Dirty Visual

Brian’s hands fisted in the sheets of his hotel bed; he had taken some of his things from Zack’s house and went directly to the hotel. He was divorced from Michelle; she had been lying to him all this time, keeping him away from his family and friends. What the hell was she thinking? That he would never remember anything at all? Throughout the time he was living with her, she had given him his bank card, the one connected to his and Zack’s shared account. How low could she get, honestly? Practically making him steal from Zack; yes it was shared money but he didn’t know that. Brian had found the time and date settings on his phone, they had been turned off. His cell now read the month, date and the year, 2012.

Brian had put on one of the videos Zack had sent with him. Oh god were some of those videos sexy as hell, he watched a few of them and fast forwarded through a lot more. He wanted to see him and Zack and when he did, his jaw nearly dropped. Oh boy was that man gorgeous with no clothes on, laying back on a bed with his legs spread, with Brian in-between them. He was already hard from the other videos but hell when he saw that one he had to get some sort of release.

As he watched the video Brian pumped his engorged member. Oh how he wondered what if felt like to be balls deep inside that sexy man. Brian moaned; it wouldn’t take much to get him off. He kept in pace with the video. A second after Zack lost it, coming for Brian on video, Brian felt his muscles tense. He watched as he slowly sucked the come from Zack. He couldn’t hold it any longer, all of his muscles screamed at him as they tensed, his back arched off the bed, come splattered his chest.

Shit! Now that shirt has to be washed. Brian thought, ripping it off and tossing it near the closet. He stood up, tucked himself away and put the second DVD in the player. Laying back on the bed Brian folded his hands behind his head. The moment he hit play on the remote his eyes widened. It was just like his dream. He was tied to the bed, their bed, his and Zack’s bed. The video played for a minute or two before Zack appeared. Oh the look of shock on his face was amazing, especially when it turned into a sexy smirk. For the next hour Brian got to see all of the sexy things Zack had to him with hot wax. He had never trusted anyone else like that, well that he knew of anyway. He was painfully hard as he watched Zack take him and adore him for all he’s worth.

Brian threw his head back against the pillow when he was done with the video, having to make use of his hand again. But afterword he laid back and thought about it. Before the accident, he trusted this Zack man. He had to, to willingly be put into that position with him. You could see the adoration Zack had for the man as they laid in bed afterwards.

“I love you don’t I?” Brian asked the screen, he has to love Zack right? He wouldn’t have let him adopt Jared and they both accepted Bentley when he was offered. They share a room, have an amazing house. With a sigh Brian shut off the TV and dialed a number in the phone Zack handed him at their house. It rang twice before being answered.

“Hello,” Zack answered on the other end of the line.

“Hey Zee, um, I was wondering if we could meet up or something. I want to spend some time with you and the kids to see if I can remember anything.” Brian wondered, his fist clenched in the bed sheets.

“Sure, when?” His chest clenched when he heard the hope is Zack’s voice.

“How about now?” Brian stood from the bed and grabbed a t-shirt. He slipped on a new set of jeans and shoes. They discussed a meeting point and decided on the park since Jared could get ice cream from one of the shops near by. Brian called a cab and headed to the park.

Zack was already there when Brian arrived. It was probably an hour before sunset; Bentley was on his tummy on a bright blue blanket. Jared was playing around on the monkey bars. When he realized that Brian was there he literally ran, wrapped his arms around his dad’s waist and hugged tight. “Hey buddy.” Brian wrapped his arm around Jared’s shoulders and started to walk towards Zack.

“Hey.” Zack spoke quietly, getting a quiet response when Brian sat down next to him on the bench.

“Hey yourself.” Brian gently nudged Zack with his elbow, jokingly. Jared ran off to play with a little girl he met on the jungle gym.

Brian smiled at the baby lying right next to the bench. “He is adorable.” Brian commented watching the baby drool on himself; he moved from the seat and sat on the ground right by the blanket. Brian gingerly picked up the squirming baby and held him with one arm. He used his free hand to rub gently at the pink cheeks of the little boy. Zack sat back, watching the dad play with his baby for what seamed like the first time but really it wasn’t.

“You use to come home from work and pick him up and just hold him, play with him and keep him content for hours.” Zack spoke softly; Brian looked up and smiled at Zack.

“Were Jared and I close?” He couldn’t help but wonder.

