I was released from the hospital about four days after, Brian and Cassandra moved the nursery to a different room and painted it blue and purple, it was so cute. I was sitting in the living room with McKenna, Misty, Cassandra and the rest of the group. Jimmy was playing Call of Duty with Matt and Jimmy was kicking his ass, well we all knew Matt was letting him.
“Brice can I hold one?” Mckenna asked shyly
“Which on would you like?” I asked
“Whichever on is easier.” She said
I smiled and handed her Zayleigh.
“Which one is this?” She asked
“Zayleigh, she has the brown eyes and the one with blue eyes is Blaze.” I said
She smiled
“I hope those blue eyes fade to look like Zack’s because then she’d be kickass.” She said
“Right.” I smiled.
“Boom Boom you’re dead fool!” Jimmy yelled
“Matt let me play him.” Brian said
I laughed and sneezed and then looked at Cassandra.
“You just peed a little didn’t you?” She asked
“Ya huh.” I said getting up and walking into the bathroom.
I peed and changed my pad.
“It’s so not fair, I love my kids but every time I laugh or sneeze I freaking pee a little.” I whined coming out of the bathroom.
“Shit happens.” Brian said
“Yeah Mama shit happens.” Jimmy repeated.
The whole room got silent and everyone way looking at me.
“What?” I asked starting to laugh.
“Why are you laughing?” Zacky asked
“He’s going to be just like Jimmy Zack, just like him.” I said
Jimmy laughed manically and ran up to his room.
“That’s what I call a carbon copy.” Brian said
I smiled trying to hide the pain of missing Jimmy Senior.
“Come on a walk with me?” Brian asked I nodded.
“How are you holding up kid?” He asked
“What do you mean?” I asked
“Three kids at twenty-two married to a twenty-seven year old?” He asked
“I love them all, age is just a number.” I smiled
“What happens when he dies first?” He laughed
I laughed. “We all know that it’s more probable that I’m going to die first.” I said
He smirked in agreement,
“I miss him though.” I said
“Jimmy?” He asked
“Yeah, it’s so hard not to think about him living with a carbon copy of the man. I mean Jimmy Junior is only four but he’s almost five and speaks like Jimmy, acts like Jimmy, and looks just like him.” I said stopping in the middle of the street.
“As I said carbon copy sweetie.” He said
I nodded and he pulled me into a hug.
“Let’s go home before your husband becomes too overwhelmed with those kids.” He said smiling
“When do you plan on having your next one?” I asked on the way back
“Never.” He smiled
“Sure.” I said
We walked back and everyone that didn’t live there besides Cassandra had left. Zayleigh was sound asleep in McKenna’s arms and she was dozing off as well. I walked over and picked Zayleigh up and looked at Misty.
“Can you take her to bed?” I asked
She nodded and woke McKenna up just enough that she could help her limp to her room. She was so close to being able to walk again. Zacky got up and took Zayleigh from me and balanced the twins in both arms like pro.
“I’ll see you upstairs.” He said
I nodded.
“We’ll see you later.” Cassandra said
I nodded and kissed Alice’s forehead.
“I love this little girl.” I said
“And when she’s older she’ll have other girls to play with. We really thought you were going to have boys.” Cassandra smiled
“Well that would be interesting, considering we aren’t family, they could date.” I smiled
“No daughter of mine will date any kid of Bakers or anyone else in this band. Jimmy counts.” Brian laughed.
“I’ll see you guys later, I’m going to try and get some sleep while I can.” I yawned “Bye girly.” Cassandra said
I hugged her and Brian and locked the front door behind them. I watched from the window until they were out of the driveway. I trudged up the stairs and laid down next to Zacky.
“Are you going to sleep in your jeans?” He asked
I shook my head and kicked off my shoes and ripped my jeans down. I kicked them to the floor and pulled the hair tie out of the back of the shirt I was wearing.
“Is that my t-shirt?” He asked I nodded.
“It’s my night gown tonight.” I smiled
I wiggled under the blanket and he wrapped his arms around my waist.
“I love you.” He said
“I love you too baby.” I said
I nodded off and eventually fell asleep.
“He’s beginning to look just like me.” I heard someone whisper
I looked around and Jimmy was standing there, we were in the cemetery.
“He really is, I mean he talks like you.” I said
“I wish I was there to take care of him with you Brice.” He said
I felt tears prickle down my eyes.
“I miss you Jimmy.” I said
“I know you do baby.” He said
The babies started crying and it drew me out of my dream. I got up and slipped on my black fuzzy slippers that Jimmy Junior and Brian brought me. I scuffed into the nursery and cooed Blaze back to sleep before she woke Zayleigh up. I walked back into Zacky’s and my room and it was empty. Where was Zacky. I walked back into the hall and quietly checked Jimmy’s room, still no Zacky. I walked down into the kitchen and he wasn’t there either, I searched the entire house and he was gone. What the fuck. I looked at the key rack and my car keys were the only ones there, I huffed and walked back to my room. I grabbed my phone and called him. “Shush, come one be quiet. Shut the fuck up.” Zack said
“Why?” I heard a girl voice
“It’s Brice.” He said
“Oh.” She said
It was silent.
“Hey baby.” He said
I was too pissed and I hung up. Was he cheating on me? Who was she? Where was he? These questions swam around in my head.