I left Brian's hotel room after what happened between us. I walked through the city and back to my dorm room. I was dreading seeing Josie but I just shrugged it off, if there's one thing I'm good at it, that one thing was ignoring people. Silence is my favorite thing. Besides, I had an essay to write on the Berlin Wall anyhow so I would be buried in homework and notes.

I walked through the dim day, it was raining lightly. Dreary is the way to describe it. I walked with my arms across my chest and my head down, watching my feet.

I eventually made it back to my dorm room. Thankfully, Josie wasn't here. I plopped myself down on my bed and began the second thing i'm good at; procrastination. I pulled out my journal and began writing. Seeing Matt's letter in the front brought a slight smile to my face. I took out a pen and began filling the page with thoughts.

Wow, it's been a while since I've written in here. A lot has happened. Matt and I broke up, well technically, but we're good now… hopefully. I started college. Northeastern, the college mom and dad wanted me to go to. I have a suckish roommate, Josie is her name. Today was interesting, Brian and I shared what you could consider a very intimate moment. We decided that we wouldn't tell anyone of what had happened between us though and we decided that was as far as we would ever go. I knew that was only a 'for now' deal because if Matt decided to break up with me somewhere down the road I knew Brian would be my shoulder to cry on and inevitably we would end up together because of a little phenomena called fate. Although I hope and I mean truly hope everything between Matt and I will work out because I really do love him. I didn't regret what happened between Brian and I though, not one bit. I felt something. It wasn't a spark like when I kiss Matt but it was something else. Something comforting and pleasant. I'm trying to ignore it but everything I recall the event I get butterflies in my stomach. Wow wow wow am I procrastinating. Time to write a paper on the Berlin Wall… Until next time… if there is one, see ya.

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The week faded away, I said goodbye to Brian at the airport. It was nothing more than a hug thankfully. I spent most of my time in classes and the rest of my free time studying because I had nothing better to do. The weeks slowly faded by, one after another. I ignored Josie for most of them, and she stayed out of my way. Whenever we made eye contact I gave her a death glare. I wasn't even mad at her I just wanted to show her that i'm not someone to fuck with. The weeks continued to pass until finally the Saturday before Thanksgiving came.

The saturday I got to fly to California.

The day I get to see Matt.

My flight was at 5 in the evening so I would arrive in Huntington at about 7 or so. I woke up the morning of, with butterflies in my stomach. I guess I was nervous with how things were going to go with Matt. I packed my bags, making sure to bring everything I would need. I spent most of the day sitting on my computer, watching the time slowly tick away, the same way I spent all of my days. I have a boring life. I decided to leave early, so that I would have enough time and I figured an airport was a more interesting place to hang out than a boring old dorm room.

I took the MBTA to Logan Airport. I made my way though security, luckily none of the lines were too long. I made my way through the hallways before I finally made it to the Jet Blue gate, the same gate I came to when I was 13 and I went to San Francisco with my mom and dad.

Hours later, I boarded my plane and was headed to California.

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I made it to the airport. I was super tired and barley functioning. I had told Brian to meet me at the gate if he could. I didn't see him but I noticed a familiar figure. His back was facing my direction. He was tall, had a buzz cut, wore black jeans and a black jacket. It was Matt. I slowly walked up behind him, not sure what I was going to do. In my head I fantasized jumping on his back and having him pick me up and spin me in circles, but then I realized that god forbid it's not Matt, I wouldn't want to give a stranger a heart attack.

I slowed my steps and breathed slowly. My heart was racing. I tapped his shoulder. Sure enough, it was Matt. He turned around and our eyes met. I smiled slightly, as did he.

We stood there for a second before he opened his arms and I dropped my bags and jumped into his embrace. He hugged me tightly. I felt a tear roll down my face. He leaned back so that my feet weren't touching the ground. I felt a tear touch my face but it wasn't mine. He was crying as well.

Matt pulled away, but kept me close to him. He brought his hand to my face and wiped away a tear that was cascading down my cheek. I sniffled and smiled.

"I missed you so much" Matt whispered. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me into his embrace again.

