give me the necklace." I said and Matt handed it over without questioning. I got up from my seat on the couch and walked outside where Zacky sat smoking. He looked over at me and I held up her necklace.
"What's going on? Why do you have her necklace?"
"Raelyx is gone." I said bluntly.
"What do you mean she's gone?"
"She left Zacky. Read this." I said handing him the letter. He sighed before taking the letter and reading it. He looked back up at me.
"I didn't know she felt this way."
"She loved you Zacky. When she seen you with that girl, it tore her up inside. How did you feel towards her?" I said crossing my arms.
"I love her Val...but I didn't know she would be feeling the same. She's beautiful just the way she is. There's been several times I've tried to tell her but my mouth wouldn't speak."
"Were you afraid that she would do you like Gena did?" I asked sitting down beside him.
"Yes. I didn't want to feel rejected."
"Zacky we all get rejected at times but we pick ourselves up and try again." I said placing my hand on his back. Zacky stood to his feet and started towards his car.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Tell the guys I went looking for Rae. I'll be back."
"I will." I said smiling as he tore down the road.
"Where's Zacky going?" I turned to see Matt coming out the door.
"He's gone to find Raelyx." I said smiling.
"We need to go with him."
"No Matt. This is something Zacky needs to do on his own." I said placing my hand on his arm.
"Val what if something happens?"
"Nothing will happen. Trust me on this." I said smiling an Matt nodded. we walked back into the house and Matt told the guys what Zacky was doing. I have no idea how long he's going to be gone but I hope he's not gone too long. The house phone began to ring and I picked it up and answered.
"Hello?" I said.
"Hey Val, its Jo."
"Oh hey Jo." I said sitting down in the kitchen.
"Is something wrong?"
"There is actually." I said sighing.
"What is it? Maybe I can help."
"Raelyx left. She wrote us a letter, packed her things and left." I said rubbing my forehead.
"Oh no...She's done this before. She ran away from a foster home because she was in love with a guy she went to school with but he didn't like her back. It took me weeks to locate her."
"Zacky left to go find her. Where did you finally find her?" I asked picking up my cell and starting a message to Zacky.
"The only place she can seek comfort. Her mother's grave in Arkansas."
"Do you know where?" I asked.
"I've never been but all I know that it's in Little Rock."
"I'll let Zacky know." I said texting Zacky the information Jo had given me. I looked down at the message from Zacky and he knew where I was talking about.
"Zacky knows where the cemetery is." I said confused.
"How does he know that?"
"He didn't say. Let's just hope he finds her." I said holding this necklace in my hand.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I raced out of Val's driveway and started for the airport when Val sent me a message.
~Zacky, Raelyx might be in Little Rock, Arkansas. Jo told me that's where she goes to find comfort.~ Val.
~I know where it is~
I parked my car in the airport parking lot and ran into the building and locking my car as I did. I purchased a ticket to Little Rock and boarded the plane in record time. I took my seat and the plane lifted into the air. I need to find her....She needs to know that I love her just as much as she does me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~RAELYX'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I walked down the streets of Little Rock in the direction of my mom's grave. My mom is the only sense of comfort when I feel the way I do. I walked into a local florist and purchased some roses for the grave. I continued my journey to the cemetery looking over my shoulder every now then. I looked up and seen the gate and walked in. I quickly made my way over to my mom's final resting place and I laid down the roses.
"Hey mom...A lot has happened these last few years....I mean since your untimely passing. The State sent me to 5 different Christian-based foster homes and I never fit in there. The last one I was in, I told off the whole congregation and luckily for me a man named Matthew Sanders adopted me. He's a famous singer for the band Avenged Sevenfold. Matt gave me a really good life. A life that you would be proud of me having...but I was diagnosed with Breast cancer. The cut off my right breast and now I don't like myself. I feel like a freak. I also had...I mean have feelings for their Rhythm Guitarist Zacky Baker. He's a really good person mom. When Val and Matt had left for a week of vacation, Zacky looked after me. I thought he was going to kiss me but he didn't. My feelings towards him are greater than I've ever loved anyone. I just wish he felt the same. Zacky wants a whole woman mom...not a half." I said lowering my head as I spoke to my mom's headstone. I looked up and heard the sound of screeching tires.
A car came to a stop in the parking lot of the cemetery and Zacky got out of the car. I ran off into the woods. Thank God my parent's house isn't too far from here. I ran passed 3 abandon cabins and I stopped and looked back but no one was there.
"Raelyx!" I could hear Zacky's faint yells. I ran again deeper into the woods until I couldn't hear Zacky's voice. I walked a few more yards and came to my home. It looked so run down but it was still home. I walked onto the porch and pushed open the front door.
