I Give my Heart to you on this Crimson Day
Chapter 49: Giving you Everything..
Matt's P.O.V
Erin sat there tapping her fingers on Sarah's desk... She really hasn't given me very much time to convince her to stay with Zack but I will take what I can get.
"Erin please be reasonable; what the hell happened that sent you so far over the edge and made you so... evil?" I sat there hesitant to say that last word. But right now that is what she was. She had fallen from grace and at this point I wasn't even sure if she would ever be able to find her way back. She looked over to me and her eyes flashed to green for a moment and back to the reddish brown.
"Listen Matt; I didn't want any of this. I never met for things to get as bad as they are or to die as much as I have. I get that Zack has a breaking point.. But so do I and when he let me go without a word... I just couldn't take it. Papa Gates showed more want than Zack did after he broke. Do you realize how frustrating that was and how bad of a spot that put me in?" She asked almost like she was pleading for her life. I felt a little heartbroken that none of us saw her side of the story like she wanted us to. I sighed and leaned forward towards the desk.
"You still have time to make this right Erin. I am not going to force you to do anything that you don't want to do. I want you to think about this clearly and soundly; listen to your heart..." I said trying to break through the wall that she built. She sat there quietly staring at the ground. I walked over and kneeled to her and looked her in the eyes. She was terrified and I didn't know what to do to make everything go away.
"Please Erin; you have to talk to me. I want to fix this... I want to make this right. But you have to let me in." I said and she dropped the blade and started crying. I think this was the first real emotion that she had let out since she became purely vampire. I grabbed her hand and she pulled back and stood up.
"I don't want to be a burden... I don't want to destroy anyone's life anymore... I feel so terrible" She said almost like she couldn't breathe. I slowly stood up making sure that she could see my hands at all times.
"Tell me what happened" I said taking the time to just listen to her. I knew that she was still on the nuclear side but she really needed to get it out and maybe just maybe I could get her to see that Zack never wanted to fully let her go... He needed her more than anything....
Izzy's P.O.V
I finally decided to go downstairs. I was calm and wanted to stay that way but at the same time a lot can happen in the time that I am trying to get calm. I walked downstairs and Jimmy was the only one in the living room. He had a serious look on his face which told me that he was waiting on something. I sat down next to him and he hugged me and then kissed my cheek.
"What happened?" I asked and he just buried his face into his hands. All of this was taking its toll on him... I know it was definitely hurting me.
"I know that you stabbed Erin... well you succeeded at turning her human... But there was complications after she returned to hell" He said trailing off and I knew that this was going to turn really dark... really fast.
"Just spit it out James... I seriously cannot take this fucking shit anymore... I just want my bestfriend back okay. So tell me everything" I said and Jimmy was taken off guard because I called him James. I usually just call him Jimmy or Jim-Jam but right now I really was nervous to hear about Erin and what all is happening.
"Well she got back to hell and I guess she outed Meaghan and Meaghan was the one who was holding Erin's angel side... so Erin killed Meaghan and stuck the blade into herself and went she reached Heaven.... She killed Sarah... And she is threatening Matt saying that she will take the blade to Papa Gates if in 30 minutes he can't convince her to come back to Zack. I have been waiting to hear something from Matt... But there is just nothing" Jimmy said.... Erin was evil... but I don't want to lose hope that my bestfriend would come back.
Erin's P.O.V
Confusion... Pain... Weakness.. Fear all swept over my body at once. I was massively turning to the dark side. All I wanted was for things to go back to the way that they used to be... before Jake found me and before Papa Gates completely drug me down. Fuck the blade... I didn't want to hurt anyone.. I leaned over Sarah and put my hand over her heart and concentrated.... thought of her eyes... her voice... the way she smiled... everything that I loved about my sister. My hands glowed and everything got really bright and after I heard her breathe again... I picked up the blade handing it to Matt.
"I don't want this anymore... I don't want anything.. Forgive me" I said softly and with that I returned myself to my body and gasped for air... I was once again back in hell. As soon as I saw Papa Gates fly through the door I ran into the huge bathroom. Everything was flashing before my eyes and I kept going from evil to good... evil to good. What did I fucking want to be! GOD ERIN FUCKING MAKE UP YOUR MIND! I stared at myself in the mirror and saw that my eyes were bright green and burning more than ever. I closed my eyes taking a really deep breath and then when I opened them again I decided that I needed to hear Zack out before making a final decision. I teleported away just as Papa Gates busted through the bathroom door. I ended up in the middle of the street and it was pouring outside... I was drenched and I just stood there feeling empty. I saw Zack sitting on the porch of his house in the rain. I couldn't help but cry and his head shot up and he saw me and studied me carefully. I still stood there unable to think or speak; I dropped to my knees unable to find the words to say to him how much I loved him. He ran over to me and picked me up and carried me inside and set me down and grabbed a towel. He wrapped it around me and tried to help me get warm because I was shivering.
