Lana's POV

"The rev's finally here guys! Let's the party fucking start!" James yelled as we entered into Matt's house. We didn't even have time to remove our shoes that Johnny was giving us a beer. I felt like it was going to be a crazy night. James was looking at me while he threw his leather jacket on the ground. Val came next to me and helped me with mine.

"Is he always like this?" I asked as she removed my jacket from my shoulders. She smiled and rolled her eyes up.

"Oh yeah.. That's the rev.. you'll get used to it!" She smirked and took my jacket and placed it in the closet, with all the other coats.

I looked around and saw Zacky and Johnny sitting next to each other, with a beer in their hand, looking at the TV. On the other couch was sitting Emily and Brian. She was leaning on his chest, she looked at me and waved me a hello so I did too. Matt was sitting next to them on the same couch. Val came there and sat on his lap. the only place that was still, James took it. It was a chair sooo no place for two. He looked at me and gave a few tap on his lap.

"Come on girl. I won't hurt ya!" He said playfully. I looked around me and saw that everyone was looking at me, I blushed. I stepped forward and sat on his lap. He laid his head on my shoulder and whispered "My little bunny rwaar!" He bit my neck, not hard. I laughed and bent my neck because he was tickling me. He laughed in my neck too. It was freaking cute.

"Who wants to play COD?" Matt said as he stood up and opened his XBOX. Zacky stood up after him and said.

"Me! I'm going to beat your fucking ass up!" He grabbed a XBOX remote. Matt looking at him with a half-smile and said.

"You always say that but you never do. Because I'm a fucking beast!" He blew a kiss to him for kidding.

Zacky rolled his eyes up and went back on the couch next to Johnny, who was already drunk. The game passed fast, Matt won, like always. I was still sitting on James lap. Once in a while he was rubbing my back and giving me kisses on my neck. After the game, the guys decided to play beer pong and we, the girls, decided just to watch them getting extremely drunk.
James was getting already pretty drunk when he said, with a ping pong ball in his hand.

"That one for you babe!" He winked at me, showed his fucking beautiful smiled, that always made me melt inside, and threw the ball on the table. The ball bounced one time on it and ended in the bottom of Brian's glass. He threw his arms up in the airs, jumped on me and started to give little kisses all over my face.

"You see! I had it because of you girl! You're perfect!" He kissed me one last time and went back on the game where Brian was drinking up his glass of beer.

Two hours later I started to have really much pain in my stomach. the guys had put some music on in the living room, they were all really drunk, espacially James. He was just sitting on the couch, almost passed out, just listening to the music. I was in the kitchen with Emily and Val when Emily noticed that something was wrong with me.

"Lana? Are you okay?" She asked as she stood up to to clean the empty bottles from the table. I looked at her and shook on my head, it was becoming extremely hot.

"What's wrong?" Val said while helping Emily to clean the table. I looked at her and said.

"Yeah.. It's only my period, it'll be okay." I let a little smile to make them believe that it was okay.

"Do you want some pills?" Val asked me.

"No thanks, I took already." I said. Emily came back sitting next to us.

"You can go to the guest room, it's the first door, up the stairs. You can take your rest, take a shower or a bath." Val said. I rubbed the back of my neck and said.

"Yeah I guess.. hum I'm just tired.." I stood up, said my goodbye and went upstairs. I was feeling very dizzy, probably from all the alcohol that I drank that evening. I opened the first door I saw. It was a beautiful cozy room with a bathroom connected to. I was about to remove my dress that I heard the door open. I turned myself and saw James leaning on the wall looking at me.

"You're going to sleep so early?.." he started walking slowly on my direction.

"Yeah, I didn't feel.." Before I could finish my sentence, he took my face in his hands and kissed me roughly. His tongue was tasting alcohol and cigarette. I had suddendly the feeling to throw up, not because it was tasting bad, but because I was very sick. I pushed him away and tried to keep everything inside, hopefully it worked. He grabbed my butt with his hand and squeezed it very hard, it was hurting. He pushed me closer to him.

"What's wrong ? It thought you liked me.." He said as he glared at me. His eyes were cold. I tried to push him away but it was impossible, he was holding me too thight for.

"What the fuck is wrong with you ?!" I said trying to pushed him again. He pulled me again closer to him.

"I want you! And I fucking know you want it too!.." He started to kiss my neck and down my breast.

"James, what the fuck! You know that I can't.."

