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Zacky’s POV

I received a message from Romy that she wanted to talk to me. Maybe I was too harsh when we parted at the tour bus, I was just so shocked that Matt and the others could find out what we did. I need to apologize and we needed to be more careful when we met.
First Jimmy nearly walked in on us and now Ana saw us.
I knew that the right thought would be to stop this completely but I couldn’t do that. I just loved to spend time with Romy. And I really loved to feel her body next to mine…
I couldn’t stop these growing feelings towards her. Were these feelings growing or had they been there forever and I just didn’t recognize them?
I knew that as long as she would be ok with this fling I would just enjoy the time. I knew that sooner or later she will have enough of me and wants to find the right guy for a relationship. And I knew that I was fuckin’ selfish bastard to keep it that way but I would take what I could get from her…

It was late at night our last show here in Spain was done and we would move on in the morning to England where we would have our next shows.
I wrote Romy that I was at her door so she would open and I didn’t need to knock.
She opened and looked so exhausted. I walked inside and kissed her lips briefly.
“I’m sorry for the way I talked to you earlier at the bus. I was just so surprised that we were caught… but I shouldn’t have made such a scene… come here.”
I held my arms open for her, but she remained at the other side of the room. Normally she would have walked into my embrace, something is wrong…
“Zack, I need to talk to you. First, Ana will keep it a secret and won’t talk about it with anyone. We talked about it, so you don’t need to be afraid. Second, I can’t do that anymore Zack…” she shook her head.
“You can’t do what anymore? What do you mean?” Please don’t say… us.
“Us. I thought I could but I can’t. I need someone to love me for me and not just… sex. I want what Brian and Ana have or Matt and Val, that is what I want and not this…” She gestured between me and herself.
Damn it, that’s exactly what I thought earlier. She couldn’t end this not so fast, I needed more time… more time with her.
“But… Romy, we just need to be a little bit more careful and we could be together…” I tried again.
“Damn it, Zack! I don’t want to be your little slut that no one should know about. I deserve better then that! Now, get the fuck out of here!!” she was really angry now.
And damn it, I could understand it. And she was right; she deserved someone better than me.
I walked to the door and could see tears in her eyes, “Damn Romy… let me explain…”
“GET OUT, NOW!” she yelled.

Romy’s POV

We were on the plane to fly to England. I hadn’t slept this night at all. I cried and cried. At the breakfast I met Ana and she saw immediately what was going on and gave me her sunglasses so none of the other would see my red eyes. She was so nice and I already have taken her to my heart as someone really special.
I was trying my best to not look at Zack or even recognize that he was there. When we got to our seats on the plane I took the seat at the window and pulled Jimmy next to me so there would be no chance for Zack to talk to me.
Jimmy looked at me from the side and whispered, “Why did you cry?”
Damn him and his six sense… “Nothing… just let it go, ok?”
“Did someone hurt you, Roro?”, he asked.
“No, it’s alright. I just had a bad dream… It’s ok.”
Finally he let go of it, but I knew that he would come up with this again sometime later.

Hours past and I slept the whole flight on Jimmy’s shoulder. He woke me when we landed.
But he didn’t let go of me and just grabbed my hand and guided me to our shuttle that would bring us to the next hotel.
When I asked about my suitcases he just told me that someone will bring them up.
I heard a knock on my door one hour later and opened the door before me stood a guy with brown hair. I recognized him immediately but didn’t know if he would recognize me as well.

“Alex, is that you?! Can I help you?” I asked him confused. That was Alex. Alex Band, we have dated a couple of times but he was very busy at the time and we just lost contact somehow. When I saw him like that, I didn’t know why I haven’t tried harder to keep in touch with him. He is such a good-looking guy, but then my thoughts went to Zacky and I knew why I didn’t keep in touch with Alex. At that time I already had feelings for Zacky and thought that something between us could work. Now, I knew better than that.
He smiled and held my suitcase in his hand, “Is this yours? Jimmy gave it to me downstairs at the reception area and I don’t know if he thought I was workin’ here or some shit, because he just walked away and told me your room number…”
“Oh fuck… really… I am so sorry. Jimmy is just kind of… well he is just Jimmy.” I wanted to take the suitcase from him but he still held it.
“Let me carry it inside.” He just walked past me.
“Do you recognize me Romy?!” he still smiled at me.
“Yes, Alex damn! Nice to see you again. It’s been a while, right?! We have met us the last time about a year ago after the show in Los Angeles, right?!”
“Yes, I didn’t know if you would still recognize me?! ” Alex put my suitcase on my bed and turned back to me.
“Sure, how could I not remember? Thank you that you brought my suitcase to me.”
“You are here with your brother and the guys for the show tonight?” Alex asked.
“Yes, exactly. I am kind of Val’s assistant and travel with them. You also do a concert here?” I asked him.
“No, I am just here for the festival doing one show. And the rest is just watching and meeting new people, hey… do you have some time after the show? Hanging out afterwards maybe?”
“Yes, sure. Will you be at the Avenged show tonight? Maybe we see us backstage?”
“Absolutely, I will be there. It was good to see you again Romy. See you later then.”
I brought him to my door and he kissed my cheek and waved goodbye.
Today I would forget about Zack and would enjoy this evening with Alex backstage.

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