Seize The Day

After what happened at the bar with Matt I couldn’t stop running through all the possible scenarios in my head, I even dropped a beer on a customer because I couldn’t focus. I was so relived to be home and to be done with today. I was about to put my key in the lock on the door but I felt like it was already open, maybe Brian hadn’t come to get Cassy yet. I pushed open the door, “Cass I’m home.” I called dropping my keys into the bowl by the door.
“Welcome home.” I stopped and looked up to see Zacky sitting on the couch.
“What are you doing?” I asked slipping off my vans and tossing my bag onto the lazy boy and walking into the kitchen to grab a wine cooler.
“Why shouldn’t I be here?” Zacky asked standing up from the couch following me into the kitchen.
“I don’t know you’re the one acting like we’re not together.” I said popping the cap off my wine cooler and taking a drink.
“We were busy in the studio so I’ve been really tired.” Zacky said leaning on the island. Actually hearing him say that ticked me off how could he say that to me when everyone else has said that they weren’t that busy.
“Oh really?” I said Zacky must have heard the challenge in my voice because his face changed and he straightened himself.
“Yeah it has been.” He said not moving from his spot staring me down but not really I could tell he wasn’t looking at me but the cabinet behind me. I’ve had boyfriends do this to me before I have very intense eyes and they can be really intimidating when I’m pissed off, which right now I was far beyond.
“Was it really so busy that you couldn’t even send me a text or a quick phone call during a break?” I set my wine down on the counter and started to walk around the island so he would have to look at me. I stopped right in front of him he only had two inches on me but I was close enough that he had to look down, that he had to actually look me in the eyes.
“Y-yes it was b-but I’m here now.” He stuttered he took a step back and I took a step forward, the easiest way to break a man was to intimidate him it throws them off.
“Yes here now, a week later with no text no phone call. I’ve seen your friends more than I’ve seen you. Do you realize how big of a problem that is for me?” I asked leaning closer to him he looked extremely uncomfortable, and it was satisfying. “You know I find it extremely interesting how I can see them how Jimmy or even Matt, actually everyone but you can answer my texts or calls but not my own boyfriend.” When I said Matt’s name anger flashed in Zacky’s eyes and his submissive body language changed, he straightened his shoulders and his chest puffed out.
“SO you have been seeing Matt?” He said his voice was cold and sharp.
“I’m sorry what?” Why focus only on Matt I’ve seen all the guys except the only one I wanted to see.
“You’ve been dating him behind my back right?!” Zacky yelled.
I laughed was he serious? “Are you fucking kidding me right now?! You think I’ve been cheating on you with Matt?!” I yelled back.
“You’ve seen him this past week you even saw him today. I fucking knew this was going to happen!” I could feel a ball of fire growing in my stomach he accused me of cheating on him when he was the one acting all suspicious. I went to a public school in one of the worst school districts in America and I’ve never wanted to hit someone so much in my life, how can someone be this stupid.
“Yes I’ve seen him, yes I saw him today because he came into the bar. But at least he was fucking there when Aaron showed up at the studio. As my boyfriend you should have been the one to come out and check on me not Matt. You should have fucking been there!” I yelled I could feel tears sting the back of my eyes; it’s been so long since I was angry enough to cry.
“If I came out at the studio I would have hit him that’s why I didn’t!” Zacky’s voice wasn’t as loud as before he seemed to be confused with the tears welling up in my eyes.
“Then you should have come out and knocked him out! And what shitty ass excuse do you have for ignoring me for an entire week huh?! It can’t be Matt taking me home because you had no issue coming back and sleeping in my bed that night!” I yelled the tears rolled down my face and that pissed me off even more because Zacky probably didn’t see them as angry tears.
“I- I was- that night I was fine with it but the more I thought about it the more it annoyed me, even the guys got on me about not being the one to defend you and it just got to me.” Zacky said he looked tired and defeated.
“Get out.” My voice was shaking because I was trying not to yell it.
“Kay-“ Zacky took a step forward to touch me.
