Of course I didn’t stay mad for much longer, I just started to feel like the biggest bitch in the whole world, not only had I hit my best friend, but the things that I said to him were so mean, he was just trying to let me know that he cared, he wasn’t trying to be an asshole about it, and I’d just gone and done that, he probably hated me so much right now.

But it got to the point when I couldn’t take it any more, I had to go and apologise to him otherwise I felt like my chest was going to explode with guilt. So I got out of bed and tiptoed down the hall to Zacky’s room, his door was open a crack, he’d always slept with it like that, ever since he was a kid.

I pushed the door open and tiptoed across the room climbing into his bed with him. I slipped my arm around his stomach, I knew that he was probably asleep, so it made me jump when his hand came up and rested on top of mine. I knew he was awake then.

“Zacky I’m so sorry” I whispered.

“Riley I’m sorry too” He replied.

“I didn’t mean to get so pissed at you”

“I deserved it”

“No you didn’t, you were just trying to keep me from getting hurt again”

“I can’t protect you from everything though”

“I know but that’s never stopped you before” We were silent for a little while before I spoke again “I’m sorry about Gena”

“It’s not your fault, I know I said that it was, but it’s not Riley, she was just jealous because
my best friend meant more to me when it came down to it, like I told you the other day, it had been like that for a while”

“I don’t want to be the reason your relationships don’t work out”

“You’re not, like I said, she was jealous of a lot of things”

“I’m sorry for hitting you”

“I’m a big boy I’ll be okay” I could almost see the small smile playing on his lips. He rolled over so that he was facing me.

“I really am sorry though, I take back everything that I said”

“Me too, love you Riles”

“Love you too Zacky” I hugged him as best I could as we were both lying down. I started to get up to leave but he didn’t let go of me all the way.

“Stay in here tonight?” He asked. I couldn’t help but feel that there was another reason that he wanted me to stay, but I didn’t want him to think that I was still angry at him, I wasn’t to tell the truth, and I suppose being close to him when we were both upset wasn’t a bad thing.

Plus I knew he was cut up about Gena, he loved her once upon a time, I think somewhere deep down he still did, but like he said the other day he was in love with someone else now, he couldn’t love Gena anymore.

“Okay” I said getting back under the covers.

If someone looked in right then they’d probably think we were a couple but I knew different, the distance between us would be considered more than friendly and I knew the Zacky was already fast asleep, his eyes were closed and he was completely relaxed and his breath was coming out in slow even breath.

I always knew that Zacky was beautiful, handsome even, but right now he looked so gorgeous fast asleep like that, his face void of any expression, I still don’t understand why Gena could break up with him, he was the sweetest guy I knew, his heart was made of gold and he had the cutest face imaginable. Gena being jealous of me because I was his best friend was stupid, I mean, okay so I was a girl I can understand why she saw me as a potential threat, but I never saw myself as a threat because Zacky and I had that kind of relationship, we probably never would because we just didn’t see each other that way.

X-X-X

When I woke up I felt something heavy across my waist, and someone’s nose was pressed against the back of my neck. I was disorientated for a moment before I remembered that Zacky had asked me to stay with him last night.

But right now I really had to go to the bathroom and him hugging me like this meant I couldn’t get up and go to the bathroom.

I felt Zacky shift behind me, but I don’t think he’d woken up completely, that was until I felt light pressure on the back of my neck, and then on the side of it. Okay this was seriously weird for me, why was Zack kissing my neck, I mean, what even., not that it didn’t feel good, I hadn’t been intimate with anyone since Craig, but the fact was overshadowed by the fact that this was my best friend and I’m pretty sure he thought that I was Gena right now.

I pretended to wake up then, he stopped, he kept his arm around me but moved his face away from the back of my neck.

“Zacky get off me I need to pee” He yawned

“Mmm sure” He rolled onto his back, freeing me from his grasp. I went into the bathroom and did my business. I washed my hands and looked at myself in the mirror, I didn’t look any different, I looked a little freaked out but other than that there were no obvious changes, I decided I should probably take a shower, I hadn’t showered yesterday and I had a hangover, so it seemed like a good idea.

I got in and turned the water on, it was cold at first but it soon warmed up, I washed my hair and body, I also shaved where necessary, when I was done I smelled delicious and I got out, going into my bedroom.

I picked out a pair of grey sweatpants that had ‘Juicy’ written across the ass, I’d only really gotten them to sleep in, but they were super comfy and especially good when I had cramps like I did now, that’s what I blamed the argument on.

I also picked out an old blue T-Shirt of Zacky’s, I’d borrowed it one day when we were decorating the kitchen because I didn’t want to get paint on my shirt and it had never found its way back into his closet. I liked it because it was soft and always smelled good, plus it was huge and I liked the colour on me.

When my hair was dry and straight, I pulled it back into a pony tail and went through to the kitchen. Zacky was sleepily rubbing his face as he waited for the toasted to pop up with his waffles.

“Are those my waffles?” He looked at the packet with one eye half open, he was cute when
he first woke up.

“Yeah” He mumbled sleepily. “Sorry”

“Just make me some” I said taking a bite out of an apple. He nodded and yawned. “Didn’t
sleep well?”

“No, I kept waking up”

“Why don’t you go back to bed then?”

“Can’t, we have a band meeting in a bit” Oh okay, he was back to being blunt with me again.

I stepped forward and hugged his waist. He sighed and rested his chin on my head, hugging me back.

“I really am sorry for everything that I said y’know”

“I know, so am I”

“Please don’t hate me”

“Riley I could never hate you”

“Just making sure”

He sighed and squeezed me tighter, I couldn’t be sure of it, but I think he may have kissed the top of my head.  

Notes

Title credit: Apologise - Timbaland