Fate Exposed
Chapter 6
I sat there for a moment while staring into Matt's eyes. They were full of concern yet had a sweetness to them.
"Matt, I made a promise to you... Last summer... And I broke it" I forced out.
"What promise?" Matt's face dropped.
"I told you, I wouldn't self harm anymore, and I did and I'm sorry" I pushed out, regretting every ounce of what I said. I hated admitting to self harm. I hated self harming, but I couldn't control it, my mind just takes over my action and what's done is done.
Matt looked at me, his eyes became watery. I could see a year stream down my face. I choked back the tears that were forming in the back of my throat.
"Morgan" Matt whispered as he moved closer to me before wrapping his arms around me. I moved towards him, and buried my face in his chest. The tears came, one my one. I tried with all my night to hold them back but it was impossible.
"Shh" Matt cooed, "its okay."
I trembled slightly before moving away from him. I looked directly into his eyes. He placed his hand on my face and wiped the tears from my eyes.
"Where did you... You know" Matt choked on his own words.
I rolled down the hem of my pants, revealing the numerous slashes on my upper thighs.
Matt looked horrified, which made me feel awful. He brought his hand to my thigh and gently touched the wounds.
"Oh, Morgan" was all he was capable of saying.
"See, Matt, it's not okay. I hate the fact that I self harm, I hate the fact that I can't control it." I admitted, somewhat shocked at the words pouring out of my mouth. It was a rarity when I opened up to people, but if there was one person I was going to be open with, it was Matt.
"I hate it too" Matt sighed, "I hate knowing that your purposefully hurting yourself, someone as beautiful as you doesn't deserve that pain"
"But I do" I mumbled.
"Don't say that" Matt said firmly, "you don't"
I sighed, tears continued to stream down my face and Matt continued to wipe them away. I rested my head on his shoulder hoping that he could comfort me in some way.
"Morgan, everyone faces some difficult situation in life and this is one of yours and if you want to get over it... then I'm goin to be right here with you every step of the way and I'll support you nomatter what" Matt gushed.
"I just..."
"Just what?"
"I hate having the scars"
Matt cupped my face in his hands and brought it close to his. I looked into his eyes.
"They're not scars, they're battle wounds" Matt half smiled. I smiled at the thought in my kid but couldn't find the emotion within me to form a smile on my face. I nodded, as the tears poured down my face. I was so emotionally unstable I couldn't stand it.
"Everything's going to work out" Matt reassured me as he planted a kiss on my forehead.
"I love you" I whispered into his chest.
"I love you so much" Matt whispered back, "my beautiful Morgan"
I loved hearing those words. They made me melt inside. Whenever he send them to me it felt as though a shock was sent though my heart and a bunch of butterflies were flying through my stomach. It was a feeling that words could describe, but it was a nice feeling.
I sat in Matt's arms as my crying came to an end.
I looked over at the clock on his nightstand. It was already 11pm, and I was exhausted.
I slowly got up, Matt watched me as I got up and wandered over to his bed. I pulled down the duvet and climbed in. Matt followed my actions and did the same on the otherside. I turned towards him and buried my face in his chest as he wrapped his strong arms around my small frame. I loved being in his embrace. I felt Matt place a kiss on the top of my head, a smile immediatley grew across my face. I looked up at him, he smiled down at me.
"I'm the luckiest man alive" He muttered.
"and I'm the luckiest girl" I responded as I pushed my lips onto his. I pulled away quicker than I had wanted but I was reminded that we still aren't technically dating. Although that's arguable, because we technically never broke up.
I fell asleep to the sound of his breathing end enjoyed how relieved I felt to finally be back in his arms; were I belong.
***Morgan's dream***
I left Matt's house to go for a walk on the beach. The sun had just risen and the sky was a gloomy and surreal grey color. I walked for about an hour before turning around and heading back to Matt's house.
When I got to his house I noticed a car that wasn't his parked in the drie way. I thought nothing of it.
I walked into the house, to see Matt making out with someone on the couch. I couldn't quite make out who it was though. My heart sunk. I couldn't believe my eyes. What the fuck was happening.
"Matt?" I said, my voice full of fear.
Matt turned around and looked at me with a sly grin.
