Indestructable
Remembering
"Give us all your goddamn money!" the black eyed man yelled. The gray eyed man grabbed my mom and shot my father in the head. My eyes widened hoping they wouldn't find me. I seen them take their turn on my mother as she begged them to stop.
"Stop please! I've given you my money! Why put me in anymore pain!" she yelled and the black eyed man punched her in the face. I put my hand over my mouth. I seen all three guns pointed at my mother. Her eyes widened.
"Please! Please don't do this!" they all cocked their guns and fired.
I was shaken awake by Matt and tears fell down my face and I buried my head into his chest.
"It's okay. It's okay." Matt cooed to me trying to calm my emotions.
"They hurt my mom!" I yelled while crying. He rubbed my back and picked me up.
"You're sleeping in our room tonight." Matt said carrying me to his bed. Val laid down and Matt set me down in bed. He got in pulling the covers over all of us. He wiped my tears away and closed my eyes. I soon was overcome by sleep.
When I finally woke up, I was alone in Matt and Val's room. I got up and went into my room and got some clothes for a shower. I got into the hot water and it soothed my tension. I got out and quickly dressed before making my way down to the kitchen. I grabbed me a soda from the fridge and sat at the bar alone. I had no idea where Matt and Val were and right now I just needed to be alone. I heard the door open and didn't bother turning around. I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders and seen Jimmy standing there. He smiled but I turned my head away.
"What's wrong?" Jimmy asked.
"She had a bad dream last night." Matt said and I turned around again. I rubbed my eyes.
"Oh shit. Baby girl it was just a dream. Nothing in that dream can hurt you." Jimmy said comforting. I smiled and hugged him. Zacky walked into the kitchen along with Brian and Johnny. Brian sat down on my left and Zacky on my right. He had something in his hands.
"What's that?" I asked.
"It's some of my artwork. Brian told me you freehand like I do."
"Yeah I do. Hold on I'll be right back." I said and jumped off the bar stool and ran up to my room. I grabbed my pad and brung it downstairs and into the kitchen. I set my pad in front of Zacky and he did the same with his. I looked through it and it was so amazing! He had all kinds of Avenged Sevenfold logos and outlooks on the beach.
"Zacky these are really amazing!" I said smiling.
"Yours are too and I love how you got me so detailed."
"Thanks. You guys were my first ever drawing." I said smiling and Brian rubbed my back. I flipped over all the pages and there were really good drawings. I wish I could draw like him but he wished he could draw like me ha ha.
"Where's Val?" Brian asked me.
"I have no clue." I said.
"She went to go get us breakfast. She should be here anytime." Matt said and I nodded. I got up from the bar and went into the living room turning on the TV. Jimmy jumped from behind the couch and sat down next to me. I flipped through channels and when I stopped on Spongebob he took the remote from me.
"Hey!" I said.
"I like Spongebob! I don't want you changing it." he pouted and I rolled my eyes. I picked up my guitar that I left down here from yesterday and strummed a little.
"Play something for me." Jimmy said excitedly.
"Alright. How about Immortality by Seether?" I said and he nodded. I strapped on my guitar and began to play and sing.
Vacate is the word...vengeance has no place so near to her
Cannot find a comfort in this world
Artificial tears... the vessel stabbed...next up, volunteers
Vulnerable, wisdom can't adhere...
A truant finds home...and a will to hold on...
There's a trapdoor in the sun...immortality...
As privileged as a whore...victims in demand for public show
Swept out through the cracks beneath the door
Holier than thou, how?
Surrendered...executed anyhow
Scrawl dissolved, cigar box on the floor...
A truant finds home...and a will to hold on to...
There's a trapdoor in the sun... Immortality...
I cannot stop the thought...of running out the door...
Coming up, a which way sign, all good truants must decide
Oh, stripped and sold, mom... and an auctioned forearm...
And whiskers in the sink...
As Truant finds home...and a will to hold on, to,
Some die just to live... Ohh...
The song ended and I seen all the guys standing there clapping. I blushed.
"You guys really think I'm that good?" I asked and they all nodded.
