My heart was racing, did he just tell me this? How can he be in love with me? He was the one that raped me, used me, how can he possibly be in love with me? I was standing there like a complete idiot I knew that for sure. I was to shocked to say anything. How can this happen? With Zacky of all people!
“Y…you can’t…” I finally whispered to him. I looked into his eyes and all I saw was truth in them. He can’t love me, he just can’t!
“I am…Deanna what happened in the past was the biggest mistake in my life. I just want another chance,” He said gently, his hand touching my cheek His soft finger tips touching my cheek made my body shiver. This was the first time he had touched me in years and I was still hyperventilating and I was about to throw up.
“Get away from her!” Jimmy hollered. I glanced over seeing my furious boyfriend coming over to his best friend and shoved him out of the way, me looking back to Zacky who had tears streaming down his face. Why was he hurting? Why was he crying?
“You stay away from her, you hear me?” Jimmy snarled at his friend and pulled me away from them, “It was nice talking to you Leana, I just need to take Deanna home,” He told them. Leana nodded sadly and grabbed Zacky’s hand walking away from us with me having so many questions running through my head.
Later on that night, I was home in my room and Leana had came over to talk to me. She saw how much Zacky was grieving over what happened, she really did think he was sorry. I didn’t really know why I wouldn’t just acknowledge this information, I guess I just didn’t want to.
“How can he? Why did he do it in the first place?” I asked holding my ducky close to my chest, it still smelling like Jimmy. Even after three months, but then again he held him when we would cuddle on the bed when he snuck into my window when I was down and out thanks to my brother.
“He did it because he was drunk or something. Hun, he was going through a tuff time with his parents, he saw his father do the same to his mother…just, there’s a lot in Zacky’s head. Your not perfect either,” She said looking at me. Well, she was right. I wasn’t the good girl either. I slept around some, I did illegal things and here I am just trying to get my life straightened out some more.
“Yeah but he’s not supposed to me around me,” I said. She sighed.
“That’s not really helping when you and Johnny are brother and sister and he is in the same band with Zacky, babe just give him another chance. Just be friends I’m not telling you to dump Jimmy and go with Zacky,” She said and rolled her eyes. I sighed, I guess my friend was right. I just needed to forgive Zacky and be friends with him again.
“Fine, I’ll try but Jimmy isn’t going to like it,” I pointed out, which was very much the truth. He wouldn’t like it at all.
“Doesn’t mean he has to know hun,” She said with a shrug. That part I didn’t like, sneaking behind Jimmy’s back? Why would I ever do something like that? Right because I was trying to give Zacky another chance. I didn’t want to hurt Jimmy but yet again, I was sick of people trying to protect me and block me from my choices, so I agreed with Leana that I would meet up with Zacky sometime and she smiled at me, hugging me tight. I just hope this ended alright.