"I KNOW FUCK! We'll do it in the shower, I don't fucking care if you're bleeding or not, I fucking want to fuck you right now.." his hands were traveling all over my body, he was breathing hard. His lips were still on my neck as tears started to fell on my cheeks. I never thought he could act like this with me.. Once again I tried to push him but he was definetly the strongest between us.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF ME OR I.." He grabbed my hair in his hand and pulled it very hard, he was furious. I could tell.

"Or fucking what?!" He became very agressive. I was so afraid. Afraid that he hits me or something. I heard few knocks on the door. Dear god thank you! The door opened it was Val, she had some clothes in her hands.

"I thought you might like to have some..." She put her head up and froze. She looked straight into my eyes and she saw that I was crying. Her eye contact lost mine and went to James' one. she dropped the clothes that she had in her hands. "What's going on here?!" As she said that, James released me from his arms. He was looking at her with a intense glare.

"Get out! It's not in your fucking business!" She froze again. I went very fast on the top of the bed, I had to be far away from James.

"Look James! You're are too drunk to think straight! Now, you go downstairs and we don't talk about it anymore!" She was pointing the door with her finger.

James didn't say anything and just went out of the room. I couldn't still believe how he could change from adorable to.. this, in less than two hours. I let out a sob. Every was .. Fucked up..Val sat next to me, she started to rub my back. I was shaking and still very scared, never a man had threated me like this in my whole life..

"Omg.. What did he do to you?"

I said nothing, I was still shaking and crying all my tears out from my body. This was just too much for me.

"Do you want me to talk about it with Matt ?"

I shook my head, I didn't want anyone else to know about that. She stood next to me for a while, still rubbing my back. I had the time to calm down a little. The guy that always had been so sweet to me tried to .. rape me. This thought made me shivered. That was insane. Val sighed, gave me a hug and said.

"I know that what he did wasn't right but I know James more than you do and I know also that when he's drunk he's never the same.." She broke the hug and continued. " He never thinks and he always regret the day after." She took my chin up. She looked straight into my eyes with a half-smile on her lips and said. "The only thing I know that is true, is that he really does love you.. and everyone knows it.."

I didn't know what to say, I didn't know if she was right or not. I just wished on the moment that she was right. Just to give me a little more hope that the James I saw this night is not the real one.

"I'm going to leave you now.. take a bath or a shower.. Just relax.. Don't think about it to much it'll be okay.." She made her way to the door and took the clothes, that she dropped earlier, from the floor. She handed it to me and stepped out of the room.

I was now all alone in the room. I sighed and wiped my tears away from my cheeks. I stood and made my way to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror, I really looked like a mess. My cramps were getting worst and too much intense. I sat down on the toilet seat, took my belly in my arms and started to cry again, I felt so alone on that moment. I waited a bit till the pain went away a little and then removed my dress, to be ready to take a shower. I fixed the water, not too cold, not too hot, just in the middle. I entered in the shower and let the water flow against my face and then against my hair, I was about to take the shampoo bottle that my knees went on the floor as I collapsed. I felt like someone was stabbing my stomach without leaving it, the pain was constant and really hard. I was schocked, it looked like the air that I was breathin couldn't get into my lungs. My mouth became extemely dry. I had also an intense feeling that everything had to come out, I threw up on the shower floor. Everything was spinning around, I felt like dying. The only thing I thought on that moment was to get out of there and get help. I tried to stand up but I didn't have the strenght for. I was in total panic when I felt something flowing down my tights. I knew it wasn't only water. I saw the water getting full of dark blood. Right on that moment I had a big shot of adrenaline. Dying all alone here was the last thing I wanted. I grabbed my towel and put it around me. I opened the shower's door and started to make my way out of the bathroom, but then I forgot that I was wet so I slipped on the bathroom floor. I started to scream the loudest as I could, but no one could hear me, the music downstairs was way to loud. I was crying, afraid that no one would ever here me and I would die here. I took my towel back and crawled to the door. I grabbed the door handle to support myself with it and went back on my feet. I opened the door and went into the room. I was holding myself on every little things that I could see. I finally opened the door and saw the stairs in front of me but I didn't know if I would be able to reach them before I fainted, I knew I was about to. My head was spinning I couldn't see clear, I had no strenght anymore.. I had an other rush of adrenaline. No way that I was going to die here, up the stairs, I had to go down but I knew it was almost impossible so I grabbed the bannister and again started to scream the loudest and the hardest as I could. I could feel the world spinning around me. The last thing I saw was him, screaming too and running up the stairs to catch me before I fell down. And then I passed out ..

Notes

This one was long for me to write and even more because I write it down on a book first and THEN type it back on the computer so.. anyway I hope people are still reading me out there because I put all my effort in it.. Even my boyfriend helps me for that. I wish I had more comments...

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