Everything looked like it did. Every piece of furniture was still in the same place. I looked on the wall next to the door and the dirty blood stained wall where my father had shot himself was still there. I sat down on the couch remembering the days when I was happy. I missed those times. I climbed the stairs and opened my bedroom door. My bed was still there along with how it was made when I got up. I pulled back the covers and the sheets were so clean. They looked brand new. I smiled and sat my things down on the bed. It's so good to be home.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked around the whole cemetery and couldn't find Raelyx. I went a few more feet and seen a grave with fresh red roses on them. I looked down at the headstone.
Monique Giles
June 19,1961-June 17,2000.
A loving mother and wife who left this world too soon.
See you on the other side mom.
I left the cemetery and ventured into the woods until I came to a old cabin. I pushed open the front door and the place was completely abandoned. I walked through the house and there was no sign of Raelyx. I walked out of the house shutting the front door back and sitting down on the steps. I'll never find Raelyx....She doesn't even know how I feel abut her. She'll never know how much I love her and how bad I want to take care of her. Tears poured down my face at the thought of never seeing Raelyx again. I got to my feet and slowly walked back towards the cemetery. I touched Raelyx's moms headstone before going back to my car and sitting down in the front seat closing my eyes. My phone vibrated in the cup holder and I picked it up.
~Did you find her?~ Val.
~No...She's gone Val. I'll never find her.~
~Don't give up hope.~ Val.
~I'm coming home.~
I turned my phone off and headed back to the airport. I will miss Raelyx...The love I have for her will never die and I will tell her how I feel about her.
I finished the latter and laid it on the pillow with the necklace. Darkness consumed the wide open space outside my window. I put on my shoes and opened my window and carefully descended to the ground. I looked through the window and seen Zacky's bitch sitting in his lap. I shook my head and made my way towards the airport. I will miss them all...I just can't go back right now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MATT'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Raelyx please open the door." I begged her but I got no answer. It's been 5 days since she's came out of her room and I get no answer from her. I looked at her door and remember that I have a key. I got up from my spot next to her door and walked downstairs and into the kitchen.
I grabbed the key out of a punch bowl from the top of the fridge and went back to her bedroom door. I unlocked her door and slowly opened it and flicked on the light but she wasn't in there. I seen a piece of paper laying on the pillow with the necklace Zacky gave her. I sat down and picked up the letter.
If you've found this then you know that I've gone. You ask yourself why I would leave and I'll enlighten you. When I first came here, I was excited to be living with a famous rock star of my favorite band...but when things started going into a downward spiral, I don't feel myself. This fucking cancer took something away from me; my self-confidence. I didn't feel whole and no one wants a girl like me for their own. I'm sorry I had to leave.
To Zacky: Ever since Val introduced us at the barbecue, I've had a soft spot for you in my heart. Ive loved you more that just a friend. Val urged me to tell you but I was so afraid that you wouldn't love me back because I'm not whole...not a freak. Christine is that person who is whole and doesn't know what I'm going through. Many months ago my heart wanted me to tell you how I felt about you but my mind wouldn't tell my mouth to speak. Please don't come after me. Don't look for me. I'll be just fine. Here's your necklace back. Keep it as a reminder of me.
~Raelyx
I set the letter down at my side and picked up the necklace. She's gone...I picked up the note and carried both the necklace and letter downstairs. I entered the living room and every ones attention came to me.
"What's going on?"
"She's gone...Raelyx left." I said sitting down in the recliner.
"What are you talking about?" I handed the letter over and she read it. Tears filled her precious eyes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~VAL'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I read the letter and knew I had to tell Zacky.
"Give me the necklace." I said and Matt handed it over without questioning. I got up from my seat on the couch and walked outside where Zacky sat smoking. He looked over at me and I held up her necklace.
"What's going on? Why do you have her necklace?"
"Raelyx is gone." I said bluntly.
"What do you mean she's gone?"
"She left Zacky. Read this." I said handing him the letter. He sighed before taking the letter and reading it. He looked back up at me.
"I didn't know she felt this way."
"She loved you Zacky. When she seen you with that girl, it tore her up inside. How did you feel towards her?" I said crossing my arms.
"I love her Val...but I didn't know she would be feeling the same. She's beautiful just the way she is. There's been several times I've tried to tell her but my mouth wouldn't speak."
"Were you afraid that she would do you like Gena did?" I asked sitting down beside him.
"Yes. I didn't want to feel rejected."
"Zacky we all get rejected at times but we pick ourselves up and try again." I said placing my hand on his back. Zacky stood to his feet and started towards his car.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Tell the guys I went looking for Rae. I'll be back."
"I will." I said smiling as he tore down the road.
"Where's Zacky going?" I turned to see Matt coming out the door.
"He's gone to find Raelyx." I said smiling.
"We need to go with him."
"No Matt. This is something Zacky needs to do on his own." I said placing my hand on his arm.
"Val what if something happens?"
"Nothing will happen. Trust me on this." I said smiling an Matt nodded. we walked back into the house and Matt told the guys what Zacky was doing. I have no idea how long he's going to be gone but I hope he's not gone too long. The house phone began to ring and I picked it up and answered.
