Once we got home Matt went downstairs and I made my way upstairs to change into some sweatpants and a tshirt. Although I heard Matt saying those things about me, part of me didn't believe him, mostly because of the fact that whenever I made myself believe something i partially denied it as well. I walked over to my bag at the end of Matt's bed and pulled out my journal and attacked the page with words.

Today. This is going to be a semi-boring journal entry considering the fact that I'm writing this down so I never forget these words and when I do, I'll have them in here to look at. Today Matt introduced me to his parents and I overheard him and his dad talking. Eavesdropping I know, it's nosy. I overheard Matt explaining to his dad how he wants to Marry me and that he's thinks I'm the one. I knew Matt loved me but marriage. Marriage as in giving away your heart to someone. As in not havin to worry about finding someone to love. As in being set for the rest of your life. Marriage. Part of me knows I would always get married, but there's another part of me that denied it. I mean I'm a pessimist so denying things is my nature. But he said the words; I think she's the one and I want to marry her. I don't know wht it is about the thought of marriage but it makes me feel really comfortable. Wow. That's an awful word to describe my feelings towards marriage but it makes sense; it's comfortable because then I'm set for life. I just hope Matt is willing to wait 6 years for me to marry him because if my parents had 1 rule it was: don't get married before your 25. I agree with them, and of course I will do anything to make them happy. There's scientific reasoning behind their request though; the human brain is not fully grown until you're 25, the part that is still growing in it until your 25 is the part that helps you to make decisions. So, point said. There ya have it. Wow. Goodbye. Oh and this time, I really hope my theory is wrong.

I closed my journal and ran my fingers around the worn out edges. It was fraying on one side. On the front were various drawings and words. Whenever I was bored I would take out the journal and draw or write in it, let's just say I've been bored alot in the 19 years of my life. As I stared at my journal I felt someone sit down next to me; Matt.

"Hey, whatcha writing?" He mumbled into my ear as he kissed the side of my head.

"Nothing" I smiled as I threw the journal into my bag.

"Can I read it?" Matt smirked.

"Not yet," I smiled.

Matt seemed slightly disappointed but brushed it off quickly.

"So, can we talk about something" Matt began.

"Yes" I said quietly, not sure what Matt would say.

"You heard my dad and I talking in the garage today?"

I nodded my head.

"So you heard what I said?" He asked.

"Yes." I nodded.

"About marriage?" He continued his question.

"I believe so, I mean I could of heard you wrong but as-"

"Morgan I want to marry you" Matt cut me off suddenly. My heart starte beating faster as he said it, of course I already knew this but him saying it to me made it seem real.

"You do?" I asked, "like you really do?"

"Yes Morgan, I do. Ever since we started dating I honestly can't picture myself with anyone else. You're perfect for me and I know you don't think this but your perfect in every possible way and your more than I could ever ask for." He mused.

"Matt, I'm speechless" I said truthfully.

Matt just smiled.

"Matt, I want to marry you too but you realize I'm only 19, right" I sighed.

"Of course, I can wait for you" he smirked.

"I hope you're willing to wait 6 years then" I admitted.

"Really?" Matt said cautiously.

"Yes" I said flatly.

"So that would make you 25, why do you want to get married then?"

"My parents didn't want me getting married before then" I said softly.

"Oh" Matt exhaled, "6 years isn't that long and I'm willing to wait, I know you want to make your parents happy and I do to."

I smiled, "I'm so lucky"

"Nah I'm luckier" Matt said as he pulled me into a hug.

***


I woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. I leaned my odd over to the nightstand to see who it was; Brian was calling me.

“Hello” I answered groggily, as I positioned myself so that I was sitting on the side of the bed.

“Hi, You sound like you woke up” Brian observed.

“Well, I did.” I sighed.

“You sleep late, but sorry, i’m gonna get to the point before this gets anymore awkward, do you wanna hang out today?” He rushed out.

“It’s only awkward if you make it awkward, Brian and yes I would love to” I smiled as I talked to him, although of course he couldn’t see me.

“Okay, i’ll pick you up in a few” He sounded happy.

I hung up my phone and grabbed some clothes out of my bag; a pair of jeans and a long sleeve black shirt. When I got up to make my way tot he bathroom I noticed that Matt was already up, I do sleep late.

Once I had dressed I grabbed my doc martens and went downstairs, Matt was in the kitchen as I had expected.

“Look who’s up” Matt smiled.

I walked over to him and sat down on his lap before placing my lips on his. I pulled away and and looked into his hazel eyes. Matt moved his hands onto my hips before he muttered,“That will never get old”

“I know” I smiled, as I got up to get a drink of water, “Hey so heads up, i’m going out with Brian today”

“Why?” Matt asked.

“‘cause he’s my friend and I want to see him” I replied.

“Wouldn’t you rather be with me?” He pleaded as he got up and hugged me from behind.
“Nope” I said sarcastically. Matt pretended to be surprised before i continued, “I’m just kidding”

A knock was heard at the door when Matt said, “I know, have fun”

Matt kissed me on my lips before I rushed outside. Brian was standing on the front step as I opened the door.

“Hey!” He greeted me as he pulled me into a hug.

“Hey yourself, so what are we doing today?” I smiled.

“I don’t know, I have a few ideas.” Brian told me, “I like your boots”

“Oh hey I like yours too” I said as I observed his doc martens.

