I Give my Heart to you on this Crimson Day
Chapter 42: Change is Good
Erin's P.O.V
These chains were covered in the same poison that the blade that killed me was covered in. I was literally sweating and cold and I felt nauseous and plain out tired. What were the guys thinking? How in the hell am I a fucking threat? I sat there for a while and then I heard yelling downstairs but it was really faint. I saw Jimmy run through the doors along with Brian. Jimmy looked shocked.
"BRIAN WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? YOU REMEMBER LAST TIME YOU MADE US USE THE CHAINS ON YOU?! YOU FUCKING TURNED YOUR BESTFRIEND!" Jimmy yelled and it boomed throughout the room and I jumped just a little because I felt so damn drained.
"Dude she has Papa Gates blood in her; she could turn to his side at any fucking minute!" Brian said loudly knowing not to get on Jimmy's bad side because when Jimmy was pissed you don't want to be around.
"You have his blood in you!!! YOU HAVE TO LET ME TAKE THESE OFF! She has a choice to be mainly angel just like you and Zack! She doesn't feel right because we have to help her get the good side to triumph.... You know that isn't easy out of all people. HOW LONG HAS SHE BEEN HERE?" Jimmy asked yelling at times but trying to keep his composure.
"Like 3 or 4 hours now" He said looking at me and realizing that he may have been wrong to do this. I sat there trying to just breathe and I was so thirsty.
"Dude look at what you are doing to her; go get Zack for fuck sakes" Jimmy said swatting Brian out of the room. He sat there for a moment staring at the floor and I just knew that he was not in a good mood at all. Zack came back up with Brian and before they came in the bedroom I could hear Zack complain that he didn't want to do this. They opened the door and Zack saw me and rushed over to me. I started crying because I was in pain and tired.
"I am a good person... I swear" I said hoarsely because of the state I was in.
"I am so sorry Erin; please undo the chains.... I know now that she is still herself... the love of my life... the woman I married" Zack said and then he kissed my forehead. Brian didn't move a muscle so Jimmy came over and he lifted the chains. I winced in pain as he took the chains off my skin but soon after felt relief because I knew that after a while things would heal. I hugged Jimmy and he held me securely.
"Can I have some water" I asked softly. Jimmy looked down at me and he almost seemed to be tearing up a little bit.
"Let's go get some" He said and I pulled back.
"No... Everyone hates me..." I trailed off feeling like everyone that I knew had turned their backs on me right now. Jimmy hugged me again and I could feel his heart beating really fast.
"Erin I promise that they don't hate you. They are all your friends" He said and I just pulled away and looked at Zack and Brian.
"Friends don't chain other friends with the same poison that was used to kill their friend" I said starting to really cry and I sat down on the bed and backed up to the back of the bed and just wanted to be alone right now.
"I will go get you some water sweetie; guys let's just give Erin some space right now" Jimmy said and they just kept looking at me.
"NOW" Jimmy boomed and they scurried out of the room. I sat there and rubbed the chain marks hoping that the poison wouldn't last that long. But the fact that they did this to me scarred me even more than that... How could they do this to me. After about 10 minutes Jimmy came back in the room with a glass of water and also a couple aspirins to ease the pain a little bit. He sat there and he seemed like he had calmed down a little bit but at the same time I knew that it was tearing him up on the inside.
"Can you go and get Izzy for me please; I think that us three need to talk" I said and he smiled and nodded and walked a little out of the room.
"Babe could you come up here please?" He called down and I heard her come up the stairs and when she got into the room she half smiled at me and then she sat down at the end of the bed. I sighed softly because I didn't want it to be this way.
"I wanted to talk... I don't like that you pulled away from me the way you did when we were downstairs... It really hurt me that you would back out because suddenly I feel different" I said and she teared up a little bit.
"But I am scared for you Erin. You have the king of hell's blood in your system and you don't think that somehow some way you are going to go off the deep end? I truly just don't know how to feel about this Erin.... I need some time" She said and every single word at the end felt like daggers.
"Iz.. honey you have to realize that yeah she feels different but that is because this is new to her. She has to embrace being an angel more than anything. The right feeling will come back but you have to tear down that wall that you are putting up and let the good in and not the bad... otherwise you are going to lose your bestfriend and I am sure that isn't what you want" Jimmy said moving the hair out of her face. She sighed and came a little closer to me and she ran her fingers over the marks that were now just starting to heal.
