SHANNON’S POV:

We didn’t rush to go home the next day. I wanted to see the guys, but wasn’t ready to face it all yet. We spent the day at the house just relaxing and talking before piling in the car and picking up some Chinese for dinner.

“You sure you want to go back now?” Brian asked as he looked through the mirror at me. “I can always circle around and head back to the beach house.”

“I’m sure.” I said with a sigh. “I’ve gotta face this sometime.”

“Alright. Well, when we do get back there and you feel like you need to leave again just tell one of us and we will get you out of there.” Brian told me.

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We got back home around 6pm. Neither of the guys were in the living room or kitchen, which is odd.

“HONEY, WE’RE HOME!” Jimmy yelled out. But still there was no answer.

“I wonder where they are.” I said and headed for the back door.

Zacky was out back sitting by the pool, smoking and drinking a beer, but no Johnny. I headed towards the bedrooms and lightly knocked on his door. When no one answered I slowly opened the door and peaked my head inside.

“Johnny… you in here?” I asked.

He was lying in bed, sleeping. Smiling to myself, I walked over to his bed and crawled up to him.

“Baby, wake up.” I whispered in his ear.

He stirred a little and turned on his back.

“Johnny…” I whispered again and ran my hand up his shirt. “Wake up.”

His lips pulled into a smile but his eyes never opened.

“Fine, I’ll just have to leave again.” I said as I started to get up.

“Get back here.” He said and wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me back to him. I laughed and nuzzled into his neck.

“Don’t go back to sleep, we brought dinner home.”

“I’d rather stay here with you.” He told me as he rubbed my back.

“Nope, come on you need to eat.” I said and went to get up again.

He sat up and brought me back to him, pulling me on his lap.

“Just stay here for a while.” He told me, putting his hands on my sides.

He put his forehead against my shoulder as I sat on his lap. He was quiet for a while, I began to think he fell asleep again but it was his hands rubbing my sides that let me know he was awake still.

“What’s wrong babe?” I asked and wrapped my arms around him.

He just shook his head and didn’t answer.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah… I’m just tired. I haven’t slept much since you left.”

“You’ll sleep better tonight, I promise.” I told him and kissed the side of his head. “Why don’t you come eat something then you can lye back down.”

“I’m not really hungry right now. I’ll eat something later. I really just want to sleep. You go eat though hun.”

“I’ll come back once I’m done ok?”

He shook his head as I stood up. Once he laid back down I reached over and gave him a kiss. I headed to the kitchen where the guys were sitting and talking. When I entered Zacky looked up at me and smiled.

“Hey good looking.” He said to me and pulled out the chair next to him.

“Hey you.” I said with a smile and sat down.

“Where’s Johnny?” Matt asked.

“He’s in his room. He says he tired, but there’s something else up. I don’t think he feels good or something. He said he hasn’t slept much since we left, he just looks drained.” I told him.

“I know he was basically up all night every night, then he’d go to sleep for like 2 hours.” Zacky told me.

“Did you guys fight at all when we were gone?” Jimmy asked him.

“Nothing major, just bickering back and forth.”

“I feel bad! If I didn’t leave then he wouldn’t be like this now.” I told them.

“Don’t blame yourself small fry. You needed to get away from the bullshit.” Matt said through a mouth full of food.

“It’s my fault actually.” Zacky said, setting him fork down and leaning back in his chair. “I should have just left you alone like he said.”

“Don’t say that Zacky, it’ not your fault!” I told him and rubbed his arm.

“He’ll be fine, don’t worry about him.” Brian told me

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We finished eating and cleaned up afterwards. I hopped in the shower and did the same old routine. I would have taken my time but I wanted to check on Johnny to see if he was ok.
Stepping out of the shower I wrapped a towel around my waist and quickly towel dried my hair. I made my way down the short hall to Johnny’s room and quietly opened his door. He was sitting up in bed, holding his head.

“You ok babe?” I asked as I shut the door behind me.

“Yeah, I’m good.” He said and looked up at me. “A towel huh?”

“I just got out of the shower.” I told him.

“Ahhh, you should have told me. I would have joined you.” He said and pulled me over to him, unwrapping the towel and placing his hands on my sides.

“I didn’t want to wake you up babe.”

“I wouldn’t of cared!”

He began to lightly kiss my stomach and made his way up to my lips as he stood up. He gently laid me back on the bed and kicked off his boxers.

“I want you so bad.” He told me as he broke the kiss.

“Just how bad?” I asked.

“So fucking bad.” He said and slipped his hand between my legs.

“Oh yeah?” I asked, biting down on my bottom lip as he entered his fingers inside of me.

“Mmhmm. I want to fuck you right now.”

