Dirty Visual

Brian woke early the next morning to find Jared in the middle of the bed. Zack was fast asleep on his other side. They had fallen asleep in their clothes. Brian shook his head a little bit and ruffled his hair. Padding to the bathroom, Brian did his business and took a look around; this was his house too right? In the medicine cabinet there were bottles of over the counter medicine and anything you could need for first aid. On the bottom row there were three pill bottles. He picked them up and looked at them. One was his; the other two were Zack’s.

An image popped into Brian’s head. Zack laid back in a hospital bed, Jared talking to him, sitting right beside him on the bed while Brian watched from the chair. The image changed, Zack was laid back in a bed, he didn’t know where but Brian had handed him the pills, he had the same bandages as in the hospital. Zack accepted them with a smile and a gentle kiss, then he rolled over, Brian tucked the blanket around his shoulders and walked out with a smile.

Brian’s eyes widened, damn he had a good imagination. Then the thought about it for a second, what if he wasn’t imagining it. What if it was a memory? He quickly made his way into the bedroom where Zack and Jared lay, sleeping. He hated to wake Zack but he needed to know. He strolled over quickly and gently shook his boyfriend. “Zee, wake up. For just a second please wake up.”

“Brian what is it?” Zack’s green eyes peered up at him. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing I just need to know if this is a memory or my imagination.” Zack slowly sat up in bed; he looked down and to the right, realizing that Jared was in bed with him. Had Brian stayed the night? Had he shared a bed with them?

“What is it?” Zack couldn’t help but be nervous wondering what Brian remembered.

“Looking at these pills made me think.” Brian paused and showed Zack his bottles. “In my head I saw you in a hospital bed; Jared was right beside you and talking. You were pretty banged up. Then it switched to a bedroom, with you in bed but it wasn’t ours. That picture was hanging up and the room was different. I gave you your meds and you rolled over in bed and fell asleep. Any of this sounds familiar?”

“Yeah Brian, do you remember when I told you that you broke contract at Dirty Visual?” Brian nodded. “And how you went to see your aunt, and you came back because I got in an accident?”

“Yeah you told me all of that.” Brian sighed, sitting right on the edge of the bed.

“Well I know I forgot to tell you this part. We fought before you broke contract, I wanted something more and we couldn’t be together because we both wanted to be faithful.” Brian shifted so he was resting on his palm, looking down at Zack. “We were going to have to do a shoot without one another and you left because you couldn’t do it with some guy that didn’t care about you in the slightest. I had a shoot but luckily, since I didn’t want to do it, they can’t force illegal activities such as incest. My shooting partner was going to be my brother so we both got out of it.”

“That’s understandable.” Brian fiddled with a piece of Zack’s hair.

“Well anyway, we hadn’t talked the whole time you were gone. Apparently Jared opened up your eyes a bit.” Brian looked at Zack with a silent question. “He told you its okay to like men, and that no matter what that brought him he would be strong. He loves you for who you are and he’s only seven so he can’t understand sexuality all that much yet, all he knows is that his dad likes kissing boys. You were scared how people would treat him because of your actions Brian and when I got in the accident you came as soon as you could. You and Jared stayed with me until I was released and even then you took me to your old house, the one you and Michelle lived in, you took care of me.”

“Why was the furniture different?” Brian took in all the information given but there were still a few fuzzy parts.

“After she left you let her take all the furniture. You told me that you couldn’t even look at it, you remodeled the house a bit and changed furniture.” Zack filled Brian in with a smile.

“Doesn’t he have to be in school today?” He paused but then remembered. “Wait never mind, you told me about home school.”

“That and its only Sunday.” Zack chuckled, he closed his eyes and let out a big yawn. He looked over at the clock. “Come back to bed, its only five am?”

Brian sat there, looking down at Zack, completely content on watching his boyfriend. Boyfriend, yeah; he may not remember Zack but they are still together right? “Are you and I together Zack? I mean have we been together in your mind? Wow that makes no sense. I guess what I am trying to say is, to you are you and I still together?”

“Yes. I never thought, not even once that you and I were over through this whole ordeal.” Zack pressed a gentle kiss to the wrist right next to his face, Brian was still playing with his hair.

“Have you been faithful?” Brian met Zack’s eyes. “I understand if you haven’t, if you assumed we were apart or anything like that.”