“Don’t touch me.” I said stepping out of his reach. “There is one thing I hate the most in this world and that’s guys that are insecure, because if they’re insecure it means they don’t trust me and I hate that. “I haven’t given you a reason not to trust me.” I said my voice shaking and cracking, my entire body was shaking.
“Kay please-“
“Get the fuck out we’re done, it’s over!” I shouted. Zacky’s face was a mess of emotions but the last one was pure anger.
“Fine whatever I’m fucking done.” He said as he stomped to the front door and slammed it behind him. My entire body was shaking and I couldn’t breathe I felt like I was suffocating. I took a few deep breathes to get my breathing under control before I hyperventilated.
“Fuck this.” I whispered I grabbed the half bottle of vodka off the top of the fridge and made my away across the street to the beach.
I sat on the beach watching the sun sink below the horizon. I had already finished half of what was in the bottle and I was annoyed that I didn’t feel anything I wasn’t getting drunk which was the only thing I wanted right now.
“Kay?” I looked up to see short shit standing above me with a cute girl with short hair behind him.
“What do you want?” I asked turning back to look at the ocean pulling my knees to my chest.
“Why are you out here?” He asked, “And why are you drinking alone?” He sounded concerned, that surprised me we hadn’t really talked or hung out I only ever saw him if all the guys were together.
“I just need to be alone Johnny please leave me alone.” I said before taking another long drink from my bottle.
“I don’t think I should” I cut him off.
“Johnny seriously just leave me alone.” I snapped I didn’t want to hurt him but I just couldn’t deal with people right now.
Jonny sighed, “Fine I’ll see ya around.” He said. I turned and watched him grab the girls hand as they walked away. How disgustingly cute.
The sun had set awhile ago and the bottle was almost empty and I felt tipsy which wasn’t satisfying at all. “Kay?” I sighed again really who could it be now? I looked up to meet those stupid hazel eyes from my dream.
“What are you doing here?” I tipped the bottle back and finished the last of the vodka.
“Johnny called me. What are you doing out here Kay?” Matt asked sitting down next to me on the sand.
I examined the empty vodka bottle and tossed it aside, damn that little gnome. “Can’t you tell? I’m losing myself, well trying to lose myself, in alcohol and the beautiful scenery of the beach.” I could hear a slight slur in my own words.
“Why are you trying to lose yourself?”
“Why else would a girl try to drown herself in vodka?” I flopped back on the beach. “It’s obvious I broke up with Zacky.” The glow from the city tinged the sky orange and destroyed the stars.
“Wait, what? You two broke up?” Matt sounded shocked which I didn’t understand, it’s not like we had been together for that long but maybe that’s what was so surprising. Two months technically three but our anniversary would have been in two days something that would never happen.
“Yes Matt we broke up.” I said I didn’t really want to talk about it but I figured I should tell someone.
“Why?”
“He didn’t trust me.” Just talking about it I could feel the ball of anger growing in my stomach.
“Then his loss.” Matt said laying back on the sand.
I smiled, “You sound a bit too happy about this Mr. Sanders.”
“I’m not I’m extremely concerned for both of you.” Matt said rolling over on his side to face me.
“Isn’t this what you want though now you have another chance with me.” I said trying to find the big dipper that was probably washed out by the city glare.
“I never wanted you two to break up I was fine just being your friend.” Matt sounded a bit tired. I rolled over to face him.
“Why do you sound tired?” I asked examining him, he looked tired.
“Trying to find Zacky before he did something stupid like break up with you, trying to find you before you do something stupid like getting drunk on a public beach.” He said smiling.
“I was the one who broke it off and getting drunk on a public beach isn’t stupid.” I mumbled.
“Come on let’s take you back to your house before you catch a cold or something.” Matt said sitting up.
“Only idiots catch a cold in the summer.” I said sitting up, my head was spinning the vodka was finally kicking in.
“And right now you are one of two of the biggest idiots in Orange County.” Matt said standing and helping me up.
“How rude.” I said as Matt put his arms around my shoulders. He picked up my empty bottle and walked me back to my house.

Notes

So before I can continue with the story I want to know which guy you want her to end up with Zacky or Matt?