"I am so sorry Erin.... I will try and give this a chance and embrace that you are still the same person... my bestfriend. I will stand with you till the end" She said and I lunged and hugged her and I felt her smiling.
"There's the Erin that I remember" She said softly. We pulled from the hug and I got up and changed into a pair of leggings and a long Vengeance University tank top and I stood in front of the bedroom door.
"Is everyone down there?" I asked and Jimmy nodded. I opened the door and I walked towards the stairs. A few times I would back up a little but since Jimmy was behind me I knew that I couldn't go far. I walked down the stairs and everyone got quiet when they saw me. I looked over at Zack and I just paused not wanting to rush anything. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath embracing the good in me... not the killer in me. I opened my eyes and everyone did a double take and Jimmy pushed past me and looked at my eyes.
"Incredible..." He said and I just was flat out deeply and utterly confused.
"What?" I asked and Arin walked over to me.
"Your eyes... they went from dark to light in the blink of an eye... it was just amazing to watch... I am completely in shock" He said and he grabbed my arm and brought up my wrists and all of the sudden the markings from the chains faded away. I walked outside and it was really sunny out and I went from the shadow from my porch to the sunlight and I saw my hair trickle back to the light golden brown that it usually was. I turned around and saw Zack still in the shade. I smiled and put my hand out to him. He walked forward and grabbed my hand and I felt relieved and then he walked into the sun and I looked Zack right in the eyes.
"I am still here Zack; I am still the woman that you married" I said and he pulled me closer to him. He stroked my cheek and I kissed him lightly and he pulled away a little.
"Something wrong?" I asked softly.
"I am just so happy that it is you" He said and then he kissed me again. Everyone else ran outside and stood in the sun with us. I hugged Val who was really happy to see me.
"I wanna get some time with just the two of us Erin" She said which made me feel really good that she wanted to hangout and just be normal for once.
"I think that would be awesome" I said and she smiled really big. I got a mass amount of hugs from the other girls and they all talked about going shopping. Izzy came over and she playfully punched my arm.
"YOUR IT!!" She said playfully and everyone ran and I ran to Matt who had no idea that we were even playing and I punched his arm.
"NOW YOUR IT!!" I yelled and he lunged towards me but I bolted before he could get me. We all ran around and everyone had their turn at being it. After a while we all just grabbed some chairs and sat outside with the music playing and drinking some beers. Us girls were having fun gossiping.... I felt normal but something always comes up. I just wanted at least three days of being free and being a normal girl.
"So we have a show that we are going to be doing tomorrow" Matt said playfully to all the guys and they seemed really excited.
"When are we going to get Erin out on stage with us?" Brian asked trying to make up for what he had done. Believe me it was making me feel a little better but I really am not going to feel a 100% better after a couple hours or even a day.
"She should totally do some singing for one of the songs!!" Jimmy said loudly. I just laughed and was thinking about what song they would make me do.
"How about she can add her own unique vocals to some parts in Afterlife!!" Matt yelled loudly and I was in shock because I honestly always wanted to do Afterlife... it was a dream of mine. I shot up and really really was getting super excited.
"I WANNA DO IT!!" I called out and they all just laughed at me as I jumped up and down.
"LETS ALL GO GET DINNER US GIRLS ARE STARVING!" Lacy said loudly and every girl agreed. I was pretty hungry as well. We all got up and I threw on some black vans and grabbed my bag and we went down to a bar and grill that was on Main street. It was a really amazing place and we could be casual and just have a ton of fun. We sat down at this huge table and everyone was literally grabbing at the pitchers of beer. Zack grabbed it before I could and he poured some for me.
"You were never going to be able to grab it.... The guys are really big on beer. Took me years to learn how to get the beer especially around Christ over there" He said laughing and Johnny flipped him off and I just laughed. Throughout the night everyone was cracking jokes and we were having a blast. We all went home and relaxed. I found myself at Zack's because I was sure that Iz and Jimmy were going to fuck tonight. I got inside and I plopped down on the couch because I was exhausted. Zack put me on his lap and he passed out then and there and soon after I drifted into a unusually deep sleep.....
