The rest of my days in California were spent with the guys; hanging out, going to Johnny's, walking aroud Huntington and just enjoyin each others company. I loved it, and I never wanted to leave but sadly school has to come first in my life and my short break from college was over. On Sunday I flew back to Boston. In a way it was okay though because Matt was flying back with me.

"Are you excited to go back?" Matt mumbled in my ear as he kissed the side of my head.

I looked out the window of the airplane at the sky which was a ominous grey color.

"You could say that" I sighed as I rested my head on Matt's shoulder, "I'll miss you too much"

A smiled grew on Matt's face, "you know I'll miss you more"

I soon close my eyes as the plane ascended into the sky. I drifted into a deep sleep.

~~~

"Morgan" Matt whispered.

My eyes fluttered open. I looked to my side to see the skyline of Boston coming to view.

"We're here" Matt moved a piece of hair out of my face and moved it behind my ear.

Matt and I disembarked off the plane, got our luggage and made our way to the nearest Tstation. On our way there we encountered an Avenged Sevenfold fan when we heard her scream from across the airport, "OH MY GOD you're M. shadows!"

Matt, being the humble person he was walked right over to her and had her a hug.

"You must be a fan" He noticed her loss for words.

The girl actually reminded me of me.

"Y-yes" She managed to get out thought she was completely starstruck, "will you take a picture with me"

"Of course" Matt smiled.

"I'll take it" I smiled. I gladly took the girls phone and took a picture of them together. I loved how sweet Matt was the his fans. He looke genuinely happy in the picture. He wasn't just smiling to smile, he had is handsome smile plastered across his face and he didn't hesitate to wrap his arm around the girl.

"Thank you so much" the girl said.

"You're more than welcome, thank you for being a fan" Matt spoke truly.

"Thanks for taking the picture" the girl said to me as I handed her the phone, "what's your name?"

"This is my girlfriend, Morgan" Matt said proudly.

"Yes, I'm Morgan. It's nice to meet you" I smiled.

Our conversation ended when the girls mom called her.

"You're awesome" I said to Matt.

He wrapped his arm around me and smiled. I leaned into him an continued to say, "you're so sweet to your fans, it makes me melt inside"

"Well they're everything to me. Avenged Sevenfold started from nothing an we're only famous because of our fans. They're everything to us, especially to me."

I smiled at every word he said.

"I'm gunna miss hearing your voice when you leave" I sighed.

"I'll miss yours too, but I'm just a phone call away" He said optimistically.

"It's not the same" I said, being the pessimist I was.

"I know, but we'll have to make do" Matt kissed the top of my head.

Matt and I walked out into the brisk Boston air and to the nearest T stop. I immediatley knew to take the blue line to the green line to the Northeastern stop.

When we got to the campus Matt proposed the idea of going to my beach house.

"Can you actually go to my house with me?" I asked.

"Of course" He agreed.

"I love you" I smiled.

We made our way to the parking garage where my car was and I drove north from Boston towards Newton. Due to the fact that I was practically terrified to go into this house, the last time I was here when I was supposed to be getting the belongings but I never got them all.

As we pulled into the driveway I felt my heart beginning to race and my hands were shaking slightly. I got out of the car and walked towards the front entrance. Matt was following close behind me. When we got to the door I stood and looked at it. Matt came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waste. Before I had the chance to, he took the opportunity to turn the handle and push the door open. We walked in the familiar entryway I had walked through countless times. Not wanting to waste any time I swiftly walked up the staircase and to my room. I made my way to the nightstand next to my bed and grabbed some books out of it. Out if the corner of my eye I noticed Matt pick up one of my journals.

"How many of these do you have?" Matt half laughed.

"A lot" I replied truthfully.

I walked over to my closet when I noticed Matt flipping through the pages.

"Did you draw these?" He sounded shocked.

I nodded my head.

"Are you serious? They're amazing. You never told me you were an artist!" He walked over to me with the book open to a drawing of the Avenged Sevenfold death bat.

"I'm not an artist, it's just a hobby" I shrugged.

Matt slowly pulled me into a hug as he said, "you're so modest"

I pulled myself away from him so that I was in arms length from him. I looked into his eyes as he leaned forward an kissed my lips, sending shock waves through my body. Feeling his lips against line never got any less magical.

Matt's lips moved across mine as his tongue eventually slid into my mouth and danced around. We stayed like that for sometime. I never wanted the moment to end.

Sadly enough, the moment ended and I gathered my things that I wanted to take back to my dorm.

Matt and I eventually left my house and the drive back didn't take too long.

When we got to the campus Matt observed it by saying, "this is a really nice school"

"Yeah it's where my parents always wanted me to go" I told him as we walked through the park area in the middle of the college.

"I never went to college" Matt sighed, "I kind of wish I had"

"It's never too late" I reassured him,
"You can always go back to school."

"I know" he sighed, "but with the band and all, i don't know"

"I get you"

Matt wrapped his arm around me as we walked up the stairwell the led to my dorm.

Matt and I walked down the barren hallway towards my room.

"So what's your dorm like?" Matt asked.

"It's a dorm" I said sarcastically.

"Really?" Matt retorted.

I just shook my head at his comment. As we got to the door I heard 2 voices one of which was a mans which sounded vaguely familiar. All I could think though was how much I disliked Josie. I rested my hand on te door knob, somewhat hesitant to go in but I turned it anyways and pushed te door open. As I peered into the room I saw him and my heart stopped beating. My palms got sweaty. Vertigo kicked in and I felt like I was in a dream. All in one swift move I slammed the door closed and threw myself against the opposite wall. I burried my face into my hands, squeezing my eyes tightly trying to pretend that what i just saw wasn’t real. I closed them as if that would help me escape from here.

“Morgan?” Matt said as he rested a hand on my shoulder.

Although I knew I would regret it, I forced myself to open the door again. I slowly opened the door, and saw the face again. Same as before, I threw myself to the wall and buried my face into my hands.

"Morgan, what happened?" Matt asked worriedly.

I just shook my head vigorously with tears pouring down my eyes as I looked him in the eyes.

Notes

wow. i’m sorry for the wait. school is so busy for me right now, and I’m on a gymnastics team so i have practices a lot but I’m still going to update even though it may be weeks in between updates, don’t worry. :)
feedback is wanted! :)