I closed my eyes and leaned my head back as he began to kiss me neck, moving his fingers. My heart was pounding a million miles an hour. His touch always made my heart race like this; it’s one of the reasons that drew me to him in the first place.

“Do you want me inside of you?” He whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine.

“I do baby.” I said as I tangled my fingers through his hair, bringing his lips up to mine.

“I want you to turn over for me alright?”

I let go of him and turned over on my hands and knees, he brought my hips up to meet him and entered me. Leaning my arms in front of me, I rested my head against my arms as he began to thrust. I closed my eyes and let the feeling of him take over me. With every thrust that he made my breathing got heavier and heavier.

His grip on me got tighter as I pulled myself up and leaned against him as he thrust, he snaked an arm around me and held me closer to him as he continued. I felt his breath against my skin, making my body weak. Just his touch alone was enough to send me over the edge.
“You feel so good.” He whispered in my ear.

I reached my hand back, tangling my fingers though his hair, bringing his lips to my bare skin of my shoulder. He gently bit down on the skin, making me moan a bit. He laughed at my action and continued to nibble at various spots between my shoulder and neck.

Johnny stopped moving and just held me against him, moving one of his hands down the front of me, finding its way to my swollen clit. I gasped as he teased it with his fingers. His free hand made its way to my breast, kneading it in his hand.

My breathing got even heavier. He continued his actions and began to slowly move again, pulling out slowly and re-entering at the same slow, painful yet pleasuring pace. I leaned my head back against his shoulder as I felt my climax rising. Johnny’s movements slowed as his climax hit as well.

“J-JOHNNY.” I moaned as my climax hit hard.

“That’s it baby… cum for me.”

I held back from screaming out in pleasure for one reason and one reason only, the bedroom door was unlocked and if I were to scream then the guys would come running in to see what was wrong. I’m sure they didn’t want to see their best friends having sex.

I basically collapsed on the bed, trying to slow my breathing. Johnny laid next to me, kissing my shoulder a few times and moving some stray hairs from my face.

“You good?” He asked.

“I’m great!” I told him with a small laugh.

We laid there for a while not saying anything at all. That was one thing I loved about Johnny, not every moment had to be filled with talking. I laced my fingers with his and layed my head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat and the rhythm of his breathing. It was enough to put me to sleep, but I fought against that.

“What are you thinking about?” I asked him in almost a whisper.

“I don’t know… my mind is foggy. There’s so many things going on in there that I can’t get it straight.” He told me and rubbed his eyes with his free hand.

“Is it anything bad?” I asked.

“I don’t know, maybe some of it… but not all.”

“Oh… you feeling any better?” I asked and looked up at him.

“Still feeling pretty shitty… and hungry. Sex with you makes my energy drain, I need to refuel… and shower”

I laughed at him a bit and sat up, stretching a bit. I turned to him and ran my hand down him stomach, looking at him as he stretched as well.

“Why don’t you hop in the shower and I’ll heat up your Chinese we brought home.” I told him.

“Alright, that sounds good.”

“Can I borrow one of your shirts?” I asked as I stood up and put my hair up into a messy bun.

“Borrow anything you want babe.” He told me as he stood up and threw a pair of boxers on.

I rummaged through his closet and picked out a shirt and put it on along with my panties. Johnny went and hopped in the shower while I went in the kitchen and heated up his food. While it was heating up I went and sat in the living room with the guys.

“Where the hell have you been small fry?” Matt asked as he ruffled my hair.

“With Johnny, making sure he was ok.” I said punching his arm.

“Did you forget to put the rest of your clothes on after you made sure he was ok?” Brian asked with a laugh.

“Fuck you Bri.” I said and flipped him off.

“Yeah, fuck you Bri. Don’t complain about her lack of clothes, she looks gorgeous.” Zacky said and winked at me.

I started blushing a bit and covered my face.

“You don’t have to blush sweetheart, I’m only speaking the truth.” Zacky told me.

“Thank you hun.” I told him.

“Anytime!”

“Stop flirting, you’re making me sick.” Jimmy stated.

I laughed as I stood up and made my way back to the kitchen. Zacky followed behind me.

“So…” Zacky started as he leaned up against the counter. “How was your time at the beach house?”

“It was great actually. I wish I were there now, walking on the beach or having a drink on the deck at the house.”

“Maybe we could go there sometime.” He said and licked his lips.

I smiled and took Johnny’s food out of the microwave.

“Do I make you nervous?” He asked with a smirk.

“I wouldn’t say nervous.” I told him, walking over to the table and settling the plate down.

“What would you call it then?”

“More like… scared in a way.” I told him, sitting down in a chair.

“Scared? You’re scared of me?” He asked confused.

“No… not of you. Just of the feelings I have towards you.”

“What are those feelings?”

I paused… looking down at my hands and thinking how I should word everything.

