Seize The Day
Matter Of Time
JOHNNY’S POV:
A few days have passed and neither of us has heard from Shannon or the guys. We’ve barely said anything to each other since we found out they left. I wasn’t complaining about that and neither was he. I sat out back by the pool with a pen and paper. I had a lot going through my mind and I needed to get it out somehow. What I wrote turned out to be part of a song.
Zacky came out and sat next to me in one of the chairs.
“Hey man.” He said, handing me a beer.
“Hey.”
“What are you writing?.” He asked.
“Lyrics.”
“Mind if I take a look?” He asked. I handed him the pad of paper and popped open my beer.
I didn’t feel like acting nice but, If I wanted to settle things with Shannon then I had to make amends.
“These lyrics are good man. You should show them to the rest of the guys. They might like them enough to put on the new record.”
“Naa, it’s just nonsense. There not even done or anything.” I told him.
“Maybe they’ll be able to add something. Wouldn’t hurt to try.”
“Yeah…”
“Look man… I think we need to talk about everything.”
“I have nothing to say to you Zack.”
“You might not, but I sure the hell have a lot to say.”
“Go for it then.”
He sat back in his chair, propping one of his legs up on the other.
“I think this whole thing is out of our hands now man. It’s not our choice who she ends up with at this point.” He told me.
“Well if you didn’t step in everything would be just fine. But you couldn’t handle the fact that I was with her.”
“You know what? You’re right. YOU’RE RIGHT ok? I wanted her; I want to be with her. I have for a while now. When she was in New York she would call me every god damn night just to talk. She would tell me how unhappy she was there and how she wanted to leave her ex but was scared to. Who the fuck do you think convinced her to come here? Huh? It was me Johnny.”
“Man… none of that matters. So what you were the one who convinced her to move back here. I was the one who asked her to be with me. I was the one who wanted to be with her since we were fuckin’ teenagers. I WAS THE ONE WHO HAD HER AND YOU FUCKIN RUINED IT!”
“I’m not here to argue with you alright. Do you care that she wants to fuckin’ go back to New York because of us? Do you want her to stay or not?” Zacky asked me.
“Of course I do.” I told him.
“Then I think we need to show her that. You can continue hating me or whatever just don’t show it around her. It will only push her away more and want her to leave.”
“Then you know what you need to do Zack? You need to back off and leave her alone already.” I told him and grabbed the pad of paper back from him as I got up and headed for the house.
I made my way to my room and grabbed my cell phone, dialing Shannon’s number. Of course she didn’t answer but instead it went right to voice mail.
“Hey hun, it’s Johnny again. I was hoping to talk to you. I love you and I miss you like crazy babe. Call me when you get this.”
I hung up the phone and lied down on my bed and ended up falling asleep. I haven’t been able to sleep much since they left. I would end up staying up and over thinking and I was beyond exhausted at this point.
SHANNON’S POV:
I just got back from a walk with Jimmy and headed to my room. I noticed my cell blinking and there was a voicemail… I figured it was Johnny. Letting it get the best of me I picked up the phone and dialed his number. He didn’t answer so I hung up the phone.
I got ready for bed, putting on Johnny’s shirt again then lying down when I was done. I did want to talk to Johnny… to see how he was. I debated on rather or not I wanted to try calling him again. I eventually gave in though and dialed his number again. After a few rings he picked up.
“Hello?” He said through a sleepy voice.
“Johnny..”
“Hey. I’m glad that you called.”
“Were you sleeping?” I asked.
“Yeah, but that’s ok. I’m still glad you called.”
“What have you been up to? Are you guys getting along?”
“Yeah… for the most part. When are you guys coming home?”
“Maybe tomorrow. I don’t know yet… Do you miss me?” I asked with a smile, turning over in my bed.
“That’s a crazy question.” He told me.
“I just want to hear you say it.”
“I do, a lot. I want you home already. I want you hear with me right now.”
“You’re not mad at me for what happened?” I asked.
“About you kissing Zacky? Well, I’m hurt by it yeah… but I don’t want to lose you over it.”
“I don’t know what to do Johnny.”
“Do you have feelings for him?”
“I do. I don’t want to hurt either of you though.”
There was a silence on the other end.
“Johnny… baby please say something.”
“You know how much I love you, and how much I want to be with you. I’ve already showed you all of that. You’re the one who has to choose now.”
“Matt said I should spend some one on one time with each of you… to see who my feelings are stronger for.”
“Well, that’s one way of doing it. Or, you can just forget about Zack and just be with me again.” He told me with a hint of a laugh. “Look babe, for everything that I’ve done, I’m sorry. If this is a way to teach me a lesson, well lesson learned.”
“I know you are sorry babe. I’m just… I’m being torn in two different directions. My heart wants one thing, but my mind is telling me something else.”
“What is your heart telling you? Following your heart is better than listening to what your brain is trying to tell you.”
“I know it is. I’m just scared to death of the outcome of it all.” I told him with a sigh.
“Baby, if you have to just do what Matt said to do ok. I can’t make you choose me. I’ve waited long enough to be with you, I think I can wait longer.” He told me and yawned a bit.
