Dirty Visual

Matt agreed to pick Brian up. Zack had changed his schedule after Brian’s accident. Matt’s mom started watching the kids again so he could work weekdays but Mattie had the kids today because Zack went in on a Saturday.

“Brian you have to promise me that what ever you see in his house, you won’t freak out okay?” Matt commented, sort of nervous about what would happen once they arrived.

“What do you mean?” Brian was confused, looking over at his best friend, Matt’s eyes were on the house.

“There is a very confused little boy in this house. So don’t yell at him or get upset at him please.” Matt pleaded. Oh Zack would kill him for bringing Brian around without him but it had to be done. “He’s had a lot going on lately and if you could play along, it would be nice.”

“Okay, I promise I won’t yell.” Brian climbed out of the truck after Matt. They made their way down the cobblestone path leading to the door. “When did you move?”

“During that period of time you can’t remember.” Matt sighed, unlocking the front door and pushing it open. As soon as he was inside he was nearly attacked by three big dogs.

“Whoa. Get down.” Brian laughed at the big black and white puppy that had tried to jump up, he pushed it back down easily. Matt walked across the living room to the back door. “Blotie, Wesley, Phoenix, Out!” He opened the door and all three dogs took off.

“Phoenix?” Brian’s eyes went wide. The name Phoenix! That’s where he knew that name from. Matt nodded. “Is he yours?”

“Uh no, he’s Zack’s.” It didn’t make sense, why would he know Zack’s dog’s name? Then again Zack said he can’t remember knowing him along with Matt. Was he telling the truth?

“Zack lives here?” Brian took a seat on the sofa, being aware of his ribs.

“No, he has just been staying with us for a bit.” Brian was really confused and it showed. “Zack’s brother lives with me. His name is also Matt but we call him Mattie. Zack’s mom broke into his house and tried to kill him for being gay; in the process of being arrested she tried to stab Zack and got shot by the cops. He’s been here for just over a week now, honestly I don’t mind. I adore having his kids around.”

Mattie walked into the room holding Bentley. “Hey Uncle Matt, can you please take him for a minute. Kage is screaming his head off because he needs changed.”

“Jared?” Brian whispered once Mattie had handed the baby over to Matt and walked from the room.

“No Brian. This isn’t Jared.” Matt looked up into Brian’s eyes, should he tell him; Yeah why not. “This is Val’s son Bentley.”

“Val’s son only, Bentley’s not yours?” Brian had missed out on a lot hadn’t he?

“Correct. She cheated on me and got pregnant, tried to kill the baby so Zack and y-“ Matt cut the word ‘you’ off. “Um. Zack adopted him.”

“Matt what were you going to say?” Matt didn’t have the chance to reply.

“Daddy.” A little whisper came from the doorway; the little boy standing there had a little frown on his face. He was confused. Brian was startled when the boy ran up to him and wrapped his arms around his neck.

“Um.” Brian said looking over the boy’s shoulder at Matt. The older man nodded.

“Brian this is your son. Jared.” Brian frowned not hugging the boy back. “Don’t look at me like that. Zack told us what happened last time you met, Brian this is your son.”

Jared pulled back with tears in his eyes. “Daddy don’t you remember me? And Zack, Blotie, Nix and Wes?”

Brian shook his head looking directly at the kid. Jared’s head fell with a small sniffle he began to walk away. God, the kid really looked like him, if this was a joke it was a sick one at that. Brian grabbed a hold of Jared’s arm gently. The boy turned his head to look at his dad. Brian gently pulled him back to his chest remembering what Matt had said in the car, go along with it, he’s really confused. Once again he looked at Matt who was smiling, as if it would prove anything. “Prove it; all of it. I don’t care what the doctor said, prove it and tell me about my life before now.”

“Do you promise to not yell at me and think I am lying when I do prove things to you? Like this?” Matt pointed at Jared who now clung to his daddy like duck tape. Brian nodded in agreement. “Zack is going to help me Brian he has to. Any solid information there is would be at your house. He has been a big part of your life for the last probably year or more. I’m not sure when you guys met, you live together Brian.”

“Okay. Prove it to me Matt.”

-

Zack came home to Matt’s house with a smile. He had gone to the store and picked a few things up for the kids. When he entered the house he wasn’t paying attention to anything and made his way to the bedroom. He set his stuff down and slowly slipped his coat off on his way back to the living room.

“Zack.” He stopped in mid step, his head snapped up and their eyes met. Brian was in Matt’s living room. Jared was sitting next to him smiling big; he stood and ran to hug Zack. Zack half hugged the boy while watching Brian. “Hi.”

“Hi?” Jared ran back to the couch and sat back down next to Brian. Did they give him like three cups of nothing but sugar? He looked wired.

“Zack, Brian wants our help.” Matt stood and made his way over towards Zack.

“With what?” Zack looked over at Brian. Oh god was that man amazing to look at, even when he’s hurt.

