The God That Never Came
My Time To Shine: Part 2
I felt myself being shaken away and I slowly opened my eyes to see Matt.
"Hey sweetheart. It's time to wake up."
"Where are we?" I asked rubbing my eyes.
"We're in Vegas. It's almost time to do our show but I need to tell you something first."
"What's that?" I asked sitting up in a bunk. Someone must have brought me back here.
"We're going to keep our fans in suspense about your performance. You'll be performing in Dallas, Texas."
"Sweet!" I said smiling.
"Yeah I know. Come on let's go." He grabbed my hand gently and pulled me up from the bunk and I fixed my hair and we went into the Venue. The place was huge and a whole lot pf people would be filling this place in minutes.
I watched the guys do sound checks and vocal warm ups and Matt's voice was breath-taking. It was beautiful. Soon fans of all ages packed the arena and cheered out for my boys. I was rocking out backstage as they sung each song. It was totally amazing. The guys finished their set and came over to me and I jumped into Matt's arms.
"You all were so amzing! I've never seen a better concert!" I said smiling.
"Glad you liked it. The fans are estatic to see who is this surprise guest is that will be playing with us in Dallas."
"I bet." I said hugging him more. He put me down and we went back to the bus were everyone celebrated the first concert of the tour. Come to think of it, this is my very first concert I've been too.
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So far in this tour with the guys it's been absolutely amazing! Every state we've been too so far has been chanting out for the special guest. My nerves are starting to get to me as we go to Dallas this morning. Matt took me to different places here and showed me how much fans love them. I'm getting ready to perform and I'm extremely nervous. I've practiced the 3 songs I've chosen so I know I won't forget any lyrics.
"Brian?" I said putting on some fingerless gloves.
"Yeah?"
"Can I use one of your guitars?" I asked sitting down beside him.
"Yeah. We also go the techs to have a piano ready for you."
"Good...God I'm so fucking nervous." I said honestly.
"Hey you'll be just fine. I remember my first time being on stage. It was absolutely nerve racking but when the music was really going, all those nerves just melted away."
"Really?" I asked smiling.
"Yes and I know you'll make those fans go wild." I hugged Brian and thanked him for the support. We left the bus and into the building here in Dallas. Matt did vocal warm ups with me and I was ready to perform. We went to the side of the stage getting ready for the introductions.
"Now, after the song Nightmare, when the lights go out, I want you up on stage. We'll be sitting there watching you play."
"Alright. Go get them Matt. Give them one hell of a good show." I said kissing him. He smiled at me as he walked on the stage with the others and the crowd was absolutely crazy. I listened to them playing and just like Brian said my nerves melted away. I was so ready to do this! The lights went off and Matt grabbed my hand and pulled me out onto the stage. The crowd was screaming loudly.
"You ready?"
"Yes." I said smiling even though he couldn't see me.
"You all ready to meet our special guest?" The crowd screamed even louder and I grabbed one of Brian's guitars and strapped it on.
"Alright! Give a warm Dallas welcome to...Octayne Viscar!" The lights came on and the crowd cheered as Matt stood beside me.
"What's your first song Octayne?"
"It's called Killing Me Inside." I said looking up at him. He nodded and I began to play the song.
There's a dream that comes to me
And it whispers all night long
Telling lies of things to be
And makes it all seem wrong
Even sleep is choking me
Am I feeling weak or strong
In the dreams I could not be
But it's killing me inside
It's killing me inside
Killing me inside
There's a dream I cannot see
And it laughs for all too long
Open eyes stare down at me
And it sings the same old song
Now its raining down on me
And I can't believe they're gone
All the dreams I used to see
Is now killing me inside
Killing me inside
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Catch me
It's killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
The song ended and the crowd was absolutely amazed! The nerves I had were completely gone.
"Now this next song is called Prove You Wrong." I said and the crowd cheered me on.
Somedays are worst than others
Somedays I Can not feel a thing
Someday I might just prove you wrong
Something just might go my way
Today I've got something to prove to you
All these things I never do for you
Is making you angrier everyday
Pushing me farther away
You make me a mess, I can't keep it together
Somehow, someway, I am gonna prove you wrong
I am gonna prove you wrong
Someday I might stay sober
Figure out where I am wrong
Making sense of what left of me
Make a go of this alone
I've got nothing left for you
So sick of all the things you do
Turn your back on me everyday
You pushing me farther away
You make me a mess, I can't keep it together
Somehow, someway, I am gonna prove you wrong
I am gonna prove you wrong
Hey yeah
You make me a mess
I can't keep it together
I fall away, and now I prove you wrong
Prove you wrong
Prove you wrong
It really amazed me that so many people liked how I sing and play. I handed Brian his guitar and I sat down on the Piano fixing the microphone.
"Now this last song, I wrote in dedication to my parents. I know they're looking down on me and they're proud. This is called Fiction." I said and my fingers glided along the keys and I began to sing with so much heart.
Now I think I understand
How this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you
Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side
Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn
Let this life just set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid
Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn
I hope it's worth it
Here on the highway, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you
So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight
I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you
So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight
"Thank you so much." I said as I wiped my eyes. The crowd screamed for more and I couldn't resist and the guys didn't seem to mind. They actually started dancing as I sang and played.
"Guys you've been amazing! This experience is the best and I couldn't ask for anyone better to let me tour with them. Thank you so much!" I said and they cheered as we left the stage. I was so happy and I just couldn't get over this feeling. When we got back to the bus, I immediately started writing new songs to play.
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The rest of the tour was incrediable! The best time of my life. Matt has been the sweetest person to me and all the guys make me feel a part of the family. After all the trageties, disappointments, and all the drama...I finally have the one thing I've always wanted to get back. A family.
