I looked up and faced those big, hazel eyes accompanied by a slight frown.

“um… hi?” I said even though it came out more of a question.

“Hey, uh… Can I talk to you? I mean just for a sec.” Matt requested hesitantly.

I nodded and slowly made myself comfortable in the sand again as Matt sat next to me.

He took a deep breath before he turned to me, his eyes locked with mine.

“Look, I uh… know that…” he cleared his throat before he continued. “ I know that nothing I say can make you forgive me for what I have put you through and I am sorry, I really am. I don’t know why I keep doing it but, I- when… when I heard those songs and what you sang I didn’t realize how much I’ve hurt you and I ju-“

“I appreciate the fact that you care enough to apologize but those songs are not about you… completely. My life is a mess and it always has, I’ve been hurt countless times and what you guys did was just the icing on the cake. “ I took a deep breath and I saw Matt opening his mouth as if he was about to say something but I interrupted him.

“I can accept you apology, but don’t expect me to trust you or even become your friend right away, even thought that might not be what you want. Ok?”

He nodded in acceptance and got up, he offered his hand to me and I took it.

As we brushed off the sand from out clothes I got a feeling in my stomach and I felt like I needed to say a final thing to him.

“Hey um…” I started as I grabbed his arm. “Please, don’t tell anyone about my music or songs or anything related to that… You are lucky that you actually heard me just so you know.”

“Okay I won’t…” his expression stated that he wanted to add something but I just shrugged it off.

We walked back towards the garage, I sped up my walk and I ended up getting a bit in front of Matt. That felt like a bad thing because I could feel his eyes burning through my skin as we walked back. When we walked in the garage I rushed over to Jacob and sat down beside him.

“Did everything go ok?” he whispered as he kissed the top of my head. I simply nodded not in the mood to speak.

I leaned in and lay my head on his shoulders while I yawned. Damn I was tired.

“So you ready?” Matt/ asshole asked… I still haven’t forgiven him but he can at least be called his name… and my nickname for him! J

“Yeah we’re ready” Jacob answered for us and I think I saw Matt narrow his eyes at him. Maybe I am just imagining things…

The guys started to play something and it sounded really good actually. To say I was surprised had to be an understatement because they were really good.

My foot patted along to the rhythm as we sat in the couch listening intensely.

Matt seriously knew how to scream and growl, I could feel my jaw slightly dropping and my eyes widen when he started scream. The guys with the guitars were an awesome duo, they would sync together and just act like they weren’t even playing. The bass player he looked chill and really didn’t pay that much attention to it either. The drummer, is far by the best of them all, I mean he’s superfast plus he also sings the back-up vocals, their band is actually amazing!

“Ames!”

“huh? Sorry…” I asked when I was snapped out of my thoughts.

“What did ya think?” Matt-hole (new nickname haha)

“You guys were actually great!” I said and realized that I made it sound like I expected them to be awful.

“Actually? We are fucking awesome!” The drummer shouted excitedly!

“Sorry, I just didn’t expect you guys to be that good” I explained and smiled a bit.

“Uhm what’s your names?” Jacob asked and I noticed that I didn’t even know any of their names except Matt so I just looked at them intently.

“Oh yeah uhm the guys on guitar are Brian or Syn as we call him then the other player is Zacky or Vee” he explained and pointed at them.

“I am Jimmy, The Rev or just call me fucking awesome and short shit here is short shit or Johnny” Jimmy teased while ruffing Johnny’s hair.

“Haha okay… How long have you guys played together?” I questioned.

“Like 3years” Zacky answered.

“oh okay”
“we’re trying to get signed right now so we have to really practice our songs and nail them like 110%. We hope we get it!” Matt explained enthusiastically.
“Cool” Jacob and I replied at the same time, we just looked at each other and started laughing.

“What’s so funny? Can I join in on the fun fun fun fun?” Jimmy asked happily.

“It’s nothing; we just have a weird habit of saying the exact same thing at some moments… Synched brains” I replied giggling.

The next thing I know Jimmy drags me up on his shoulder and jumps around in the garage and is screaming “Now we are having fun! Be jealous minions” evily. His shoulder hit me in the stomach and I felt like I couldn’t breathe from the laughing and the pain from his shoulder hitting me.

“Jim… shoulder… in stomach. Can’t breathe” I tried to explain.

“Sorry Ames-Fames” he apologized as he put me down on the ground.

“Don’t be sorry, who needs air anyways?” I stated sarcastically and Jimmy snickered.

Once you get to know me, I am really not that shy, I am very sarcastic and apparently “Bubbly” according to Jacob. What’s wrong with people? Haha.

“ ‘ey since everybody else are to chicken to ask… So you sing Ames, right?” Syn asked.

“I guess I do…” I responded a bit shyly.

“Guess you do? What do you mean?”
“I mean I sing when I feel like it, it’s not something, I do like a hobby or job. I just do it when I feel like it.” I clarified.

“Okay… Are you feeling like you want to sing something now?” they looked at me a bit excitedly.

“I don’t know… I rarely sing in front of people.”

“Oh come on, just one song!!” Jimmy begged on his knees and used his puppy face.

I giggled; I mean who can resist a face like that and those eyes! When I think about it, Jimmy’s always been quiet in school and never done anything to me… Just the other guys. Hmm..

“So what bands do you listen to? I noticed your Pantera shirt a couple days ago” Matt spoke.

“Uhm, well Pantera duuh and I love Nirvana… Otherwise it’s a lot of contemporary songs..”

“Nirvaaaanaaaa!!! You are so singing a song by them with me Ames-Fames” Jimmy squealed happily.