“Yes I have been faithful.” Zack smiled shyly. “If you’ve been with Michelle I totally understand. You’ve forgotten everything about you and I and I don’t blame you. Especially when she manipulated you like she did.”

“We never did anything.” Brian stated, he had to clear this up, he couldn’t handle Zack thinking he was a cheater. He never even kissed Michelle. “My stitches on my mouth hurt, my ribs hurt. Yeah she tried to get me hard by dancing and shit but I could never get it up for her.” Brian chuckled. “So she couldn’t kiss me, I wouldn’t touch her, she never touched me. My excuse was always that I hurt, she would get mad but I didn’t care, she should have just backed off. I haven’t cheated on you, since I’ve been in the accident at least, I can’t remember anything before that really but I am the kind of person who would feel so guilty I would admit it.”

“Yeah I know.” Zack gently slid Jared over to the other side of the bed and scooted into the middle. He gently tugged Brian’s hand, telling him to get in bed. Brian didn’t know why but he let Zack lead him downwards. He let Zack gently pull him closer, and on his own, Brian rested his head on his boyfriends shoulder.

-

At about ten in the morning, on the other side of town Matt woke up before Mattie. He got up and took care of the crying baby before making breakfast.

Mattie woke up just before the foot was done. He made his way down the hallway towards the kitchen. He noticed that Matt had the baby in his door mounted swing. It was pretty neat because it had a high back and a cushion that supported the young’s head. Mattie pushed it a little harder than it was going so it would stay swinging for a few minutes on its own.

Mattie walked over to the fridge, got two cups and poured juice in each of them. He placed one in front of the chef; Matt smiled and pressed a kiss to his lips as thanks. Mattie stood there just watching Matt cook. How the hell did things get so mixed up? He was in a bad relationship before and so was Matt. They had used each other for sex, but Mattie couldn’t help but grow attached. He grew feelings for the bigger man, even the baby. He loved them both, in very different ways of course but he still loved them as his own. He couldn’t tell Matt though because he knew those feelings wouldn’t be reciprocated.

With a sigh, Mattie pushed himself away form the counter and walked over to Kage. The baby looked up at him with curious eyes as he took him from the swing. Matt watched from his place at the stove as the other man gently bounced the baby while walking around the kitchen. He sat down at the kitchen table and talked quietly to Kage.

“He will be one in two weeks.” Oh man he’s gotten big.

“We should celebrate.” Mattie smiled at the little boy. “You are getting so big.”

Matt put three plates down on the table. Mattie slid the baby into his high chair and gave him his fork. Of course he made a mess out of pancakes but that’s okay. He’d just clean it up later, happily.

“Yeah I was thinking about having a small get together. Have the kids come over and maybe some old school mates that we re-met not to long ago.” Matt smiled over at Mattie who was helping Kage take a bite of potato. “You would be a good dad, you know that?”

Mattie looked over at Matt with a smile. “I want kids but I know I won’t ever have any of my own.”

“You could adopt.” Matt suggested. ‘Or you could stick around for a while’ Matt thought to himself.

“I will.” Mattie paused looking back at the baby with a smile. “One of these days I will.”

Back at the other house, Zack was doing the same for Brian, cooking breakfast, as the taller man calmed the baby, who had previously been wailing.

“You know how to cook?” Brian asked incredulously, eyeing Zack who stood at the stove with a spatula and apron just over a tight black pair of jeans and a t-shirt.

“Yes I know how to cook you ass.” Brian chuckled and put the baby down on a blanket, he rolled from his back to his face, grabbing blanket. “How old is Bentley.”

“Two months and one week old.” Zack smile to himself. “I’ve been really fortunate these past couple of weeks though. He has been sleeping longer hours.”

“Still it must be hard, you work and everything. How did we manage before? You told me about my job and classes. By the way I talked to work and they are extending my paid leave because my ribs are so banged up. As for college; I will have to retake all of my classes this year.” Brian shrugged.

“That’s really good about your job, but the school thing kind of sucks. We managed because I would do all of my work on the internet and go and show houses on the weekend.” Zack smiled and put a plate in front of Brian. “Jared breakfast!”

It only took a few minutes for Jared to stumble down the stairs but he did, just as he sat down Zack placed his plate in front of him. While Bentley played with the toys on his blanket Zack sat down in his chair. It was a four person round table that can have an extender in the middle, but its never used. They all chatted while eating.

Both groups of people were enjoying their day so much that they never expected what came next.

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