"I missed you too" I whispered in his ear. I felt him kiss my head softly.

He picked up my luggage for me before we started walking out of the airport. My hand found his, and our fingers intertwined, just like the first time we met. We walked out into the parking garage. I shivered slightly at the cold breeze that swirled around us. Matt wrapped his arm and pulled me close to him.

"I missed this" Matt sighed.

"What?" I laughed, curious as to what he was going to say.

"Having you by my side" Matt smiled.

"Because I'm just that great" I said sarcastically.

"You are Morgan and I like everyone knowing that you're mine because…" Matt started to say.

"Because what" I teased.

"Because I think you're the most beautiful girl in the entire world." Matt stopped walking, and looked deeply into my eyes. I looked deeply into his.

"Oh, Matt" I whispered.

Matt slowly brought his face closer to mine as if asking for permission to kiss me which I liked, but I didn't mind picking up the pace. I placed my lips on his, as he pushed his lips against mine.
And in that airport Parking Garage Matt and I shared the most passionate kiss our relationship had ever seen and it was perfect.

"Well, I missed that" I smirked and laughed slightly. Matt laughed as well.

We eventually made it to his car and headed to his house.

As we drove up his driveway, I cringed slightly, recalling the events that had taken place the last time I was there. I could see he had the same look on his face. I shrugged it off as best as I could though.

Once we were in front of his house, Matt got out of the car first them he opened my side. He took my hand as I got out and led me inside. Yet again, I felt my self cringing. I walked through his living room and made my way up to his bedroom, with him following behind me. I put my suitcase against the wall and awkwardly sat down on his bed, he sat next to me.

"So..." Matt said softly.

"So, you read my journal?" I teased.

Matt shyly laughed, "Yeah, sorry"

"It's fine" I sighed, "I had already told you pretty much everything that was in there"

"Yeah... I love your writing though" Matt admitted.

"Really?!" I was shocked.

"Yeah, it's so... I don't know, unique I guess, I love reading it" Matt explained.

"Wow, thanks... It's basically what goes through my mind... nothing special." I laughed, "So you know about Brian and I?"

"Yeah... reading those pages wasn't too much fun" Matt looked down, I could see the sadness on his face.

"I'm sorry" I blurted out, before resting my head on his shoulder.

"It's okay" Matt sighed, "We all make mistakes"

"Theres something you should know" I began slowly as I took my head off of his shoulder.

Matt's eyes widened, as he waited for my answer.

"Last month, uhm Brian and I... well Brian kissed me...." I spoke softly. I was scared that he was going to start yelling at me like before.

"He... He what?" Matt spoke as softly as ever. He put his head down in his hands and began shaking it from side to side while mumbling no over and over again.

"It didn't mean anything.. I-I swear" I stuttered.

"I know, it's okay." Matt sighed as he looked into my eyes. His hazel eyes were glossy. I felt a stab to my heart, "Look, Morgan I trust you and I trust that you can put what happened between you and Brian behind you if things work out between us"

"I will" I mumbled, as I looked down at my hands. I felt Matt's arm wrap around me. I loved being in his embrace, it made me feel safe which was one of the best feelings ever. I debated about what to say next. I thought about what Matt had just said; if things work out between us. I hated that if. I hate the word if because it never meant anything good.

"Matt, theres something else I need to tell you..." I began, not sure exactly how I was going to explain this story.

"I'm listening" Matt said sweetly, as he turned his body towards me and gave me his full attention. I felt myself blushing as Matt's hand found mine and we intertwined fingers.

"Well, I don't know how to say this-" I said shyly as a tear fell from my face. This particular subject I never like to talk about... and I never actually talked about it with anyone except for Matt because I was so ashamed of it.

"It's okay" Matt cooed as he wiped the tear from my eye, "Just say it, it's me" He encouraged.

Notes

Sorry it's been so long :(... again :P Ugh school is so unfair ahah :')
Enjoy this chapter, I should have another one up sometime soon, since I don't want to leave you guys on a cliffhanger.
Feedback is wanted! :)