“I love you Johnny.”
“I know you do. And you already know I love you.”
“I know it. If it helps any, I’m still wearing the ring you gave me. Oh… and I accidently packed one of your shirts, which I’m wearing to bed tonight.”
“I’m glad to hear that you’re still wearing it. Is my shirt all you’re wearing?” He asked with a laugh.
“Mmmm… maybe.” I said and laughed too.
“I’ll just picture you wearing nothing then.”
“You’re so bad.” I told him with a laugh.
“Shhh, I’m trying to picture this!”
He got quiet on the other end of the phone. I tried my hardest not to laugh at him but that didn’t work.
“Stop trying to picture me naked already.” I laughed.
“I can’t help it... now I want you.”
“Well here’s what you do… undo your pants, reach inside, grab ahold of it, close your eyes and imagine it’s me giving you a hand job.” I told him in a sexy voice.
“Oh baby, don’t tease me like that. It’s not helping the matter any.”
“What? You don’t like to be teased?”
“I do! But only if you’re going to be here to do something about it afterwards.”
“Sorry babe… I’m about 4 ½ hours away so I wouldn’t be able to help you out in that department tonight.”
“That’s ok, I can do it to the sound of your voice.” He told me with a bit of a laugh.
“Oh my god, don’t you dare.” I laughed.
“Why not? It will be like phone sex.”
“Babe, there’s a difference between having phone sex and me talking to you while you jerk off.” I told him with a laugh.
“Well then here’s what you do, close your eyes and imagine that I’m there with you. Imagine my hands all over you. Me kissing all the spots you love to be kissed, those places that drive you off the edge. “
“DON’T do that!”
“Do what? You don’t want to hear about me sucking on your nipples as I slide my fingers inside your wet…”
“Baby” I said, cutting him off and rolling over onto my stomach, burying my face in my pillow.
I heard him laugh on the other end.
“It’s not funny, stop laughing.”
“Oh but its ok for you to do it to me?”
“Yep, it’s perfectly fine.” I told him with a laugh. “I’m tired babe. I’m gonna let you go.”
“I’ll see you tomorrow?” He asked.
“Yeah… I’ll see you tomorrow sometime.”
“Alright. You have a good night.”
“You too Johnny. I love you!”
“I love you too babe. Bye.”
I hung up the phone and set it on the table next to me. I did miss Johnny… a lot actually, and that phone call made me realize that. I debated on calling Zacky also but decided against it... I missed him too! I’ll just have to wait to get home tomorrow to and spend some time with each of them to see how things were going to go. It was just a matter of time till I figured it all out.
A few days have passed and neither of us has heard from Shannon or the guys. We’ve barely said anything to each other since we found out they left. I wasn’t complaining about that and neither was he. I sat out back by the pool with a pen and paper. I had a lot going through my mind and I needed to get it out somehow. What I wrote turned out to be part of a song.
Zacky came out and sat next to me in one of the chairs.
“Hey man.” He said, handing me a beer.
“Hey.”
“What are you writing?.” He asked.
“Lyrics.”
“Mind if I take a look?” He asked. I handed him the pad of paper and popped open my beer.
I didn’t feel like acting nice but, If I wanted to settle things with Shannon then I had to make amends.
“These lyrics are good man. You should show them to the rest of the guys. They might like them enough to put on the new record.”
“Naa, it’s just nonsense. There not even done or anything.” I told him.
“Maybe they’ll be able to add something. Wouldn’t hurt to try.”
“Yeah…”
“Look man… I think we need to talk about everything.”
“I have nothing to say to you Zack.”
“You might not, but I sure the hell have a lot to say.”
“Go for it then.”
He sat back in his chair, propping one of his legs up on the other.
“I think this whole thing is out of our hands now man. It’s not our choice who she ends up with at this point.” He told me.
“Well if you didn’t step in everything would be just fine. But you couldn’t handle the fact that I was with her.”
“You know what? You’re right. YOU’RE RIGHT ok? I wanted her; I want to be with her. I have for a while now. When she was in New York she would call me every god damn night just to talk. She would tell me how unhappy she was there and how she wanted to leave her ex but was scared to. Who the fuck do you think convinced her to come here? Huh? It was me Johnny.”
“Man… none of that matters. So what you were the one who convinced her to move back here. I was the one who asked her to be with me. I was the one who wanted to be with her since we were fuckin’ teenagers. I WAS THE ONE WHO HAD HER AND YOU FUCKIN RUINED IT!”
“I’m not here to argue with you alright. Do you care that she wants to fuckin’ go back to New York because of us? Do you want her to stay or not?” Zacky asked me.
“Of course I do.” I told him.
“Then I think we need to show her that. You can continue hating me or whatever just don’t show it around her. It will only push her away more and want her to leave.”
“Then you know what you need to do Zack? You need to back off and leave her alone already.” I told him and grabbed the pad of paper back from him as I got up and headed for the house.
I made my way to my room and grabbed my cell phone, dialing Shannon’s number. Of course she didn’t answer but instead it went right to voice mail.