"You're so good that we want to take you on tour with us." Matt said proudly and my eyes got really wide.
"Are you serious?" I asked smiling.
"Of course. Brian had the idea and I just thought it would be great. Let's see who all is going to be there..." Matt said and placed a finger on his chin.
"Matt just tell the poor child. Don't keep her in suspense." Val said from behind him which made him jump. I laughed.
"Alright alright. Seether, Three Doors Down, Three Days Grace, Slipknot, and Cold." Matt said and I quickly hugged Jimmy and Brian then ran over to Matt hugging him tightly.
"Hey what about us?" Zacky and Johnny said in unison. I ran over to them hugging them at the same time. They all smiled and I was so happy! I am going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold.
"When do we leave? I asked.
"In a 4 days so you better have everything packed and ready to go at 7 in the morning. We have to be in Vegas at 2." Matt said and I shook my head. The rest of the day was filled with planning and getting ready to go on tour. Thank God Val and I went shopping for clothes a few days ago. I'm so fucking excited!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~3 DAYS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tomorrow morning I will be going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold and I can't be anymore excited now. Just like Val said Matt went shopping with the guys and bought a whole bunch of clothes at Hot Topic. My hair was fading and I wanted to get it done before I left. They guys were at the studio doing some last minute checking and it was just me, Val, Gena, Lacy, and Leanna. I was in the kitchen getting all of something to drink. I swear these girls drink beer just like the guys. I wish I was old enough to drink some but hell I like soda better. I came into the living room where the others were and I sat down in the recliner next to the couch. Val seen the look on my face.
"Ame what's wrong?" Val asked.
"There's something I haven't told anyone yet." I said looking down at the floor.
"What is it?"
"My dad wrote a song that reflects my mother. He always wanted me to sing it if something ever happened to her." I said picking up my guitar. I strapped it on and started playing and singing a song called Tough.
She’s in the kitchen at the crack of dawn
Bacon’s on, coffee’s strong
Kids running wild, taking off their clothes
If she’s a nervous wreck, well it never shows
Takes one to football and one to dance
Hits the Y for aerobics class
Drops by the bank, stops at the store
Has on a smile when
I walk through the door
The last to go to bed, she’ll be the first one up
And I thought I was tough
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
We sat there five years ago
The doctors let us know, the test showed
She’d have to fight to live, I broke down and cried
She held me and said it’s gonna be alright
She wore that wig to church
Pink ribbon pinned there on her shirt
No room for fear, full of faith
Hands held high singing Amazing Grace
Never once complained, refusing to give up
And I thought I was tough
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
She’s a gentle word, the sweetest kiss
A velvet touch against my skin
I’ve seen her cry, I’ve seen her break
But in my eyes, she’ll always be strong
There was a time Back
before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
The song ended and Val's eyes were watering. She wiped away the tears.
"Your mom had breast cancer?" Gena asked.
"Yeah but it was after she had me. I was a year old when she found out she had the cancer. She took chemotherapy and lived. She was a survivor." I explained smiled. Gena came over and rubbed my back but I brushed her off.
"I'm fine Gena but I do need to ask you a favor."
"What is it?" Gena asked.
"I want to get my hair colored before I go with the guys on tour and I know you are really good with hair. I mean look at Val, Lacy, and Leanna's hair. I've never seen such a good job done." I said and she smiled.
"I'll do your hair. What colors are you thinking?"
"Black with neon green and red streaks and then down the middle I would like white. If you could, when you do the red, let it go through the white so it looks like my head is bleeding." I said and she nodded while smiling.
"I have all the colors we need over at my salon. It's closed today but we can go in and use the back door." Gena said and I went to get my shoes on and when I came down they were standing at the door waiting for me. We all piled into the car and drove to Gena's salon.
When we got there we parked behind the building and Gena unlocked the backdoor. She turned on her lights but kept the doors closed and the sign to closed. She was ready to do my hair and I was excited. After about 6 hours of getting my hair dyed I was finished. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I loved what she did and it was absolutely amazing. I turned to Gena and hugged her.
