Don't Speak, No Use for Words. Lie in My Arms, Sleep Secure

I don’t remember how long I was on the floor, just screaming and crying, well mostly crying. I could hear the voices of everyone, but I couldn’t make out any words, it was all just a blur. I somehow got into Ashes’ car, no doubt taking me home to pack. I couldn’t feel anything, just numbness. I started blankly out the window, just watching the scenery pass by, wishing this was all just a dream.
“Hun, we’re here.” I slowly turned my head towards Ash, silent tears streaming down my face. “Oh sweetie.” She got out and ran over to my door, and threw it open. Before I knew it, her arms wrapped around me, I broke down again.
“How could this happen?! I just talked to him yesterday! He was fine! Planning to visit soon! Why did he have to go?! Why not Justice Gayber?!”
“I don’t know hun. Come one, your plane leaves in a few hours.” Plane? I wasn’t in a state to book a fucking plane.
“Thanks for booking it, I’ll pay you back.”
“I didn’t book it. Arin did.”
We walked up to the door, I hadn’t moved out of the house I shared with Jim Jam, I just couldn’t bring myself to sell it. All though, I did buy all new furniture.The stuff we had was just too Jimmy, yes we do have the same taste, but I just changed it. I couldn’t bear to look at all the old stuff. I kept his room the same, sometimes I sleep in there, just to feel closer to him.
“Where are your suitcases? I can’t find them in the closet.”
“They’re still in my room, half way unpacked.” My room was amazing! I had the painted all the walls black, except for the wall my bed is on, that had a mural of Tim Burton’s The Nightmare Before Christmas on it. I looked around, there were so many pictures. Of Jim Jam and I, Ash and I, the guys, Micah, and just random scenery pictures. I walked over to my dresser, and picked up a photo of Micah and I. I was on his back, arms and legs wrapped around him, just smiling down at him while he was smiling up at me.
“You two look happy.” I just smiled, so many memories flooding back to me.
“Yeah, we were. He was my best friend, my first love, first everything really.”
“Why didn’t it work out between you two?”
I sighed, hating explaining this. “At first we dated through the summer, while I was in Iowa. And when I was here we would keep in touch, then when my mom and I started to not get along so much and I left half way through the summer when we were 18 we lost contact. But I went back and saw family after Jimmy died, my older sisters are friends with his sisters, also him but he was everyone’s friend, anyway when I went back after a couple years we crossed paths again and it was like we never lost contact. I told him that I was going to college in New York, he decided to come too, claiming that I could go to the Big Apple by myself and that he needed a change of scenery. We started dating that summer again, well when his family found out that he was moving to New York with me his sister Brit, just freaked out. From then on she hated me, when we use to get along so well. I would go home with him during breaks, and she made no attempt to hide the fact that she didn’t want me there. So he didn’t go home last Christmas and she blamed me for it. When he found out he went ape shit on her, and Micah didn’t get mad at anyone or anything. He was the happy go lucky guy, always smiling and making people laugh and smile when they just wanted to cry. He told her that in the end, when it came down to him picking his family or me he would pick me and it would be all her fault and that she would have to live with it. I told him I wouldn’t let him do that, that he shouldn’t lose his family because of me. After that everything was fine, but we both knew graduation was coming up and then we would have to figure out what would happen with us. When the time came I told him he needed to back to his family and I needed to come back here. After weeks of talking about it and making sure that it was the right choice we went our separate ways. It’s so hard to believe that was only a few months ago.” I had ended up staying in New York for a job from May till the end of September.
“Sounds like if his sister wouldn’t have been a bitch, you two would have ended up together.”
“I think we would have.” We both looked at our phones, seeing it was time to head to LAX.
“Whelp, let’s get this over with. So not looking forward to the next few days.”

Notes

Hey everyone!!!!
I am sssssssssssoooooooo sorry its taken me this long!!! Im going through personal things, then the holidays, and I started working!
Hope everyone had splendid holidays!!!
Thanks!!!