The mystery girl got up from the couch and walked over. I recognized her, it was Josie. She too had a devilish grin on her face.
I felt my knees feeling weeks and my vision began to get blurry.
"This can't be happening" I placed my hands on my temples and shook my self out of it.
"Karma" Josie antagonized.
I gave her a confused look, then I looked at Matt who had the same smirk on his face with his arms folded across his chest.
"You were cheating on Brian and Matt, this is what you get" Josie mused maniacally.
"I wasn't charing on anyone!" I yelled back at her.
"Sure" Matt said sarcastically.
I stood there, trembling. The tears began flowing down my face. Josie began walking towards me. She roughly grabbed my arm and pulled me towards the kitchen.
Thoughts started racing through my head, mostly thoughts of when I had gotten stabbed.
I noticed a knife laying out on the counter and I didn't hesitate to grab it.
"Don't think about doing anything" I yelled at Josie, as I held the knife out in front of my body.
"So that's the game you want to okay?" Josie growled, as she snatched the knife from my hand and held it across my neck. My breathing became fast. I yelled for Matt, and I yelled for anyone who could hear me..
***
"MORGAN!" I awoke to Matt yelling my name in my ear.
My eyes fluttered open to meets Matt's concerned face.
"Huh?" I groaned as I came to life. I could feel dried tears against my face.
"You've been yelling, and breathin heavily for the past 10 minutes" Matt explained to me as he brought his hand to my face to move some strands of hair out of the way.
I suddenly recalled the dream that I was having.
"Oh my god" I moaned as I leaned forward into his chest. I grabbed his shirt, his grip instantly tightened around me.
"You were dating my roommate." I said in disgust, "Matthew Charles Sanders, promise me you will never date Josie"
"I promise, Morgan Jayde" Matt said contently
His hands traced circles on my back as I fell asleep once again; this time into a peaceful sleep.
"Matt, I made a promise to you... Last summer... And I broke it" I forced out.
"What promise?" Matt's face dropped.
"I told you, I wouldn't self harm anymore, and I did and I'm sorry" I pushed out, regretting every ounce of what I said. I hated admitting to self harm. I hated self harming, but I couldn't control it, my mind just takes over my action and what's done is done.
Matt looked at me, his eyes became watery. I could see a year stream down my face. I choked back the tears that were forming in the back of my throat.
"Morgan" Matt whispered as he moved closer to me before wrapping his arms around me. I moved towards him, and buried my face in his chest. The tears came, one my one. I tried with all my night to hold them back but it was impossible.
"Shh" Matt cooed, "its okay."
I trembled slightly before moving away from him. I looked directly into his eyes. He placed his hand on my face and wiped the tears from my eyes.
"Where did you... You know" Matt choked on his own words.
I rolled down the hem of my pants, revealing the numerous slashes on my upper thighs.
Matt looked horrified, which made me feel awful. He brought his hand to my thigh and gently touched the wounds.
"Oh, Morgan" was all he was capable of saying.
"See, Matt, it's not okay. I hate the fact that I self harm, I hate the fact that I can't control it." I admitted, somewhat shocked at the words pouring out of my mouth. It was a rarity when I opened up to people, but if there was one person I was going to be open with, it was Matt.
"I hate it too" Matt sighed, "I hate knowing that your purposefully hurting yourself, someone as beautiful as you doesn't deserve that pain"
"But I do" I mumbled.
"Don't say that" Matt said firmly, "you don't"
I sighed, tears continued to stream down my face and Matt continued to wipe them away. I rested my head on his shoulder hoping that he could comfort me in some way.
"Morgan, everyone faces some difficult situation in life and this is one of yours and if you want to get over it... then I'm goin to be right here with you every step of the way and I'll support you nomatter what" Matt gushed.
"I just..."
"Just what?"
"I hate having the scars"
Matt cupped my face in his hands and brought it close to his. I looked into his eyes.
"They're not scars, they're battle wounds" Matt half smiled. I smiled at the thought in my kid but couldn't find the emotion within me to form a smile on my face. I nodded, as the tears poured down my face. I was so emotionally unstable I couldn't stand it.
"Everything's going to work out" Matt reassured me as he planted a kiss on my forehead.