"Thanks Gena! I love it!" I said smiling.
"I'm glad you do. I enjoyed doing it." We went back out of the salon and Gena locked the door. We drove back to the house and the guys were already there.
"Ame don't say anything to the guys let's just walk in and see if they notice your hair." Val said and I smiled. We piled out of the car and went right into the house. I walked into the living room with the guys and sat down in the recliner once again.
"You ready for tomorrow?" Matt asked. I can't believe he didn't notice it.
"Hell yeah. I'm so excited." I said smiling. Brian looked at my funny and then turned to Jimmy and whispered something. Jimmy got up and walked towards me pulling lightly on my hair. I smiled.
"Ame your hair looks amazing!" Jimmy said smiling.
"Thanks I wanted to get it done before we leave tomorrow." I said and Jimmy hugged me before ruffling my hair.
"Jimmy don't do that again." I warned.
"What? Ruffle your hair?"
"Yeah it kills me." I said glaring at him. Jimmy did it again and I jumped up running after him. Brian followed us and Jimmy hid behind him.
"Brian, give me Jimmy. I'm going to kill him." I said trying to reach around Brian.
"We need our drummer Ame."
"I know I ain't going to hurt him that bad." I said grabbing Jimmy's pants leg. Matt came over and picked me up setting me on his lap on the couch.
"Matt I was just having some fun." I said pouting.
"I know but you are not supposed to kill our drummer." I nodded and kissed his cheek. I looked at the clock on the wall and it was 11pm. I was getting tired so I got up and went upstairs. I grabbed my PJ's and went to the bathroom and decided to take a bath. I ran the water and filled the bath. I quickly got undressed and got into the water. I let the hott water and bubbles engulf me and that's when I heard a knock on the door.
"In the bathroom!" I yelled and the bathroom door came open and there was Brian. I quickly covered myself.
"Yes Brian? Do you need something." I asked.
"Our bus doesn't have a bed for you so if you want you can sleep in my bed with me. I mean if you want."
"Alright. Can I get my bath done please?" I asked and he nodded leaving the bathroom and my room. I quickly bathed and got dressed. I sat down on the bed covering myself up. I was overcome by sleep and I let it take me.
"Stop please! I've given you my money! Why put me in anymore pain!" she yelled and the black eyed man punched her in the face. I put my hand over my mouth. I seen all three guns pointed at my mother. Her eyes widened.
"Please! Please don't do this!" they all cocked their guns and fired.
I was shaken awake by Matt and tears fell down my face and I buried my head into his chest.
"It's okay. It's okay." Matt cooed to me trying to calm my emotions.
"They hurt my mom!" I yelled while crying. He rubbed my back and picked me up.
"You're sleeping in our room tonight." Matt said carrying me to his bed. Val laid down and Matt set me down in bed. He got in pulling the covers over all of us. He wiped my tears away and closed my eyes. I soon was overcome by sleep.
When I finally woke up, I was alone in Matt and Val's room. I got up and went into my room and got some clothes for a shower. I got into the hot water and it soothed my tension. I got out and quickly dressed before making my way down to the kitchen. I grabbed me a soda from the fridge and sat at the bar alone. I had no idea where Matt and Val were and right now I just needed to be alone. I heard the door open and didn't bother turning around. I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders and seen Jimmy standing there. He smiled but I turned my head away.
"What's wrong?" Jimmy asked.
"She had a bad dream last night." Matt said and I turned around again. I rubbed my eyes.
"Oh shit. Baby girl it was just a dream. Nothing in that dream can hurt you." Jimmy said comforting. I smiled and hugged him. Zacky walked into the kitchen along with Brian and Johnny. Brian sat down on my left and Zacky on my right. He had something in his hands.
"What's that?" I asked.
"It's some of my artwork. Brian told me you freehand like I do."
"Yeah I do. Hold on I'll be right back." I said and jumped off the bar stool and ran up to my room. I grabbed my pad and brung it downstairs and into the kitchen. I set my pad in front of Zacky and he did the same with his. I looked through it and it was so amazing! He had all kinds of Avenged Sevenfold logos and outlooks on the beach.