“Yeah, he’s your little boy Brian. You watched him grow up and you were the one he depended on.” Zack reached over and pulled a twig off of the baby’s clothes.

“I don’t want the DNA test.” Brian stated, gently rocking Bentley.

“Did you see the photos?” Zack was honestly happy that Brian believed that his boy was his own.

“No, not yet; I just. I have this feeling you know? Like I know he’s mine, those eyes, which smile, the way he acts. He’s mine Zack.” Brian sighed and laid the baby back down on the blanket. Gently tickling his belly afterword.
“There both yours.” Zack commented seeing the baby grab one of Brian’s big fingers.

“I know.” Brian looked up, meeting Zack’s gaze from his spot on the blanket. “You too, right?” Zack’s eyebrows shot up. “I mean, what we had in those videos had to be real, am I wrong?”

“No you’re not Brian. It was real, in all honest I just wasn’t expecting that question.” Zack looked down at his fingers.

“Do you not want to be with me Zack?” Brian was worried; hadn’t this man loved him before the memory loss?”

“Yes.” Their eyes met. “Of course but really what are the chances of that happening again Brian?”

“Pretty good from how I’m seeing things right about now.” Brian replied honestly.

“And how is that?” Zack leaned so his elbows rested on his knees.

“I see videos. Sexy, fantastic, amazing videos that were created between me and you; I had to have trusted you quite a bit to let you tie me up or even penetrate me in the first place. That scares the hell out of me because six years ago I would have never let that happen.” Brian reached up and grabbed Zack’s hand. “I had to have strong feelings for you to let you do that.”

“You did.” Zack smiled gripping the strong digits in his hand.

“Did I ever tell you I love you?” Brian wondered, looking over towards Jared for a second before refocusing on Zack.

“Yeah,” Zack sighed, not knowing where this conversation was really going.

“Then I had to really love you Zack.” Brian paused for a second. “I haven’t told anyone I love them since my dad did what he did to me. I never even said it to Michelle.”

“Brian I love you.” Zack searched his face for any sign of upset, caused by those words.

“I know you do.” Brian smiled; god, that smile still made Zack weak in the knees. And he’s sitting.

“Are you okay with that?” Zack wondered. What if Brian really wasn’t okay with it?

“Yes. Because I know that I love you too, I just can’t remember it.” Brian pulled his hand from Zack’s when Jared plopped down in Zack’s lap. “Zack can you tell me everything you know about my life and what’s happened since I’ve met you?”

“That’s going to take a while but yeah.” Zack stood taking Jared with him. Brian picked up the baby and blanket. They went and got ice cream and Zack drove them to their house. When they got there Zack put the baby to sleep and Jared climbed in bed with a movie. Zack took Brian into their bedroom and sat him in the chair. He took the place on the floor right in front of Brian. Zack slowly slipped each of Brian’s shoes and socks off, and then pulled out a bottle of lotion. He sat there and massaged Brian’s feet while telling him everything he knew about Brian’s life.

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Two hours later Zack and Brian were both laying back on the bed. Zack had just told Brian about everything after the accident. Including Matt and Mattie and their new inside joke about how Matt couldn’t resist either brother. “Wait. I thought you re-met Matt through me. Did you guys have sex before, back in high school?”

“No. While I was with you.” Zack admitted.

“You cheated on me?” Brian sat up and braced himself on one palm, partially turned towards Zack so he could frown down at him.

“Not exactly,” Zack didn’t know if it was a good idea to tell him but Brian was being really defensive.

“I consider that cheating Zack.” Brian stated getting ready to get up, just as he stood from the bed Zack realized he had to tell him.

“It was a threesome,” Brian stopped in his tracks.

“And that makes it better how?” Brian looked at Zack like he was incredibly daft.

“You were the third person.” Zack couldn’t look at Brian when he said it. What if Brian got mad at him or Matt?

“A threesome?” Brian sounded shocked. “With Matt, my best friend Matt?”

“Yes.” Brian saw the blush lighting up Zack’s cheek.

“Was it good?” Brian sat back down on the bed.

“It was really good. Especially when both of you took me at once.” And the story began. Right on the edge of the bed where he stayed until Zack had told him every juicy detail of the night. By the time the story was done Brian was kicked back once again. Even chuckling at the little jokes Zack was making.

Oh god. He had to have really loved this man to even feel comfortable with half of the crap Zack had told him about today.

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