These chains were covered in the same poison that the blade that killed me was covered in. I was literally sweating and cold and I felt nauseous and plain out tired. What were the guys thinking? How in the hell am I a fucking threat? I sat there for a while and then I heard yelling downstairs but it was really faint. I saw Jimmy run through the doors along with Brian. Jimmy looked shocked.
"BRIAN WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? YOU REMEMBER LAST TIME YOU MADE US USE THE CHAINS ON YOU?! YOU FUCKING TURNED YOUR BESTFRIEND!" Jimmy yelled and it boomed throughout the room and I jumped just a little because I felt so damn drained.
"Dude she has Papa Gates blood in her; she could turn to his side at any fucking minute!" Brian said loudly knowing not to get on Jimmy's bad side because when Jimmy was pissed you don't want to be around.
"You have his blood in you!!! YOU HAVE TO LET ME TAKE THESE OFF! She has a choice to be mainly angel just like you and Zack! She doesn't feel right because we have to help her get the good side to triumph.... You know that isn't easy out of all people. HOW LONG HAS SHE BEEN HERE?" Jimmy asked yelling at times but trying to keep his composure.
"Like 3 or 4 hours now" He said looking at me and realizing that he may have been wrong to do this. I sat there trying to just breathe and I was so thirsty.
"Dude look at what you are doing to her; go get Zack for fuck sakes" Jimmy said swatting Brian out of the room. He sat there for a moment staring at the floor and I just knew that he was not in a good mood at all. Zack came back up with Brian and before they came in the bedroom I could hear Zack complain that he didn't want to do this. They opened the door and Zack saw me and rushed over to me. I started crying because I was in pain and tired.
"I am a good person... I swear" I said hoarsely because of the state I was in.
"I am so sorry Erin; please undo the chains.... I know now that she is still herself... the love of my life... the woman I married" Zack said and then he kissed my forehead. Brian didn't move a muscle so Jimmy came over and he lifted the chains. I winced in pain as he took the chains off my skin but soon after felt relief because I knew that after a while things would heal. I hugged Jimmy and he held me securely.
"Can I have some water" I asked softly. Jimmy looked down at me and he almost seemed to be tearing up a little bit.
"Let's go get some" He said and I pulled back.
"No... Everyone hates me..." I trailed off feeling like everyone that I knew had turned their backs on me right now. Jimmy hugged me again and I could feel his heart beating really fast.
"Erin I promise that they don't hate you. They are all your friends" He said and I just pulled away and looked at Zack and Brian.
"Friends don't chain other friends with the same poison that was used to kill their friend" I said starting to really cry and I sat down on the bed and backed up to the back of the bed and just wanted to be alone right now.
"I will go get you some water sweetie; guys let's just give Erin some space right now" Jimmy said and they just kept looking at me.
"NOW" Jimmy boomed and they scurried out of the room. I sat there and rubbed the chain marks hoping that the poison wouldn't last that long. But the fact that they did this to me scarred me even more than that... How could they do this to me. After about 10 minutes Jimmy came back in the room with a glass of water and also a couple aspirins to ease the pain a little bit. He sat there and he seemed like he had calmed down a little bit but at the same time I knew that it was tearing him up on the inside.
"Can you go and get Izzy for me please; I think that us three need to talk" I said and he smiled and nodded and walked a little out of the room.
"Babe could you come up here please?" He called down and I heard her come up the stairs and when she got into the room she half smiled at me and then she sat down at the end of the bed. I sighed softly because I didn't want it to be this way.
"I wanted to talk... I don't like that you pulled away from me the way you did when we were downstairs... It really hurt me that you would back out because suddenly I feel different" I said and she teared up a little bit.
"But I am scared for you Erin. You have the king of hell's blood in your system and you don't think that somehow some way you are going to go off the deep end? I truly just don't know how to feel about this Erin.... I need some time" She said and every single word at the end felt like daggers.
"Iz.. honey you have to realize that yeah she feels different but that is because this is new to her. She has to embrace being an angel more than anything. The right feeling will come back but you have to tear down that wall that you are putting up and let the good in and not the bad... otherwise you are going to lose your bestfriend and I am sure that isn't what you want" Jimmy said moving the hair out of her face. She sighed and came a little closer to me and she ran her fingers over the marks that were now just starting to heal.
