That afternoon Brian got Amanda back with him to do god knows what (okay, I think we all know what), and once again, I was left alone in the barn with nothing to do. I remembered zacky had told me he was gonna come back later today, but until now, there were no signals of him anywhere. I wonder if he’s really coming…
I sighed loudly, and lay back on the floor, just looking at the ceiling, yet again.
“Where the hell is he?” I asked to myself, turning and resting on my belly now. Please don’t tell me they’re gonna leave me here for another two weeks all alone. I was pretty sure I’d go crazy if that was the case. Besides, why was Shadows letting Brian stay with Amanda all that time? It wasn’t fucking fair.
You’re jealous. That little voice spoke again. But no, I’m not jealous. Oh, really? You sure about that? You sure you don’t want Zacky to come through those doors and take you with him? You sure you don’t wanna have sex with him again?
I shut my eyes with force, and scratched my head furiously.
“Shut up, shut up, shut up!!!” I said loudly.
But why? You know I’m right, you just don’t wanna accept it. That’s not it! Yes, it is and you know it. NO!
“Argh!” I stood up, still holding my head between my hands, and walked towards a wall, leaning against it. “Stop saying that, stop talking, I don’t wanna hear it!” I said.
What’s going on with me? Why is this happening? Why was I having mental debates with myself again?
You’ve been in this place for a long time now, and you’re asking that to yourself? It’s pretty obvious already.
“I…I’m going nuts…” I whispered as some tears fell down my cheeks. “I’m going fucking nuts…” I said, and a second later, the door was opened again. Zacky appeared with a bowl in his hands, and his expression changed as soon as he saw me.
He got closer quickly, leaving the bowl on the floor, and putting a hand on my shoulder. “Ginger, what’s going on? Wh-what happened?” he asked, worried. I began to breathe in sharply, and looked at the floor as more tears fell down my cheeks.
“Ginger!” he shouted and I looked at him. “What is going on?” he asked again and I shook my head.
“This can’t be happening to me…” I whispered again, not really answering his question. “No, it can’t be it…” I said.
Zacky frowned, and put more pressure on my shoulder, shaking it a little.
“Ginger, answer to me!”
“I’M GOING FUCKING CRAZY!” I screamed in his face as my body began to shake more, and I began to sob. He looked at me with a shocked expression for a second before hugging me.
“I am, am I not?” I asked, still crying. “But it’s okay… I promised myself I’d do anything. Even if that meant turning to the dark side…” he then unwrapped his arms from around me and gave me a quizzical look.
“The…what? Ginger what the hell are you talking about?” he asked. My sobs ceased a little, a bitter smile formed on my face, and I looked at him all serious.
“Zacky, I wanna talk with Shadows.” His face showed even more confusion now.
“Huh?”
“I wanna talk with him… I wanna make part of the Avenged Sevenfold gang.”

Notes

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