"I love you" I whispered into his chest.
"I love you so much" Matt whispered back, "my beautiful Morgan"
I loved hearing those words. They made me melt inside. Whenever he send them to me it felt as though a shock was sent though my heart and a bunch of butterflies were flying through my stomach. It was a feeling that words could describe, but it was a nice feeling.
I sat in Matt's arms as my crying came to an end.
I looked over at the clock on his nightstand. It was already 11pm, and I was exhausted.
I slowly got up, Matt watched me as I got up and wandered over to his bed. I pulled down the duvet and climbed in. Matt followed my actions and did the same on the otherside. I turned towards him and buried my face in his chest as he wrapped his strong arms around my small frame. I loved being in his embrace. I felt Matt place a kiss on the top of my head, a smile immediatley grew across my face. I looked up at him, he smiled down at me.
"I'm the luckiest man alive" He muttered.
"and I'm the luckiest girl" I responded as I pushed my lips onto his. I pulled away quicker than I had wanted but I was reminded that we still aren't technically dating. Although that's arguable, because we technically never broke up.
I fell asleep to the sound of his breathing end enjoyed how relieved I felt to finally be back in his arms; were I belong.
***Morgan's dream***
I left Matt's house to go for a walk on the beach. The sun had just risen and the sky was a gloomy and surreal grey color. I walked for about an hour before turning around and heading back to Matt's house.
When I got to his house I noticed a car that wasn't his parked in the drie way. I thought nothing of it.
I walked into the house, to see Matt making out with someone on the couch. I couldn't quite make out who it was though. My heart sunk. I couldn't believe my eyes. What the fuck was happening.
"Matt?" I said, my voice full of fear.
Matt turned around and looked at me with a sly grin.
The mystery girl got up from the couch and walked over. I recognized her, it was Josie. She too had a devilish grin on her face.
I felt my knees feeling weeks and my vision began to get blurry.
"This can't be happening" I placed my hands on my temples and shook my self out of it.
"Karma" Josie antagonized.
I gave her a confused look, then I looked at Matt who had the same smirk on his face with his arms folded across his chest.
"You were cheating on Brian and Matt, this is what you get" Josie mused maniacally.
"I wasn't charing on anyone!" I yelled back at her.
"Sure" Matt said sarcastically.
I stood there, trembling. The tears began flowing down my face. Josie began walking towards me. She roughly grabbed my arm and pulled me towards the kitchen.
Thoughts started racing through my head, mostly thoughts of when I had gotten stabbed.
I noticed a knife laying out on the counter and I didn't hesitate to grab it.
"Don't think about doing anything" I yelled at Josie, as I held the knife out in front of my body.
"So that's the game you want to okay?" Josie growled, as she snatched the knife from my hand and held it across my neck. My breathing became fast. I yelled for Matt, and I yelled for anyone who could hear me..
***
"MORGAN!" I awoke to Matt yelling my name in my ear.
My eyes fluttered open to meets Matt's concerned face.
"Huh?" I groaned as I came to life. I could feel dried tears against my face.
"You've been yelling, and breathin heavily for the past 10 minutes" Matt explained to me as he brought his hand to my face to move some strands of hair out of the way.
I suddenly recalled the dream that I was having.
"Oh my god" I moaned as I leaned forward into his chest. I grabbed his shirt, his grip instantly tightened around me.
"You were dating my roommate." I said in disgust, "Matthew Charles Sanders, promise me you will never date Josie"
"I promise, Morgan Jayde" Matt said contently
"Thank you" I sighed.
"Besides, I wouldn't want to date anyone but you" Matt mused.
A wide smile grew on my face as he placed a quick kiss on my lips. I began thinking about the dream again and I was suddenly reminded of how it ended. I shivered at the thought, and moved closer to Matt.
"You okay?" Matt mumbled.
"Yeah, it's just.. I was thinking about Andrew… and…"
His hands traced circles on my back as I fell asleep once again; this time into a peaceful sleep.
Notes
im.so.sorry.I said i was going to update soon and it's almost been a week. omg :O
school has literally consumed my life. ugh
So sorry for the wait, I'll probably post another chapter this weekend, not sure :P
Feedback is wanted :)
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