Seize The Day
An Epic Of Time Wasted
JOHNNY’S POV:
I woke in the morning to find a letter taped to my side table. I sat up, rubbing my eyes and grabbed the letter, unfolding it and reading it to myself.
Johnny,
I know if we were to tell you that we were going that you’d find a way to stop us, or even follow us. I went with Matt, Brian and Jimmy to Brian’s parent’s beach house for a few days. I’m alright; I just need some time away from everything, to figure things out and to figure out what I’m going to do from here on out. My cell phone is going to be turned off till we come back, so it won’t work trying to get ahold of me. I want you to remember that I love you no matter what happens ok?
You have got to be fucking kidding me. They just left? Just like that? And to leave me in the house with Zacky? I can’t believe this shit.
I got up out of bed and made my way to the living room. Zacky was sitting on the edge of the couch with his head in his hands.
“Let me guess, you got a letter too?” I asked him.
“Yeah, I did.”
I went over and grabbed the letter that was sitting next to him on the couch.
“You don’t want to read that.” Zacky said and tried to grab it from me.
“Like hell I don’t. It’s your fault she’s gone in the first place.” I told him.
I began to read the letter.
Zacky,
I don’t even know where to begin. Last night when you kissed me, it made me realize many things. 1.) I care about you, so so much. 2.) How you make me feel. And finally 3.) It brought out my feeling for you. I don’t know what I’m going to do at this point. I am confused beyond words. My heart is being torn in two different directions and I don’t want to end up hurting either of you. I’ve gone with Jimmy, Brian and Matt to Brian’s parent’s beach house for a few days. I’m alright; I just need some time away from everything, to figure things out and to figure out what I’m going to do from here on out. I do love you Zacky, so don’t forget that but It may end up being just as friends.
“I can’t fuckin believe you Zacky. Why the hell would you kiss her? Can’t you get it through your fuckin’ head that I’m with her? Not you.” I told him, crumbling the paper and throwing it on the couch next to him.
“Correction… was with you.” He told me.
“Fuck you Zack.”
I went to the door to grab my keys but they weren’t hanging on the hook in their usual spot.
“Where the fuck are my keys?” I asked.
“I don’t know. Mine are gone too.”
“FUCK!” I yelled.
Taking my cell phone out of my pocket, I dialed Jimmy’s number. He better fuckin’ answer.
“Come on, come on, come on.” I said getting impatient.
“What do you want short shit?” Jimmy said from the other line.
“Where the fuck are my keys and where are you guys?”
“We’re sitting on the deck at a nice beach house, having breakfast in peace. And your keys are in our car… along with Zacky’s.”
“So we are stuck in this house together? We’re just supposed to sit here and do nothing? That’s a waste. For how long?” I asked.
“Hmmm, about a week maybe. Depending on when the little lady wants to come back.”
“Put her on the phone, I want to talk to her.”
“Sorry, no can do short shit. I’ve been told she doesn’t want to deal with any drama at all. She needs to clear her head and figure things out.” Jimmy said.
“Give me the phone Jim.” Matt said on the other end.
“No, I don’t need to talk to anyone else.” I tried to tell him before he handed the phone over.
“Johnny… It’s Matt. Listen up, you need to stop. Get your head together ok. We took Shannon away because she couldn’t take it any longer. Would you rather have her go back to New York? Or would you rather have her with us, safe, and know that she’s ok?”
“I want her safe! But I want her here with me.” I told him.
“I know. But she’s ok. Give her this time to figure things out. She needs it or we are all going to lose her. And while you two are there alone at the house, you guys need to straighten things out between the two of you as well. She doesn’t want you two to fight anymore.”
“He fuckin’ kissed her Matt.”
“I know he did. I’m not saying he was right by doing it, but to be honest with you, she does have feelings for him too you know. What if she ended up with him and not you? Are you going to continue to hate each other and attack him all the time?”
“I don’t know. That doesn’t really matter right now.” I told him.
“Well yeah, it actually does man. Take time to think about it alright. And do me a favor, don’t go killing each other when you’re there either ok?”
“I’m not going to guarantee anything.”
“You better guarantee it.”
“I told you I’d try. Do me a favor then… tell her I love her ok?”
“I’m not guaranteeing anything.”
“Fuck you man, just do it ok? Please?”
“Fine, I’ll tell her.”
“Thanks.”
“I’ll talk to you later man. Behave.”
“Yeah I’ll try. Bye.”
I hung up the phone and looked over at Zacky.
“We are stuck here for a week, or for however long it will take for her to want to come back. They took our keys so we can’t even go anywhere.” I told him.
“Yeah… I figured.” He said as he got up, making his way to his room.
This was going to be a long week. I didn’t know how this would end. All I know is that I’ve waited for years now to be with her. There’s no way in hell I was going to give up this easily.