"Hello?" I said.
"Hey Val, its Jo."
"Oh hey Jo." I said sitting down in the kitchen.
"Is something wrong?"
"There is actually." I said sighing.
"What is it? Maybe I can help."
"Raelyx left. She wrote us a letter, packed her things and left." I said rubbing my forehead.
"Oh no...She's done this before. She ran away from a foster home because she was in love with a guy she went to school with but he didn't like her back. It took me weeks to locate her."
"Zacky left to go find her. Where did you finally find her?" I asked picking up my cell and starting a message to Zacky.
"The only place she can seek comfort. Her mother's grave in Arkansas."
"Do you know where?" I asked.
"I've never been but all I know that it's in Little Rock."
"I'll let Zacky know." I said texting Zacky the information Jo had given me. I looked down at the message from Zacky and he knew where I was talking about.
"Zacky knows where the cemetery is." I said confused.
"How does he know that?"
"He didn't say. Let's just hope he finds her." I said holding this necklace in my hand.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I raced out of Val's driveway and started for the airport when Val sent me a message.
~Zacky, Raelyx might be in Little Rock, Arkansas. Jo told me that's where she goes to find comfort.~ Val.
~I know where it is~
I parked my car in the airport parking lot and ran into the building and locking my car as I did. I purchased a ticket to Little Rock and boarded the plane in record time. I took my seat and the plane lifted into the air. I need to find her....She needs to know that I love her just as much as she does me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~RAELYX'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I walked down the streets of Little Rock in the direction of my mom's grave. My mom is the only sense of comfort when I feel the way I do. I walked into a local florist and purchased some roses for the grave. I continued my journey to the cemetery looking over my shoulder every now then. I looked up and seen the gate and walked in. I quickly made my way over to my mom's final resting place and I laid down the roses.
"Hey mom...A lot has happened these last few years....I mean since your untimely passing. The State sent me to 5 different Christian-based foster homes and I never fit in there. The last one I was in, I told off the whole congregation and luckily for me a man named Matthew Sanders adopted me. He's a famous singer for the band Avenged Sevenfold. Matt gave me a really good life. A life that you would be proud of me having...but I was diagnosed with Breast cancer. The cut off my right breast and now I don't like myself. I feel like a freak. I also had...I mean have feelings for their Rhythm Guitarist Zacky Baker. He's a really good person mom. When Val and Matt had left for a week of vacation, Zacky looked after me. I thought he was going to kiss me but he didn't. My feelings towards him are greater than I've ever loved anyone. I just wish he felt the same. Zacky wants a whole woman mom...not a half." I said lowering my head as I spoke to my mom's headstone. I looked up and heard the sound of screeching tires.
A car came to a stop in the parking lot of the cemetery and Zacky got out of the car. I ran off into the woods. Thank God my parent's house isn't too far from here. I ran passed 3 abandon cabins and I stopped and looked back but no one was there.
"Raelyx!" I could hear Zacky's faint yells. I ran again deeper into the woods until I couldn't hear Zacky's voice. I walked a few more yards and came to my home. It looked so run down but it was still home. I walked onto the porch and pushed open the front door.
Everything looked like it did. Every piece of furniture was still in the same place. I looked on the wall next to the door and the dirty blood stained wall where my father had shot himself was still there. I sat down on the couch remembering the days when I was happy. I missed those times. I climbed the stairs and opened my bedroom door. My bed was still there along with how it was made when I got up. I pulled back the covers and the sheets were so clean. They looked brand new. I smiled and sat my things down on the bed. It's so good to be home.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked around the whole cemetery and couldn't find Raelyx. I went a few more feet and seen a grave with fresh red roses on them. I looked down at the headstone.
Monique Giles
June 19,1961-June 17,2000.
A loving mother and wife who left this world too soon.
See you on the other side mom.
I left the cemetery and ventured into the woods until I came to a old cabin. I pushed open the front door and the place was completely abandoned. I walked through the house and there was no sign of Raelyx. I walked out of the house shutting the front door back and sitting down on the steps. I'll never find Raelyx....She doesn't even know how I feel abut her. She'll never know how much I love her and how bad I want to take care of her. Tears poured down my face at the thought of never seeing Raelyx again. I got to my feet and slowly walked back towards the cemetery. I touched Raelyx's moms headstone before going back to my car and sitting down in the front seat closing my eyes. My phone vibrated in the cup holder and I picked it up.
~Did you find her?~ Val.
~No...She's gone Val. I'll never find her.~
~Don't give up hope.~ Val.
~I'm coming home.~
I turned my phone off and headed back to the airport. I will miss Raelyx...The love I have for her will never die and I will tell her how I feel about her.
lol! At least there are some funny people on here...I'll be updating all my stories again!
3/6/13