James' POV

I was there holding her in my arms. She was unconscious, she had only a white towel with stain of dark blood on her naked body. What the fuck did I just do ?! I started to yell for help. I tried to stay calm and hold my tears inside but it was just impossible. I explode, seeing her like this was hurting me too much.. after being such an asshole to her. The first one that I saw was Matt followed by Val. She was covering her mouth with her hand in schock as she said, swallowing her tears back.

"Oh my .. ZACKY!"

As she yelled that Zacky came fast in front on the stairs, right when he saw Lana, his eyes went wide open. Val looked at him, in panic and said to him.

"Call the ambulance, NOW!"

He didn't say anything else and just ran into the kitchen to grab the phone. I could feel my cheeks getting wet from my tears. This was unreal. Matt came and put his ear close to her mouth, waited a few seconds and said.

"She's still breathing.. But goddamn she's losing a lot of blood. They need to hurry.."

I looked down my lap and saw blood all over them. I sobbed and held her tightest as I could.

"James ?! What did you do ?!"

I was still holding her and crying when I realized that it was Val. I knew in a way that all this was my fault. I took a deep breath and held my head up to look Val in her eyes, I could see that she was disappointed and angry. I took an other breath and said.

"I .. I wanted to go upstairs.. to apologize.. but I.. I saw her. Oh my god.. what did I do.."

Brian and Emily appeared up the stairs. Emily had the same reaction as Val. She started to cry and took Lana from my arms. I stood up and grabbed brian in my arms. I was crying more as I said.

"I'm such a fucking prick! It's my fault. Everything's my fault .."

Brian held me in his arms, he was about to say something but he got cut by Johnny.

"Ok, James, sorry but that's not the time , they are here."

I didn't quit my eyes on her as the paramedic were checking her. They put a blanket around her and put her on a stretcher. I followed them as they were taking her outside. They put her in the ambulance, I had to follow her. I couldn't let her alone. they were about to close the doors as I said.

"Can I come with her? I knew she would like me to be by her side.." It was a total lie, I messed it up tonight, she probably didn't want me by her side, but I had to find a way to stay close with her. The paramedic guy looked at me and said.

"Are you family?" I hesitated a moment and said after few second.

"She's my fiancé.."

The guy just opened the door and let me go in. I sat next to the strecher. I looked at Lana. She was still unconscious, a tear ran down my cheek to fall on my shirt. I dried my cheek with my hand to after put it on her cheek. Her hair was wet and all sticked to her face. I removed them from it gently with my hand. I couldn't help but just cry. It was really unusual that I was crying. If I was, it needed to be for something serious. That's when I really realized that she was everything to me.. I couldn't imagine my life without her and again .. I screwed everything. Everthing was going well between us and I had to act like a fucking douche again.. She deserved someone better than me.. This thought made me sob. I put my face on my hands and cried like I never did. The paramedic next to me gave me a little tap on my shoulder to cheer me up but it didn't really helped. In less than five minutes we arrived. I made my way to the waiting room while they took her with them. This was killing me. I could feel my heart broken inside of me.. I had to be with her and next to her.. But like again, I screwed it..

Notes

Short I know.. but still something, hope you like it!