"I-I don't have much time Zack" I said trying to keep myself from freaking out. I needed to see if it was even possible for the two of us to work this out at all. I could feel the want between the both of us... there was always a spark between us which made it harder to stay away from him.
"You let me go... How could you let me go so easily" I said quietly almost under my breath. He came up to me and hugged me tightly and then let go not trying to push anything on me.
"I didn't know what I was doing Erin. There was a lot going on and I broke down and my mind was just gone. I couldn't find the right words to say or even comprehend anything... I never wanted to lose you like that" He said and I could tell that me turning to the darkside hurt him more than anything. I dropped the towel and started pacing a little bit.
"You do realize that I have a breaking point too right? Because everything that is happening... is happening to me and it hurts me every second knowing that I screwed up everyone's life" I said and I started crying again. He ran over to me and kissed me roughly and I melted right into his arms. He backed me up till I was up against the wall for support. I kissed him back letting the kiss grow and grow until I realized that maybe we needed to stop. I pushed him a little and I gasped for air; he grabbed my chin forcing me to look at him.
"I am not going to let you get away Erin. You need to feel me... You need to see how I feel; please let me do this.. I need you so fucking badly Erin" He said and I kissed him again and his hands were all over my body. He lifted me so that my legs were around his waist and I was so far into him right now... but then it struck me that the longer I spent here.. the sooner Papa Gates would come and destroy everything again.... I pushed Zack away again and I dropped down out of oxygen.
"The longer I stay... the harder he is going to come at us... I can't let him destroy us.. I can't do it again. Let me go" I said and I felt myself becoming torn between two worlds... The evil in me was strong... The good in me was the best thing to ever happen to me... And then there was Zack who made my life better.. my heart better... he was my everything and that is why the evil had to overpower for now. I ran over and kissed him.
"I truly love you Zachary James Baker and I am so proud to have you in my life... What I am doing I am doing for us... I can't ever let you go to the full extent... Trust me?" I said softly and he sat there crying and stroking my face.
"You will always be Erin Baker... you are the love of my life... my wife... I trust you my love" He said and I put my lips to his ear.
"I need you to kill me" I whispered and he pulled away in shock....
Wondering what my master plan was...
But that was something that just needed to play out...
Erin sat there tapping her fingers on Sarah's desk... She really hasn't given me very much time to convince her to stay with Zack but I will take what I can get.
"Erin please be reasonable; what the hell happened that sent you so far over the edge and made you so... evil?" I sat there hesitant to say that last word. But right now that is what she was. She had fallen from grace and at this point I wasn't even sure if she would ever be able to find her way back. She looked over to me and her eyes flashed to green for a moment and back to the reddish brown.
"Listen Matt; I didn't want any of this. I never met for things to get as bad as they are or to die as much as I have. I get that Zack has a breaking point.. But so do I and when he let me go without a word... I just couldn't take it. Papa Gates showed more want than Zack did after he broke. Do you realize how frustrating that was and how bad of a spot that put me in?" She asked almost like she was pleading for her life. I felt a little heartbroken that none of us saw her side of the story like she wanted us to. I sighed and leaned forward towards the desk.
"You still have time to make this right Erin. I am not going to force you to do anything that you don't want to do. I want you to think about this clearly and soundly; listen to your heart..." I said trying to break through the wall that she built. She sat there quietly staring at the ground. I walked over and kneeled to her and looked her in the eyes. She was terrified and I didn't know what to do to make everything go away.
"Please Erin; you have to talk to me. I want to fix this... I want to make this right. But you have to let me in." I said and she dropped the blade and started crying. I think this was the first real emotion that she had let out since she became purely vampire. I grabbed her hand and she pulled back and stood up.
"I don't want to be a burden... I don't want to destroy anyone's life anymore... I feel so terrible" She said almost like she couldn't breathe. I slowly stood up making sure that she could see my hands at all times.
"Tell me what happened" I said taking the time to just listen to her. I knew that she was still on the nuclear side but she really needed to get it out and maybe just maybe I could get her to see that Zack never wanted to fully let her go... He needed her more than anything....
Izzy's P.O.V
I finally decided to go downstairs. I was calm and wanted to stay that way but at the same time a lot can happen in the time that I am trying to get calm. I walked downstairs and Jimmy was the only one in the living room. He had a serious look on his face which told me that he was waiting on something. I sat down next to him and he hugged me and then kissed my cheek.
"What happened?" I asked and he just buried his face into his hands. All of this was taking its toll on him... I know it was definitely hurting me.
"I know that you stabbed Erin... well you succeeded at turning her human... But there was complications after she returned to hell" He said trailing off and I knew that this was going to turn really dark... really fast.