"Zacky these are really amazing!" I said smiling.
"Yours are too and I love how you got me so detailed."
"Thanks. You guys were my first ever drawing." I said smiling and Brian rubbed my back. I flipped over all the pages and there were really good drawings. I wish I could draw like him but he wished he could draw like me ha ha.
"Where's Val?" Brian asked me.
"I have no clue." I said.
"She went to go get us breakfast. She should be here anytime." Matt said and I nodded. I got up from the bar and went into the living room turning on the TV. Jimmy jumped from behind the couch and sat down next to me. I flipped through channels and when I stopped on Spongebob he took the remote from me.
"Hey!" I said.
"I like Spongebob! I don't want you changing it." he pouted and I rolled my eyes. I picked up my guitar that I left down here from yesterday and strummed a little.
"Play something for me." Jimmy said excitedly.
"Alright. How about Immortality by Seether?" I said and he nodded. I strapped on my guitar and began to play and sing.
Vacate is the word...vengeance has no place so near to her
Cannot find a comfort in this world
Artificial tears... the vessel stabbed...next up, volunteers
Vulnerable, wisdom can't adhere...
A truant finds home...and a will to hold on...
There's a trapdoor in the sun...immortality...
As privileged as a whore...victims in demand for public show
Swept out through the cracks beneath the door
Holier than thou, how?
Surrendered...executed anyhow
Scrawl dissolved, cigar box on the floor...
A truant finds home...and a will to hold on to...
There's a trapdoor in the sun... Immortality...
I cannot stop the thought...of running out the door...
Coming up, a which way sign, all good truants must decide
Oh, stripped and sold, mom... and an auctioned forearm...
And whiskers in the sink...
As Truant finds home...and a will to hold on, to,
Some die just to live... Ohh...
The song ended and I seen all the guys standing there clapping. I blushed.
"You guys really think I'm that good?" I asked and they all nodded.
"You're so good that we want to take you on tour with us." Matt said proudly and my eyes got really wide.
"Are you serious?" I asked smiling.
"Of course. Brian had the idea and I just thought it would be great. Let's see who all is going to be there..." Matt said and placed a finger on his chin.
"Matt just tell the poor child. Don't keep her in suspense." Val said from behind him which made him jump. I laughed.
"Alright alright. Seether, Three Doors Down, Three Days Grace, Slipknot, and Cold." Matt said and I quickly hugged Jimmy and Brian then ran over to Matt hugging him tightly.
"Hey what about us?" Zacky and Johnny said in unison. I ran over to them hugging them at the same time. They all smiled and I was so happy! I am going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold.
"When do we leave? I asked.
"In a 4 days so you better have everything packed and ready to go at 7 in the morning. We have to be in Vegas at 2." Matt said and I shook my head. The rest of the day was filled with planning and getting ready to go on tour. Thank God Val and I went shopping for clothes a few days ago. I'm so fucking excited!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~3 DAYS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tomorrow morning I will be going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold and I can't be anymore excited now. Just like Val said Matt went shopping with the guys and bought a whole bunch of clothes at Hot Topic. My hair was fading and I wanted to get it done before I left. They guys were at the studio doing some last minute checking and it was just me, Val, Gena, Lacy, and Leanna. I was in the kitchen getting all of something to drink. I swear these girls drink beer just like the guys. I wish I was old enough to drink some but hell I like soda better. I came into the living room where the others were and I sat down in the recliner next to the couch. Val seen the look on my face.
"Ame what's wrong?" Val asked.
"There's something I haven't told anyone yet." I said looking down at the floor.
"What is it?"
"My dad wrote a song that reflects my mother. He always wanted me to sing it if something ever happened to her." I said picking up my guitar. I strapped it on and started playing and singing a song called Tough.