“NO.”

“Pretty pleaaaase”

“Jimmy, noooooo"

“I’ll buy you a Ben & Jerry’s?” he suggested.

“Haha, fine but only because you are so good with convincing me about it and you better buy me one.” I smiled.

“Good so what song then?”

“Uhm… Smells like a teen spirit?” I proposed.

“Nah… but we do know the chords for Heart Shaped Box, so how about that?” Zacky asked.
“Yeah sure, I actually have memorized the lyrics to that song” I laughed.

• • •
“Wow! You really know how to sing!” Syn exclaimed after we finished playing.

“Thanks” I replied quietly.

“My talented Ames-who’s gonna me-Fames!” Jimmy shouted out and hugged me tightly. This time I could breathe.

So far, the guys seem ok, even though I can’t forgive them for what they did. It’s nice to see a different side of them especially Jimmy. I mean he looks crazy with his orange robe and spiked hair but I can see him becoming a friend of mine. He’s just awesome and fun to be around, like a fresh breath of air!

"Hey, Ames?”

“Hey Matt?” I repeated.

“HA HA. Why don’t you play one of those songs I heard you play before?”

“Uh no. I- I mean- Those songs are kind of personal and I really don’t want anybody to hear them… Maybe sometimes in the future, but not now.” I explained and frowned sympathetically.

“Don’t worry… We’ll just have to force it out of you someday” Syn teased and gave away a smirk making me laugh.

• • •
Ah, finally a new day in school. It’s too bad that our lessons suck today, first history then geography and after that chemistry. As I sat down in the classroom I mentally groaned and buried my head in my hands. I cannot stand history especially with our teacher Ms.Castel, she’s winy, old and just plain boring.

“Good Morning class. Let’s check who’s here and not here, shall we?” Ms.Castel started.

“Melanie Griffin?... Austin Smith?... Amy Lee?”

“Yes” I mumbled not being able to wait until we end the lesson.

“Jasper C-“ Matt barged in the classroom settling down in the back and Ms.Castel watched him with one eyebrow raised up.
“Excuse me Mr.Sanders? Why were you late?”

“I overslept.” He replied in a monotone voice.

“Fine, that’ll do for now. Chase Reeves?...”

She continued to bark the class names up and then started with her lesson. I took my notepad and started scribbling and doodling all around the paper. I was so lost In my little word that I jumped when I felt something hit my head. I looked back and saw a crumbled piece of paper lying under my chair.

I picked up the crushed piece of paper and opened it to read what it said.

‘Ames, what’ya doin? =)’

Who the hell wrote this to me? I began to look around the room and when I turned around I saw Matt smirking at me. Of course he wrote it I thought as I rolled my eyes and turned back around. After that I actually managed to focus on the lesson, I just can’t get how Matt is. First he’s a fucking douchebag and abuses me then all of the sudden he acts like freaking Mr.Adorable. I just don’t understand why he became nice after he heard me sing, he’s weird. If he’s being nice just because of my *cough* talent then he can go and fuck himself as far as I care.

I got pulled out of my thoughts when I felt somebody nudge my shoulder.

“Class is over… Staying here all day?”

“No, just didn’t hear the bell ring”

“Yeah right, you love school.”

Wow, he really pisses me off!

“Matt, if I loved school then why would I dread all days that don’t have any music lessons?”

“ ‘cause you love school” he winked at me and flashed me his dimples that are so cute.

“No because I love music.” I stated, got up and left to my lockers. He makes me mad, pissed off, annoyed or just frustrated just within second and I don’t know why… Well I know why but still he isn’t even doing anything. I hate him and what he has done but he actually seems ok.

When I had left my books and school supplies in my locker I headed out to the schoolyard where I sat down next to a tree. I plugged in my headphones and started bumping my head along to the music.

My eyes were closed and the sun warming my bare arms, this was what I loved. Just being relaxed and feeling carefree for a while, this is what life should be like. Then again it’s not.

“DUDE! What the hell?” I shrieked when my earphones all of the sudden were ripped out of my ears.

“Ames-Fames! I missed yooou!” Jimmy exclaimed and hug me, cause me to life from the ground.

my… Put me down okay?”

“Hmm… I’ll think about it.” He stated pretending to think whilst rubbing his chin with his index finger and thumb.

“JIMMY! Put that poor girl down!” a unfamiliar voice yelled.

He put me down and I saw a beautiful blonde girl approaching us.

“Heeeeeey babe!” Jimmy said happily and kissed her.

“Hey! I’m Lexi, Jimmy’s boyfriend” she introduced herself and gave me a hug which I was not prepared for.

“Hey, I’m Ames” I retorted hugging her back lightly.

“Jim-Bear, she’s more beautiful than you said!” she whispered while hitting his chest lightly. The fact that she whispered that and out loud made me blush a bit. I never have been called beautiful or actually anything then whore, tramp among other things. Wow I am silly. They are just saying this to make me feel good.

“So, you wanna hang out? Ames-Games?” Lexi asked.

“What’s with the rhyming nicknames for me?” I wondered… I mean Ames-Fames and Ames-Games… This couple seemed made for each other, both peculiar in the own way haha.

“You have a nickname for her too, Jim-Bear?” she squealed.

“Ames-Faaaames! We are awesome, so group hug!” he yelled and pulled us all in for a grouphug.

I may not like Matt at all but Jimmy is awesome, I actually don’t feel as shy when he’s here. I miss that side of me… I used to be happy when I was younger but then all bullshit in my life happened.

Well, for now it looks like I have 2 friends, Jacob and Jimmy and a possible girlfriend, Lexi. Yay!