“Hey hun, it’s Johnny again. I was hoping to talk to you. I love you and I miss you like crazy babe. Call me when you get this.”
I hung up the phone and lied down on my bed and ended up falling asleep. I haven’t been able to sleep much since they left. I would end up staying up and over thinking and I was beyond exhausted at this point.
SHANNON’S POV:
I just got back from a walk with Jimmy and headed to my room. I noticed my cell blinking and there was a voicemail… I figured it was Johnny. Letting it get the best of me I picked up the phone and dialed his number. He didn’t answer so I hung up the phone.
I got ready for bed, putting on Johnny’s shirt again then lying down when I was done. I did want to talk to Johnny… to see how he was. I debated on rather or not I wanted to try calling him again. I eventually gave in though and dialed his number again. After a few rings he picked up.
“Hello?” He said through a sleepy voice.
“Johnny..”
“Hey. I’m glad that you called.”
“Were you sleeping?” I asked.
“Yeah, but that’s ok. I’m still glad you called.”
“What have you been up to? Are you guys getting along?”
“Yeah… for the most part. When are you guys coming home?”
“Maybe tomorrow. I don’t know yet… Do you miss me?” I asked with a smile, turning over in my bed.
“That’s a crazy question.” He told me.
“I just want to hear you say it.”
“I do, a lot. I want you home already. I want you hear with me right now.”
“You’re not mad at me for what happened?” I asked.
“About you kissing Zacky? Well, I’m hurt by it yeah… but I don’t want to lose you over it.”
“I don’t know what to do Johnny.”
“Do you have feelings for him?”
“I do. I don’t want to hurt either of you though.”
There was a silence on the other end.
“Johnny… baby please say something.”
“You know how much I love you, and how much I want to be with you. I’ve already showed you all of that. You’re the one who has to choose now.”
“Matt said I should spend some one on one time with each of you… to see who my feelings are stronger for.”
“Well, that’s one way of doing it. Or, you can just forget about Zack and just be with me again.” He told me with a hint of a laugh. “Look babe, for everything that I’ve done, I’m sorry. If this is a way to teach me a lesson, well lesson learned.”
“I know you are sorry babe. I’m just… I’m being torn in two different directions. My heart wants one thing, but my mind is telling me something else.”
“What is your heart telling you? Following your heart is better than listening to what your brain is trying to tell you.”
“I know it is. I’m just scared to death of the outcome of it all.” I told him with a sigh.
“Baby, if you have to just do what Matt said to do ok. I can’t make you choose me. I’ve waited long enough to be with you, I think I can wait longer.” He told me and yawned a bit.
“I love you Johnny.”
“I know you do. And you already know I love you.”
“I know it. If it helps any, I’m still wearing the ring you gave me. Oh… and I accidently packed one of your shirts, which I’m wearing to bed tonight.”
“I’m glad to hear that you’re still wearing it. Is my shirt all you’re wearing?” He asked with a laugh.
“Mmmm… maybe.” I said and laughed too.
“I’ll just picture you wearing nothing then.”
“You’re so bad.” I told him with a laugh.
“Shhh, I’m trying to picture this!”
He got quiet on the other end of the phone. I tried my hardest not to laugh at him but that didn’t work.
“Stop trying to picture me naked already.” I laughed.
“I can’t help it... now I want you.”
“Well here’s what you do… undo your pants, reach inside, grab ahold of it, close your eyes and imagine it’s me giving you a hand job.” I told him in a sexy voice.
“Oh baby, don’t tease me like that. It’s not helping the matter any.”
“What? You don’t like to be teased?”
“I do! But only if you’re going to be here to do something about it afterwards.”
“Sorry babe… I’m about 4 ½ hours away so I wouldn’t be able to help you out in that department tonight.”
“That’s ok, I can do it to the sound of your voice.” He told me with a bit of a laugh.
“Oh my god, don’t you dare.” I laughed.
“Why not? It will be like phone sex.”
“Babe, there’s a difference between having phone sex and me talking to you while you jerk off.” I told him with a laugh.
“Well then here’s what you do, close your eyes and imagine that I’m there with you. Imagine my hands all over you. Me kissing all the spots you love to be kissed, those places that drive you off the edge. “
“DON’T do that!”
“Do what? You don’t want to hear about me sucking on your nipples as I slide my fingers inside your wet…”
“Baby” I said, cutting him off and rolling over onto my stomach, burying my face in my pillow.
I heard him laugh on the other end.
“It’s not funny, stop laughing.”
“Oh but its ok for you to do it to me?”
“Yep, it’s perfectly fine.” I told him with a laugh. “I’m tired babe. I’m gonna let you go.”
“I’ll see you tomorrow?” He asked.
“Yeah… I’ll see you tomorrow sometime.”
“Alright. You have a good night.”
“You too Johnny. I love you!”
“I love you too babe. Bye.”
I hung up the phone and set it on the table next to me. I did miss Johnny… a lot actually, and that phone call made me realize that. I debated on calling Zacky also but decided against it... I missed him too! I’ll just have to wait to get home tomorrow to and spend some time with each of them to see how things were going to go. It was just a matter of time till I figured it all out.
