Tammy’s POV:
We stood there for what seemed like an eternity. Our eyes remained locked. Neither of us showing our own personal war going on inside of us. I did fall for him, but he lied and kept secrets, and I wasn’t just going to forgive him. He crossed the threshold, not breaking our gaze as he closed the door behind him. I backed up a little as he started to advance slowly to me. My heart rate started to pick up. Part of it was because I was slightly nervous. I deceived him and them as well, but I wouldn’t of had too if they had been honest from the start. The other part was because, well that’s just what the man does to me.
My back hit the wall as he continued to advance till he was inches away. Slamming his hands to the wall on either sides of me, I jumped a little when he trapped me against the wall. A smirk crossed his face when my breathing picked up, and he started to see just how nervous I was. It wasn’t his sexy smirk or his playful smile, it was almost evil. He glared down at me before leaning in close to my ear. “You seem nervous.” he whispered sending a shiver down my spine. So what if I was? I wasn’t going to let him know that. “Looks can be deceiving.” I said as I tried to calm myself. “Indeed they can be.” he agreed locking his gaze with mine again.
The tension was thick. Part of me wanted to tell him to get out and never come back, and then there was that part that wanted to throw him down and fuck the shit out of him right there. “You should win an Academy fucking Award for the act you pulled.” he seethed. “None of it was an act. I just suppressed my anger, and kept my own secret.” I snapped. I was never being fake around them. I did get attached to them. How could you not. Underneath their harden criminal exterior, they were just regular fun-loving guys that had a brotherly bond with each other. It’s impossible to be fake around them. Everything I felt for him was real. I was getting attached to him before I found out, and I couldn’t keep myself from falling. The only one that got anything fake was Corey.
He pushed himself off the wall, and backed up a little crossing his arms over his chest. I hugged myself slightly, uncomfortable under his gaze. I wish he would let something show. Give me a hint of what’s going on inside that head of his. “Was there something you wanted?” I asked annoyed. He cocked his head to the side. “How long have you known?” he asked. “A little over 3 months.” I said. “Then why did you let me get so close? Why didn’t you just keep pushing me away till he showed up?” he asked letting some of his anger show. “Because I couldn’t,” I started as tears filled my eyes, “Part of me wanted to watch everything blow up in your face, but yet I couldn’t stop myself from falling for you even after I found out, and every lie strait to my face every time I asked you something I so desperately wanted to know. Do you have any idea how much it hurts to know that you can lie so easily to me?” I ask as the tears flowed freely down my cheeks. “And even though I knew I still couldn’t stop it. Do you know what that feels like Brian? To fall for someone you know is lying to you and hiding things?” I asked showing all the pain I’ve held inside.
I covered my face with my hands, and dropped to my knees sobbing uncontrollably. I heard a sigh as he knelt down in front of me. “It wasn’t as easy as you think.” he said softly. I wiped my eyes and looked at him. Pain and sorrow filled his mocha eyes. “So many times I wanted to tell you about them, but Jim was such an important person to you, and it really wasn’t my secret to tell.” he said. “I get that, but Jacoby. If you had just been honest from the start Brian all of this could have been avoided. He had already fucked up. He had a chance to save me, but he didn’t help.” I said. “I didn’t know that then. I didn’t know till opening night.” he said. “You’ve known for that long? Jesus Christ Brian I didn’t know anything then.” I said shaking my head slightly looking down. “I know, but I had already dug my hole, and I didn’t know how to get out of it.” he said cupping my face, and making me look at him. He wiped away the rest of my tears. “If I could go back and do it differently, I would, but I can’t. All I can do is ask you to forgive me, and promise to never lie or hide anything again.” he said with a twinkle of hope in his eyes. “Ugh! I’m so mad right now.” I cried slamming my fist to the floor. “Tammy I’m so sorry.” Brian pleaded. “It’s not you. I’m mad at myself for not being as mad at you as I want to be.” I said with all seriousness. I saw a small smile break out on his face, and I couldn’t help but let one of my own slip.
He threw his arms around me, and pulled me in close. I melted into his embrace, inhaling his familiar calming sent. “Give me another chance please,” he whispered “I don’t want to loose you.” I sighed a little. “I know I went about things the wrong way. I’m just new at this, and made a mistake. Please give me another chance.” he pleaded. I didn’t want to forgive him so easily, but every fiber of my being craved him, needed him. “No more secrets?” I whispered into his chest. “No more secrets, baby I promise.” “No more lies?” “No more lies.” he promised stroking my hair. I sighed again and looked up into his apologetic chocolate eyes. “I won’t give you another chance if you fuck this up again.” I told him. “I promise I won’t.” he said with sincerity in his eyes. “I forgive you.” I whispered watching the relief spread across his face with a smile.
Taking both of my hands in his, he stood us up, and embraced me again. “I love you.” I heard him whisper sending my heart soaring. I looked up at him seeing nothing but truth and love in his eyes. “I love you too.” I said pressing my lips to his. Eagerly returning the kiss, he gripped my ass lifting me as I wrapped my legs around waist. He carried me to the bedroom never breaking the kiss, till he tossed me down on the bed. I giggled a little as he playfully jumped on top of me. Pressing his lips hard to mine, he laced our fingers together, and raised my arms above my head. “Say it again.” he said against my lips. “I love you.” I said capturing his lips again. I felt him smile into the kiss. “Music to my ears.” he said pulling away.