"I am so sorry Erin.... I will try and give this a chance and embrace that you are still the same person... my bestfriend. I will stand with you till the end" She said and I lunged and hugged her and I felt her smiling.
"There's the Erin that I remember" She said softly. We pulled from the hug and I got up and changed into a pair of leggings and a long Vengeance University tank top and I stood in front of the bedroom door.
"Is everyone down there?" I asked and Jimmy nodded. I opened the door and I walked towards the stairs. A few times I would back up a little but since Jimmy was behind me I knew that I couldn't go far. I walked down the stairs and everyone got quiet when they saw me. I looked over at Zack and I just paused not wanting to rush anything. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath embracing the good in me... not the killer in me. I opened my eyes and everyone did a double take and Jimmy pushed past me and looked at my eyes.
"Incredible..." He said and I just was flat out deeply and utterly confused.
"What?" I asked and Arin walked over to me.
"Your eyes... they went from dark to light in the blink of an eye... it was just amazing to watch... I am completely in shock" He said and he grabbed my arm and brought up my wrists and all of the sudden the markings from the chains faded away. I walked outside and it was really sunny out and I went from the shadow from my porch to the sunlight and I saw my hair trickle back to the light golden brown that it usually was. I turned around and saw Zack still in the shade. I smiled and put my hand out to him. He walked forward and grabbed my hand and I felt relieved and then he walked into the sun and I looked Zack right in the eyes.
"I am still here Zack; I am still the woman that you married" I said and he pulled me closer to him. He stroked my cheek and I kissed him lightly and he pulled away a little.
"Something wrong?" I asked softly.
"I am just so happy that it is you" He said and then he kissed me again. Everyone else ran outside and stood in the sun with us. I hugged Val who was really happy to see me.
"I wanna get some time with just the two of us Erin" She said which made me feel really good that she wanted to hangout and just be normal for once.
"I think that would be awesome" I said and she smiled really big. I got a mass amount of hugs from the other girls and they all talked about going shopping. Izzy came over and she playfully punched my arm.
"YOUR IT!!" She said playfully and everyone ran and I ran to Matt who had no idea that we were even playing and I punched his arm.
"NOW YOUR IT!!" I yelled and he lunged towards me but I bolted before he could get me. We all ran around and everyone had their turn at being it. After a while we all just grabbed some chairs and sat outside with the music playing and drinking some beers. Us girls were having fun gossiping.... I felt normal but something always comes up. I just wanted at least three days of being free and being a normal girl.
"So we have a show that we are going to be doing tomorrow" Matt said playfully to all the guys and they seemed really excited.
"When are we going to get Erin out on stage with us?" Brian asked trying to make up for what he had done. Believe me it was making me feel a little better but I really am not going to feel a 100% better after a couple hours or even a day.
"She should totally do some singing for one of the songs!!" Jimmy said loudly. I just laughed and was thinking about what song they would make me do.
"How about she can add her own unique vocals to some parts in Afterlife!!" Matt yelled loudly and I was in shock because I honestly always wanted to do Afterlife... it was a dream of mine. I shot up and really really was getting super excited.
"I WANNA DO IT!!" I called out and they all just laughed at me as I jumped up and down.
"LETS ALL GO GET DINNER US GIRLS ARE STARVING!" Lacy said loudly and every girl agreed. I was pretty hungry as well. We all got up and I threw on some black vans and grabbed my bag and we went down to a bar and grill that was on Main street. It was a really amazing place and we could be casual and just have a ton of fun. We sat down at this huge table and everyone was literally grabbing at the pitchers of beer. Zack grabbed it before I could and he poured some for me.
"You were never going to be able to grab it.... The guys are really big on beer. Took me years to learn how to get the beer especially around Christ over there" He said laughing and Johnny flipped him off and I just laughed. Throughout the night everyone was cracking jokes and we were having a blast. We all went home and relaxed. I found myself at Zack's because I was sure that Iz and Jimmy were going to fuck tonight. I got inside and I plopped down on the couch because I was exhausted. Zack put me on his lap and he passed out then and there and soon after I drifted into a unusually deep sleep.....
Notes
Alright so it isn't that long or that great and I am so sorry for that...Next chapter should be really awesome!!!
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3/28/18