“Happy three month anniversary,” Jimmy said happily to me. I smiled at my boyfriend and kissed him gently as we sat on the beach together. Jimmy and I had been together and in secret for three long months. I loved every second with him and he was just, so perfect. My father was thankful that he was dating me and keeping me safe and such, my mother just telling us how adorable we were together but, it was all just one big secret. My brother was clueless and so was the rest of the guys. Jimmy was afraid that if Zacky found out, something bad would happen.
“When are we going to tell him baby?” I asked Johnny worriedly. He looked down at me, his arms wrapped around me holding me close to him.
‘That’s your choice baby girl,” He said kissing the top of my head. I sighed, I didn’t want my brother to know about us, I was scared to tell him. After all of these months of him trying to block me from Jimmy, I knew that it wasn’t going to be good to tell Johnny something like this.
“It’s going to be alright sweetheart,” He whispered to me again and held me as I tightened my grip around him.
“I want to Jimmy, he’s my brother,” I whispered to him. He nodded.
“I think you should honey but…he’s going to be very upset about it,” He said. I nodded, cuddling to his chest.
“Maybe we can tell them tomorrow,” I said to Jimmy, “And everything will be ok,” I smiled and he kissed the top of my head, grabbing my hand and kissing the top of it letting the butterflies erupt in my tummy.
“That’s right baby girl,” He smiled brightly at me. I came and straddled my boyfriend, wrapping my arms around his neck and smiled.
“I love you,” I whispered against his lips. I was nervous telling him this, it was the first time I had said it and my stomach was in knots but seeing that huge smile on his face made me sigh with relief.
“and I you my love,” He smiled, cupping my cheek and kissing me sweetly. I smiled in his kiss and pulled him closer, having the worries of tomorrow wash away. When he pulled away, he came and wrapped me in his arms and laid us down in the nice warm sound and we held one another, him running my fingers through my hair making me feel very comfortable around him.
That was all ruined though when we heard Leana screaming for us and running down the beach with Zacky beside her. My stomach twisted into knots and I wasn’t happy at all right now. What was she doing here with him? Why was she here with him? Was he the one that she was with at the carnival?
“I want to leave,” I whispered to Jimmy. We sat up and he held me close, telling me that it was going to be alright but for some reason, I thought it wasn’t going to be ok. I wasn’t supposed to be near Zacky and he knew it. I held onto Jimmy for dear life hoping that he wouldn’t let me go.
Jimmy stood and I stood along with him and held on to him as Zacky smiled at us, holding Leana’s hand.
“Hey guys!” Leana exclaimed. I gave a small smile to her and to Zacky and Jimmy squeezed my hand.
“Hey Leana, what are you guys up to?” Jimmy asked them, I was unable to speak to them.
“We were just walking on the beach talking and we saw you two love birds,” She smiled and winked at me.
“Hey Deanna,” Zacky said and waved at me. I waved a little back and he frowned. The look in his eyes made me know what he was saying, that he was sorry. That he was so incredibly sorry but I still didn’t want to trust him or to believe him anyways. He wasn’t sorry, if he was, he would of never done it.
“Deanna?” Zacky questioned, “Can I speak with you?” He asked me. I froze, my body tensing. I nodded though, hearing Jimmy tell me that it was alright, that he was right here with me and I came to the side closer to the ocean with Zacky. He smiled, letting his fingers running through his hair.
“Deanna…about…about that time,” He said lightly, his eyes looking out to the ocean. He took a deep breath, exhaling through his nose and looked up to me, “I could never forgive myself for what I had done. I…God Deanna please forgive me,” He whispered, his eyes starting to go red. I don’t know how I could forgive him, he did so much damage to me. Thanks to him, it was this slim chance of having babies.
“How can I?” I questioned him, holding back the tears, “How can I possibly forgive you Zacky?” I asked him. I looked into his beautiful green eyes and I saw truth in them, but I didn’t want to believe in that truth.
“Because I’m in love with you,”