“I want to remember but in order to do that I need proof. If you know me half as well as everyone says then you should know I am not a trusting man.” Brian winced when he stood because of his ribs.

“Don’t move so fast.” Zack warned seeing the pained look on his face. Brian raised a brow and Matt chuckled. “What? You will hurt your ribs again.”

“Yes mommy.” Brian joked, taking a few steps towards Matt and Zack.

“Are you going to comply? No denial?” Zack stepped closer to the older man.

“Yeah, I want to know what I’ve been missing; everything.” Brian gave a slight smile.

“Everything huh?” Zack shook his head. “That’s going to take a while. First off let’s start with a DNA test to prove that he’s your son.”

“I can handle that.”

-

Jared wasn’t at all pleased that his dad made him go get his blood drawn but if it would make him remember him he would do anything. Next they went to Zack’s house where the younger man found all of their important documents in a chest. He sat Matt and Brian down at their table and showed him documents.

Zack sat two CD’s down in front of Brian. He looked up with a curious gaze. “Do you have somewhere you can watch these where ever you are staying?” Brian nodded. “Then do it when you leave.”

Zack sat down an official document, taking a seat in the one across from Brian. “What is this?”

“The papers where you ex-wife sighed over all of Jared’s rights to you.” He set down another set of papers. “These are the legal documents of your divorce.”

They weren’t lying were they? No they couldn’t be, the proof was right in front of him. He just nodded, trying to take everything in. No wife, and has custody of Jared. Wait, then why does he not have him now? Before he could ask Zack spoke again.

“Your Dirty Visual contract.” Zack placed the thick stack of papers in front of Brian.

“What is this?” Brian was really confused as he looked through the pages. Why had he seen this in his dream, that name, that sign! His dream! Were those memories; first Phoenix and now this?

“You joined a gay porn industry where you made hundreds of videos over the years. Your father kept you in contract illegally. Here are the documents from when you sued him and your documents from suing Dirty Visual. The first CD, titled DV is every video you made over your years with Dirty Visual, including ours.” Zack looked down at his hands.

“We had sex?” Brian nearly blushed after he said the words, but Zack nodded. Brian’s gaze snapped to Matt.

“Brian you and Zack were in a committed relationship for quite some time before your accident.” Matt informed him, Brian's eyes went wide. Looking back at Zack he couldn’t help but ask.

“How committed?” Brian’s brow frowned. “I am so damn confused now.”

“We moved in together; this is our house.” Zack pointed to the roof indicating the house. “I adopted your son and we got joined custody of Val’s son Bentley when she tried to illegally abort him. We had two dogs before your accident and you wanted the third so in your absence I thought it would cheer Jared up to adopt Wes. He was attacked in our back yard by my mother, who made our lives hell until she died.”

Brian sighed. Zack had set the right documents in front of Brian when he spoke, adoption papers and the house deed. So they lived in this house together? “Can I take a look around?”

“Of course; Matt can you?” Zack nodded towards Jared in the living room. Matt nodded with a smile, Zack took the sleeping baby out of his car seat.

Zack led Brian through the house. The kitchen, the dining room, the living room, the bathroom; they made it to the nursery and Brian stopped in his tracks. “Why does this seem so familiar?”

“You painted it.” Zack smiled at the tall man standing in the middle of the room. He leaned against the door frame, patting the baby’s back.

“You guys really aren’t pulling my leg?” Brian quietly whispered when Zack walked up to the crib and put the baby inside of it.

“No Brian. All the proof you need is in this house. Our house.” Zack sniffled now standing in front of the crib, facing Brian, looking at the ground. He swallowed hard when Brian stepped up towards him the taller man put his hands on Zack’s forearms and rubbed gently.

“I’m trying. I really am.” Brian felt so bad that he couldn’t remember this man, the beautiful kids and dogs.

“I know.” Zack pulled away with a sad smile, took Brian’s hand and led him to their bedroom. Brian’s jaw nearly dropped when he saw the room. It was just like in his dream. He stumbled back and rested against the wall.

“This was in my dream. The same stuff in the same position but I was. Um.” Brian blushed, “Never mind.”

“Your dream?” Zack was curious what he meant, he walked over to the dresser and grabbed his photo album. He handed it to Brian. “Look through this later. These are pictures you have taken through the years. Now what was that dream about?”

“I had a dream about calling someone named Phoenix. And a big white and black sign with the name Dirty Visual on it in black letters; this room was in one of them but I was tied up.” Brian admitted.

“Hot wax by any chance?” Zack mentioned rubbing the back of his neck while looking down. That’s the only time he had tied Brian up.

“Yeah.” They had to be memories. Zack smiled bright, Brian thought his face would break from that smile but he kept beaming.

“That’s not a dream Brian. Those are memories.” Zack nibbled on his lip.

“Even the one where I left Michelle,” Brian whispered, everything finally set in. Matt and Zack were telling the truth. Everything they had said was true. Too bad he couldn’t remember any of it.

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