I smiled up at him, and soon our clothes were being tossed all over the room. Gazing into my eyes, he slowly entered me. Connecting our lips, he started thrusting slow and steady. Every nerve inside of me tingled with bliss as he picked up his pace, but not rough, and hard. Littering my face and neck with kisses, he held me close to him while he steadily made love to me. “Brian.” I whispered out his name as my climax started to build. Resting his forehead on mine he locked his eyes with mine quickening his pace a little more. The whole world seemed to stand still. Nothing but the sounds of our moans, and panting could be heard. “Oh god Tammy.” I heard him whisper moving his head to rest on my shoulder. His thrusts were getting sloppy, and I could tell he was as close as I was. I griped his hair in my hand, lifting his head up, and crashed our lips together just as my orgasm crashed through me. We swallowed each others cries of pleasure as he followed a few thrusts later.
He collapsed on top of me as we tried to catch our breath. Propping himself up after a few moments, he connected our lips in a passion and love filled kiss. Rolling off me, he pulled me into him. “I love you.” he whispered as I snuggled into him. “I love you too.” I said placing a kiss on his chest before sleep took us.
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I woke to the sun on my face. The strong protective arms of the sexy beast laying next to me were still wrapped tightly around my waist. Turning to face him I notice the same little smile I see every time I wake up before him. I wonder if he always smiles in his sleep. I gave him a small peck before wiggling out of his arms. Our clothes are everywhere. Finding his shirt, I pulled it over me, and grabbed a pair of boy shorts out of the dresser.
I was making coffee and breakfast when I heard a knock on the door. I went to go answer it when Brian came rushing out of the room with his pants on and a gun in his hand. “Don’t.” he said stopping me. I looked at him confused. “You pissed some people off yesterday.” he said. He looked out the peep hole, but said he couldn’t see anyone. Another knock emitted. Pointing his gun out, he slowly reached for the knob and turned it. “Whoa chill out Gates,” I heard Matt voice when he opened the door, “I’m not here to kill her.” I heard him chuckle. “Sorry man,” he said stepping aside and letting Matt in, “I couldn’t see anyone out the peep hole.” he finished tucking his gun in the back of his pants. “Yea sorry force of habit.” he said. Sometimes when they go to the houses of people that owe them money, or whatever, they’ll stand off to the side so they can’t be seen out the peep hole. “What are you doing here?” Brian asked. “I could ask you the same thing, but I already have a good idea.” Matt said with a smirk notice our attires. I chuckled a little, and went back to making breakfast. “I’m here because I wanted to offer you a spot in the gang.” Matt said joining me in the kitchen with Brian. “Seriously?” I asked with a little amusement. “As a heart attack.” he said. I finished the last pancake, and shut the stove off. Turning to face him, I could tell by the look on his face that he was being nothing but serious. “Why?” I asked. I almost cost him an alliance. Chester offered to get a hold of Jacoby for me, but I turned him down. Of course they kept that secret too. “Well regardless of what happened with Brian and Jacoby,” he started, “you got Corey to pay your debt. It was kinda brilliant. We thought we were pulling one over on you, but you turned it around. I’m kinda impressed.” he confessed. “Well to be honest I didn’t know how I was going to get him to do it,” I said, “not till Jacoby dropped the bomb.” I said turning away, so they didn’t see the tears forming in my eyes.
I quickly blinked them away. He had his chance, and I can’t help but see it as fate. They say everything happens for a reason. One of the things I’ve come to learn in my life is that dwelling on the past just holds you back. You gotta find the good things that come from the bad. We had our time together, and it won’t be goodbye forever. Everything brought me to him. I turned to look at Brian a smile on my face. He gets a chance to love, and I get to be whole again. “Alright. I’ll do it.” I said looking at Matt. Smiles on both of their faces. “Great!” Matt exclaimed standing up “I’ll send the Berry’s for your stuff,” he paused and smirked, “again,” he said, “and call James to set everything up. Ever been to Vegas?” he asked with a grin. I shook my head. “Well then I think its time for a vacation.” he finished walking to the door. “One more thing,” he said before leaving, “how did you get a hold of Chester?” he asked. “He may have happened to call your cell one day when I was in your office cleaning.” I said avoiding his gaze. “You went through my phone?” he asked kind of low making me a little nervous. “No I didn’t touch your phone,” I said looking at him, “the name and number was on the screen. I just wrote it down.” I finished. He narrowed his eyes a little before a smirk broke out. “See you at home.” he said walking out.
I let out a breath I didn’t realize I was holding, and turned to see Brian with a smirk on his face. “You looked a little nervous.” he said amused. “Shut up. I was not.” I said walking past him to clean up the kitchen. “Uh-huh, then why were you holding your breath?” he asked following me and jumping up to sit on the counter. “Did you know he was going to ask me to join?” I asked changing the subject. “Nope. Matt does what he wants.” he said hopping off the counter. “Yea, but something like a new member I would think he would at least run it by everyone.” I said. “He knew we’d have no objection to this.” he said wrapping his arms around me. “Really?” I asked returning the embrace. “You’re part of the family now.” he said looking down at me. I smiled up at him, and placed a kiss on his lips. I had a family now. It was time to go home.

Notes

And all is right in the universe....again
Lost a subscriber, makes me sad :( Oh well hope nobody thought this was over cause we're only halfway there.
Lots more action coming in the second half. Car chases, shoot outs, torture, explosions, and some death (No worries none of the guys promise)...... Going to be a fun ride. Stay tuned :)