"Hey sweetheart. It's time to wake up."
"Where are we?" I asked rubbing my eyes.
"We're in Vegas. It's almost time to do our show but I need to tell you something first."
"What's that?" I asked sitting up in a bunk. Someone must have brought me back here.
"We're going to keep our fans in suspense about your performance. You'll be performing in Dallas, Texas."
"Sweet!" I said smiling.
"Yeah I know. Come on let's go." He grabbed my hand gently and pulled me up from the bunk and I fixed my hair and we went into the Venue. The place was huge and a whole lot pf people would be filling this place in minutes.
I watched the guys do sound checks and vocal warm ups and Matt's voice was breath-taking. It was beautiful. Soon fans of all ages packed the arena and cheered out for my boys. I was rocking out backstage as they sung each song. It was totally amazing. The guys finished their set and came over to me and I jumped into Matt's arms.
"You all were so amzing! I've never seen a better concert!" I said smiling.
"Glad you liked it. The fans are estatic to see who is this surprise guest is that will be playing with us in Dallas."
"I bet." I said hugging him more. He put me down and we went back to the bus were everyone celebrated the first concert of the tour. Come to think of it, this is my very first concert I've been too.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So far in this tour with the guys it's been absolutely amazing! Every state we've been too so far has been chanting out for the special guest. My nerves are starting to get to me as we go to Dallas this morning. Matt took me to different places here and showed me how much fans love them. I'm getting ready to perform and I'm extremely nervous. I've practiced the 3 songs I've chosen so I know I won't forget any lyrics.
"Brian?" I said putting on some fingerless gloves.
"Yeah?"
"Can I use one of your guitars?" I asked sitting down beside him.
"Yeah. We also go the techs to have a piano ready for you."
"Good...God I'm so fucking nervous." I said honestly.
"Hey you'll be just fine. I remember my first time being on stage. It was absolutely nerve racking but when the music was really going, all those nerves just melted away."
"Really?" I asked smiling.
"Yes and I know you'll make those fans go wild." I hugged Brian and thanked him for the support. We left the bus and into the building here in Dallas. Matt did vocal warm ups with me and I was ready to perform. We went to the side of the stage getting ready for the introductions.
"Now, after the song Nightmare, when the lights go out, I want you up on stage. We'll be sitting there watching you play."
"Alright. Go get them Matt. Give them one hell of a good show." I said kissing him. He smiled at me as he walked on the stage with the others and the crowd was absolutely crazy. I listened to them playing and just like Brian said my nerves melted away. I was so ready to do this! The lights went off and Matt grabbed my hand and pulled me out onto the stage. The crowd was screaming loudly.
"You ready?"
"Yes." I said smiling even though he couldn't see me.
"You all ready to meet our special guest?" The crowd screamed even louder and I grabbed one of Brian's guitars and strapped it on.
"Alright! Give a warm Dallas welcome to...Octayne Viscar!" The lights came on and the crowd cheered as Matt stood beside me.
"What's your first song Octayne?"
"It's called Killing Me Inside." I said looking up at him. He nodded and I began to play the song.
There's a dream that comes to me
And it whispers all night long
Telling lies of things to be
And makes it all seem wrong
Even sleep is choking me
Am I feeling weak or strong
In the dreams I could not be
But it's killing me inside
It's killing me inside
Killing me inside
There's a dream I cannot see
And it laughs for all too long
Open eyes stare down at me
And it sings the same old song
Now its raining down on me
And I can't believe they're gone
All the dreams I used to see
Is now killing me inside
Killing me inside
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
I see you can breathe inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Catch me
It's killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
Killing me inside
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
My brain is obsessed with sorrow
The song ended and the crowd was absolutely amazed! The nerves I had were completely gone.
"Now this next song is called Prove You Wrong." I said and the crowd cheered me on.
Somedays are worst than others
Somedays I Can not feel a thing
Someday I might just prove you wrong
Something just might go my way
Today I've got something to prove to you
All these things I never do for you
Is making you angrier everyday
Pushing me farther away
You make me a mess, I can't keep it together
Somehow, someway, I am gonna prove you wrong
I am gonna prove you wrong
Someday I might stay sober
Figure out where I am wrong
Making sense of what left of me
Make a go of this alone
I've got nothing left for you
So sick of all the things you do
Turn your back on me everyday
You pushing me farther away
You make me a mess, I can't keep it together
Somehow, someway, I am gonna prove you wrong
I am gonna prove you wrong
Hey yeah
You make me a mess
I can't keep it together
I fall away, and now I prove you wrong
Prove you wrong
Prove you wrong
It really amazed me that so many people liked how I sing and play. I handed Brian his guitar and I sat down on the Piano fixing the microphone.
"Now this last song, I wrote in dedication to my parents. I know they're looking down on me and they're proud. This is called Fiction." I said and my fingers glided along the keys and I began to sing with so much heart.
Now I think I understand
How this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you
Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side
Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn
Let this life just set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid
Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn
I hope it's worth it
Here on the highway, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you
So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight
I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you
So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight
"Thank you so much." I said as I wiped my eyes. The crowd screamed for more and I couldn't resist and the guys didn't seem to mind. They actually started dancing as I sang and played.
"Guys you've been amazing! This experience is the best and I couldn't ask for anyone better to let me tour with them. Thank you so much!" I said and they cheered as we left the stage. I was so happy and I just couldn't get over this feeling. When we got back to the bus, I immediately started writing new songs to play.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The rest of the tour was incrediable! The best time of my life. Matt has been the sweetest person to me and all the guys make me feel a part of the family. After all the trageties, disappointments, and all the drama...I finally have the one thing I've always wanted to get back. A family.
3/18/13