Brian and I drove off in his car until we reached a park.

“Welcome to Central park” Brian announced as he got out of the car. We walked on a path into the depths of the park, no one was there and it was actually rather peaceful. It was an overcast day and there was a briskness to the air.

“I like it here” I smiled as we walked.

“I knew you would,” Brian smiled as he attempted to light a cigarette, “So what’s been happening in the life of Morgan?”

“A lot actually, you picked a good time to ask me that” I chuckled.

“Oh, what’s happening” Brian said cautiously.

“Yesterday, Matt took me to meet his parents” I told Brian as we sat down on a bench.

“…and how was that?” He smirked.

“Good actually, but while I was there I overheard Matt saying some pretty intense stuff. Sorry, intense isn’t that great of a word for describing this” I laughed.

“What did Matt say now? Do I have to go personally beat him up for you?” Brian said defensively.

“No, that’s not it, he told his dad he wants to marry me” I said softly, “Then later last night I asked him and he told me it to my face”

“Morgan, that’s good news! I’m happy for you” Brian smiled widely.

“yeah” I sighed.

“Okay, why do you sound like that?” Brian teased.

“I don’t know, it’s just I don’t want to rush our relationship. I mean, I told Matt I didn’t want to actually marry him until I was 25.” I admitted.

‘Why 25?” Brian questioned.

“My parents told me not to get married before then” I mumbled.

“Oh” Brian exhaled, “Does Matt know that?”

I nodded my head.

“Morgan, Matt’s a really loyal man and I know that he’ll wait for you and do what is best for you.” Brian explained as he put his arm around me. I leaned into him, enjoying the comfort that he was giving me.

“I know” I sighed, “it’s just I don’t want to think to far ahead because whenever I do it always comes back to bite me”

“Maybe this will be the one thing that doesn’t” Brian sounded optimistic.

“Life isn’t exactly fair” I spoke realistically.

“Maybe this will be the one thing that is though, I know your life hasn’t been fair but sometimes life can be good” Brian tried to persuade me.

“I wish I had your optimism” I sighed as I rested my head on his shoulder.

“I’m not even that optimistic” Brian laughed, “Thanks, but really Morgan, this is fate talking to you. Please tell me you believe in fate?”

“Of course I do”

“You and Matt are meant to be together. When Matt and Val broke up, he thought that was the end for him, in terms of relationships and life. Then he met you in an alleyway for god sakes and if that’s not fate then I don’t know what is” Brian smiled as he finished his sentence by taking a drag from his cigarette.

“Thank you, I needed to hear that” I smiled.

Brian leaned in to kiss my forehead as he whispered to me, “That’s what friends are for”
“I guess so” I smiled.

“Trust me on this one, everything will work out for you and Matt. He is madly in love with you”

“I hope so”

“I know so”

We sat there on the park bench, staring out into the woods for a few minutes before Brian brought up a topic that I hadn’t talked about in a while; my social life.

“So what about you friends back home and stuff?” Brian asked me.

“What about ‘em?” I asked back.

“I don’t want this to come off as harsh but, do you have any?” Brian said carefully.

“Brian, although I may seem socially awkward, if you will, I am not” I defended myself.

“Okay that’s not what i’m trying to get at, let me rephrase this, who are your friends?” He asked me again.

“I’ve never had a lot of friends, I’ve always been the type of person to have a close group of friends rather than a bunch. Growing up my best friend was a girl named Taryn, but there’s also Alex and Sam.” I explained, “After my parents died though, I still talked to them and hung out with them but considerably less because of the fact that I was falling into the deep, dark hole of depression.”

“Oh” Brian sounded sad, “So do you still talk to them?”

“A little, college has been really busy for me so I don’t get the time” I sighed.

“What about your social life in terms of relationships?” Brian continued.

“Hell” I said honestly.

“it’s okay if you don’t wanna talk about it” Brian told me.

“It’s okay, I don’t mind telling you.”

Brian nodded his head before I continued, “I had one boyfriend before Matt, his name was Jason. I was head over heels for him. He was the quarterback of the football team, a baseball player, the guy that ever girl liked. He was perfect, and one day he randomly started talking to me.” I began to say, “Now, I wasn’t the type of girl that he would normally talk to but I didn’t care, I liked talking to him. A few weeks passed of us walking to class together, sitting together at lunch and talking until he finally asked me out.”

Tears had started streaming down my face at this point. This story never got any less painful to tell.

“It’s okay” Brian whispered.

“So anyways, we started dating me and I was gullible enough to think that he actually liked me. Brian, Jason only dated me to hook up with me.” I finished quickly.

“Morgan, god, I didn’t know that. I’m so sorry” Brian said sympathetically.

I nodded.

The day went on. Brian and I talked, and enjoyed each others company. He took me out to lunch and it was actually really nice. It was a great day all in all.

Notes

Wow. i’m horrible. two weeks since an update? Im so sorry, like genuinely sorry. I’ve actually been writing this chapter for the past 2 weeks but i’ve been drowning in school work. school fucking sucks. i have like 8 hours of homework every night and its ridiculous. i hope you guys like his update, its a filler ;P so i apologize for that. hopefully i’ll be able to update more frequently considering that i get part of next week of for thxgiving.

feedback is wanted :))