"Just spit it out James... I seriously cannot take this fucking shit anymore... I just want my bestfriend back okay. So tell me everything" I said and Jimmy was taken off guard because I called him James. I usually just call him Jimmy or Jim-Jam but right now I really was nervous to hear about Erin and what all is happening.
"Well she got back to hell and I guess she outed Meaghan and Meaghan was the one who was holding Erin's angel side... so Erin killed Meaghan and stuck the blade into herself and went she reached Heaven.... She killed Sarah... And she is threatening Matt saying that she will take the blade to Papa Gates if in 30 minutes he can't convince her to come back to Zack. I have been waiting to hear something from Matt... But there is just nothing" Jimmy said.... Erin was evil... but I don't want to lose hope that my bestfriend would come back.
Erin's P.O.V
Confusion... Pain... Weakness.. Fear all swept over my body at once. I was massively turning to the dark side. All I wanted was for things to go back to the way that they used to be... before Jake found me and before Papa Gates completely drug me down. Fuck the blade... I didn't want to hurt anyone.. I leaned over Sarah and put my hand over her heart and concentrated.... thought of her eyes... her voice... the way she smiled... everything that I loved about my sister. My hands glowed and everything got really bright and after I heard her breathe again... I picked up the blade handing it to Matt.
"I don't want this anymore... I don't want anything.. Forgive me" I said softly and with that I returned myself to my body and gasped for air... I was once again back in hell. As soon as I saw Papa Gates fly through the door I ran into the huge bathroom. Everything was flashing before my eyes and I kept going from evil to good... evil to good. What did I fucking want to be! GOD ERIN FUCKING MAKE UP YOUR MIND! I stared at myself in the mirror and saw that my eyes were bright green and burning more than ever. I closed my eyes taking a really deep breath and then when I opened them again I decided that I needed to hear Zack out before making a final decision. I teleported away just as Papa Gates busted through the bathroom door. I ended up in the middle of the street and it was pouring outside... I was drenched and I just stood there feeling empty. I saw Zack sitting on the porch of his house in the rain. I couldn't help but cry and his head shot up and he saw me and studied me carefully. I still stood there unable to think or speak; I dropped to my knees unable to find the words to say to him how much I loved him. He ran over to me and picked me up and carried me inside and set me down and grabbed a towel. He wrapped it around me and tried to help me get warm because I was shivering.
"I-I don't have much time Zack" I said trying to keep myself from freaking out. I needed to see if it was even possible for the two of us to work this out at all. I could feel the want between the both of us... there was always a spark between us which made it harder to stay away from him.
"You let me go... How could you let me go so easily" I said quietly almost under my breath. He came up to me and hugged me tightly and then let go not trying to push anything on me.
"I didn't know what I was doing Erin. There was a lot going on and I broke down and my mind was just gone. I couldn't find the right words to say or even comprehend anything... I never wanted to lose you like that" He said and I could tell that me turning to the darkside hurt him more than anything. I dropped the towel and started pacing a little bit.
"You do realize that I have a breaking point too right? Because everything that is happening... is happening to me and it hurts me every second knowing that I screwed up everyone's life" I said and I started crying again. He ran over to me and kissed me roughly and I melted right into his arms. He backed me up till I was up against the wall for support. I kissed him back letting the kiss grow and grow until I realized that maybe we needed to stop. I pushed him a little and I gasped for air; he grabbed my chin forcing me to look at him.
"I am not going to let you get away Erin. You need to feel me... You need to see how I feel; please let me do this.. I need you so fucking badly Erin" He said and I kissed him again and his hands were all over my body. He lifted me so that my legs were around his waist and I was so far into him right now... but then it struck me that the longer I spent here.. the sooner Papa Gates would come and destroy everything again.... I pushed Zack away again and I dropped down out of oxygen.
"The longer I stay... the harder he is going to come at us... I can't let him destroy us.. I can't do it again. Let me go" I said and I felt myself becoming torn between two worlds... The evil in me was strong... The good in me was the best thing to ever happen to me... And then there was Zack who made my life better.. my heart better... he was my everything and that is why the evil had to overpower for now. I ran over and kissed him.
"I truly love you Zachary James Baker and I am so proud to have you in my life... What I am doing I am doing for us... I can't ever let you go to the full extent... Trust me?" I said softly and he sat there crying and stroking my face.
"You will always be Erin Baker... you are the love of my life... my wife... I trust you my love" He said and I put my lips to his ear.
"I need you to kill me" I whispered and he pulled away in shock....
Wondering what my master plan was...
But that was something that just needed to play out...
Notes
Erin has a master plan!She is taking everything on her own...
What will happen!?
JIMMY!!!
3/28/18