I went home after dinner with my brother and his family, because for one, if I did go out on a date with Jimmy, my parents wouldn’t mind. And for another, that meant I didn’t have to sneak out and cause even more trouble with my brother. I loved him dearly but I needed this break and I was finally going to be able to do something that I wanted to do and not my brother.
“Love you sis,” My brother said after pulling into our parents drive way.
“Love you too Johnny,” I whispered and came out of the door still upset about him and what happened in his house. Dinner was quiet, like really quiet. Leana didn’t like me being there, I could sense it. Dannie and Johnny were trying to make people laugh, as well as Brian but it just didn’t work out.
I walked inside my home, seeing mom and dad sitting on the couch watching a movie and they saw me coming inside and they paused the movie.
“Hey baby girl, how’d it go?” My dad asked me. I came into the living room and sat on the coffee table in front of them.
“Got in a fight with Johnny,” I said sadly. My mom came and grabbed my hands asking me what happened so I did. My dad sighed and sat up along with my mom.
“I can see what your brother is trying to do honey but…then again you have a point too. We just want you safe,” My father told me gently. I nodded, looking down to my feet.
“I really want to go on this date with Jimmy though,” I said lightly. Which was very much true, I wanted to be with Jimmy really bad and I have been for a long time. Besides, it was just a date. It wasn’t like marriage or anything. We were just probably go and terrorize people and die laughing on the beach or go to an arcade or something.
“Alright, you can,” My father said, “Only if one of the guys go with you,” He pointed out before I could say anything. This wasn’t fair! I am freaking eighteen years old, why couldn’t I just go out with a guy?! Just because I had one bad night doesn’t mean it was going to happen again.
I stood, taking my hands from my mothers grip and went upstairs to my room and slammed it shut, screaming and cussing and throwing things around in my bedroom.
“This is freaking stupid!” I yelled. Just because Zacky had to be an idiot, steal my things and to rape me doesn’t mean that they were all like this! I hated him for what he’s done and I was never going to be with him ever again! I hate him and I hate everyone for having me stay away from boys.
All my brother did my whole life was keep me away from his friends, he trusted Zacky and he stilled didn’t trust him. Zacky never looked at me, Johnny threatened to quit the band and to cut the brother hood with them but, they begged and pleaded and now, Zacky can’t set foot near me or anything. Only on occasions. Like my birthday but that was because there was so many people there.
I sighed, this was a mess and this was ridicules. I sighed and just crawled into my bed and decided to catch some sleep but of course that didn’t happen because when my head hit the pillow, Jimmy texted me.
Jimmy: You ready beautiful?
Me: No, tired, tomorrow
I was being abrupt but I could careless right now.
Jimmy: Why not? *frowns*
Me: I have had to many fights and we have to bring someone tomorrow…I blame Zacky.
Jimmy: What did he do to you!?
Me: Nothing Jimmy, just…good night ok?
I sighed and turned my phone off and put it on my nightstand and made myself fall asleep. This was a nightmare waiting to happen.