“I mean… I do have feelings for you, you already know that. I’m just scared to lose you. That’s why I’m fighting against it.”

“You will never lose me babe. I’m not going anywhere, even if you want me to.”

He walked over to the table and stood behind me, wrapping his arms around my midsection and placing his chin against my shoulder.

“Don’t ever be scared of your feelings. And if I ever make you feel uncomfortable, just tell me and I’ll back off.”

I nodded my head and placed my hands on top of his.

“You don’t ever have to be scared of anything.” He told me and placed a light kiss on my neck.

I closed my eyes as he did it and I could feel the butterflies forming in my stomach.

“I know.” I said and took a deep breath.

I opened my eyes as he let me go and took a seat next to me. Johnny walked in then… good timing I guess because if he were to see Zacky touching me who knows what would have happened.

Johnny just looked at Zacky and didn’t say a word to him. He took a seat next to me and leaned over to give me a kiss and began to eat his dinner.

“Soo… guys… umm…” I didn’t really know what to say. This was so awkward right now.

“What’s up babe?” Johnny asked.

“Ummm… what did you guys do when I was gone?” Really? That was the best I could come up with?

“There wasn’t much to do really. You took our keys remember?” Zacky asked with a laugh.

“I know. What did you guys do here though?” I asked.

“Sat around. Ignored eachother. I wrote a lot.” Johnny told me.

“I wanna read it.” I told him with a smile.

He smiled as he looked at me, shaking his head no.

“Awww, why not?” I asked.

“It’s not done yet.” He continued to smile.

“Is it for a song?” I asked

“Maybe… maybe not.”

“I read it, it’s pretty good.” Zacky told me.

“That’s not fair… let me read it.” I looked at Johnny and smiled.

He shook his head again and smiled so I stuck my lip out in a pouting way.

“I’ll just have to go and find it.” I told him starting to get up.

“I don’t think so.” He said with a laugh and pulled me back down.

“Oh fine. I won’t then.” I said.

“Good. Now stay there.” He said pointing at me with a smirk.

I waited a few minutes till he started to eat again then quickly got up and ran past the guy in the living room and straight to Johnny’s room.

“Damn it!” Johnny said, pushing himself up from the table and making his way to his room and shutting and locking the door behind him. “Come on babe don’t.”

He sat on the edge of the bed as I looked through some papers.

“I wanna read it though.” I told him and continued.

“No… not now!” He said and grabbed ahold of my hand, pulling me over to him and onto his lap. “You can once it’s done, I promise ok?”

“Why is it such a secret?” I asked.

“It’s not a secret… it just needs to be improved.”

“I don’t believe you!” I told him and pushed him back on the bed and began to get up. But before I could he pulled me on top of him and held me in place.

“Stop, just please don’t.” He told me, bringing his hands up the back o my shirt and raking them down my back.

“MMmm… that’s not fair!” I told him as I shut my eyes.

He smirked and did it again. He knew that I liked it rough like that, the things that turned me on, the things that made me want him.

“You’re not playing fair Mr.Christ.” I told him with a smirk.

“Ohhh, using my stage name now huh?” He asked, tangling his fingers through my hair and pulling at it a bit.

I squeezed my eyes shut and bit down on my bottom lip, holding back a moan.

“Don’t hold it in!” He told me as he gently pulled again, forcing a moan out of me this time.
A small chuckle came from Johnny

“You think that’s so damn funny don’t you?” I asked, giving him an evil look.

“Kind of. Plus it’s damn hot to hear you moan like that.”

“You’re bad!” I told him, leaning down and kissing his lips.

“I’m not bad, I’m just dirty.” He told me, placing his hands on my hips and squeezing a bit.

“I like dirty boys!”

“Oh really?” He asked with a smirk

“Mmmhmm. Those dirty rocker boys, with loads of tattoos.”

“Well damn, I’m out of that category.” He said and laughed.

“Oh shut up.” I told him and kissed him again. You fit right in there.”

“That’s what she said!” He laughed.

I shook my head and covered my face.

“I can’t believe you just did that.”

“Hey, you’re the one who said you fit right in there.” He laughed more.

I shook my head and leaned down and kissed him again.

“So, do you want to fuck again, or do you want to go to sleep?” I asked him.

“Are you really asking me that question?”

“I know I know. You’d rather sleep.” I said and began to get up.

“Oh hell no.” He said, pulling me back down on top of him.

I laughed as he did it and looked down at him. He ran his hands up my shirt and stopped at the top of my panties. I lifted myself up a bit and let him slide them down.

The next half hour was spent messing around. I was so caught up in him that I didn’t care how many times we did it. I loved Johnny and he knew it. I may have strong feelings for Zacky as well, but above all else, Johnny had my heart!