She’s in the kitchen at the crack of dawn
Bacon’s on, coffee’s strong
Kids running wild, taking off their clothes
If she’s a nervous wreck, well it never shows
Takes one to football and one to dance
Hits the Y for aerobics class
Drops by the bank, stops at the store
Has on a smile when
I walk through the door
The last to go to bed, she’ll be the first one up
And I thought I was tough
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
We sat there five years ago
The doctors let us know, the test showed
She’d have to fight to live, I broke down and cried
She held me and said it’s gonna be alright
She wore that wig to church
Pink ribbon pinned there on her shirt
No room for fear, full of faith
Hands held high singing Amazing Grace
Never once complained, refusing to give up
And I thought I was tough
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
She’s a gentle word, the sweetest kiss
A velvet touch against my skin
I’ve seen her cry, I’ve seen her break
But in my eyes, she’ll always be strong
There was a time Back
before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
The song ended and Val's eyes were watering. She wiped away the tears.
"Your mom had breast cancer?" Gena asked.
"Yeah but it was after she had me. I was a year old when she found out she had the cancer. She took chemotherapy and lived. She was a survivor." I explained smiled. Gena came over and rubbed my back but I brushed her off.
"I'm fine Gena but I do need to ask you a favor."
"What is it?" Gena asked.
"I want to get my hair colored before I go with the guys on tour and I know you are really good with hair. I mean look at Val, Lacy, and Leanna's hair. I've never seen such a good job done." I said and she smiled.
"I'll do your hair. What colors are you thinking?"
"Black with neon green and red streaks and then down the middle I would like white. If you could, when you do the red, let it go through the white so it looks like my head is bleeding." I said and she nodded while smiling.
"I have all the colors we need over at my salon. It's closed today but we can go in and use the back door." Gena said and I went to get my shoes on and when I came down they were standing at the door waiting for me. We all piled into the car and drove to Gena's salon.
When we got there we parked behind the building and Gena unlocked the backdoor. She turned on her lights but kept the doors closed and the sign to closed. She was ready to do my hair and I was excited. After about 6 hours of getting my hair dyed I was finished. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I loved what she did and it was absolutely amazing. I turned to Gena and hugged her.
"Thanks Gena! I love it!" I said smiling.
"I'm glad you do. I enjoyed doing it." We went back out of the salon and Gena locked the door. We drove back to the house and the guys were already there.
"Ame don't say anything to the guys let's just walk in and see if they notice your hair." Val said and I smiled. We piled out of the car and went right into the house. I walked into the living room with the guys and sat down in the recliner once again.
"You ready for tomorrow?" Matt asked. I can't believe he didn't notice it.
"Hell yeah. I'm so excited." I said smiling. Brian looked at my funny and then turned to Jimmy and whispered something. Jimmy got up and walked towards me pulling lightly on my hair. I smiled.
"Ame your hair looks amazing!" Jimmy said smiling.
"Thanks I wanted to get it done before we leave tomorrow." I said and Jimmy hugged me before ruffling my hair.
"Jimmy don't do that again." I warned.
"What? Ruffle your hair?"
"Yeah it kills me." I said glaring at him. Jimmy did it again and I jumped up running after him. Brian followed us and Jimmy hid behind him.
"Brian, give me Jimmy. I'm going to kill him." I said trying to reach around Brian.
"We need our drummer Ame."
"I know I ain't going to hurt him that bad." I said grabbing Jimmy's pants leg. Matt came over and picked me up setting me on his lap on the couch.
"Matt I was just having some fun." I said pouting.
"I know but you are not supposed to kill our drummer." I nodded and kissed his cheek. I looked at the clock on the wall and it was 11pm. I was getting tired so I got up and went upstairs. I grabbed my PJ's and went to the bathroom and decided to take a bath. I ran the water and filled the bath. I quickly got undressed and got into the water. I let the hott water and bubbles engulf me and that's when I heard a knock on the door.
"In the bathroom!" I yelled and the bathroom door came open and there was Brian. I quickly covered myself.
"Yes Brian? Do you need something." I asked.
"Our bus doesn't have a bed for you so if you want you can sleep in my bed with me. I mean if you want."
"Alright. Can I get my bath done please?" I asked and he nodded leaving the bathroom and my room. I quickly bathed and got dressed. I sat down on the bed covering myself up. I was overcome by sleep and I let it take me.
2/18/13