I woke in the morning to find a letter taped to my side table. I sat up, rubbing my eyes and grabbed the letter, unfolding it and reading it to myself.
Johnny,
I know if we were to tell you that we were going that you’d find a way to stop us, or even follow us. I went with Matt, Brian and Jimmy to Brian’s parent’s beach house for a few days. I’m alright; I just need some time away from everything, to figure things out and to figure out what I’m going to do from here on out. My cell phone is going to be turned off till we come back, so it won’t work trying to get ahold of me. I want you to remember that I love you no matter what happens ok?
You have got to be fucking kidding me. They just left? Just like that? And to leave me in the house with Zacky? I can’t believe this shit.
I got up out of bed and made my way to the living room. Zacky was sitting on the edge of the couch with his head in his hands.
“Let me guess, you got a letter too?” I asked him.
“Yeah, I did.”
I went over and grabbed the letter that was sitting next to him on the couch.
“You don’t want to read that.” Zacky said and tried to grab it from me.
“Like hell I don’t. It’s your fault she’s gone in the first place.” I told him.
I began to read the letter.
Zacky,
I don’t even know where to begin. Last night when you kissed me, it made me realize many things. 1.) I care about you, so so much. 2.) How you make me feel. And finally 3.) It brought out my feeling for you. I don’t know what I’m going to do at this point. I am confused beyond words. My heart is being torn in two different directions and I don’t want to end up hurting either of you. I’ve gone with Jimmy, Brian and Matt to Brian’s parent’s beach house for a few days. I’m alright; I just need some time away from everything, to figure things out and to figure out what I’m going to do from here on out. I do love you Zacky, so don’t forget that but It may end up being just as friends.
“I can’t fuckin believe you Zacky. Why the hell would you kiss her? Can’t you get it through your fuckin’ head that I’m with her? Not you.” I told him, crumbling the paper and throwing it on the couch next to him.
“Correction… was with you.” He told me.
“Fuck you Zack.”
I went to the door to grab my keys but they weren’t hanging on the hook in their usual spot.
“Where the fuck are my keys?” I asked.
“I don’t know. Mine are gone too.”
“FUCK!” I yelled.
Taking my cell phone out of my pocket, I dialed Jimmy’s number. He better fuckin’ answer.
“Come on, come on, come on.” I said getting impatient.
“What do you want short shit?” Jimmy said from the other line.
“Where the fuck are my keys and where are you guys?”
“We’re sitting on the deck at a nice beach house, having breakfast in peace. And your keys are in our car… along with Zacky’s.”
“So we are stuck in this house together? We’re just supposed to sit here and do nothing? That’s a waste. For how long?” I asked.
“Hmmm, about a week maybe. Depending on when the little lady wants to come back.”
“Put her on the phone, I want to talk to her.”
“Sorry, no can do short shit. I’ve been told she doesn’t want to deal with any drama at all. She needs to clear her head and figure things out.” Jimmy said.
“Give me the phone Jim.” Matt said on the other end.
“No, I don’t need to talk to anyone else.” I tried to tell him before he handed the phone over.
“Johnny… It’s Matt. Listen up, you need to stop. Get your head together ok. We took Shannon away because she couldn’t take it any longer. Would you rather have her go back to New York? Or would you rather have her with us, safe, and know that she’s ok?”
“I want her safe! But I want her here with me.” I told him.
“I know. But she’s ok. Give her this time to figure things out. She needs it or we are all going to lose her. And while you two are there alone at the house, you guys need to straighten things out between the two of you as well. She doesn’t want you two to fight anymore.”
“He fuckin’ kissed her Matt.”
“I know he did. I’m not saying he was right by doing it, but to be honest with you, she does have feelings for him too you know. What if she ended up with him and not you? Are you going to continue to hate each other and attack him all the time?”
“I don’t know. That doesn’t really matter right now.” I told him.
“Well yeah, it actually does man. Take time to think about it alright. And do me a favor, don’t go killing each other when you’re there either ok?”
“I’m not going to guarantee anything.”
“You better guarantee it.”
“I told you I’d try. Do me a favor then… tell her I love her ok?”
“I’m not guaranteeing anything.”
“Fuck you man, just do it ok? Please?”
“Fine, I’ll tell her.”
“Thanks.”
“I’ll talk to you later man. Behave.”
“Yeah I’ll try. Bye.”
I hung up the phone and looked over at Zacky.
“We are stuck here for a week, or for however long it will take for her to want to come back. They took our keys so we can’t even go anywhere.” I told him.
“Yeah… I figured.” He said as he got up, making his way to his room.
This was going to be a long week. I didn’t know how this would end. All I know is that I’ve waited for years now to be with her. There’s no way in hell I was going to give up this easily.
